Name: memories of the past by bian
Duration: 1 min
Description: Spotify: open.spotify.com/artist/5QHoUe5kwjvOfjfHrbVTBY

with @counterxo and @clay0127 prod @yashio20k @hartfxlt

lyrics:

(xternalz)

its not the same now
cause im lying face down
i just miss the way that we used to be
i cant face it
oh i cant take it

and if i could close the distance now
i would see you in my room
or see you on the couch
i'd do all i could
i'd do all i could

(clay)

i feel the rain, withered, wear me down
wash away and drain me out
only ever holding on
youll never find me standing proud
shoulders slumping over
like a boulders covering me now
im searching for closure
in an open casket
bury me now
dont come no closer
its only pain when i come around
post trauma hasnt left
now im alone and staring up at the clouds
i hope youre watching me
cause im still hearing every sound
and i still see you in my room
searching for solid ground

(counter)

It feels so different
I’ve been so distant
You hear what I say but will you actually listen?
We can’t be afraid to make the harder decisions
What we thought was fate gets in the way of our vision
See your ghost in my room
Your eyes in the stars, they light up with moon 
I try to get out, but my past just consumes my head
I need you here instead

(xternalz)

its not the same now
cause im lying face down
i just miss the way that we used to be
i cant face it
oh i cant take it

and if i could close the distance now
i would see you in my room
or see you on the couch
i'd do all i could
i'd do all i could

distance

distance w/ clay & counter (hartfxlt + yashio)

Spotify: open.spotify.com/artist/5QHoUe5kwjvOfjfHrbVTBY

memories of the past

prod @omgisai

you took it all and left
no baby i'm so tired of the way you make me feel
my life has been hella boring
look at me i'm a fucking mess
i lost all capabilities of making something right
i'm starting to think the worst
i know it's not healthy but this feeling is a curse
i liked when we talked about the shit that made you laugh
now i'm stuck on the little things i'll wait until i crash
who will take the blame?
if i look back in two years am i the same?
yeah i love my life because i treat it like a game
everyone that I've ever encountered is insane (but who am i to-)
at the end of the night
i miss how you liked
i know its not right but it keeps me up all the time

took it all cover @omgisai

new song w coldspades and may, prod meta and me <3
@coldspades
@ilymay
@pyu

lyrics

(coldspades)

if i called your phone, would you pick it up?
every night i’m scared that i’ll mess it up
i’m so high off you, you’re my only drug
don’t know how to say you’re the one
and i can’t let you go
so can you hold me close?
this love i wanna show
my head spin, vertigo
don’t wanna be alone
i want you, say ditto

(may)

tell what you want girl you know u deserve it
i can be the one i won’t do a disservice 
don’t throw me away like i know u would 
think i feel for u
soon as u set foot
every touch is a high 
it’s js you and i 
baby we can take flight 
if i could
take you to the stars

coldspades ft. may - vertigo (meta & shoiyi)

"have to confess" produced by @symelz
Performed/Written by @counterxo

have to confess (symelz)

prod me and @rewind214

focus now
dont let this fall out now
theres no coming back
this time will be the last
i dont...

i dont want to talk
you lost that chance long ago
at the epilogue
and it didnt last long

oh, i feel now in this room
a ghost that praying on my doom
its calling out and i cant run now
falling down

i feel it behind me
waking up to a cold sweat
now everything is all a mess
tell me what you want me to do
you say the same thing
every time
i take the blame when
its not mine
i just dont understand it
and i dont know
whats the point of your message now

focus now
dont let this fall out now
theres no coming back
this time will be the last
i dont...

i dont want to talk
you lost that chance long ago
at the epilogue
and it didnt last long

epilogue

epilogue (xternalz + rewind)

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prod by @0shimamura

lyrics:

@peiflowy
This shit is feeling strange
I'm feeling hella pain
I'm calling out your name
Gotchu you stuck in my brain
Looking at your face
My eyes hit the floor
I think I'm giving hints
Pretty sure that you know
Think I loved you from the start
Gave you everything in my heart
Swear that I played my part
Hope that we go far

@trustohm
Now I'm lost in the dark
feelin' cold in my heart
you was there at the start
but you tearin' apart
Now I'm chillin' alone
staring down at my phone
hopin’ you hit my tone
but you left, now you gone

I was real, I was true
gave my time all to you
now I don’t know what to do
got me stuck in the blue

@haunted_sad
Yeah, yeahh 
I didn't know like what to do
Living in the past, all these #memoriesofu
Crystalized in my heart you just really gleamed
Remembein the past baby, it still haunts me
Yeah, baby, always knew I was the issue
You left me hollow to the core, yeah, I don't miss u
I can't remember the days where i felt alright
Loopin back in my head I think I wna die

gone - pei flowy + trustohm + haunted_sad (shimamura)

#4 172bpm prod youhearevan

new beat 9/2

My Baby (Intro) - Instrumental

for the love of sound #diary #plugg

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