Indica Flower

All my friends are users some weren’t when we met
I was the first to do it and I’m so far ahead 
And I’m a mess just as usual the meds won’t take my breath
Cigarettes at ten and I’m as deep as I can get
An outlaw fugitive all alone in the cold
Light blunts of fluids in heavy stones on my soul
There’s only so far you can get and go without the antidote
Menthol camels smoke making holes in the snow

I put a parade on the edge and watch them fall one by one
All my dollars dropped on drugs off the marijuana blunt
I’m so numb knowing that I’m still a fathers son
My cold blood the wrong way that it rubs
I’m always picking shit up and I don’t ever put It down
Till my legs won’t run I will move great amounts
I’m a nuisance and loud fuming from pounds
That I use to hide my doubt just so I can feel proud

The seeds I dropped in the ground on the top of the mound 
Where the sun will shout with the blood filled sounds
Took the dirt and earned its worth 
And it began to surface from the worst of the earth
I can still have purpose even if I’m alone 
I take my pain and dump it slow hoping i can  grow 
When it rains I take a shower for my shallow soul 
Black hole bones with burn holes in my dome 

I put a parade on the edge and watch them fall one by one
All my dollars dropped on drugs off the marijuana blunt
I’m so numb knowing that I’m still a fathers son
My cold blood the wrong way that it rubs
I’m always picking shit up and I don’t ever put It down
Till my legs won’t run I will move great amounts
I’m a nuisance and loud fuming from pounds
That I use to hide my doubt just so I can feel proud

Take another look at me I will take advantage of
All the shit you took from me cuz I will not stand it no
I was so damaged so I learned how to manage from 
The drama you handed in the seeds that you planted 
Fell in my own hole I know it’s grave scene 
No more hope burn everything you gave me 
Cuz you can not hate me if you can not face me
I hate the way you say Z and you hate the way you made me  

I put a parade on the edge and watch them fall one by one
All my dollars dropped on drugs off the marijuana blunt
I’m so numb knowing that I’m still a fathers son
My cold blood the wrong way that it rubs
I’m always picking shit up and I don’t ever put It down
Till my legs won’t run I will move great amounts
I’m a nuisance and loud fuming from pounds
That I use to hide my doubt just so I can feel proud

Hate Me

Cant you see that
I got smudges on my records
Cracks in my vinyl spinning miles
Running wild like I don’t got a home 
Like I don’t want no smoke like I don’t know control 
And I stroll across the road in the night with no light on him 
Marijuana demon eyes I’ve been losing sight of him 
I been outside all night all alone 
In the quiet silence light from stars under moon 
I’m losing much mind cuz I’m tryna find life and I’m tryna get high 
Cuz I’m such a low life and I jump rope tied 
So low so so high alone for four four full nights
I don’t know why that I am like this
But I don’t like shit though I say I don’t mind it 
I try to find my mind it’s stranded on an island 
In the cold no society my anxiety

Can’t you see that
I’m so stressed woke up to this mess 
Please step aside cuz
I’m tryna get high
Indica come cut some relief for me
We wanna survive
I’m tryna get high

Drink all night off of antidepressants 
It’s depressing that I rely on prescriptions
Its so messy and I can’t make a message 
That I can’t trust myself with a weapon monsters in my head 
Where am I headed where do I belong
Im lost not strong you could see my bones through my arms 
All these demons hit my thoughts so I hit my head on the wall 
There’s no end no switch I can’t turn if off
I want it all to end I want it all to go away
I hate waking up it’s the same shit different day 
Take much drugs dealing pain with more pain 
I need Novocain shoot it straight in my brain 
Nobody see my problem and nobody cares that I got one
Depend on marijuana I don’t care that I got love
Cuz they all want a smile never want a a bad day 
Toxic positivity flooded all around me 

Can’t you see that
I’m so stressed woke up to this mess 
Please step aside cuz
I’m tryna get high
Indica come cut some relief for me
We wanna survive
I’m tryna get high

