life’s strange
everyday feels like it’s a game
might just die tonight
suicide
too many too many pills
i
my stomachs full of pills my lungs
are full of smoke cuz i can’t trust
nobody
i don’t think that she loves me
or does she 
cuz i can never get enough
i’m stuck on pills i need more drugs
i found another plug
but her love just ain’t enough
love is just another drug
cuz the moment she’s leaving
i’m feeling empty

and this life is deceiving
so please don’t tempt me
i might end it
not alive just pretending
i’m just pretending
yah
i’m just pretending till the moment life is ending
i’m stuck
i don’t wanna die like this
but i need more drugs
i can’t lie this shit
has got me so fucked up
yah
got me so fucked up
yah
this love or lust?

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temptme [prod. chavez x itsmalloy]

benedixhion on the track
i’m off the xans
no one ever really loved me like they said
i don’t know what’s left to do
i think i lost my soul when i lost you
i’m fucking broken
ohh
i’m fucking hopeless
ohh

i don’t know whats left to do
i think i lost my soul when i lost you
i’m fucking broken
and im so motherfuckin hopeless
i won’t survive
all these pills are gunna end my life
i’m stuck
baby you can’t save me bring me drugs
life is not daydream it’s more like a nightmare
i was really hoping that maybe you might care
i was really hoping that maybe you might care
might care
life’s a nightmare
i was really hoping that maybe you might care
might care
life’s a nightmare

i don’t wanna be alive no more
everyday is pain my minds at war
cant take it
i’m feeling lost
outta options
dug my own grave
where’s my coffin

nightmare [prod. clorox cobain]

sorry i just crashed my whip
i was off a percocet feelin sick
i got benzos in my pocket
and some bands 
got a cig in my left hand
my life ain’t make no damn sense
but i love it
i get paid to feel straight up like shit
counting dubs bitch
sorry i just crashed my whip
i was off a percocet feelin sick
i got benzos in my pocket
got me dead on the inside
i just mixed so many fucking drugs
just to feel right

i jus popped two xans 
i’m feelin lazy
she said that she love me
but im pretty sure she hates me
i been really fienin
i be percocet crazy
tell me where we met again
my memory is hazy
she said that she love me
but i’m pretty sure she hates me
i be really fienin i be
i be living fast

percocetcrzy

my hearts been broken
way too many times
i cannot handle this life
cause i feel hopeless
so i cry
alone in my room bitch
i’m so lost without you here boo
and thas tha truth
you left me
feeling empty too
ohooohoooh

broken hearted
i wish you would be my fuckin bae 
broken hearted 
nowadays i only isolate
broken hearted
i wish you would be my fuckin bae 
broken hearted 
nowadays i only isolate

its too much to take
i’m gone
in this life there is no restart
lost myself to all tha drugs
i wish that i could give a fuck
i jus might be outta luck
thas jus life bitch
popped 4 percs
now i feel righteous
feeling right
it’s how i like it
i know that i cannot fight this
i’m so high
don’t know what life is
and i jus do not know why
i’m even still alive

brokenhearted

i swear i died i last night 
why tha fuck would you revive me
i do not feel alive
everyday im fuckin dying
so please don’t try
don’t try me bitch
i’m in too deep
don’t give a shit

i be lurkin in tha night
got me feelin creepy
shawty sayin she in love
i’m like “fuck your feelings”
higher than tha ceiling
how’m i fuckin breathing
still
i took way too many fucking pills
i swear i died last night

i swear i died i last night 
why tha fuck would you revive me
i do not feel alive
everyday im fuckin dying
so please don’t try
don’t try me bitch
i’m in too deep
don’t give a shit
i’m poppin percies in tha whip
said fuck it bitch im crashing it
had a mercedes crashed that shit
i’m going crazy
crash my whip
i feel amazing
love that bliss
i’m feelin wavy
drugs to fix
my broken brain
i’ll take that risk
i’m going crazy
crash my whip

in2deep [prod aki]

