my cns is having a field day and I want to die

lyrics

Stop, stop, run and hide, there's nothing left for me here
Caught up in a landslide, made up of all of my fears
Get a load of "hope" get a load of what they tell me I can do
"But I can't" the words that slowly, silently consume
I could try but I think I refuse

You- you should take away that pride, oh (your eyes)
Forsake your mind, oh (void them of light)
Give in to the victims cries

Tell me- tell me everythings okay
Take- take- take- take all this pain away
Tell me you love me, that what I am is healthy
That it's the only thing that makes me worthy
Give up your ignorant complaints
Here your selfishness has no place
Tell me that I'm perfect, that you wanna be this
Know, you're gonna be this 'cause this disease is viral

Hold on to this cage, this pain, let me live inside my lies, you've no right
To try to take it away, this pain it defines my tragic life, and it's like
Everythings better this way, this pain so I sigh in my delight and i'll cry for 
Nothing but your dishonesty, so keep your "cure" away from me

One look into my weak eyes
And they're enticed by it's deceitful ease
See me in the limelight
And get caught up in this contagious disease
Get a load of those who talk but they don't know what its like
It's so much easier to suffer than to survive
Suck up your selfish desires, so uninspired how you
Only think for yourself why don't you give in to self-doubt

I have a feeling but you know what they say
Out of sight out of mind out of mind out of the way
So let me wallow away inside my self-pity display
Though my brain screams for change i know its far too late
Ah isn't it nice the thrill i get from all my cries
Oh, ah isn't it nice the sound of painful, bitter lies
I know I'm losing time but I refuse to fight
'cause i'm just fine

So take away that pride, oh (your eyes)
Forsake your mind, oh (void them of light)
Give in to the victims cries

Tell me- tell me everythings okay
Take- take- take- take all this pain away
Tell me you love me, that what I am is healthy
That it's the only thing that makes me worthy
Give up your ignorant complaints
Here your selfishness has no place
Tell me that I'm perfect, that you wanna be this
Know, you're gonna be this 'cause this disease is viral

Take your pride, forsake your mind
Run and hide from your lies

Tell me- tell me everythings okay
Take- take- take- take all this pain away
Tell me you love me, that what I am is healthy
That it's the only thing that makes me worthy
Give up your ignorant complaints
Here your happiness has no place
I know I'm not perfect, but we’ll never be that
So don't try to change because this feature's viral

VIRAL Ft. Meika Hime | Vocaloid Original

I don't know what to say about this. Kumi didn't take her normal pills. 

PV (& .vsq/.ust)
https://youtu.be/7o2gtSCMxcE

Art: cubialpha + itporl
Video: cubialpha
VSQ: itporl
VCCV .ust: cubialpha, tuned by itporl
Mixing: itporl

Mask feat. Kumi (+PV & .vsq/.ust)

i hope love won't die

yt upload - https://youtu.be/0kRHQAutuxQ
spotify - https://open.spotify.com/album/7JLcMMgmXYzcLqZdqPoxXX?si=Qaw8iwHRTDiVRbwfCWATVw
bandcamp - https://friendxp.bandcamp.com/
twitter - https://twitter.com/friend_xp

the things i loved are dead! ft. hime [vocaloid original]

MARETU // NEW DARLING

LYRICS:

Leave me to die or waste away or 
Maybe to cry - whatever you say
I never took part in those beliefs but
Take what you think and please fuck off
-
I can’t find who asked - take the hint b
I never wanted sympathy 
Especially from the likes of those who
Take joy in killing others’ fun X2


Let it sit for years and gather dust but once it does, it’s perfect
Such a pretty bottle filled with magic, proud to be an addict
I don’t care to spend my life all stressed, running about all panicked
Honestly I’d rather chug a- what’s the lyric, I forget
-
Hey now, take a breather
I see you stressing and losing years off your life
We all will get there someday
That goal’s not gonna run away


Take the hint! What a killjoy
I’m not interested in sitting pretty or following orders
Take the hint! What a sad boy to
Ask me to play perfect like a pampered little dolly
Take the hint! What a killjoy
I’m not interested in serving selfish little liars 
Take the hint! What a sad girl to 
Throw my life around and then to cry if I defy her X2


Stay in drugs, don’t do school
I kinda forgot what the rule was
Have fun, don’t die, 
that’s all I could care ‘bout
-
Case you still don’t understand the
God damn point I’m tryna get at
Basically don’t boss me ‘round
I’ll live my life and you live yours
-
There you go, that’s the ticket -
Make a doll with no ambition
Maybe that works for Heart
But I’m different
-
Lead my band of arguments
all day and night and then we’ll talk but
As for now just sit and spin
I never asked for your opinion


Hey now, let’s take a breather
No need to stress now, to care so much is harmful
We all will get there someday
That goal’s not gonna run away
-
Stay in drugs, don’t do school
I kinda forgot what the rule is
Have fun, don’t die, 
that’s all I could care ‘bout
-
Case you still don’t understand the
God damn point I’m tryna get at
Basically don’t boss me ‘round
I’ll live my life and you live yours


Take the hint! What a killjoy
I’m not interested in sitting pretty or following orders
Take the hint! What a sad boy to
Ask me to play perfect like a pampered little dolly
Take the hint! What a killjoy
I’m not interested in serving selfish little liars 
Take the hint! What a sad girl to 
Throw my life around and then to cry if I defy her X2


Leave me to die or waste away or 
Maybe to cry - whatever you say
I never took part in those beliefs but
Take what you think and please fuck off
-
I can’t find who asked - take the hint b
I never wanted sympathy 
Especially from the likes of those who
Take joy in killing others’ fun X2


