this stand was the last, the fall of the past
the king is dead! long live the goblin queen!
the final chapter in the goblin trilogy and the end of the bedhead saga. this album is about overcoming adversity starting from within yourself and spanning all the way to the very reaches of people in powerful positions. the goblin queen is a symbol of hope to her people that even comfortability under a broken system is scary to break away from, but to change the ways of old is to allow us all to begin again anew. it took from september of 2022 until now to complete the largest body of bedhead songs compiled to date and these songs survived on the hard drives of multiple failing laptops to finally make its way to your ears. as a statement piece, this is the emo bedhead album of exclusively homecomingqueen beats that was always meant to be. as a step toward a larger journey, this ending to what has come before is only the beginning of a new beautiful life full of possibility. i hope the messages within this work resonate with you, i put everything i had left of the me i was into this. it’s yours now to make of how you will, r.i.p. bedhead 2018-2024 and thank you for everything this journey has brought me <3

written, performed mixed and mastered by bedhead
all songs produced by homecomingqueen and associates where listed
recorded @ the gloss temple in 2022-2023 and the microwave in 2023
art by @worm_sludge on ig

long live goblin queen

written, performed, mixed and mastered by bedhead
produced by benjithemachine
recorded @ goblin haven
art by bedhead
lyrics:
All I wanna do is hold you for one more night
Tell you everything I told you before we had to fight
And I know it isn't right baby Imma make it right
If I learn the dark side I could save your life tonight
And you broke my heart but I’m still alive
I don’t wanna be without you I don’t wanna do the time
I don't think that I could face you at the end of the line
If you wanted I could chase you to the edge of my mind
This is my world now it was written in the sky
You could read between the lines if you really wanna find out
How I got where I am where I’m at now
I don’t wanna go back down to the background
Finally found a way to save you from my nightmares
I could see the future every vision you were right there
We were twin blades doesn’t mean that you fight fair
All I ever wanted was a life up in the arm chair
Don’t tell me you don’t care baby I’m so scared
We’ll split up no pairs lets just not go there
Let’s get away now before it’s too late
Before we end up stuck between the line of love and hate

ALL PLATFORMS

splinter of the mind's eye (+ benjithemachine)

unfounded hate, find me at the bottom of the lake
why do only beautiful souls take
to your grave here's a promise i could make
secret's safe, imma leave it in the bank
worked hard now you get to take a break
i see through you, i can see the fake
a redo with you i could never take
can't fake a need for you, never got to say
look on the bright side, everything's okay
everybody's fine and it's just another day
and you'll wake up every time thinking "oh what a disgrace
i am to everyone in life that i love and push away"
we're one in the same cause my state of mind's
exactly like the ways that you describe when we always type
at night and i don't get to sleep a wink cause i turned out the lights
but you don't give me any chance to think about my dream tonight
i don't have a dream i gave up when i started living life
push your propaganda on me i'm just not the reading type
type but never send, you'll not respond ever again
why would i wanna talk as friends if it's just means up to your ends?
you gotta kick me in my knees if imma buckle to the trends
i used to feel so small and weak and here you're saying it again
i don't know what i should believe the thought police are in my head
so now i gotta get my sleep so i can put these thoughts to bed

written performed mixed and mastered by bedhead
produced by homecomingqueen
recorded @ the gloss temple
art by @worm_sludge on ig

oh what a disgrace i am

hit me up and leave me hanging never respond
i was dying when you met me then i respawned
something's stopping us from getting what we both want
i won't keep you prisoner, don't let your ghost haunt
me in the future, stay in my past
i don't wanna do it to you, i can't take it back
and i said it wasn't you but it's more than that bad
we can't get it back now so don't even ask
i said i wouldn't let it get to me
but then i kinda let it get to me
you said all you want's to rest in peace
and now in my head you're dead to me
i don't let it be, i can't keep it up
i don't wanna say it, but i don't wanna stop
ok maybe i'll stop complaining when i'm standing on the top
all cause i popped off now they wanna flop
when i pop the top off, he might take my top off
gotta get a lot up off my chest taking socks off
running barefoot through the grass to the cobble rocks
mossy stones dirty toes in the parking lot
catgirl with my dogs so we bark a lot
straight hair no curls, it gets dark a lot
eyebrows on fleek at the record shop
spin another and i'll do it til my body drops
(just don't let it get to you
i can tell when it gets to you
can't help but feel like i'm less than you
can't help as much as you asked me to
just stay in the past for me
every time i look back i see
all the ways that you were 
using me, abusing me
but was it really your fault? nah
i don't really blame it all on
someone that won't take the fall, nah
imma always take the fall, yeah
but i don't ever let you go
i can't let you in my life, i can't ever let you know
i can't ever let it up, i won't ever take it slow
no, no, no
baby don't go, leave me in the cold
playing in snow, miss you when i'm old
wish that we could grow, wishing you could grow
i'm already grown, god i feel so old
catgirl with my dogs so we bark a lot
straight hair never curls it gets dark a lot
eyebrows on fleek at the record shop
spin another just for me)