i got percies in my system 
got me tweakin hard
yeah she told me that she love me
but she was jus a fraud
i was off it but i missed em
so i relapsed hard
was it jus game? ya it must be
she jus played her-
percies in my system 
got me tweakin hard
yeah she said she love me
but she was jus a fraud
i was off it but i missed em
so i relapsed hard
was it jus game? ya it must be
she jus played her part
it was all fake from tha start
she a fraud
it was all fake from tha start
can’t believe she broke my heart
i’m so over it
i’m so over it
swear to god i wanna restart

restart
you can catch me In tha stars
i’m tired of this shit
i’m tired of you bitch
get tha fuck up out my life
i’m tired of these fights
oh my god i can’t take it
i can’t take it
goddamn your heart is colder 
than tha snow in antartica
on god
your love is jus not enough
your love
i’m lost as fuck
now that im that i’m own
i’m back in love in drugs
i’m so fuckin stuck
ion give a fuck about a thing 
cause i can’t now
shawty said she love me but she didn’t
she a fan now
she ain’t really even mean a thing that she said
she ain’t really even mean a thing that she said so
what’s that really even mean
ion know

TweakinHard

i been feelin empty
ever since she left me
fill that void with coke and percies
can’t believe that you’d desert me
but it’s fine
lil ho im aight
that’s jus life
no, i can’t rewind 
like
i don’t know what tha fuck im doing
i pop more pills when tha pain starts brewing
in love with thrills so i can’t stop moving

no i can’t
seem to stop tha pain in my head
hear a voice say im better dead
guess i’ll say goodbye to my friends
i 
wish that i still had a purpose
ever since a kid been searching
i can see my demons lurking
and i know they want to hurt me
should i let them
uh uh
this life pretend
uh uh
and i’m lost
but i know that i cannot stop
i can’t stop
i gotta keep on goin
living life in slomotion
ohh

voiid

get so fucked up
that i can’t think
shut tha fuck up
or you can leave
off too many drugs
baby i’ve turned to a fiend
i don’t give a fuck about a thing
except my pills
i’m just being real
pedal on tha gas
but i got no steering wheel 
i be in my feels so
i’m racing to tha end
was life’s 
oh oh
ooh what’s that?
never seen that pill before
i’m like well goddamn
i’ma need like 30 moret 
‘cause i can’t stand
living life it’s such a bore
so i live reckless
i might fuck your whore
might as well
shawty said she loved me
had me stuck under her spell
then i realized
nothing that she said was even real
she was playing games
fuck it i jus need more pills
fuck it
fuck it
i jus need more pills
bitch im going insane
i can’t fucking stand it
all the pain in my brain

reckless

movie

plastikk

ghostt

LOSTCAUSE [prod. onceunveiled]

shawty said she love me but she hate me
I'm like fuck you bitch 
like whyd you even wanna date me
oh god
she jus wanna fuck tha squad
im like fuck off
i keep going like im running on a race track
lil shawty if u love me then jus call my phone
i dont wanna go thru all this shit alone


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anthrbottle freestyle [prod. DIEMOND]

soGONE

i dont regret it [prod. gfelds]

all of these problems
i can't seem to resolve em
all of these problems
i can't seem to resolve

all of these problems
i can't seem to resolve em
no problem solving
im feeling better dead
lil shawty toxic
like why tha fuck you talking
all that I'm hearing is thoughts inside my head
and i can't seem to make it stop
and i can't seem to ever pause
and i can't see a way out of these damn feelings
and these dark thoughts
constantly haunting my mind 
pretty soon ill run out of time
i wish that it was all a lie
but i'll keep poppin pills til i die

ooh
everyday im busy running from tha truth
i don't know whats next but i been drowning 'cause of you
youre still in my head n i don't know what i should do
only when im dead will i able to move on
im feeling like ima loaded gun
a loose cannon
like what tha fuck
you left me abandoned
im overcome
by all these feelings
i wish that i didn't feel things
ugh
why i always gotta fuck it up
sorry shawty think im outta luck
swear to god i’m feeling so damn stuck


problems [prod. onceunveiled]

zombie [prod. YSL Mula]