Take the hint! Take a chill pill
Leave the rest to fate, just sit on back and watch the chaos
Take the hint! I’m so sick of this
Back and forth with lunatics that try to take my future
Take the hint! No one asked, love
This method works for me so I don’t seem to see the issue 
Take the hint! Time to relax and
deal with yourself instead of making me your damn muse X2

TAKE THE HINT -【IMPOSTOR】FT. GUMI // VOCALOID ORIGINAL SONG

original / https://soundcloud.com/ponkansoup https://soundcloud.com/ponkansoup/originalfor-the-buried-onestone-rion
MV / https://youtu.be/rJVLRAhTssU

FOR THE BURIED ONES - ponkansoup / Remix

i like anri she is :) scrunkly

youtube upload - https://youtu.be/yGmSw0ESy9E
spotify - https://open.spotify.com/album/7JLcMMgmXYzcLqZdqPoxXX?si=Qaw8iwHRTDiVRbwfCWATVw
bandcamp - https://friendxp.bandcamp.com/
twitter - https://twitter.com/friend_xp

ashes ft. anri [synthv original]

song / kian https://twitter.com/kiandoesnt
vocal / kafu https://twitter.com/kaf_you
MV / https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ICPBk37Y3SI
inst / https://piapro.jp/t/rPAX
midi / https://drive.google.com/drive/folders/1YvROZ8XKOj5bx8i_buLpFDtu9p4QRZfN?usp=sharing

[lyrics]
No, I didn't want to know
It's really horrible
The thought of something else we should've long outgrown
And I don't wanna see whatever you could be
I hide without an ounce of empathy

I'm being honest now, I'm at an all time low
And it feels like the world is moving slow
Grossly morose and trapped inside a fragile mind
You're disillusioned by the horrors of mankind

And then the noise subsidies
To tear down all of my pride
They've never been satisfied
Now my hands are tied
The lives of many collide
The lies of many won't die
No need to act so benign
Crawling in my line of sight

No, I didn't want to know
It's really horrible
The thought of something else we should've long outgrown
And I don't wanna see whatever you could be
I hide without an ounce of empathy
Impede, mislead, succeeded, recede
Till' I'm free

Let all the noise die down
Down into the dark
I'm overwhelmed
There is no one else to tell

My world just stops existing out an open door
The very thought of leaving, there's no reason for

I hate the way I wander around and feel devoid of life and sound
But I can't help if I don't want to be renowned
I hate the way I wander around and feel devoid of life and sound
But I can't help it, I don't wanna be around

The lives of many collide
The lies of many won't die
No need to act so benign
Crawling in my line of sight

No, I didn't want to know
It's really horrible
The thought of something else we should've long outgrown
And I don't wanna see whatever you could be
I hide without an ounce of empathy
Oh no!
No, I didn't want to know
It's really horrible
The thought of something else we should've long outgrown
And I don't wanna see whatever you could be
I hide without an ounce of empathy
Impede, mislead, succeed, recede 
Till' I'm free

UNCANNY / KAFU (original song)

HD is exclusive in streaming services :) I now have spotify

Link to Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/3WoyFNpKR8eD6RwCuC9jog?si=07fd38a635204708

/ Lyrics /

Serbisyong abusado na sa kalaswaan mo
Hindi mo ba napapansin ang kwento,
lahat-lahat ng sinasabi mo?

Hiyang hiya naman ako sa iyo
Naghahabol na naman ng isyung ipagkikialaman
Tahan, magdahan ka na lang

Kasi hindi ko na problema yan
Mag Palakpakan!
Mag ayos ng sarili bago mag bulagan
Diba maraming problema niyan?
at nagawa mo pang dagdagan!
Magtiyaga! hinayupak ka!
Ba’t bigla nalang nagsusuko ka?
Sa bala, nakikita ang lahat
pag nagsisisi na


Magsinungaling ka lang,
Halatang wala ring magbabago
Pag ang inis ay hindi na matiis
Lingas lang ay di mo kayang itago
Ang unang tikim ay lalabo
ng paningin, ng malay
Wala nang totoo
Sa halip ng makabawi
Inilibing mo na ang dignidad mo


sige, at malunod ka nalang ng magisa
huwag mong sabihin na nilayasan ka din nila
ka-ka-kahit artipisyal ang iyong pagsagot
nakakabwisit ka na, hoy tol
Masyadong ambisyoso
ang nahuhumaling sa alegasyon


Huwag mong utusin ako
Hindi ka tagapayo
Bitin pa rin,
Makinig ka nga sa akin
pag kinaladkad kita sa impyerno!
Inumin ang pinagpala mo
at uubusin mo ang pasensya ng mundo
Bakit ba nahihiya ka pa?
Diba parehas lang tayo?


Nakakasawa, nakaka-alinlangan
pinakanakakapagngitngitngitngitang-pagsisinungalingan
At sa aking puso
Sabay ng sabay ang mga tukso

Huwag kang maingay,
Hindi ka ba nauumay?
Paulit-ulit ka lang,
Tangang nagpapanggap na tunay
Isinugal mo na lahat, wala nang natira
Gusto mo pa ba?

Magsinungaling kayo
Diba nakakagago?
Uulitin pag iba ang hahanapin
di ka nararapat saking respeto!
malasing na sa ugali mo
At ilunok ang katotohanan ng mundo

makisalo dito

Pinakanakakapagngingitngitngitang-Pagsisinungasinungalingan / vflower

hi I’m eosinophil aka Phil he/him white disabled lesbian uhhh yeah 

take a nap, rabies catboy

my cns is having a field day and I want to die

The Wasp Guy