written performed mixed and mastered by bedhead
produced by homecomingqueen
recorded @ the gloss temple
art by @worm_sludge on ig

just don't let it get 2 u

feeling hollow, points up in the nostril
nowhere near my death and i'm already a fossil
you can't let it rest, i can't let it go to my head
shouldn't be depressed, why'd i wish that i was dead?
after everything you said i still thought you're heaven sent
no one's really empty if they know where their soul went
i got nothing in me left to give you, i've been spent
is this really you or just your presence that i sense?
i was skipping food, i can't stomach second best
breakfast of the champ, make a bowl then go to bed
story of the vamp, you can't ever keep a friend cause
blood is always thicker than medicine in the end
twist the top off, take the lockbox
throw it in the drop top, find a mailbox
smash it and you won't stop
such a tragic tale with a spoiled plot, is this really
is this really love if it never really feels right?
i just love the club and the feeling of the strobe light
you like playing dumb, i could read it with no book light
what's the point in admitting to me that now your soul's mine?
stop what you're doing right now, where you are right there 
where you stand, sit down in these musical chairs
we both make our sounds thinking anybody cares but
i'm fully aware no one's ever really there

written performed mixed and mastered by bedhead
produced by homecomingqueen & AT
recorded @ the gloss temple
art by @worm_sludge on ig

no 1's rly emt

i'll keep a light on for you outside
you've got me standing in the rain like almost every night
and i can't trust i'm being safe baby i'm terrified
but it can't blow up in my face if i'm not scared to die, right?
springtime i'll be showered so clean but
at the current moment i'd prefer not to be seen cause
everybody hoped for something i could never be and
i might never even care if it can't die with me
i mean i should hope, why else would you build a legacy up?
i don't know, maybe i just thought it wouldn't mean much
so i'd cope with that fact that i would never be much
now this goes so deep don't think the rope could ever reach us
only hang with witches so i'm always getting free drugs
i feel like that bitch, i gotta go to two or three clubs
with my homie tris, you know she only sip a green cup
i don't ever sip, i gotta keep my super speed up
i gotta, i gotta keep my super speed up
u know she, she, she only sip a green cup
i don't ever sip, i gotta keep my super speed up
now this goes so deep don't think the rope could ever reach us
only hang with witches so i'm always getting free drugs
i feel like that bitch, i gotta go to two or three clubs
i feel like that bitch i gotta, i feel like that bitch i, bitch i gotta

written performed mixed and mastered by bedhead
produced by homecomingqueen & exxiiiyyaaa
recorded @ the microwave
art by @worm_sludge on ig

scared 2 die

uh, lights in my eyes, kinda like how it blinds me
i stand aside til you push from behind me
onto the tracks and it kinda reminds me
of in the past, only held on to bind me
but i'm proud that you could let go, it isn't easy
i'll be hard to find, harder than it was to please me
i just hope you know in the end what it means to me
taking my life in your hands so to speak
new skin, not even new clothes
i took my sweet time to see where that goes
to see without eyes, does anyone know?
to truly be blind you'd have to lose hope
same eyes but need a new nose
i need to eat more so my same thighs grow
i hate to waste time i spend like i'm broke
my friends will be fine, they never gotta know, uh

written performed mixed and mastered by bedhead
produced by homecomingqueen
recorded @ the microwave
art by @worm_sludge on ig

lightsinmyeyes

i miss your toxic talk your texts were constant always on my phone
i can't seem to put you off and you just can't ever leave me alone
and it doesn't hurt my head as much if i just hit it off the dome
but it hit my gut like a sucker punch, i'm never going home
and i guess i miss bedhead even though i'm not dead yet
i miss having a set to rep, i miss the way that the homies met
why can't it ever go back to that, it feels like i'm stuck in the past i guess
i miss acting like a hazmat but i'm as toxic as i've ever been
and i just got good at unmasking that 
so now i don't let anybody else in
the people that love me that asked for that 
are now the ones asking me where i've been
but i can't go out looking like a mess 
and i'm such a mess i just shut myself in
i'm leaving my car on the street for the rats
when driving i think of the crash i'm not in
when sleeping i think of the life that i have 
and i daydream of one that i'll never live
when i'm making a bunch of songs in the lab
that i love i never end up dropping them
and there's not a reason i have for that
except thinking i'm not good enough to exist
as the person that they used to love for that
when i'm gonna force em to watch it switch
watch the way i fall apart, tell me that it's lovely
pick myself up in the art and now you think i'm ugly
i don't wanna play a part i just want you to love me
being an adult's so hard, nobody here to hug me
being here alone i saw you every night
i thought about you lots, i wish i had the light
the forgiveness i lost, the feeling that i'd fly
away from you, the cost i paid for you to try

