(there's a few glitch bits, sorry about that)
Took awhile but I finally got something done this summer,
hope youre doing well :)

7/23/21



ღღღ
https://youtu.be/Xnl2XYGWju4

Shut Up

Happy Halloweenor 
wrote this in class after I got my phone taken away before fall break
enjoy!
yes im aware its messy and i sound like a 12 year old (and some of the audio is CHOPPY)! <3
I STILL MISS MY SCOOTER. 

10/31/21


/╲/\╭(ఠఠ益ఠఠ)╮/\╱\
https://youtu.be/BIOHi5XSf3A

SCOOTER THIEF

You live in my head, but here's the twist.
You live in my head.. so you don't exist. 
You aren't real, that's all there is
and I'm okay with the truth!
But when I think about you when I'm in class
Or just for time to go by fast..
I hold your hand, and smile for awhilee
you say I look pretty; and then we kiss
You help me stay awake when life is shit.
Encourage me to dreamm (don't make fun of it)

My favorite secret,
you're my favorite secret.
but sometimes you look like me..
Is that bad? 





❥Instrumental: 
https://youtu.be/7E0OvslndKo

MY FAVORITE SECRET

i finisheddd somethingg!
lets goooooooooooooooo
5/18/22
ᕦ( ᐛ )ᕡ
if you saw this accidentally get deleted - no you didn't

Lyrics:
(after audio intro) 

it's getting so close to the end;
I think it's time for me to make my own best friend! 
(I had friends but they're all busy getting high) 
craving a deeper connection, 
I'll accept the small imperfections -
(givvee outt) as long as you do the same

>and 
I know we don't talk anymore
but I'll still leave the backdoor open once more<
(I had friends but they're all busy getting high) 
I'm the nice guy I won't say nothin' about it anymore >

it's getting close to the end.. 
time to be my own best friend! 
healthy isolation, 
a great addiction to self loving self. 
hold on a little longer (hold onn) 
hold on, a little bit more (hold onn) 

hold on {3x}
hold on to me


- BACKDOOR (iphone 4 muzik) -



❥Instrumental is from this channel:
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCTCBYPPjdxhwubBVfresSKw

BACKDOOR

˚₊‧꒰ა ☆ ໒꒱ ‧₊˚
(I wanna shine, dont close your eyes.
make you go blind dont change your mind.)

We are close one day then never again
We are both snakes and then we pretend
We are everything
Its all one big dream

I used to say “hey” but now we’re not friends
Couldnt open up
Wonder why you never earned my trust
Maybe cause when i talk to you
You dont really hear me like you do!

Maybe when i start to shine;
You tell me to "fuck off"
Maybe when i make you mine
You say “no. i am the boss”

I just want some air to breathe
Baby you are strangling me
I cant make it       in the sea
baby you are     strangling me

I wanna shine, make you go blind
Dont close your eyes. dont change your mind.

You couldve let me be your starrrrr
We couldve made it very farrrr      (we didnt make it that far)
and now im hitting you with a car..
we couldnt get that far.

(cred: attomakesbeats) 

I Wanna Shine

✩

It wouldn't have happened if it got better.
I see the rain clouds and i think it's a good setter.
Running out to the swings, one step ahead of me is someone like you.
we could swing together - in the rainy weather

I WOULD RATHER RUN AWAY, 
MAYBE GO TO A BRAND-NEW SPACE
WITH SOMEONE LIKE YOU

I WOULD LIKE TO SING AND DATE
TAKE UP ALL THE SPACE
WITH SOMEONE BRAND NEW

I WOULD LIKE TO RUN AWAY 
AND NEVER COME BACK AND SAY 
"I thought you were wrong"
I dont want to second guess 
I just want to do my best
AND SING YOU A SONG!

I think its my turn to talk to the sky now
(Youre my moon)
They told me that I should smile when you are around 
(Youre my sky)
And i didnt think i could get this type of feeling off my chest
(Youre my guy)
Say you feel the same and I'll feel like I'm the best

I WOULD RATHER RUN AWAY AND MAYBE GO TO A NEW PLACE
WITH SOMEONE LIKE YOU 
(You're my moon) 
RUNNING ON THE STREETS, TO THE PARK AND THE BEACH
CAUSE I DONT KNOW WHAT I SHOULD DO 
(You're my star) 
I AM READY TO LEAVE, THIS ALL BEHIND.
TAKE MY HAND
hold it tight.

