This song is about how when you try to grasp onto certain outcomes, it never works out and you have to let go and let whatever is meant to happen happen, that is the only way to truly be happy. It’s so counter intuitive because I get so attached to certain people and places and ideas and situations that I wish I could just orchestrate the world and my life so that if I were able to just have those things that I believe would make me happy, I would truly be happy. Unfortunately the world doesn’t work that way. You can’t pray for things to work out a certain way and expect it to come true and to make you happy. You can only pray for wisdom and peace and the clarity to see things as they really are. 

It’s also about my love and hate relationship with being a human being. How I long to just be a spiritual being, free from all worldly-ness and it feels as though it doesn’t come naturally to me to be here in this human form, and yet when I try to exist in this world and be a human I get so attached to people and places and circumstances. I find a hard time finding the middle way. Being here and being present in this physical reality and not clinging to it and seeking refuge in the material world. Hence, "why can’t I pray for you?" Why is it so hard for me to be here, and also not want to cling and hope and pray for worldly things.

It's hard to be human

Trying to heal myself and the world! I see music and all forms of creative expression as an incredible means of catharsis, growth, connection, and uplifting and inspiring the human spirit. I have found hope, peace, strength, and joy in music, and other creative outlets even in my darkest times. I'm blessed and honored to be able to express and share these most vulnerable parts of myself. If you are reading this, know you are not alone and you matter. We are all worthy of love, happiness, confidence, creativity, healing, and a meaningful life :)

restmaven