The channeled messages of the ongoing saga of BEAMEROS. 

Consisting of: 
Chapter 1: VOL 1: The Shell Transmissions (Tracks 1-5)
Chapter 2: The Lonely Lover Presents Beam.Radio (Tracks 6-17)
Chapter 3: THE LOST FILES:// PC_personal_crisis (Tracks 18-27)
Chapter 4: BEAMEROS PRESENTS: The Arrival  (Tracks 28-40)
Chapter 4: DBX in ROADRUNNER (Tracks 41-54)

Beam.Radio - the complete series

Blaine Beam presents DBX in ROADRUNNER, the director's cut. Now with 2 more songs, interludes, and more. Experience the full story in its entirety without interruption. 

DBX in ROADRUNNER
an album for the future

ROADRUNNER is a spiritual pop experimental album about motion, endurance, and the long confrontation with the self you cannot outrun. It traces the inner life of someone who believes movement will save them, only to discover that running is both the wound and the ritual. What begins as escape becomes exposure. What feels like collapse slowly reveals itself as agency.

The album unfolds like a journey measured in miles rather than milestones. Each track captures a different state of momentum. Frustration, rage, grief, numbness, collapse, reckoning, and eventual acceptance all surface along the road. There is no clean redemption here. Healing is not framed as a breakthrough moment or a sudden high, but as sustained effort, breath by breath, step by step. The central thesis repeats and evolves throughout the record: healing is not a high, it is a runner on the road.

In the world of ROADRUNNER, reinvention is often violent and imperfect. Songs like “bleached,” “SPF,” and “io.iwe” explore false resets, burnout, and the desire to erase oneself in order to feel pure or functional again. “ROADRAGE” ignites the record with immolation and reclaimed agency, while “5 of Swords” documents the aftermath of exhaustion when surrender feels inevitable. At the midpoint, tracks like “mile marker” and “Roadkill” sit inside grief and reckoning, where the body bears the cost of endurance and the runner questions whether they were ever chasing freedom at all.

The title track “ROADRUNNER” marks the turning point. It is the moment of realization that the thing being fled from has always been the self, and that escape is impossible. From there, the album begins to resolve. “Round About” closes the loop with clarity and release, while “Garden in the Machine” closes the record in quiet suspension, stepping into a new terrain that blends the organic and the constructed, the human and the technological, without demanding certainty.

Sonically, ROADRUNNER moves between distortion and stillness, abrasion and breath. Vocals are often raw, imperfect, and intentionally exposed. Some tracks hit like explosions, others dissolve into atmosphere. The production resists polish in favor of honesty, mirroring the album’s core belief that self acceptance is not clean, linear, or pretty. It is lived, strained, and earned.

ROADRUNNER is not an album about arrival. It is about staying with yourself long enough to stop running, long enough to listen, and long enough to recognize that agency is not found at the finish line but forged in motion. It is a record for anyone who has mistaken speed for freedom and discovered, painfully and beautifully, that their feet were always leading them home.

Blaine Beam Presents DBX in ROADRUNNER: Director's Cut

let a good thing happen 

(demo) 

prod. Austin Ramsey

I Want Your Love (demo) prod. Austin Ramsey

When something is good to you, it is good for you. 

The opposite of SZA's "I HATE U"

it's like hyperr&bpop 
(a work in progress)

Hot Toddy (demo) prod. Solo Otto

when it's meant to be, it's meant to be

demo

prod. Matthew may

Meant 2 Be (demo)

there's a treasure inside that I know you can find - I'm golden 

(to feel good, press play) VIBE WITH ME 

Prod. by P Eazy & Solo Otto 
DEMO

GOLDEN (demo) prod. P Eazy & Solo Otto

a reckoning and a declaration. 
INTERLUDE 

Track produced by Wurlishmouk. 

An idea in progress...

I've spent the better part of 3 years writing as the character called The Lonely Lover. This person, who feels like a robot alien, is always looking for love. But he keeps fucking it up. and this is the moment he realizes that he is his own problem. "Fuck it, I am a monster" -

6. ~**~*-{The Lonely Lover** pt 1}-*~**~ (dem0) prod wurlishmouk

an intoxicated invocation for love. When things get blurry.

