Thank you too @majoraeclipse for the outro aaaahs and the hook backing, as well as basicly doing most of the mixing and to Slickback for the idea for the 2nd hook breakdown as well as the 2nd backing and the screamo shit!
Love you boys <3

Lyrics:
I will never forget yet i wont ever cry bout you at all
And all the words we said had me almost dead after your call
How I tried to provoke love just to feel anything at all
All the things on my back were always bound to take their toll

Say you love me,say you love me now
else why the fuck I'd get up in the morning
And how Im feeling so off the ground
while im living in the pictures that your drawing
haunt me oh haunt me now
so I can feel a little bit of something
Oh help me the boy I found
Can't live without your words to mold him

My love is a chemical thing
Abstract to my eyes - dragging my wings
And your love is a deadly sin
cause I was taught - that I'm undeserving

When the day's passed I'm lonely
Dont wanna need someone to hold me
I'll give you what you wanted
Cause your expectations haunt me

The real me I'll discard
cause he holds no value to you
And the things that I love
I'll learn to hate them for you

I'm at the top of the stairs but im out of breath
If you push me now I might snap my neck
Once the wounds had healed I missed the fight
Like I hated the thought that I had survived

And all that I wanted I got
Is it just not what I thought?
Again 
Again

And I love them to death
But I hate each fucking breath
that ties me to a life that you build

When the day's passed I'm lonely
Dont wanna need someone to hold me
I'll give you what you wanted
Cause your expectations haunt me

The real me I'll discard
cause he holds no value to you
And the things that I love
I'll learn to hate them for you

When the day's passed I'm lonely
Dont wanna need someone to hold me
Ill give you what you wanted
Cause your expectations haunt me

The real me I'll discard
cause he holds no value to you
And the things that i love
ill learn to hate them for you

Give yourself to the universe
They'll let you know just what you are worth
And once you get what you deserve
Their words will still make you bite the curb

Expectations

hope you guys like this one

prod. xkaz
photo in cover art shot by william bailey (@zephnos)

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i'm fine with being a ghost so you'll forget me

I've Watched My World Drown (prod. by Brody)

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Lyrics:
(when's my time, when i'm with you i'm fine, shawty wanna mess mind but i feel alive, yeah)

when’s my time
when i'm with you i'm fine 
shawty wanna mess my mind, but i feel alive 
loving really hurts my soul 
chilling in my room i roll
so waste my life, break my heart 
loving was a craving now it really isn’t much 
taking all these hits i don't feel it in my lungs  
i just wanna feel numb 
i just wanna go run, from all the pain 

run from all the pain
i feel it in my brain
this heartbreak left a stain 
i'm crying in the rain
im too hurt i don’t want you now 
got no heart and you let me drown 
fell too hard never left the ground 
everyone’s fake im too stressed out
i hate that you left me and you didn’t even tell me 
fading like a movie baby you said that you love me 
it's all a lie, rest in my bed and i think it's my time 

when’s my time
when i'm with you i'm fine 
shawty wanna mess my mind, but i feel alive 
loving really hurts my soul 
chilling in my room i roll
so waste my life, break my heart 
loving was a craving now it really isn’t much 
taking all these hits i don't feel it in my lungs  
i just wanna feel numb 
i just wanna go run, from all the pain

BigBozoJohn - When's My Time

Thicker Than Water

Written and recorded by @Alainite
Produced by @in-bloom-757395817 x @hellosloani
Mixed & Mastered by @hellosloani
Artwork by @ScottySplash

Been spending so much time watching all these clouds go by
Yeah I don't waste my time with you
Sit and waste the day so high thinking 'bout the sight of you
But I'd do it again and again and again

And I promise that I'll find time
To be the last thing you'll see tonight
I made a promise that I'll find time
To be the last thing you'll see tonight

To be the last thing you'll see tonight
To be the last thing you'll see tonight
And I've been trying harder, I do it all for you
To be the last thing you'll see tonight
Cos girl you're worth the fight, oh
Yeah girl you're worth the fight

Yeah I been grinding days and through nights trying to get your heart in sight
I got no time to waste at all
I sit here rolling green through the night thinking 'bout you by my side
And I'd do it again and again and again

And I promise that I'll find time
To be the last thing you'll see tonight
I made a promise that I'll find time
To be the last thing you'll see tonight

To be the last thing you'll see tonight
To be the last thing you'll see tonight
And I've been trying harder, I do it all for you
To be the last thing you'll see tonight
Cos girl you're worth the fight, oh
Yeah girl you're worth the fight
Yeah girl you're worth the fight

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Worth The Fight (Prod. In Bloom)

skele - so long | Editing.Biteki.YT

ILH2 (feat. quip)

[interlude] Open Your Mind (feat. Weepings)

First EP ever <3
Thank you so much for this year, these past 2 months have been amazing and the support has been unreal, I am forever grateful and thankful <3

💔Links : linktr.ee/notkeaven
Inspired by iLLfaith

skele - so long | Editing.Biteki.YT

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