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kurtains - axel ocelot [lone ! flip]

art by voided+me+marsy
produced by me
backing vocals by @guiceb0x

marionette

EYE4NEYE

can i have you forever?

Orchid - Fall (Never Again)

a letter

im gonna be who i wanted

prod. me
yes i recorded the live instruments


lyrics:

can you see me?
can’t you see what i’ve become?
no, it’s not easy
know exactly what needs to be done
packing up again 
and nothing’s making sense
on the run again and it’s hopeless

you treat me like i’m dead
as if i am the one who killed h̶i̶m̶
i’m not the one you want 
and i can’t ever bring h̶i̶m̶ back
but i’m still here
but i won’t ever be enough 
but i’m still here
i couldn’t pretend forever

you said you loved me
until you knew who i am
we grew together
but you just took it all back
you said forever
forever’s all in the past
and i still can’t bring h̶i̶m̶ back
and i still can’t bring h̶i̶m̶ back

you were never by my side
so this is my last goodbye
to you
i’ll say this just one time

you always act like it was all my fault 
but you know i tried to get away from you
tried to get away from you
i watched you take all of my choices away
and try to shift all the blame 
now i can’t see you the same again
and i’ll never be
the person that you loved or rather
the person you tried to make me into
and you’ll never hear from me again
i’ve broken your curse
you have only gotten worse 

i just wanted to be me
all you wanted was to hurt me
did you want to hurt me?
well i won’t let you anymore
no i won’t let you anymore 

this is my body
the only one i’ll ever get to live in
this is no longer your body to control
to bend to your will
no longer your mind to manipulate and subdue
for the first time in a long time i feel finally free
free from your heavy, rusty shackles
free to love and be loved in return
and free to learn to love myself 
this is what i deserve, what i’ve deserved all along
and i’m not going to let you take it away from me
i’m not going to let you take it away from me anymore.

i’m
i’m done
i’m done
i’m done i’m done i’m done i’m done

i’m done with your nonsense 
i’m done with all your violence 
i’m done 
i’m so done
i’m done with all your violence

if you can't love me for me
let me go

i’ll never be what you wanted (let me go)
i’ll never be who you wanted me to be (let me go)
i’ll never be all you wanted 
from now on 
im gonna be who i wanted

im gonna be who i wanted

all you wanted

Recover

“Abstract” drifts between thought and nature — a quiet moment where echoes blur and rhythms breathe. It’s a first step into sound, born from raw instinct rather than rules. Made for nights when you’re not sure where you’re going, only that you’re alive enough to feel it. Let it play, let it breathe, let it disappear into you.”

EYE4NEYE

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