written performed mixed and mastered by bedhead
produced by homecomingqueen
recorded @ the gloss temple
art by @worm_sludge on ig

always on my phone

my jaw hurts, i can't talk right
and it's so hard just to sleep at night
need to suck it up, need to get a bite
i just lost it all, why i feel alright?
i've been feeling fine
you can't get me off this cloud cause it's number nine
i be walking round my town automatic lights
turning on when i'm around but you won't see me twice, nah
i need surgery but it's hopeless
you're still hurting me and i know you know this
everything is going wrong but no one noticed
you're the only one i'd ever bear my soul with
but you can't handle it, and i can't handle it
took up the mantle lit the candle and dismantled it
i'm in a tandem with a random its so romantic
you only know the me i banned it only took one click
one shot, you just say you're sorry but i know you're really not
i know how you saw me yeah you put me on the spot
yeah you put me on the spot, told me things you should have not
you should keep your mouth shut, imma live my life
i know what i want now i'm not thinking twice
spent too many times trynna get you to be nice
i'm not ever playing nice again you gave me good advice

written performed mixed and mastered by bedhead
produced by homecomingqueen
recorded @ the gloss temple
art by @worm_sludge on ig

my jaw hurts

can't even forgive you won't ever forget you
sorry for the things that i said that upset you
you were never sorry cause your head was such a mess too
least i tried to fix you how i'd never let you
i'm not who you thought but you were right about a lot
hardly an adult but i can't get the clock to stop
maybe imma fail but i can never give it up
when the ship sets sail away from neverland i'm gone
keep me in a box i didn't fit in when it closed
i still couldn't breathe even after you poked the holes
i don't wanna see anymore cause i know
that the only one for me is who is left when i'm alone
but i still see the shape of your cheeks and your haircut
someone every week tries to whisk me off to their spot
sweep me off my feet but i don't feel a thing at all not
cause you can't be beat but cause that's something i would never want
everything we did imma relive til i'm dead
greatest hits and worst cases playing out up in my head
i can't sleep up in my bed it's as perfect as i've said
but the doubts you had me sold on have me chained to my debts
to my debts to my debts, to my debts, to my debts, oh

written performed mixed and mastered by bedhead
produced by homecomingqueen
recorded @ the gloss temple
art by @worm_sludge on ig

4giv 4get

there's a million reasons why you shouldn't trust me
i don't know why imma try to make you love me
in the fall it's my time it'll get ugly
i've gotten sexy, i'm getting slutty
and i don't even gotta walk around in cuffed jeans
can't pretend i'm not about it you can trust me
if it's something i'm about i'll wear it on my sleeve
you can take it up with me but i don't think you wanna speak
nah they can't even speak to me now
see the numbers got em beat now
i could even make a beat now
but i never sold a lease out
i'm at the party imma peace out
i got a sign you're wanting me now
i give a sigh but i don't freak out
we all gotta get our release somehow
how you gonna try so hard to keep me pinned down
i thought you were good at bartering the deal went sour
i'll be with my new favorite person in an hour
kinda like your soul but it's your heart that i devoured
yeah i blacked out but i didn't lose power
i just act out cause they never won't allow her
pull me by my hair you can meet me at the tower
make the first move i could never i'm a coward

written performed mixed and mastered by bedhead
produced by homecomingqueen
recorded @ the gloss temple
art by @worm_sludge on ig

meet me @ the tower

on my own terms
living slow burn
really it don't hurt
i can tell you that it's worth it now
with the confidence that i just found
but am i allowed
to say something mean
i might make you cry
and i know it might seem
like for all of this time
there was no honesty
i'd tell you the truth 
but you like lies you believe
can you believe in me 
when i say who i am
you don't believe in anything 
and i just can't understand
i really love everything 
you hate the world in your hands
i hid the world from your plans
i had to pay your demands
seven hundred fifty i don't have
i probably gave you double that
said you didn't wanna be selfish still
but i wanted a spoiled brat
every single time you came my way
you left same day and doubled back
and i know that you wanna be friends
but i keep my friends close and we're so much more than that
i got so much more than money i got honeys coming over
i got something in my system cause it's so hard to be sober
but it's over, oh thank god its over
i'll live without the closure
oh thank god its over, i'll live

written performed mixed and mastered by bedhead
produced by homecomingqueen
recorded @ the gloss temple
art by @worm_sludge on ig

lies u believe

the king is dead
the bloods been bled
lay down to rest
the dirt will spread
this stand was the last
the fall of the past
they’ve broken the glass
and rode home so fast
so that’s why you’re so sad?
you’d forgotten what you had
til you can’t bring it back
and to take that away feels bad
but just look what we’ve got back
all our freedoms that we’ve lacked
the questions left asked
needed answers at least we got that

written performed mixed and mastered by bedhead
produced by homecomingqueen
recorded @ the gloss temple
art by @worm_sludge on ig

oh what a disgrace i am

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