only stumbled across you tonight but damn there’s something about the way you can ride a beat 🥵 killin it man!

lyrics ⬇️ 

every thing you told me was a lie
you can’t even look me in my eyes no more
once everything I wanted but now I been floor
i been dying from the torch 
i been flying thru the door

miss what we had
everything was perfect 
every night we would laugh
I don’t wanna burn it
cuz I’m honestly attached
god gave me a purpose
and you stabbed me in the back
why’d you do that

brand new mission oh I can't wait to get loaded in
ten more minutes til I'm out there counting dividends
yea
watch me mix it in tell me that there's more to this
before I forfeit, I don't need no more of this
I went to Florida with my family then I told them that
I don't feel much more like family when you give me crap
let me sit up by myself when I'm feeling sad
promise that ill come back i don't mean to make you mad

but never once did you ask me if I’m fine
i been smokin blunts so that I could ease My mind
every night it’s the same
I cant ever go to sleep
all the time try to change
but I never wanna leave

(casperrr)
going dummy at the function  
just so i can fuck shit
nah i can't fuckin function 
with the way u changed so quick
really thought you loved me
but i guess i was mistaken 
they way u kept pushing me back
hiding mthe fact u were taken

used to look up at people
and now most are at my level
all i have left is a house 
that's filled with air and our shadows
you left a hole inside my heart
turned from special to mental
like chaging howl for hollow 
i know it was not accidental

at this point i don't know what family is?
people stop caring about u when u stop being a kid 
i've been alone ever since i was 14 
left to deal with a bunch a shit, i don't know what i did
idk how i made it out
idk what it is
maybe i had more to do
maybe i was born for this
i just hope so cuz otherwise imma quit
life in general cause without music life is boring as shit

forfeit w/ casperrr (tiedforsilver)

Shadowplay Paradise (Shinpuru Flip.)

produced by ryini beats

lyrics:

tell me what, tell me where, tell me when
ill be there
u dont have to be afraid
then baby tell me why im scared
why im scared
tell me, tell me, tell me why im scared
oh its something, inside me
my love for u isnt dying
u love me, i hate it
jus tell me, u hate me
i jus wanna see ur face
but girl i see it everywhere already
i dont wanna cry
but my tears are everywhere already
thats five days no talkin
i trip when im walking
i stumble im fallin
for u bae ive fallen
fallen for u
fallen for

fallen (ryini)

produced by farber

some of these might be wrong but i dont feel like checking

lyrics: 

im so fucked up
baby youre my drug
im so damn numb
whats the point of love
all there is, is lust
whats the point of love
if there is no trust
now just tell me
what you want from me girl
baby tell me what you want from me
baby ill do anything, anything
girl u can take my heart and u can take my lungs
and u can take my breath 
hell u already do
lets get this off my chest
know you not in the mood
but all i wanted was you
the way they talk isnt cool
but i’ll keep you safe from them baby i promise
these hoes always act all heartless
now dont even get me started
on the one way back in august
i lost it
but i got you
and i know im not much but you got me
and i know that were far, but youre still with me
wanna look up at the stars with you with me
taste the evil in your lips when you kiss me
i kinda like that
never told me when i met you that you bite back
theres a saying if she love you she wont lie
yeah
girl you know that thats a lie
never cried till i tried that
im cryin
im dyin
theres sirens
i dont like this
satisfied with how you left me damaged
whats to gain from it i don’t understand it
way you creepin in on me look like you planned it
sometimes i feel like i been on another planet
hearts so cold its an avalanche half the shit that i say to you is half the reason im alive
im cold as ice this winter breeze
im not old but my knees are getting week
when u looked at me
i felt something that i never felt before
it kinda scared me so i left right out the door
i turned around and saw you dead and nothing more
i can’t do this
im cryin
im dyin
theres sirens
i dont like this
im cryin
im dyin
theres sirens
i dont like this

avalanche II (farber)

excuse me

Produced by ATP

Now I’m too drunk to know 
Now it’s too late to go 
But I hope that the roads 
Will live from the snow 
And now you’re too gone from me 
Is it too hard to see?

For too long, too much on top of my plate 
Lost in the ways we’re carving our names 
I can’t replace the way that I think you know oh 
And now I’m too gone, too lost to ever wanna change 
I think it’s time to find my own way 
I’m not the same guy who used to walk you home oh 

My hand, your ass
All I could  ever ask 
Is for you back 
On my bed like back then 

I don’t want them Xanax anymore 
Sick of just waking on the floor 
Girl you’re everything that I adore 
I’m sorry that I’m geeked up like a dork 
Do you even miss me anymore?
I’m sorry if you hate me like before 
When we kiss it makes me miss you more 
All these feelings that I can’t ignore

Im not the same guy who used to walk you home..

prod. me
guitar by sharp

I'm tired of being the one that has to reap
what you sow the voice reminds me what I couldn't be
I'm sick of living without the lungs to breathe
in I can't exhale the toxins in me

this was never meant to last forever
I'm ultimately terrified you'll find somebody better for your needs

when did every string between us sever
i couldn't see it coming I was blinded by the weather in the trees

take me somewhere safe and sound
when you decide to come around 
and tell me how you really fuckin feel