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convolk: https://soundcloud.com/convolk
mixed in part by Qawi Kamri (https://soundcloud.com/qawikamri)
______________________
teardrop shawty sing the feelings away
i feel ugly when i see myself no matter the day
imma do this shit, the music shit, no matter the pay
if you in my path i hit yo ass right outta my way
i wish it wasn't like this

my heart's so broken
i wish there was a potion
to help with my depression
that's drowning me like an ocean
forget the notion
'cause i retract that
now my sadness weighs me down
like it's a backpack

i feel alone in my home
there's no way out
i feel alone, so alone
there's no hope now
and i don't know where to go
i hate this town
and if i can't get away
then i might drown

you don't need me
hide my feelings
please don't leave me
i'll stop breathing

teardrop shawty sing the feelings away
i feel ugly when i see myself no matter the day
imma do this shit, the music shit, no matter the pay
if you in my path i hit yo ass right outta my way
i wish it wasn't like this

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benedixhion x convolk - dying alone in my room [prod. MURDFLEX]

convolk: https://soundcloud.com/convolk

lyrics:
walking through my hometown
everything has changed up
used to be gunshots
now i see teslas
you don't want smoke
i'm a head shot
i don't want jokes
i want answers
walking through my hometown
everything has changed up
i was on the road
you was out doing lame stuff
you don't want smoke
i'm a head shot
you don't want smoke
i'm a head shot

everyday i feel the same
it's like why'm i not okay
why can't i just be happy for once
i'm always stuck in place
i don't think i can be saved
i have always been this way
i am dying in my room
and it's the middle of the day oh
feel my body die slow
i been feeling so low
i should help myself
but i don't even wanna try though
feelings don't sway me
everybody hates me
think i'm going crazy
feel like this on the daily

wasted my youth

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benedixhion x convolk - wasted my youth [prod. curtains]

hydrocodone in my blood stream yah
and it got me feeling lovely yah
she keeps telling me that i’m up nex
she keeps telling me she loves me yah
ay
can you tell me are you down for a joyride
i think i might fall in love witcha tonight
how could this be wrong when it feels right
we could play your favorite song in the moonlight
yeah ay
in the moonlight
we could play your favorite song in the moonlight
took a couple blunts on the road so we can vibe
shawty we might fall in love if the moods right
like right now
always off the drugs in my own hell
but i couldn’t give a fuck i hate myself
so i’m ringing up the plug i might as well
popped another pill it don’t feel real
she keeps telling me that i’m gun end up killed
fuck it i don’t care i need more pills
you could catch me poppin norco till i’m ill

hydrocodone in my blood stream yah
and it got me feeling lovely yah
she keeps telling me that i’m up nex
she keeps telling me she loves me yah
she keeps telling me she’s fuckin wit it
then girl come thru lets make some bad decisions
i jus wanna cuff you boo and that’s my only mission
i’ll jus sip my juice till i’m lookin livid
she told me to tell the truth she’s fuckin wit my vision
fuckin wit the flows inside in my head
i don’t think that i could ever rest
i’ll keep poppin pills until i’m dead
nothin ever works i try my best
i try my

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inthaMoonlite [prod. thatboineco]

grab my bag and i hit the exit
everybody here’s just pretending
she added me to her friend list
she ain’t even know what a friend is
ay i got my drip always flexing
brand new fit that shits an investment
she rolled some blunts for the session
goddamn that bitch ambidextrous
yuh
i ain’t even know her but i’m calling back
she says that she love me what the fuck is that
got my money in the bank yeah them paypal stacks
she invite to the party so that’s where i’m at
that girl so sweet like a candy bar
believes in me says i’m going far
girl you know ima be a star
so much to see jus get in my car
i hate the fact that i miss you
i’m sick of crying in tissues
you just left n that was the issue
i’m obsessed like what’d the fuck i do
hey wait
she ain’t really love me
she jus playing all the same games
sippin on the bubbly got me spinning like a bayblade 
off the shrooms n i be tripping on the same day
mayday
ay

grab my bag and i hit the exit
everybody here’s just pretending
she added me to her friend list
she ain’t even know what a friend is
ay i got my drip always flexing
brand new fit that shits an investment
she rolled some blunts for the session
goddamn that bitch ambidextrous
ay
she says i’m pretty she had to let me know
we were high off the pillies she said she likes my clothes
counting up 50s then spent it all on dope
when i’m out on the city i smoke away my woes

