w/ @808angel :)
prod @liltumblrxo & me
mixed by angel & me
cover by @miawich & me

SPOTIFY:
https://open.spotify.com/track/7cN8dmcvxe3zV3D3IbkwM8?si=df04ce9b195c4eb7

-lyrics-

(angel)
And now my head hurts
I’ve been staring at your picture for far too long
Like you're all that matters
And girl i know
When i wait for you you tend to take so long
But it don't matter
Cause girl you're all i want

(benji)
Cause girl you're all i want
I’m dying cause we haven’t talked
I hate how i’m too shy
it's breaking up my sleep at night
Please don’t let me die inside
Maybe we could take our money and just vanish
Maybe we could work it out if we were somewhere else
Maybe maybe we could fix all of the damage
Baby i'm so scared to be all alone
Cause all i need
Is for you to come
And rescue me
Cause it don’t matter if you leave me slowly
because you left me crying
Its like you didn’t know me, yeah

(angel)
And now my head hurts
I’ve been staring at your picture for far too long
Like you're all that matters
And girl i know
When i wait for you you tend to take so long
But it don't matter
Cause girl you're all i want

all i want

all i want +808angel (liltumblrxo+benji)

prod @wintertears
mixed by me
cover by @miawich & me

-lyrics-

I know you hate me, it’s alright
but baby it’s been such a beautiful night
Please just tell me where you are
Yeah, yeah
Rip my soul out through my eyes
but baby it’s been such a beautiful night
baby it hurts because I love you too much
You said you would fix me but it’s never enough

But it’s never enough
Oh I, haven’t been so tired and lonely in so long,
Baby I’m, dreaming while my eyes are open
been two weeks since she said I can’t see her
She says it’s fine but that isn’t enough for me
You don't look in my eyes while you’re talking to me
You told me its better for us that you leave
I told you i was fine but it hurts me so bad, yeah
Thought you were the one, how you do me like that, yeah
I need some time to process cause it hit me so fast
I'm going offline cause I think I might crash

beautiful night (wintertears)

prod, mix by me
cover by me & josh

this song is about social anxiety, hopefully you all like it

floating

w/ @scoobisalright
prod me
mixed by me & scoob
cover by me & josh

SPOTIFY: https://open.spotify.com/track/1xyrCUMG6q8tJuW8EZbjgc?si=85c2b9ef2f66481e

ever after +scøøb

w/ @pinkperc
prod me
mixed by me & perc
cover by me
sample from White Oleander

-lyrics-

benji
the world is overwhelming me
it hurts me just to tell you not to leave
cause you were my love
you were my everything
you hurt my heart so bad, yeah
baby stop in the name of your conscience
does it make you happy to watch it all come crashing down
when you open up your eyes
do you dream about me
does it ever make you cry
when you think about me
from the second that I saw you yeah I knew you'd let me down
baby i still hope you're happy now

perc
i hope you're happy 
cause it's a struggle to get through every day
and i wake up in agony i wish you would have stayed
and i can't stop all the memories wish it wasn't this way
and i have to live and move on cause i'll never see your face

benji
when you open up your eyes
do you dream about me
does it ever make you cry
when you think about me
from the second that I saw you yeah I knew you'd let me down

benji & perc
yeah now, yeah now, hey
yeah now, yeah now
hey, cause baby i still hope you're happy now
baby i still hope you're happy now
yeah now




















haha get it cause the song is called happy but the song is actually really sad get it haha :(

happy

spotify

happy +pinkperc

prod @aimemia & @808angel
mixed by me 
cover by @kyle2k & me

s/o @benyy-bonito for helping me w my mix for this song :)

SPOTIFY: https://open.spotify.com/track/4mpIjJP1jfKgy2PtqCIxpV?si=9d0ea1cd3f564bb7

-lyrics-

Do i really talk that much
Feels like i’ve been up for days
get a good thing and mess it up
You never act like you care so
And ima do all the things that you said you would never
i'll tell everyone i know how i wish i never met them
And you promised if you left, it would be for the better
So i guess is this is better to you

