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i see into another realm where nothing is there and it feels like home again and it makes me think what do i have left to live for anyways because my relationships have just ended in lies because both of them never really loved me anyways it was all just lies upon lies and now i am sick with a disease that may kill me so i ask why can it not just take me right now because i am ready for it because i mean who the fuck cares about just another kid from the suburbs who looks like he has a normal life but just does not and nobody cared enough to ask him how he was or if he needed help but instead they harassed him for his niceness he brought to others and it is no wonder why he tried to kill himself more than two hundred times but still could not because of this shit world that caused three of his friends to already kill themselves and he felt as if he had to live for them because he felt pity and he suffers every day and nobody bats an eye because nobody gives a fuck about this man who just needs a person to love especially because of how his father was to him leading him not to trust anyone and the rest of his shitty family and their meaningless shitty disputes for no fucking reason he cannot take it any longer he is just a boy that wants to die but cannot and every day he thinks of his death in many ways and he wants it but the world is unfair and he is suffering every day hoping for a better future one day… (2022)


brighter days will always come. but there is always a downside to every situation. when youre on top of the world, the carpet can just get swept beneath your feet. it’s happened to me several times now. to be honest, im sick of it. but ill always get back up. it cant kill me anymore. after all the shit ive been through now, im completely invincible. now and forever. (2024)

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