You told the stars all about me,
and i told the moon how i think you are pretty
its like fair trade.
wont get in the way.
we can do our change
in a safe place / at a safe pace

I WOULD RATHER RUN AWAY AND GO STRAIGHT TO SPACE
TO LOOK AT THE SKY
VISIT NEW PLANETS (THAT ARE PRETTY)
THAT WE CANT AFFORD TO BUY
I THINK THIS IS FINE
ENOUGH FOR ME - ENOUGH FOR YOU
we're leaving.


---
Prod: wetgropes

RUNAWAY

crunchy loud birthday song 
im experimenting!! can you tell? 
this ones about - 
𖦹  ✮ ⋆ ˚｡𖦹 ⋆｡°✩

WILL YOU LET ME BE WHAT I WANT?
WILL YOU LET ME BE WHAT I WANT TO BE?
The glass looks wide looks wide and thin
the past cant hide cant be present
I KNOW YOU KNOW WEEEEE KNOW WHY!
I paint A life 
I paint my life 
I dont want to strive (alright, i cannot dive/strive) 

WONT YOU LET ME BE WHAT I WANT?
WONT YOU LET ME BE WHAT I WANT TO BE?
BE WHAT I WANT TO BE BE WHAT I WANT
BE WHAT I WANT TO BE
WHAT DO I WANT
WHAT DO I WANT TO BECOME?
wouldn't it make more sense if I was gone/god? 
(gone god gone god WRONG) 
Trying to live in this ball of a farm.

I dont know what Im doing any-more
I dont know
if its right if its wrong if its flight
do i fight?
do i cry? what do i do tonight?
Its all alright - don't know who I wanted to be - its all the flight
I don't understand me, or you, or them
...(will you)

thanks to the tasty beat maker: LuarLang

WILLYOU / WONTYOU

( prod.  dandmwn ) 
:))))
ear melting mix

If i were to go up on the stage
would you ALL be LAUGHING at ME 
AND CALLING ME MEAN. NAMES?! 
OR WOULD YOU HEAR ME 
(WOULD YOU HEAR ME) 
do you hear me now? 
cant you hear me? 
(CANT YOU HEAR ME?) 
please just hear me out (NOW)
(HEAR ME OUT) 
can you hear me when I'm speaking up loud
will you hear me
(WILL YOU HEAR ME) 
IM TRYING TO SOUND MY BEST NOWWWWWWW
THIS IS WHAT I GET FOR BEING MEEEEE
THIS IS WHAT I GET FOR BEING ME
this is what i get
(this is what i getttt) 
for being me. 
would you hear me? 
are you hearing me out? 
do you hear me? 
(DO YOU HEAR ME) 
AM I BEING LOUD? 
DOES IT HURT YOUR EARS 
OR YOUR EYES
IF YOU DON'T LIKE IT (what!)
YOU CAN STEP OUTSIDE!! 
and this what i get for being ME
and I'm annoying and I'm unstable and I'm unable to decipher what I wnt to say
but cant you hear me? 
WONT YOU HEAR ME
CAN YOU HEAR ME NOW? 
do you hear me
or am I annoying you with my loudmouth?

HEAR ME

Instrumental prod. by someone
I lost their user, but credit goes to them!

⋆౨ৎ˚⟡˖ ࣪ 

the ocean grows 
you see it flowing 
the all knowing shows
everythings snowing 
but i want the fall. 
 have it all 

walk at the park
find an old couple 
ask them what sparked
they'll say well several 
cut the story short - I must be sure

round and round 
the hard way
still leads to an end
still leads to a new beginning 
round and round im spinning 
fall to the ground 
watch the ceiling dance and dance and dancing 

I can’t see my steps in the snow 
if it keeps on growing 
Step very gently on the cold, it’ll break before you know

Have It All

2/21/19
Maybe im just tired

8/1/19 
- yes i know i sound kinda ugly but i dont remember why i was feeling this way.
love really makes me sad sometimes but ahahahha, life goes on


11/8/21: CURRENT
I like the way this sounds now, i was close minded back then but its nice to reflect on my past self :)

From: The Old You

Creep - Radiohead [pooCOVER]

welcome to something 
lyric writing & vocal mixing
learning how to create what I want to 
open to collaboration 

  thanks for visiting & take care !!
                              <3
other projects im in: 
https://soundcloud.com/creepymonsters
https://soundcloud.com/seemeeye2eye
https://soundcloud.com/jay_peez

Guvviann

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