I wanna be with my baby tonight
So she can watch while i ruin my life
And i can die while i look in her eyes
Caught up in my head, living like i'm rolling the dice
I wanna be with my baby tonight
So she can watch while i ruin my life
Cause i get lost, when i’m going outside
Caught up in my head, yeah yeah yeah

I was off of one, yeah
Why you always closed off
And i self destruct, yeah
You still gas me up, yeah
Cover up my wrists, yeah
Heal me with a kiss, yeah
And you never call, yeah
Do you like me at all?
I’m always in my feelings
I'm not as fun as i could be
3am and i'm staring at my ceiling 
You never let me fall asleep
And everybody leaves again
Who do i never seem to learn
You always tell me to hold it in
but i’d just rather crash and burn

ruin my life

ruin my life (emia+808angel)

prod me, mix me
cover by me & @miawich

SPOTIFY: https://open.spotify.com/track/5jl6jwa1ZPlboufW3aFCs2?si=3de012c1d44e450d

synthetic 4evr bby

goodbye

w/ @bedhead2001
epic background vocals at the end by @rit_hk
prod me
cover by @toxin_brewer & me & luke

forever +bedhead

everything by me
cover by me & @bluelightt

s/o all the ppl who listened to the mix of this like 100 times ily

dying in the rain

w/ @rit_hk
epic background vocal at 1:20 by @fijimar
prod me
mix by me & rit
cover by me 

(synthetic 4evr)

wings +rit

prod mix cover by me
chops at 0:57 mixed by @heyyitsbenji

thanks to fijimar scoob and hxpeless for helping w the mix 

see u soon :)

blood

w/ @blackwinterwells
prod me
mixed by me & wells
cover by me

reliant +blackwinterwells

w/ @9s0uls & @lovesickxo
prod me
mixed by me 9s lovesick
cover by me

fragile +9souls +lovesickxo

w/ @imhxpeless
prod me & sample is 'People We Know Are Gone' by John Ward
mixed by me & hxpeless
cover by @bluelightt & me

-lyrics-
benji
i barely remember when
the trees had turned to red and I
hate how im stepping aside but I 
i know u love a goodbye so I 
baby I will try my best but
everybody left 
now I will never fall in love again
cause i hate all of ur friends
am i sorry it depends
now i dont wanna wake up

hxpeless
i just stare up in the night
thinking if this is goodbye
stg i hate my life
i wonder if she’ll even cry
tonight i just want u by my side again
ill die if u leave me and spend another night with him
and i been coping with my problems using substances
but waking up without u feeling like a death sentence
and its been so hard
with this pain on my chest and

i will never fall +hxpeless

prod & mix by me
synth solo at the end by @stellathepixie
cover by ethan grantis & me

spotlight

everything by me

-lyrics-

call me back when you’re sober
Right now ur too much
You say you’ll know when we’re older older
So leave me to rust 
Cause i will be waiting
Wherever u want
I don’t know why i miss you 
but i know you’re the one
I bet u feel like u won

but does ur boyfriend know about me
I know u see me in your mind
Does he know how u cry
You push me to the side
say you’re keeping it down
u see me every night
u say you'd never lie
I'm wasted but
I know you wish that he was like me

I know that I’m just like the people you hate
But if you ever want to we can escape to the end
And all your toxic friends, mm
And i was pushing you away again and I’m so sorry
I can visualize the souvenirs in your old apartment but
I can’t seem to save it in time
I can see us drifting far down the line so
I bet he thinks ur going crazy when you say my name
Don’t underestimate me I could sleep ur main
Do you remember what you texted me last night
Do you still care about me

boyfriend

i never know

uploaded from pinkperc's house
ft @rit_hk
prod me
mixed by me, rit, @pinkperc
cover by pinkperc

it happens +rit

prod me
mixed by @daybat
cover by me

-lyrics-
but babe i thought u said u loved me
uve ruined love for me
i know u hold urself above me
and i cant seem to reach
cause babe u told me u were violent
put me in the sky then
i wont even fight back
bby i was scared of u
bby girl u know the truth
watch out who u lie to
bby im a burning fuse
damn i used to love u (synthetic)

i cant pick up the phone and i cant think abt it
i wont follow u home get drunk and cry without me
im so sick on my own cause u never let me rest
so shut my eyes for me bby cause

