I wrote this for all of my friends who are going through things, and for myself.  I recorded this tonight after I watched a classmate and family relative be buried. 
Rest In Peace Kyle H, your smile was taken from us way too early.

your eyes were a clever desguise concealing pain
like a sundress bright and vivid by design
hiding scars
you wear a smile cut from ear to ear maskin all your doubt
and all of this pain is real and the fear in your heart keeps you locked out of the life that you want and the things that you need that's why you hurt yourself 
to feel stronger. to feel anything at all and


you tell yourself its okay not to feel
that nothing is real and it won't last
we're built to spill and i think we're gonna crash
i think i'd rather be alone
i think i'd really rather be alone

but we're here and alive
breathe one breath at a time 
i know this life is hard 
i know this life hell
when theres weight on your heart and your sinking down
when all you want is to feel alive 
all you want is to be alive

well if love is real then why are we are so alone
this house it feels less like of a home every day
we say hi and bye and we go our own ways

the suits that we wear we wear them so well
like business men exchanging numbers every day
but money never meant anything and i'm sick of being numb
i'm sick of feeling dumb and discared and i think you know how i feel

i feel like its time to be real and its time to make a change
i'm sick of feeling all this pain i'm sick of feeling left out
i just want to be in love and be out in the sun

but we're here and alive 
breathe one breath at a time
this life is so hard and we need a change
this weight shouldn't be so hard with all of us by your side
we want you to feel alive
all we want is to be alive


but we're here and alive
breathe one breath at a time 
i know this life can be hard 
i know this life hell
if there is love then why are we so alone
i wish i could help i hoped i could help

but we're here and alive
breathe one breath at a time 
i know this life is hard 
i know this life hell
when theres weight on your heart and your sinking down
but all you want is to be alive. 
you wish you could feel so alive'

Benny Haha