by zacc gibson and ray lopez
special thanks to buck chrisman for helping us with chants:)

did you forget
the words you said
i thought that i was making progress
but instead i was making a mess
backpedal
to the point of no return

an anxiety attack but put into a song
did you forget you said forever when i asked how long you'd stay

but youll do anything to leave
and youll do just fine without me

hey
i tried to warn you but it wasnt
why i would escape
i told you i was waiting for something
i feel the same

i tried to warn you but it wasnt
why i would escape
i told you i was waiting for something
i feel the same

21, but not grown yet

by zacc gibson and ray lopez
special thanks to buck chrisman for helping us with chants:)

so now i think that ive lost you
ill throw away our wedding rings
ill never see you again
and ill live alone
sitting on the edge of the bed
waiting for you to come back home tonight
oh please just come back home tonight

but dont you try
to make it any better or worse than it has to be
i swear ill keep trying
until my body dies

honest to god
i dont wanna feel again

(look what you did to me, im drowning in lakes again)

you found me with some scissors in my hair
cut my life beyond repair

annabelle, cover your ears cause i know that
youve always hated screaming
but i dont know how else to feel

just married

by zacc gibson and ray lopez

can i be happy if im a part of it all
when youd hold me tight
tell me ill be alright
but in 2 years it'll change everything
about me

but what the fuck do i do now?

i think ill finally call you
and think that we'll do
the things that we used to
post it on youtube
they all think it revolves around you

i feel better now

it could work
if we hadn't felt any better than we did

it could work
if just had felt any better than we did

if i had just felt any better than i did

do you know
how much damage you've done to me?
(i've been wasting all my time but i thank you for the memories)

can i be happy if im a part of it all
when youd hold me tight
tell me ill be alright
but in 2 years itll change everything
about me

can i be happy

lennart larsen!

by zacc gibson

did you forget
the words you said
i thought that i was making progress
but instead i was making a mess
backpedal
to the point of no return

an anxiety attack but put into a song
did you forget you said forever when i asked how long you'd stay

but youll do anything to leave
and youll do just fine without me

hey
i tried to warn you but it wasnt
why i would escape
i told you i was waiting for something
i feel the same

i tried to warn you but it wasnt
why i would escape
i told you i was waiting for something
i feel the same

21, but not grown yet (acoustic)

by zacc gibson

so now i think that ive lost you
ill throw away our wedding rings
ill never see you again
and ill live alone
sitting on the edge of the bed
waiting for you to come back home tonight
oh please just come back home tonight

but dont you try
to make it any better or worse than it has to be
i swear ill keep trying
until my body dies

honest to god
i dont wanna feel again

(look what you did to me, im drowning in lakes again)

annabelle, cover your ears cause i know that
youve always hated screaming
but i dont know how else to feel
(honest to god, i dont wanna feel again)

just married (acoustic)

by zacc gibson

she knows exactly what im going to say
"i still love you but it's way too late"
but who am i to act like
i deserve it back

well im not broken just yet
i feel the walls falling to my legs
and i dont want to move cause
the sweet release of death
has tempted me for oh so long

but you of all wants to know
why i call this place home

i think ill call this hell
cause you wanna make it
ill never make it
just fake it 'till you make it
but thats too hard to do

i slept in my car today
i have a house but i dont deserve it
was this whole thing even worth it
for 2 fucking years of self hatred
im so fucking selfish

i think ill call this hell
cause you wanna make it
ill never make it
just fake it till you make it
but thats to hard to do

we hate best dad ever (acoustic)

hopeless romanchicks (and i didnt die alone)

lennart larsen! - remastered

we hate best dad ever - remastered

21, but not grown yet - remastered

just married - remastered

21, but not grown yet - first version

cover song originally by camping in alaska

dragon ball z budokai tenkaichi 4

we like modern baseball

i died on argos rd.

lennart larsen! (acoustic)

i died on argos rd. (acoustic)

written by:
zacc gibson
cain sosa
edgar rivas

and working's a pain when you always stay drunk
and living gets hard when you're swimming with a rock
thank god i heard that today

and i'm seeing the things no one should see
should i pack up in a hurry or should i just leave?
maybe i'll find out today

so i'll take myself so that i won't wake up
and i'll tear my eyes out so i can't see the sun
my lungs will explode from screaming at my reflection
there's a hole in the wall, where the bottle was thrown

tell me god, when will it end?
tell me god, when will it end?