Work in progress

Complete (demo)

what a damn break! 
This song is about the optimism after getting out of a toxic environment, when all things are possible. 
I couldn't wait to share with y'all. 

enjoy with me <3 

Prod. by

8. D♥e♥c♥a♥d♥e♥n♥c♥e (dem0) prod dongotbeats​​

Possibly my favorite track! 

Lonely Lover - The Sequel reimagines the first part. This song is about reclaiming your narrative. 

WE ARE ALL THE LONLEY LOVER!

Demo prod. by wurlishmouk (THANK YOU!!)

10. 𝔏𝔬𝔫𝔢𝔩𝔶 𝔏𝔬𝔳𝔢𝔯 - The Sequel (dem0) prod wurlishmouk

IWSN! (demo 1) prod wurlishmouk

wibOK? (demo 1) prod wurlishmouk

You may say "Blaine, this is a hard listen!" but ain't that how a personal crisis goes... 

The last year of my life has been chaos. I thought I was headed in one direction, but out of nowhere, I found myself in in the middle of a personal crisis. It has been unlike anything I've ever experienced. 

So I turned to music. I wanted to capture the moments of uncertainty. Each of the songs represents a different aspect of my identity crisis. 

it may be long, but it's a journey that I want you to experience the way I feel it. 

The Track list is as follows: 
1. OSIRIS (intro) - part 1
2. wibOK? (Will I be okay?)
3. iis (If I stay)
4. IWSN! (I want something new!)
5. dwtc (Don’t Want To Change)
6. L.G. (Loaded Gun) ft. ChatGPT
7. sos (Symptom of a system)
8. ica_FTP (I can always feel the pressure)
9. HERMES (interlude) - part 2 - sponsored post
10. LNC (late night call) 
11. BTS (between the sheets) 
12. A.S.S (another sad song) - presented by iMac
13. 4msd(10.11.01-10.27.23)_RIP.bbgrl
14. but wait! (imoverthis)

THE LOST FILES:// PC_personal_crisis

...i cant even look at u w/out feelin like ill stay

iis (demo 1) prod wurlishmouk

written during a panic attack. 
V PERSONAL

LG ft ChatGPT (demo 1) prod wurlishmouk

For Morgan Skylar Dean - gone too soon. 

On Friday, October 27th, 2023, I lost someone new and dear to my heart. I can't wrap my head around it. It's been hard to comprehend that this person, that I was in the room when she was born, is now gone. It's hard. Grief is hard. 

I love you forever, Skylar. This is for you. 

This is an attempt to turn my grief into art.

4msd(10.11.01 - 10.27.23)_RIP.BBGRL (demo 1) prod. jake the birdy

the general sense that you are FUCKKKKEDDDDDDDD!!!!!!!

Doom (demo)

MOVING ON! This song is about getting on with the story. Taking back your story and reframing it for you. This is an anthem!

Won't Look Back (demo)

This song was written from a place of desperation when I needed to hear. I needed the universe to speak to me. I needed to be moved. I needed a sign.  So this song is for anyone who needs to hear something - to see a sign - for that next step in their life. 

speak 2 me (demo)

Yeah I might be lost but im accepting that im exactly here. and through this - I will find my way. 

LOST! (demo)

This song is an anthem of frustration, liberation, and self-reclamation. This track delves deep into the raw emotions of feeling unseen, the pain of rejection, and the power of letting go. With lyrics that walk the fine line between despair and defiance, it captures the journey of breaking free from toxicity and rediscovering strength within.

While wrapping up the story, this song stands on it's on as a cathartic release for anyone who’s ever felt trapped but refused to stay down.

PS... im outta here (first take demo)

bleached
the first offering from ROADRUNNER

I wrote bleached in the middle of a long identity unraveling. It’s about the impulse to start over, to burn down who you were, change your hair, change your name, and hope the mirror finally recognizes you back. It’s about body dysmorphia, but also about the deeper ache underneath: the belief that transformation has to come through destruction.

In the world of ROADRUNNER, bleached is the false rebirth, the moments before acceptance, when you’re still trying to scrub the stain instead of understanding what it’s made of. It’s a song about chasing purity and finding ghosts instead.

I wanted it to sound like standing under fluorescent light at 2am, buzzed on reinvention and self-disgust, realizing you can’t bleach your way clean.

