fucked up neverland

Your the one

[Verse 1]
I picked a thought from the garden of noise,
It dripped down my hand like a voice,
Tasted sweet, then turned to static,
Guess I bit off something tragic.

I watered my doubt with caffeine dreams,
Grew a forest out of broken schemes,
Every color bled through time,
And I forgot which head was mine.

[Pre-Chorus]
All the clocks are bending slow,
My shadow hums in stereo,
If I speak too loud I fade,
Just fruit on a branch I made.

[Chorus]
Mindfruit — dripping from my ceiling,
Juice of all my twisted feelings,
Peel it back and watch me shine,
Rot or bloom, it’s all divine.

Mindfruit — bite it if you dare,
I’ve got galaxies tangled in my hair,
The seeds all hum, they know my name,
But nothing ever grows the same.

[Verse 2]
I swallowed a song and forgot the words,
Now melodies flutter like psychic birds,
They perch in my skull and sing in code,
While my body walks a different road.

Lick the light, it tastes like fear,
But I keep coming back every year,
This orchard grows where logic ends,
And every branch forgets to bend.

[Bridge]
The colors melt through veins of sound,
My roots lift off the haunted ground,
Can’t tell if I’m real or fruit of thought,
But every dream I’ve sold, I bought.

[Final Chorus]
Mindfruit — dripping through the dawn,
Reality hums, then it’s gone,
Peel it open, let it slide,
Bite the core and watch me hide.

Mindfruit — bitter, bright, and free,
Growing wild inside of me,
The sweetest taste of what’s not true,
But I keep eating just for you.

i left my body in the mirror

Bill Austin - concept and mix    Gary Rich - atom bombs and prompts

OVER the RAIL - Bill Austin

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Lyrics 

Let me go 

Another day, another scar.
Deal breaker, we won't get far. 
You look at me with blank, cold eyes.
My screams unheard, too many lies. 

Another day, another scar.
Deal breaker, we won't get far. 
Judge. attack. No understanding.
Soul shattered. No chance of healing.

I run, run, run away.
Feel this life is killing me.
You don't care, you never did.
Please end this show. 
Let me go.
Let me go.

You say you care, but that's a game.
Hold me close to ignite the flame.
Tears I shed, I'm about to break.
I've been so blind for heavens sake.

I run, run, run away.
Feel this life is killing me.
You don't care, you never did.
Please end this show. 
Let me go.
Let me go.

I know you're not a real friend.
It's time to stop and pretend.
Unbearable loneliness.
Tomorrow's never promised.

I run, run, run away.
Feel this life is killing me.
You don't care, you never did.
Please end this show. 
Let me go.
I run, run, run away.
Feel this life is killing me.
You don't care, you never did.
Please end this show. 
Let me go.
Let me go. 

© Sarima 

#music therapy 

Let me go

You Love Me or You Dont

Back to u(Remastered)

drifting

Kingdoms Lost Away was, in my opinion, one of the best off the album. It's about someone I met in the fall, my expectations for the future, and the struggles along the way. 
The song starts with a smooth bass line and a man coughing in a coffee shop. It continues with a rap/rhyme of every thought that came to my head at the moment. After the rap has processed in your head, a synthesizer fades in with harmonizing vocals. 
Everything is recorded in a 17-year-old's bedroom, with an old synth, a few vintage guitars, a gifted bass guitar, and a 17-year-old bum.

I drew the album cover in 2024 and decided it fit the song nicely.

Kingdoms Lost Away

The clock spins round its weary face
Time's a thief we can't replace
Will you still love me when the lights go low

When the mirror cracks and the colors fade
When the songs we sang start to feel homemade

Will you still love me when the stars forget to shine
Will you still hold me when the world leaves us behind
When the winds grow cold and the stories get old
Will you still love me
Still love me like you did tonight

The rain taps soft on the window's edge
A rhythm of doubt I can't escape
Will you still love me when the answers aren't clear

When the nights stretch long and the silence grows
When the fire burns low but the embers glow

Will you still love me when the stars forget to shine
Will you still hold me when the world leaves us behind
When the winds grow cold and the stories get old
Will you still love me
Still love me like you did tonight

Video:  https://youtu.be/kSSV5Sz7n-g?si=00_0d-ukBiw2uesp


Will You Still Love Me

Lifetime lie 



Let’s just bury your lie by closing our eyes.
There's truly no alternative now.
It’s your fault, you see.
I’ve been trying to forgive you.
But this wound hits my ego too keen.
I feel absolutely shattered.
I can’t bear our gaze to ever convene.
Your tears and your pleading don’t give me pleasure.
Answer yourself, is he any better, at all?
Was any of this worth your poor measure?
Bitch!
I’m trapped in this vicious circle, the angels descended from Heaven, yet I’m the demon in their midst.
A lightning strike on the very spot where I stand, not once, but a hundred times.
Your betrayal stings right at my sense of pride.
But my feelings won't let me leave you on the other side.
It’s a dead-end, a cruel tie.
This is pain for an age, a lifetime lie.
I tried to make the best of it.
But the truth just feels like cold cement.
Every whisper now is a fractured sentiment.
And I cannot unsee what you meant.
Did you always feel that something was missing in your heart?
Why did you keep silent from the very start?
I lived for you, with every single part.
And what happens now, where do we take this art?
How absurd and silly, they say a man is monogamous by design.
And this is the final score. My control, refined.
And your betrayal of what was meant to be mine.
Wailing, you whisper, “Just kill me, I deserve my due.”
But I don’t wish death upon you, I simply do not.
I just wish to leave, to flee, to sink through the earth to escape this rot.
Let’s just bury your lie by closing our eyes.
I’m trapped in this vicious circle, the angels descended from Heaven, yet I’m the demon in their midst.
A lightning strike on the very spot where I stand, not once, but a hundred times.
Your betrayal stings right at my sense of pride.
But my feelings won't let me leave you on the other side.
It’s a dead-end, a cruel tie.
This is pain for an age, a lifetime lie.
Let’s just bury your lie by closing our eyes.

Lifetime Lie.mp3

... various musical projects involving guitar and bass player Bill Austin =

OVER the RAIL - Bill Austin

Bill Austin 1 / C.T.U

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