and god if you know everything, then why am i a joke?
you'll spit in my face and make me feel like i'm playing the saint
i swear to god i didn't do anything wrong
i didn't do anything wrong.

so i'll take myself so that i won't wake up
and i'll tear my eyes out so i can't see the sun
my lungs will explode from screaming at my reflection
there's a hole in the wall, where the bottle was thrown

i gave myself time.

written by:
zacc gibson
cain sosa
edgar rivas

i'll never rush to put another bottle down
i know you've heard this story
and i don't know if i could get better than this
and in every situation you thought that i was better but i was really sinking
(down the)
right down the fucking drain

i wanna cut my hands off
the ones that you once held onto, when you had no one else to turn to
and now you don't give a flying fucking damn

no more
i don't want it

but please forgive me, i'm tired of living like a person without the legs to stand
(and i'll never rush to put another bottle down ever again)

how can i replace you?

cain, i am the danger!

written by:
zacc gibson
cain sosa
edgar rivas

i see the things that you can't
i really should've taken better care of myself

i tried to warn you and i'll tell you why
but i can't really tell you how i feel nothing at all

i thought i'd see you grow into a flower and i wanna tell you
but i just can't form the words

shit hawks

written by:
zacc gibson
cain sosa
edgar rivas

i'm kind of getting over the fact that i can't date
i'm acting like a problem that you caused in the first place
but here we are alone again
i'd like to be sober, but i can't

i thought things would be the same but it turns out that i still miss you
and i can't get my shit together, my mental state changes with the weather
when will i be happy again?

if you wanna find something to blame
then blame me

depends how hard i fall, i'll never walk again

give yourself time.

i'll try to release the tension between my shoulders
i'll walk down to the same old street where the house once stood
full of life and a tree in the backyard
and i held your hand so tight

another hat on the drain
i'll try to release it but you'll never see it coming
i don't know why i can't stop
maybe i need to grow up already

i'll never be the man the world wants me to be

goddard's deathwish (the dog)

this album is for the people who i have hurt in my life and for the people who have hurt me. it is a collection of musical/poetic confessions put into bullshit songs that people are going to listen to and thrive off of my self hatred and loneliness that i experience on a daily basis because of the decisions i have made in my life.

i do not know you, the person reading this, but if you came across this and you are in need of help, put down your headphones or speakers and call a friend or family member. please help yourself and give yourself time.

this is for amayah, and the things i need to get off my chest because i have been living with copious amounts of guilt ever since i hurt her the way i did. i'm glad i still get to talk to you sometimes. i'm glad you are still in my life. but i'm hanging on by a thread. amayah i will always love you and value the patience you showed me. and i will always be sorry no matter how many times you tell me i am forgiven.

cain and edgar thank you for helping me put my brain into a sound. i love you guys and i hope we can make more music down the line. i don't know if i can keep doing this. but i'll take my own advice and fight. ya'll some talented mofos

to the listener, here is my brain, put into songs i guess.

our world, we created, evil.

i'm helpless against all odds
but dude i dunno life's been throwing me curveballs lately

and i told you why i feel this way, but i can't help it

counterproductive under claims
i didn't do anything wrong

don't you ask me
don't you tell me
how i'm doing
i'm just fine.

i'll try to comprehend the planet
and the people are evil
and i'll cry screaming for help

bing fuckio! (box drill)

shit hawks (acoustic)

pop punk ded lol (acoustic)

give yourself time (acoustic)

party animal (preferably a sea turtle) (acoustic)

rome wasn't built in a day, but neither was my cyberbullying record (acoustic)

untitled garbage

I used to be a big, bright home
Where the lights stayed on and the floors felt warm
You carved your name in the old front door
The walls still hum with the life that we once swore

You built those tracks and caught your train
Then left me talking to picture frames
Said you would call when the world slowed down
But I don’t think I'll ever hear that sound

You're moving fast and I stay behind
Watching your world blur past the lines
The house won’t fall this ain’t enough
I always find a way to fuck this up

The windows shake when the whistles blow
The ceilings crack when the cold winds roll
The dust stacks high on things we swore
We wouldn’t leave behind before

Somewhere, you're still picking fights
With ghosts you've made, laid up at night
Somewhere, I'm still standing still
Like dead leaves caught on your window sill

You're moving fast, I’m losing ground
The tracks keep shaking, the world spins loud
The past comes back, it always does
And I'll always find a way to fuck this up

best dad ever

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