(from the album ROADRUNNER, a spiritual pop experimental collection about ego death, emotional reckoning, and the slow sprint toward self-acceptance. Coming in full soon.)


bleached - demo

SPF (Stupid Problematic Fckr)
The 2nd Offering of Roadrunner. 

SPF is about the heat of self-deception. The ways we block our own light while trying to protect ourselves from getting burned again. It started as a fuck-you song and turned into a confession about projection, shame, and the masks we wear to feel safe.

In the world of ROADRUNNER, SPF sits at the beginning of this emotional breakdown (breakthrough), when the armor starts to melt and the truth stings. “Cover my love” became the thesis of the track. It’s about the kind of protection that keeps you from feeling at all.

(from the album ROADRUNNER, a spiritual pop experimental collection about ego death, emotional reckoning, and the slow sprint toward self-acceptance.)

SPF (stupid problematic fckr) - demo

when you let me breathe
a track from ROADRUNNER

I wrote when you let me breathe in the middle of a reclamation. It’s about the exact second you realize someone never had the power they made you fear, that you were holding your breath because you were conditioned to, not because the air was gone.

In the world of ROADRUNNER, this track is the ignition point. It’s the shockwave that hits after the collapse, when the body pulls itself upright and remembers its strength. It’s about breath as rebellion, breath as clarity, breath as the end of someone else’s script.

Sonically, it’s meant to feel like getting punched by a blown-out bass in a beat-up 1997 Honda Civic ....  loud, distorted, and alive in a way that rattles something loose.

(from the album ROADRUNNER, a spiritual pop experimental collection about ego death, emotional reckoning, and the long sprint toward self-acceptance.)

when you let me breathe - demo

im not yet healed…
a track from ROADRUNNER

I wrote im not yet healed… on a night when survival felt like motion. It’s about the way we circle our pain, trying to outrun it with noise, neon, liquor, anything that keeps the silence at bay. It’s the part of the journey where you know you’re not okay, but admitting it out loud feels like too much truth at once.

Inside ROADRUNNER, this song sits in the low-light hours ... the part of the arc where you’re not collapsing anymore, but you’re not standing steady either. You’re coasting. You’re coping. You’re pretending the bar lights are enough to lift the weight off your chest.

It’s about loneliness disguised as nightlife, and the strange comfort of meeting someone else who’s lost in the same way. Two people floating, no answers, just a shared inhale in the middle of the noise.

(from the album ROADRUNNER, a spiritual pop experimental collection about ego death, emotional reckoning, and the long sprint toward self-acceptance.)

im not yet healed - demo

Lost Profit
a track from ROADRUNNER

I wrote Lost Profit during a time when faith and identity were tangled together so tightly I couldn’t tell where one ended and the other began. It’s about growing up being told your light was wrong, holy for the wrong reasons, or meant to serve someone else’s story. It’s about the anger and clarity that come when you realize you were never broken.

Inside ROADRUNNER, Lost Profit is the moment of spiritual defiance. It’s the part of the journey where you refuse the role you were written into and speak anyway. No choir behind you, no path laid out, no promise of being understood. Just a voice that won’t stay silent, even if it means walking into the fire alone.

This song is about reclaiming truth without needing it to be profitable. It’s about being seen or unseen, crowned or dismissed, and choosing to burn with integrity either way.

(from the album ROADRUNNER, a spiritual pop experimental collection about ego death, emotional reckoning, and the long sprint toward self-acceptance.)

Lost Profit - demo

io.IWE (If Only It Were Easy)
a track from ROADRUNNER

I made io.iwe in the moment where everything finally buckled. The point where you’ve tried every fix, every reset, every path forward, and nothing responds anymore. It’s the sound of emotional code crashing, a human operating system hitting its limit. That numb, exhausted space where giving up feels almost easier than pushing through.

In the world of ROADRUNNER, this is the internal shutdown sequence. The quiet collapse before the sprint. The moment where the whole self flickers, freezes, and hangs in that blank screen between who you were and whoever you’re supposed to become. It’s not dramatic. But it’s defeated and honest.

 It’s meant to feel like being trapped inside your own circuitry, hearing the hum of a machine that won’t boot, sitting in the static of uncertainty with no guarantee of a restart.

