my focus freezes, vacant and lost internally for eternity. it feels forever. the moment of fear, of dismissive resistance. when i try to speak its quiet without conviction. ive been led astray. no notice and ive changed. im not here anymore. i don’t belong screams my mind. this is the danger you’ve worked so hard to run from, to hide from. i sit in salty water with a weightlessness that numbs my body. confrontation. truth. i seek internal truth because there i can disguise the ugliness with veils of warm hope. hope that i can stand above the water. its here now the visceral experience of life. it might be hard but its so real. ive denied myself the textures of feelings for too many relationships. see the beauty of the rugged ridges of the rock for its history is a millennia of pressure. this world is full of hardship and i am not alone in its formation. i am too the dying microscopic organisms that sinking down to the bottom of the sea collects in a mound of skeletons turning the water a milky blue. piling up turning to a soft ooze as the pressure builds and we compact and harden transforming our bones to white rock. the uniformity of the rock, forming the land in which new life thrives, is a testament to the slow drift of life where the consistency is the cycle of it all.

Teri Mantere - Beautiful Being
Sy & Unknown - Are You Afraid?
noctilucents - 時間よ 行きましょう
Kassandra K. Bak - 1drop
T5UMUT5UMU - Tropical Biodiversity
St Costa - Cold Jungle
HP: 925 MP: 463  - NSX00
Oxhy - Everybody's Type OST 2019
XIAO QUAN - Penelopes Fiance ft. Xyn Cabal x 1011
米良治彦 - Angel’s Cry
Piano Princess - 'Serena's Flowers In The Sun'
Know V.A. - Trauma
Exodia - 825 hp
Spiritbox - Belcarra
XIAO QUAN - LM X AN System

captain-wins-lost-at-sea

exploring rocks hidden by high tide

walks along ancient cliffs
admiring green and blue in one view

flying kites, boys again
sharing childhood as brothers
the double loop passed on generations

bathing in silent sunsets
in awe of the beauty of each other,
of the earth and the perceived moment of overwhelming wonder

discussions of, true or not, this is god

a bike ride along a disused train line
peddling past each others smiles and laughter
parting nature together on our path of unconditional and comfortable love

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lightning bolt - pope // reverie - quiet life // ○◦˚.˚realworld - pat_16120  // love - quiltland // a crystal is on the very limit of being - ano ton // mistakes - astrid sonne & minais b // reminiscence - jjjacob // one lIfe (evian christ) - malibu // nissan silvia S15 [sunrise mix] - jg jour

m_series

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