why’m i feeling so shitty like what the fuck is life
i’m so tired of living i think i’d rather die
but i can’t drown in self pity i need to make it right
if you ain’t talkin money then get outta my sight

friendlist [prod. thatboineco]

feels like love but i know it isn’t
i’m so damn numb who’m i kidding
i hate life i wish that i didn’t
i’m poppin percs just to fix it
but i know that i’ll never fit in
an outlier to the human race
i’m a lost soul and i’m drifting
i wish that i could just be erased
i hate the me that i have become
i’m just a fiend and i need more drugs
off a thirty i’m so fucked up
i’m running out i best hit the plug
i took a journey with no way back ay
i got money i’m chasing so ima make that ay
she jus pass me a swisher so ima face that ay
if you ain’t talkin benjis then just get outta my face
please let me lie here
i wanna die here
i’m so sick of this life
i wanna give into my fears

pain in my head guess i’m broken
i’m already dead they don’t notice

its2much [prod. zach sutton]

let me die
i don’t really know what the point in life is
everybody knows that we won’t survive
i jus wanna go shawty i can’t fight this
always on my page but you never like
it’s fake
you ain’t really love me
that’s great
i been counting up my bankroll 
all day
i been drowning in my problems
let’s escape

i been in my bag
and i ain’t stoppin bitch
i love poppin tags
so i been shopping
i don’t understand
girl what’s your problem now
you make me feel dead
cuz you’re a toxin bitch
i already know your love is counterfeit
pretty sure she hates me but she loves my fits 
strung out on the daily but these drugs are bliss
i don’t wanna live i’m fucking done with this
i don’t know what i should do
i’m lost and missing you
i wish it wasn’t true
what the fuck am i gun do
oh whoa
i’m just dying in my room
oh no
i keep falling for you boo

why’s my mind feel like it’s a prison
i don’t understand
i just wanna life that’s worth living
won’t you hold my hand

toxin [prod. thatboineco]

i keep asking is this really love
shawty tells me i should sober up
ion know if i can take this
i can’t take another fake bitch

big bands in my hand
i’ll count it on my own
ain’t need no fake friends 
i’m better off alone
yeah
why’d you stab me in the back
again
what the fuck is up with that
goddamn
you don’t really love me
can you just tell me the truth
you’re dreaming of my money
while i’m stuck dreaming of you
oh
it’s a lie
you never cared
i don’t know why
you’re never there

put my money in the bank bitch
yuh
lil shawty made a lane switch
yuh
pass the blunt i think they laced it
yuh
but you know i’m still gun face it
yuh
basic
you’re really basic
i can’t fucking take this
you make me so sick
left me on the pavement
thought you were my friend
i’m always sedated
i fucking hate it
cuz you’re so basic

pseudoLove [prod. sketchmyname]

different
everything’s so different
i feel so removed
i been really feelin distant
they ain’t really wit it
i’m really wit it
money spent while sad
couple thousand on my jewelry bitch
why you mad
well i’m better by lonely bitch
so i’m glad
the really drugs control me it’s
not a fad
i really need em bad
and i really want you back
shawty won’t you hold my hand
yeah

feel the drugs inside my system
yeah
they abuse me i’m a victim
yeah
then again i fuckin picked them
what is there to say
maybe i’m insane
cause i treat life like a game
my bad
this is just a faze
that’s cap
i been switching up my lanes
that’s fax
so you best get out my way
‘fore you end up in a grave
yuh
i been really in my head lately
will you love me when i’m dead baby
i won’t even lie don’t think this life’s for me
cuz i’m trapped inside my head
so won’t you set me free

when i pull up i’m so faded uhuh
i’m jus really glad i made it uhuh
feeling like this is the matrix uhuh
‘cause this shits a simulation
i feel your vibrations
yeah
look
i’m so sick of waiting
let’s jus hit the road shawty
me n you’ll be famous
oh my god
nothing’s in our way bitch
whatchu thought
cuz i’m really finna make it
yuh yuh

victim [prod. urbs]

you got what you wanted all along
you told me you loved me
but you didn’t you were wrong
yah
i been falling on my own
i don’t wanna lie i think i’m better off alone 
yah

