I started writing these songs back in 2019. I was a different person then. And as I grew, so did these songs. The whole meaning of the album changed over time. At first, it was about having a really bad night. Later on, it was about holding on to what-if's (like “what if things had been different?”). And eventually, it turned into what it is now. 

I'm writing this message in 2021. In the two or more years since I started working on this album, I got to experience a lot of things for the first time. Both good and bad things. Some things within my control, and some things beyond. One thing that I'm grateful for was learning to heal old emotional wounds. It helped with a lot of baggage I carry. Thanks to that, I learned to open up. To truly trust someone with my feelings. Although, I still have issues to deal with.

Mental illness is real. It comes and goes. It casts so much doubt and pain in my thoughts. It affects my relationships with the people I care about. So now, I have to take time to heal again and do right by both me and them. I hope they'll understand. Despite my problems, I refuse to let mental illness mess up everything good in my life. That's why I'm still putting this album out. It's something I care about and am proud of. It's a reflection on the good part of me. A part I know exists.

Thanks for reading all that. If you’re going to listen to this album, please make some time to just lie down and not do anything else. Try to just be in the moment and make it something special. Put your headphones on, close your eyes, and let the music take you places.

Thank you. 

And I hope you enjoy Midnight You (A part of me I'm ready to let go of).

-Benj

Additional Credits

Midnight You (And the talks we had)
samples Break by Peter Mata

Someday (I'll be right here waiting)
samples a microphone feedback issue from Sir Dupo's class

Vim's interlude (It helps to be with friends)
written and performed by Vim Rivera

Here pt. 1 (Learning to love myself again)
samples mmmhm by Peter Mata

Album cover by Nica Katigbak

Midnight You (A part of me I'm ready to let go of)

Here pt. 1 (Learning to love myself again)

Whalesong (Letting go)

Catalyst (Going in circles)

Vim's interlude (It helps to be with friends)

Wait (The loudest silence)

Someday (I'll be right here waiting)

Alone (Reach out)

Midnight You (And the talks we had)

Chasing (The thought of you)

Intro (Alone)