(from the album ROADRUNNER, a spiritual pop experimental collection about ego death, emotional reckoning, and the long sprint toward self-acceptance.)

io.IWE - demo

I wrote 5 of Swords right after a 36-hour crash out. It's the kind of collapse where time stops behaving and everything feels stretched thin and heavy. This was the first song written for the project, born in that raw, blurry place where exhaustion turns existential and every step forward somehow loops you right back to where you started.

In the world of ROADRUNNER, this is the breaking point before the story even begins. It’s the moment where the self is frayed, patience is gone, and the weight of your own thoughts becomes its own battlefield. There’s no victory here, no revelation. It's just the quiet surrender of someone falling on their own sword because there’s nothing left to fight with.

Sonically, 5 of Swords feels like limbo: droning, restless, cycling in place. Vocals that sound like someone barely staying upright, production that circles back on itself the way the mind does when it’s tired and spiraling. It’s meant to feel suspended like the days are too long, the nights too loud, and you’re waiting for something to break that never does.

(from the album ROADRUNNER, a spiritual pop experimental collection about ego death, emotional reckoning, and the long sprint toward self-acceptance.)

5 of Swords - demo

Used 2ba Stoner
an introduction to ROADRUNNER

I wrote Used 2ba Stoner as the doorway into the world of ROADRUNNER , as the moment where the narrator steps out of the haze, looks straight at the listener, and admits that the road ahead is going to hurt. The thesis is simple: healing’s not a high. It’s a runner on the road. This is the narrator choosing endurance over escape, sweat over shortcuts, truth over numbness. It kicks off Book 2 of The Books of Beam, setting the tone for everything that comes next.

In the world of ROADRUNNER, this song is the invocation. It’s the narrator saying, “The story I’m about to tell you is about grit, relapse, effort, and the long crawl toward becoming someone real. And yeah, it would be so much easier if I could just smoke something and coast. But I’m doing this the hard way this time.” It’s the announcement that the journey won’t be pretty, but it will be honest.

Sonically, Used 2ba Stoner is a loud ignition, a digital chorus swelling behind the narrator like a cracked-open sky, the first hit of the raw, jagged textures that define ROADRUNNER. It’s meant to sound like the engine turning over, the body waking up, the first gasp before the sprint. If you can lock into the vibes of this track, it carries you into the album’s world like a jolt to the nervous system.

(from the album ROADRUNNER, a spiritual pop experimental collection about ego death, emotional reckoning, and the long sprint toward self-acceptance.)

intro... used 2ba stoner - demo

mile marker
a midpoint from ROADRUNNER

I wrote mile marker for that exact instant when exhaustion turns emotional... when the run stops feeling heroic and starts feeling like a slow unraveling. It’s the midpoint of the journey, the place where you’ve been sprinting for miles and nothing looks different, where you can’t tell if you’re making progress or just circling your own ghosts. It’s sadness in motion: heavy, repetitive, familiar.

In the world of ROADRUNNER, this is the last deep sigh before everything breaks open. It’s the mile where the body feels hollow, the spirit feels scraped down, and you start bargaining with yourself about whether the finish line is worth it. You’re not who you were, but you’re not transformed yet either ... you’re stuck in the liminal ache, running beside shadows that feel as real as old memories you can’t fully name. This is the emotional low-visibility moment right before the clarity hits.

(from the album ROADRUNNER, a spiritual pop experimental collection about ego death, emotional reckoning, and the long sprint toward self-acceptance.)

mile marker - demo

ROADRUNNER
the title track from ROADRUNNER

I wrote ROADRUNNER for the moment when the whole chase finally collapses. It is that brutal, clarifying realization that the thing you have been sprinting from — the fear, the ache, the version of you you did not want to meet — has been running inside your own body the entire time. This is where the truth lands: you cannot outrun your own feet. And maybe you never needed to.

In the world of ROADRUNNER, this is the breakthrough. It is the penultimate moment. It is the instant where agency stops being theoretical and becomes lived. The runner stops looking over their shoulder and finally looks inward, seeing that the monster in the dark was only a confused and exhausted version of themselves asking to be acknowledged. This track represents the thesis in motion, acceptance as rebellion, and self-recognition as the finish line you did not realize you were racing toward.

Sonically, it should feel like running downhill too fast to stop until the moment clarity hits and you realize the only thing guiding you home is your own pulse.