Do you see all these solids rocks in the palm of my hand
i take a lighter let it wither way in the air 
Disintegrate then medicate my lows
Liberate then levitate my soul
I don’t got hope if I don’t got dope 
I don’t lock loads if I don’t stock stores
Move like cobra blended with the floor below
Cuz I hate being noticed for the things that you know 
And I hate what I know the things that ive scene 
Spread my misery all over these dreams 
Cuz without this beat I’m a pathetic dying flower
Very shallow full of sorrow lackin all my power

Can’t you see that
I’m so stressed woke up to this mess 
Please step aside cuz
I’m tryna get high
Indica come cut some relief for me
We wanna survive
I’m tryna get high

indica

Paint A Perfect Picture

That look in her eyes they won’t stay the same for long 
Bottle up my rage I’m insane by the morning
Feel safe and calm she 
Keep say she got me 
She gave me what I wanted
Attachment in my heart think
I give you my time I’ll leave when you done 
Even though I lied I don’t hate what we was 
The drug in mind I’m always feeling dumb 
Always feeling numb even when I feel your touch

If I tell you secrets I know you won’t believe it 
If we make a promise girl I hope that you can keep it 
I been heart broke ain’t seen love in a minute 
I hope you call my phone darling cuz I need it
Keep this promise 
Heart broke honest
Got no knowledge 
Chronic godly 
You I wanted
Then we started
Your my darling 
I want a daughter

They say I’m okay
Always feeling pain
So blue
Walk me in the rain round the rocky road 
Baby you can’t shake shake a shallow soul 
When I am alone liquor all I know 
My liver is so broke weak in my bones
If I feel ashamed not okay would you come through 
If I shaved my head would you say I still want you 
My mind ain’t wanna cuff you my heart wanna love you 
I know I gotta trust you I struggle just to trust you
Cuz every girl I had lied and stabbed me in the back 
I don’t know enough but I had enough of that 
Confidence is the only currency I lack 
Insecurity I surely think you don’t got my back 

If I tell you secrets I know you won’t believe it 
If we make a promise girl I hope that you can keep it 
I been heart broke ain’t seen love in a minute 
I hope you call my phone darling cuz I need it
Keep this promise 
Heart broke honest
Got no knowledge 
Chronic godly 
You I wanted
Then we started
Your my darling 
I want a daughter

Surprised in my eyes
Everything you do is too true
We made this great place 
A place for me and you 
Place for me and you 

If I tell you secrets I know you won’t believe it 
If we make a promise girl I hope that you can keep it 
I been heart broke ain’t seen love in a minute 
I hope you call my phone darling cuz I need it
Keep this promise 
Heart broke honest
Got no knowledge 
Chronic godly 
You I wanted
Then we started
Your my darling 
I want a daughter

secrets

I let you 
Slip under
You hate the rain but
It’s my favorite weather 
Late night 
I sit in the dark 
I play these keys 
I don’t care about my heart
You stole 
My closure
We’re not
Sober
I’m drowning now
Sinking so low
The end is now 
Don’t think about closed doors

I can’t relate 
It’s taking my breath
I fade away
I admit I’m obsessed
In the end 
It will make you
Change
How could I fool you
If I held you loose
I get no closure 
If I close the door 
I am not golden 
I am so flawed
Fighting these ghost oh
I throw and I fall 

Each night 
I drink all my pain
I smoke this weed 
Popping MDMA 
My regret 
Consume me
Don’t see
That I bleed

I’m just like you too 
Tortured youth youth
Play the right notes
I lost all my keys 
Sing a sad song
See my misery 
 
I can’t relate 
It’s taking my breath
I fade away
I admit I’m obsessed
In the end 
It will make you
Change
How could I fool you
If I held you loose
I get no closure 
If I close the door 
I am not golden 
I am so flawed
Fighting these ghost oh
I throw and I fall 

I let you
Slip from under
You hate the rain but
It’s my favorite weather 
Late night I sit in the dark 
I play these keys 
I don’t think about my heart
You stole 
My closure
We’re not
Sober
I’m drowning now
Sinking so low
The end is now 
Don’t think about closed doors

I can’t relate 
It’s taking my breath
I fade away
I admit I’m obsessed
In the end 
It will make you
Change
How could I fool you
If I held you loose
I get no closure 
If I close the door 
I am not golden 
I am so flawed
Fighting these ghost oh
I throw and I fall

closure

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Indica Flower

Merceze