Questions (2023)

Little backstory about this song.

I made this a few years back and I thought I’d share it now cause I don’t know if I ever will actually post it legitimately. I originally planned on doing a lot more with it. It was the first song I ever actually tried to play some of the instruments I know for it. There’s guitar and cello both in there with my vocals (I’m pretty sure some piano as well to back the chorus too). But there was a domestic issue with my family that happened and it ended with me needing to leave home and find somewhere else to live. With that my laptop (which I was producing on at the time) got destroyed along with all the any projects I was working on, this being one of them. So all I have is this last export of it to survive its name. I had actually remastered the project before everything happened and I had just not exported it before. So this is all I got of it. Either way, since so much time went into this. I figured it’d be a disservice to younger me to not share it somewhere.

The ending lyrics are actually kinda funny considering what happened after it was made.

Also yes, the pic is me looking like I’m having either an existential crisis or in disgust when I was much much younger.

At Night, We Wonder

09 - REVEL - NEXUS CORE

needles w/ stranger (prod. graydawn)

WRITTEN BY STRANGER
PRODUCED BY STRANGER AND @blaineelmore

Tell me I'm not
The one to blame
I know the truth
It's on my face
But I
Could I
Run away 
Until it's through
I'm scared that I
Can't tell the truth
So why
Am I
The one that hurts
The one that feels
Wanted more
Too much to deal
But I
Could I
Is it enough 
And is this real
I'm waking soon
Just shake me
Because I
Am I

Am I? (Demo)

Fluorescent beams through the surface
Luring me, pulling me under
A place that’s deeper than this Earth is
No I don’t need to remember
Draw me in, sharpen the blades
Give me my fate
-
No other way to find answers
No other way out this game
No life that’s worth any salvage
Now I will take this flesh to the grave
-
So burn me
Go on ignite the flames
Take me
Down to the core, I can’t be saved
If heaven and hell was real
I know I could never be healed
So throw me away
Into the chambers I was never meant to escape
(Never meant to escape)
-
Congruence in the path I followed through
I accepted that my fate would be here soon
Life is a hallucination
And I’ve been hidden
Tell me, am I dreaming?
-
Draw me in
Carve my name in the grave
Immerse me in soil, the traditional way
-
No other way to find answers
No other way out this game
No life that’s worth any salvage
Now I will take this flesh to the grave
-
So burn me
Go on ignite the flames
Take me
Down to the core, I can’t be saved
If heaven and hell was real
No, I could never be healed
Oh

Chambers - Prod. G&G Sounds

Mirrors

You Didn't Know

This has been sitting in my drive for a while. I felt like I should let people listen.

The Weight of Letting Go  - Lyrics  

I lost myself in the wreckage of my past
Haunted by the weight, how long can I last?
Every step feeling heavy as concrete
The only question is the answer I seek

I feel the world cave in
The walls are closing
I can’t pretend but if there’s hope beyond the pain
My heart keeps racing as I start pacing
“Will I learn to love again?”

I feel the weight of letting go coming back again
If I fall, will you catch me? 
A heavy heart that is healing and on the mend
(I’m not broken
I just want to breathe)

I feel the weight of letting go every now and then
If I open my heart, would you love me?
Another start to finding my happy end
(I’m not broken
I just want to breathe)

I trace the outlines of who I used to be
A hollow shell of distant memories
I wear this sorrow like a noose too tight
Painting my future in the shades of night

Tear me down, break my bones, 
rip my heart from my soul
I think I’ve lost control 
The weight of letting go

Make me whole 
And behold
Have you paid the toll?
The weight of letting go

So tell me, is there something more? 
A reason to fight, a reason worth war? 

Tear the seams
Split me in two 
Erase the past
Make me new 

Forged through fire
Through the flood 
I have spilled enough blood

My hands still shake
The memories fade
Yet still I reach for the drugs today

Will you stay? 
Watch this corrupt  display?
Until I die, I’ll disobey

I feel the weight of letting go coming back again
If I fall, will you catch me? 
A heavy heart that is healing and on the mend
(I’m not broken
I just want to breathe)

I feel the weight of letting go every now and then
If I open my heart, would you love me?

The weight is lifting like clouds before the sun
A new beginning where healings begun
The journey forward to find my home
Built on the ashes of broken hearts and bones

HAVE YOU SEEN ME AND MOURNED?
I HAVE RETURNED FOR THE CROWN

WILL YOU WATCH ME AND SUFFER?
WILL YOU LEAVE ME BE?

The Weight of Letting Go

This is a demo I was doing years ago when I was starting to focus on writing better choruses and learning to write verses. 

Savior Complex - Lyrics

WILL YOU SAVE ME? 
WILL YOU SAVE ME? 

SAVIOR COMPLEX

Crawling dread on the cold floor
Oh, panic induce my sleep

(One more restless night)

Fighting myself past midnight
Struggling to stand on my own two feet

(Endless search for the invisible key)

And now what is left?
How can I save myself
If I'm stuck in a complex?

And I still don't regret
The days I've felt drained
In my heart, I've confessed

RAH

STUCK IN A SAVIOR COMPLEX
NOW WHERE WILL I GO?

2am and I’m empty
Is this even the real me? 
WHERE IS THE PERSON I THOUGHT I'D BE? 
ALL OF THE TIMES I FOUGHT AND CRIED
OR IS ALL THAT'S LEFT, 
JUST A MEMORY OF WHO I WAS BEFORE I DIE?

And now what is left?
How can I save myself
If I'm stuck in a complex?

And I still don't regret
The days I've felt drained
In my heart, I've confessed

RAH

SAVIOR COMPLEX

And now what is left?
How can I save myself
If I'm stuck in a complex?

And I still don't regret
The days I've felt drained
In my heart, I've confessed


Savior Complex

Mick Gordon - Metal Hell (DOOM Eternal OST)

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Guitarist/Producer

Questions (2023)

Blaine Elmore

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