hey love
you gun watch this fade away or you gun save us
you gun watch me die today i’m outta patience
cuz i do not wanna play these games i’m tryna make up
cuz we ain’t finished
won’t you hear me out
just for a minute
all these people run they mouths
but they don’t get it
baby i jus need you now
won’t you please just be yourself with me
times running out
are you down to go to hell with me

or nah
i got lots of problems
please just call
are you a really a true day one
or a fraud
she jus want me for my paystub
bitch get lost
when i leave i’ll take a coffin with me
cuz i’m so dead bitch
if you really wanna problem with me
you finna get it
type back type back
don’t want you sad so i always write back
trapped in my head always stuck in the past
yeah yeah always stuck in the past
yeah yeah always stuck in my head
yeah yeah feeling better off dead
honestly i’m upset
honestly i’m obsessed
with you
you’re shining like a diamond
always blue
when you say you love me
is it true
give a fuck about the money
i want you
i just need my boo

go2hell [prod. thatboineco]

yuh
oh whoa
i don’t really know what
to do
i jus wanna go back
to you
i hate that you’re really gone
can’t take being alone

yuh
i know
you aint really wanna hold me close
you just couldn’t wait to let me go
oh
so let me go
i’m turning to the tabs and the shrooms
i can see the energy in this room
i’ll leave from this vicinity to the moon
but the tears keep falling for you

what’s next
i ain’t really wanna another ex
can we just talk you saw my texts
please don’t leave me here on read 
i’m begging
for you to come save me
the simulations breaking
everybody here is faking
nobody gives a damn
i need you
you don’t need me
everything in life is fleeting
you say you’ll always be there
but i know one day you’ll leave me 
popped off
i jus wanna pull up in a
droptop
so i gotta keep on grinding no i
cant stop
everyday is a reminder
that my soul is gone
im so fucking lost

im falling for you
ion even care if you knew 
gotta cut the past off
start new
baby just back off
were through
baby just say u aint have time for me
but u do with your friends i know ur not busy
now u wonder why i always act all pissy
i know ur doing shit and i know u dont miss me
i dont see us
falling in love
you took whats mine
now i am stuck

letmeGO ft. heylog [thatboineco]

life is just a rave
and i’m frowning in it
percy to the face
you can’t save me bitch
i’m drowning in it
everything was fake
it was counterfeited
pills inside my brain
i jus wanna feel
a fucking difference
no i’m not okay
i’m so lost
stuck inside my head
i can’t sober up
feeling better dead
is this even love
all this weight thats in my chest
got me feeling stuck
life is so fucked up

i don’t wanna know what you’ve done
i’ll jus shoot my shot like a gun
everyone dies so let’s jus have fun
i needed you but you didn’t want me
i’m so dead i feel like a zombie
everybody’s fake they’s jus copy
life ain’t fair cuz nobody loves me
oh
then why you still haunt me though

i keep staring out my window
in my room without you
was it really something baby
i weep when i think about you
it is what it is you
left me like i’m nothing baby

i don’t understand
you said you needed me
wasn’t in the plan
cuz you ain’t need a thing

chemicals [thatboineco]

do you love me
i don’t know
i don’t understand a goddamn thing 
just erase me
let me go
i can’t even take the suffering

cant pick up the phone
i’m fucking wasted
just to make it on my own
i’m staying faded
everyday is a blur when your sedated
hope this music shit works i needa make it
cuz i’m right back
where i started
i hate feeling like that
disregarded
everyday i want my life back
disregard it
yah 
fuck feeling regret there’s no restarting

i’m fucked up in the backseat
got me luv drunk in a taxi
i don’t wanna love you if i’m only being used
so can i trust you
or will you put me in a tomb
yah
i wish that i could say i knew
yah
but i don’t
are you tryna play me
ion know
i feel like i’m failing
on my own
i feel like a ghost

it’s my head
i think that i’m broken
let me rest
you don’t even notice
that i’m dead baby
i think i’m drowning lately
yuh
oh
yuh
oh
one more
i’m feeling wavy
help me
i’m suffocating

benedixhion

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