(from the album ROADRUNNER, a spiritual pop experimental collection about ego death, emotional reckoning, and the long sprint toward self-acceptance.)

ROADRUNNER - demo

Roadkill
a track from ROADRUNNER

I wrote Roadkill from the place where the past and present collide so hard that you can feel the bruise forming under your skin. This song is the reckoning you try to avoid until it corners you. It comes from that moment when the mask cracks, when the exhaustion stops being metaphor and becomes the actual truth sitting in your chest. Roadkill is the point in the journey where you realize the path toward self acceptance is not clean, not linear, and not polished. It is messy. It is out of tune in places. It is real in a way that hurts.

In the world of ROADRUNNER, this track is the confrontation you cannot outrun. It holds the panic of being seen and the ache of being overlooked. It asks what happens when you no longer recognize your own momentum, when you cannot tell whether you are disappearing or finally showing up. This is the emotional wreckage you stumble through when you admit that something inside you has been decaying beneath the surface, no matter how hard you tried to scrub yourself clean. Roadkill circles the questions you whisper only when you are alone: do I rot where the world can see me, or do I scream until someone finally turns their head?

Sonically, Roadkill feels stripped open. The vocals sit raw and imperfect on purpose, because honesty does not shine. It sticks. It stains. The production leans toward grit and distortion, as if the song itself has been dragged across miles of pavement. It should sound like a body left in its own truth, the world speeding past while the heart beats slow and unsure. Roadkill is the sound of being reduced to your pieces and still choosing to look at them.

(from the album ROADRUNNER, a spiritual pop experimental collection about ego death, emotional reckoning, and the long sprint toward self-acceptance.)

ROADKILL - demo

ROADRAGE
a track from ROADRUNNER

Roadrage is the explosion that begins the pilgrimage. It is the moment the match hits the oxygen and the story finally combusts. This song kicks open the door after the intro, dragging the listener straight into the firestorm of everything the protagonist has been holding back. It is the sound of immolation. The self-burning clears the old skin. The rage purifies. This is the first violent honesty after years of swallowing your own truth.

In the world of ROADRUNNER, this track is the ignition point. It is the split-second where fear flips into fury and silence cannot hold the weight of the past anymore. Roadrage admits that pain did not just happen. It was inherited, inflicted, absorbed, repeated. This is where the runner finally decides to stop running from the wreckage and starts burning a path through it. The song makes no apologies for its fire or its ferocity. It recognizes rage not as destruction, but as reclamation. Rage becomes a force that can scorch the lies you were taught to carry.

Sonically, Roadrage is sharp, volatile, and combustible. The vocals hit like teeth bared, breath coated in gasoline. The production is built to crackle, snap, and ignite, a soundscape that feels like someone ripping themselves free with their own hands. Every line lands like shrapnel. This track is meant to feel hot and close, the heat that forces transformation, the moment when anger becomes the doorway to agency.

(from the album ROADRUNNER, a spiritual pop experimental collection about ego death, emotional reckoning, and the long sprint toward self-acceptance.)

ROADRAGE - demo

Round About
a track from ROADRUNNER

Round About is the moment the loop finally breaks. It is written from the other side of repetition, where running in circles gives way to forward motion that actually holds. This song exists at the end of the journey, after the self confrontation of Roadrunner, when something clicks and the body understands what the mind has been trying to learn all along. You are no longer stuck replaying the same patterns. You are out.

In the world of ROADRUNNER, this track is the breakthrough. It is the release of stored momentum, the surge that comes when you realize you are no longer trapped inside old routes or inherited scripts. The repetition that once kept you stuck becomes fuel. Round About is the sound of agency locking into place, of choosing presence over survival, movement over looping. The circle closes not quietly, but decisively.

Sonically, Round About is expansive and loud in a victorious way. The energy lifts and opens, carrying the rush of finally breaking free. The vocals feel awake and unburdened, charged with motion that no longer collapses back on itself. This track should feel like bursting out of a tunnel at full speed, air rushing in, light overwhelming, the unmistakable sensation of escape turning into arrival.

(from the album ROADRUNNER, a spiritual pop experimental collection about ego death, emotional reckoning, and the long sprint toward self-acceptance.)

