Night time beautifies all our dopey eyes.
I wanna get dry.
Night time peutrifies all of our insides.
I wanna get high.
Night time dignifies all our little lives.
All our fears are blind, naked and divine.

The Ballroom

She says, "Baby, if I asked you would you hit me?
would you cut me?
If you loved me, would you help me if I begged you to save me?"

I couldn't touch you, if to punch you, just to hurt you 'cos you said so.
"If you begged me, I would hate you. If you made me desecrate you."

You are the padlock and I am the key.
When you fall apart then you don't need me.
"Degrade me."

If you wanted me to, I could spit at you.
I could lie to you.
I could fuck you so hard that you split in two.
If you asked me to, I'd leave you to rot in the vacuum of life without me.

"If you loved me, and I liked it, you should  do what I say.
Pain is the rose and I want the bouqet."
"I love you to shreds and I'd do what you  say, but that love makes me so weak that I can't obey.

Sequel

I'm taken in by the scars on your skin.
I'm well aware that you're damaged goods, and baby, that's why I'm  here.
You cry to me again, I'm attracted to the pain.
I'm self aware like an invisible man who knows that he isn't there.

I'm a bottomless jar of nothing.
You're filling me with something that makes me feel whole.
Better to wish you were dead than wish nothing at all.

But don't confuse me for a saviour. I'm not here to ease your pain.
I just need something to remember and you need someone to blame.

Attracted To The Pain

I hate myself today/ I'll hate you more tomorrow
Didn't have you yesterday/ am I really even worth the bother?
I wanna use you like a nApKiN/ and then I wanna throw you away
Integrity, morality, you're just another casualty and I don't really care if you've got nothing to say

I wanna make you wet, bleed you dry, sleep then have another try
Screw you up and leave you as nothing but a piece of white trash

I slept all day today/ I'll hate myself tomorrow
Couldn't get up yesterday/ without you there to validate me
I sold my soul today, didn't need it anyway

Napkin

Singing a song about a train wreck in a car yard.

All aboard the lover's train/ 
we're going to fast, you can't avoid the pain
Leave the tracks, my arms  are fucked/ 
I use my head, I'm gonna fill your cup
Live in sin, slip it in/
take my  word, you're going to make it hurt
Dead ahead, flower bed/
no way to  stop, I'm gonna fill you up

You say I'm good/ It goes on and on

I can't help but feel safe

I spy with my little eye
Something inside you that you  try to hide
I follow it in, chasing the sin
Now I'm trying to get out, but it's breaking the skin

Fire and Wood (Lovelands 2016)

Pre Bittercup demo from 2014.
"So I." is a snapshot of a moment of weakness, asking for faith against a lifetime of faithlessness.

So I.

Just a cute little diddy about being driven to distraction by all consuming obsession.


Any time I'm angry/ I think of you
Any time I'm lonely/ I think of you
Any time I'm horny/ I think of you
Any time I'm phoney/ I think of you
Any time I'm happy/ I think of you
Any time I'm ugly/ I think of you
Any time I get caught up in the headlight of a bad dream and no-one comes to save me
I think of you

Any time I'm sober/ I think of you
Any time I'm open/ I think of you
Any time I forget you/ I think of you
Any time I regret to/ I think of you
Any time I'm checking/ I think of you
Any time I'm bored too/ I think of you
Any time I think I'd like to scratch away from my brain and dig you out of me like dirt
I think of you

I'm a selfish little prick
When I'm treated like a bitch
I'd like to freeze you in my bed
So I forget you

I'm a selfish little prick
I tried to scrape you from my head
So in my mind you could be dead
And I could miss you

What do I think of you
I think I can't do
With out you
I break my adolescent bones
On the thought of you
But I'd like to
Redefine you
I break my wishbone

I can't remember
To forget you
I can't think of you
without needing to

I'd like to scrape myself away
So all thats left is you

I Think Of You

This is that demo I mentioned, have a listen and see if you'd like to play it live

No ID

Hey Stu, this should have sightly clearer bass.

My Heavy Heart (Live at Lovelands 2016)

We're just a band, looking at a music fan, asking them to love us. Based in New Plymouth and anchored towards the genre of Grunge Rock, Bittercup wish to be your next cathartic experience.