17:51

You’re half the world away when you begin to regret all you’ve done
Sat alone in your head you start to question leaving everyone
So you call home to tell your friends how you really feel
I just wish I knew then how much you felt you had to conceal

I say come home my friend we’ll go way back to the start
You reply yeah that sounds good but can you fix my broken heart
There’s only one cure for that and it’s right there strapped to your wrist
Instead you drink away the pain and every night’s pissed

With your eyes wide closed you’d already made up your fucking mind
It was easy you’d just be there for some poor bastard to find
If only you’d seen the effect that you had on all of your friends
You’d know in that moment that today’s not the day it all ends

That poker face is ever strong as you keep us all oh so unaware
While writing your goodbyes to us all with oh so much care
Those demons in your head convince you now is the time
A final glance at your phone but there’s still no text there from your ex
Roll the dice leave it to chance if someone saves you it’s a sign
One last thought as you wonder what comes next

With your eyes wide closed you’d already made up your fucking mind
It was easy you’d just be there for some poor bastard to find
If only you’d seen the effect that you had on all of your friends
You’d know in that moment that today’s not the day it all ends

But yet you were found by some divine intervention
A hero no cape refused any mention
Rushing around to restart your breathing
A lifeless body but now chest lightly heaving
All who you knew they rushed round to your bedside
Across the country down from London to Clyde
Holding each other clinging on with just hope
Not knowing how we would all cope
It took many days but soon you awoke
And you hadn’t lost your addiction to smoke
Now that you’re out healthy joking and walking
I need you to promise that you’ll always be talking

With your eyes wide closed you’d already made up your fucking mind
It was easy you’d just be there for some poor bastard to find
If only you’d seen the effect that you had on all of your friends
You’d know in that moment that today’s not the day it all ends

Now that you know what you mean as a friend
There won’t be a day where that comes to an end

Ben Evans