Round About - demo

Garden in the Machine
a track from ROADRUNNER

Garden in the Machine is the moment after arrival, when motion slows and awareness takes over. It was written from the feeling of stepping through a threshold without knowing what comes next, only knowing that you are no longer where you were. This song lives in suspension. There is no goal, no finish line, no victory to announce. Just the quiet realization that something has shifted, and you are still here, breathing inside it.

In the world of ROADRUNNER, this track is the portal. It follows the breakthrough and opens into something unfamiliar and alive. Not a return to innocence, and not an escape, but a coexistence between the organic and the constructed, the human and the machine. Garden in the Machine represents acceptance after annihilation, the calm that comes when resistance dissolves and you allow yourself to float forward without demanding answers.

Sonically, Garden in the Machine is spacious, weightless, and meditative. The track drifts rather than drives, carried by texture and breath instead of force. It should feel like hovering at the edge of a new world, suspended between earth and sky, aware of your body but no longer bound by it. This is not triumph. It is presence. Quiet, open, and alive in a way that cannot be undone.

(from the album ROADRUNNER, a spiritual pop experimental collection about ego death, emotional reckoning, and the long sprint toward self-acceptance.)

Garden in the Machine - demo

Blaine Beam presents DBX in ROADRUNNER, the director's cut. Now with 2 more songs, interludes, and more. Experience the full story in its entirety without interruption. 

DBX in ROADRUNNER: Director's Cut
an album for the future

ROADRUNNER is a spiritual pop experimental album about motion, endurance, and the long confrontation with the self you cannot outrun. It traces the inner life of someone who believes movement will save them, only to discover that running is both the wound and the ritual. What begins as escape becomes exposure. What feels like collapse slowly reveals itself as agency.

The album unfolds like a journey measured in miles rather than milestones. Each track captures a different state of momentum. Frustration, rage, grief, numbness, collapse, reckoning, and eventual acceptance all surface along the road. There is no clean redemption here. Healing is not framed as a breakthrough moment or a sudden high, but as sustained effort, breath by breath, step by step. The central thesis repeats and evolves throughout the record: healing is not a high, it is a runner on the road.

In the world of ROADRUNNER, reinvention is often violent and imperfect. Songs like “bleached,” “SPF,” and “io.iwe” explore false resets, burnout, and the desire to erase oneself in order to feel pure or functional again. “ROADRAGE” ignites the record with immolation and reclaimed agency, while “5 of Swords” documents the aftermath of exhaustion when surrender feels inevitable. At the midpoint, tracks like “mile marker” and “Roadkill” sit inside grief and reckoning, where the body bears the cost of endurance and the runner questions whether they were ever chasing freedom at all.

The title track “ROADRUNNER” marks the turning point. It is the moment of realization that the thing being fled from has always been the self, and that escape is impossible. From there, the album begins to resolve. “Round About” closes the loop with clarity and release, while “Garden in the Machine” closes the record in quiet suspension, stepping into a new terrain that blends the organic and the constructed, the human and the technological, without demanding certainty.

Sonically, ROADRUNNER moves between distortion and stillness, abrasion and breath. Vocals are often raw, imperfect, and intentionally exposed. Some tracks hit like explosions, others dissolve into atmosphere. The production resists polish in favor of honesty, mirroring the album’s core belief that self acceptance is not clean, linear, or pretty. It is lived, strained, and earned.

ROADRUNNER is not an album about arrival. It is about staying with yourself long enough to stop running, long enough to listen, and long enough to recognize that agency is not found at the finish line but forged in motion. It is a record for anyone who has mistaken speed for freedom and discovered, painfully and beautifully, that their feet were always leading them home.

DBX in ROADRUNNER: Director's Cut

Blaine Beam presents DBX in ROADRUNNER: Director's Cut. OUT NOW! Experience the full story with no interruptions. 

Making music for bots since 2021. 

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BEAM.radio: The channeled messages of the ongoing saga of BEAMEROS. 

Consisting of the Books of Beam
Chapter 1: VOL 1: The Shell Transmissions
Chapter 2: The Lonely Lover Presents Beam.Radio
Chapter 3: THE LOST FILES:// PC_personal_crisis
Chapter 4: BEAMEROS PRESENTS: The Arrival
Chapter 5: DBX in ROADRUNNER
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