so pour one out for me
youll do it eventually
but i jus stare at the floor
cause i dont care anymore

shut my eyes

w/ @caponeti
prod me
mix by me & capo
cover by me

(thx to gauge fijimar pinkperc tera & neoprada for help w mix)

running back +caponeti

w/ @whyhaze & @gaugemountedthisone
prod me
mix by me, haze, gauge
cover by Graham Curtis

staring at the sky + whyhaze + gauge

vocal sample- "He Gets Me So High" by beabadoobee
produced, mixed & backing vocals by me
cover by me

special thanks to rxflxct, baeldorf, gauge, monroe, pinkperc for mixing help and being inspirations to me to make this sorta music

synthetic 4evr <3

benjithemachine - he gets me

prod by me and @ihateesca
mix by me, esca, rxflxct
cover by me

shoutout synthetic kids my brothers 4evr

crash

MUSIC VIDEO (by @crowbarowen) 
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DP9x4_QdOfw

everything by me

shoutout my goat @rit_hk for doing backing vox ily

shoutout my bros who helped w the mix ! 
(esp esca, gauge, stella, pinkperc, ange1grr1, gasoiid, fiji, five) !

only 1

w/ @fijimar
prod me & @ihateesca
mix by me fiji esca
master by esca
cover by fiji

-lyrics-
benji
cause babe its simple when you call back call back
made me crazy but you know that know that
i cant rest in cybercity im a nomad
cause its hard to hope for better when its so bad
baby i can make it better for u better all again
baby i dont wanna call u till ur on the other end
baby now that light just goes through me
so its over when u leave
u show the lights that stop me
turn to stone
u shine it when im alone
and so i tell myself that ill be strong
and dreaming when theyre gone
cause theyre calling calling calling me 
theyre calling calling calling me but
lights when theyre on they call for you
yeah 

mar
i dont wanna wake up now
cause everything you said it falls apart
i hate myself just let me leave this town
im packing up but girl i hate to 
be apart from you again
be apart from you again
like you show the lights that stop me turn me to stone
shining bright when im here just sitting here all alone
so i tell myself that ill be strong
and dreaming when ur gone
cause theyre calling calling calling me
im calling calling home
like you show the lights that stop me turn me to stone
like you show the lights that stop me turn me to stone

lights +fijimar (esca + benji)

prod & mix by me
master by @crowitcore & @ihateesca
cover by shaily pal & me

thanks to gauge, monroe, flood, heartshapedbed, stella the pixie, scutoid, crowit, esca, pinkperc for helping w/ mix

synthetic forever <3

-lyrics-
i think some part of me has to change
why do you worry for everthing
cause i know youll help me find my way
i wish i knew that you felt the same
yeah right
ik im not the one you want to stay
but babe for you id throw my life away
i could protect you if i concentrate
you’ll be fine inside of my heart
so baby

breathe its fine
its getting really hard for me to see tonight
but baby if ur with me itll be alright
i swear that you can let out all the fear inside
on everything just promise me youll
breathe tonight
its getting really hard for me to feel alright
but baby when you touch me then i feel alive
but i know words are
never enough
never enough
so baby promise me youll breathe

breathe

prod by me
mix & master by @crowitcore
cover by seneca russell

thx to crowit, dan larkin, esca, windward, xanashimi, pinkperc :)
synthetic forever

-lyrics-
cause ive been watching you watching you fall
cause ive been watching you watching you fall
yeah right so baby whyd you save my life
do you remember how we fell so far
babe i dont know how im alive
you cant explain it to me
i cant explain how you love
and i cant tell you but it feels so dark
and i just want one look at the sky
you cant explain it to me
i cant explain how you love

explain2me

i can see my whole lifetime flashing by <3

cover by seneca russell
everything else by me

synthetic forever
thanks everyone

flashing by

vocals, prod, mix, & cover by me
master by izzy kai

thx to pinkperc, windward, esca, crowit, scutoid, selluhsay, 51five for mix notes :)

never let u

benjithemachine - void (original mix)

prod, mix, cover by me
master by CITYSPROBLEM (@citysproblem)

thx to pinkperc for helping w master formatting

synthetic 4evr


void

dnt forget who u are
@synthetickids @lovecompound

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