I think my times run finally out
the clock has stopped the ticking now
Is anything you told me fuckin real
(hello?)
I don't know what to think anymore
(goodbye..)
you left me here to rot on the floor

chapter I: safe and sound

produced by king theta 

not sure if i like it but im posting it anyway

lyrics: 

why do i feel this way
like nobody knows that im real
afraid, that no one will miss me when im away
they talk about me like they know my name

tears come in tidal waves
alyssa she told me that im okay
ill miss her but im better off this way
im hurting these feelings i try to shake

stuck in my head tears on my bed
i take back everything i had said
stuck in my brain dont look the same
i fell for you over again

im not tryna throw shade but you told me you love me 
you told me you told me you told me
you wont leave you told me to trust you, you told me dont worry 
i worried i worried i worried i did

and now look at me 
just watch as i bleed
just watch as i fall
just watch as i crawl 

right back to you baby i know you dont care about me like you said that you did but i need you right now and i swear ill do better this time… this time

but im still learning
my heart is burning
our love is fading
and im still waiting for you

so come back 
it hurts so bad
my tears they wont last
but my bloods gone black

so why do i feel this way
like nobody knows that im real
afraid, that no one will miss me when im away

why do i feel this way
like nobody knows that im real
afraid, that no one will miss me when im away
they talk about me like they know my name

eliasz (king theta)

In 2017 I got addicted to painkillers
In the six weeks before we met
And after that I took them only when I needed
Like the night you called me back
And in the mornings we would walk to class and smoke cheap cigarettes
Because menthols taste healthier, right?
Back then I didn’t sleep and I wrote shitty poetry
About Newark when my grandma died

And i hope you don’t remember at all
You just grab the money and i’ll take the fall
I never moved to New York, but I went there on tour; I’ve got your notes in my drawer
I still remember it all

In 2021 I mixed klonopin and whiskey
In the city where angels go to die
And I made a man a flower crown then passed out on his living room floor
And said “don’t touch me, I’m fine”
See, my ambition was a prison, wanted to carve my name into
The bones of everybody I met
Back then I didn’t see beauty in just about anything
So I guess it turned out just how you said
It would

But I hope you don’t remember at all
Been running away, it’s getting harder to walk
I don’t know what it was for, getting ruined for sport; goddamn victorian whore
I still remember it all

Reading my old journals, double-checking it got better
And my hands still turn purple when it’s cold, so I’ll wait seven years
‘Til there’s nothing left of who i was but melody and fever
I hope next time, when she says she’s too high you’ll stop
And you'll believe her

One day I won’t remember at all
The pictures all faded, now we’re outlines in chalk
I never moved to New York, but I’ll go there on tour; I guess that settles the score
I still remember it all

i still remember it all

prod secre x tiedforsilver

i dont need a thought process
could do without the options
tell me what to be i feel like nothing but an object
i could be your prospect
you could be my prophet
wheres the road ahead of us gone i think ive lost it lost it

im nauseous
scratch that i meant noxious
fill my body up let it dissolve with all your toxins
i cannot be cautious
sorry im obnoxious
i dont mean to be a pain i dont know how to stop it

what do you want from me
ill try to be
your anchor
indefinitely
ill writhe and seethe
in anger
why are we 
so blind to see
a stranger
as a friend
with good intentions
never

(you and i could try to work it out)
ive spent enough time in my mind to know its not the answer
is there a god in the sky respond to my prayer
maybe i wanted to die i couldnt find my savior

turn me into sumn i cant even look at
stare into a mirror and a stranger is what looks back
8 grams in my book bag
smokin after school to kill the feelings that i hold back

ripped away at my life
got gutted with my own knife
im tired of livin in strife
i thank the demon inside

that caused the place i reside
to wither in front of my eyes
you couldnt keep me alive
no matter how hard you try

i dont need a thought process
could do without the options
tell me what to be i feel like nothing but an object
i could be your prospect
you could be my prophet
wheres the road ahead of us gone i think ive lost it lost it

im nauseous
scratch that i meant noxious
fill my body up let it dissolve with all your toxins
i cannot be cautious
sorry im obnoxious
i dont mean to be a pain i dont know how to stop it

what do you want from me
ill try to be
your anchor
indefinitely
ill writhe and seethe
in anger
why are we 
so blind to see
a stranger
as a friend
with good intentions
never

wha- wha-
want from me
ill try to be
your anchor
indefinitely
ill writhe and seethe
in anger
why are we 
so blind to see
a stranger
as a friend
with good intentions
never

strawberry amnesia

prod. poppy ozu x daniel saint

Lyrics:

i think she'll be the death of me
if i survive think that i'd rather be
it's been like 30 minutes with no text
so i can't get to sleep
she's probably up in someone's ear with all her dirty secrets maybe sexually
if she's not in my bed i think she slept with him respectfully
you can call me crazy i'll accept at least minisculely
the ghost of who i knew i think just wants a fuckin end to me
an end to me
an end to me

i'm unhinged 
i'm irrational at best
i'm less convinced now by the second i should get this off my chest
fuck it
i despise your hedonism and that old group i called my friends
at least i'm not a liar, of all my flaws just give me that

she jumps from guy to girl to guy in hopes that someone can heal her
if you couldn't respect me
then how could i either
was i meant for a stage
am i meant for a theatre
caught me throwing up again
with a wonderful fever

i'm a people person eater with a face that doesn't shape
i just tear myself apart then fix myself with gum and tape
i use so many "i's" and "me's" its like the rest of them are fake
you think i'm talking to you, probably am so hear me for your sake

i think she'll be the death of me
if i survive think that i'd rather be
it's been like 30 minutes with no text
so i can't get to sleep
she's probably up in someone's ear with all her dirty secrets maybe sexually
if she's not in my bed i think she slept with him respectfully
you can call me crazy i'll accept at least minisculely
the ghost of who i knew i think just wants a fuckin end to me
an end to me
an end to me

avalanche II (farber)

beanie

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