[100 Street High - The Alchemist]

Rinse, repeat, relapse and
chase satisfaction 
from my faction 
with a passion
wasted clout on that fashion 
old kicks, cut the grass in
I'm too busy thinkin' 'bout the past,
thinking 'bout my grandparents passing
Yom Kippur-grandma always fasting
Pop-Pop's workbench magic 
losing them was so tragic 🙏
I wish that they never passed on us
I wish that I never passed on ya
I wish that i...

(..ah fuck it.)

(I'll get you back on the next one)

"Ambition" (Beat Prod. Canis Major)

I had a real rough week.
I'm just tryna get my thoughts down, blow off some steam.

These past three years have been hell. I'm trapped in my mind, in a boxed-out cell. I'm trying to recall the last time I was happy. I'm trying to recall the last time you looked at me. I'm trying not to fall deeper and deeper into this hole that you helped me dig deeper and deeper just a couple months ago. Roller coaster, please let me off. That pic you posted just set me off. And I'm just trying to find happiness in an instant because I've been sad for so long and I feel like I deserve it. But you make me feel like I don't deserve shit. Yeah, all of you make me feel like shit. Friends, my ass. Kiss my ass. You led me down this broken path then left me here to rot alone in the corner. Call the coroner, cause I may just be showing up on the front page or on some dumb page you post on Facebook when I'm gone to pretend you ever gave a shit even though you're wrong, 'cause you never gave a shit. And you best believe that I know it.

Yeah, you best believe I fucking know it.

Freestyle_Ambition (Prod. Cannis Major)

"Fusion" beat (Prod. by KayLib)

You know, my mind has never been so convoluted before.
There used to be a time when the liquor didn't tempt me. Now the bottle's empty.
I used to preach against smoking weed, now I dab on the reggy.
I used to have a plan, or at least I thought I did. 
I graduated from college, but since then I haven't done shit, And who's to blame for it? It's me.
And if you search my lyrics, you'll see me tryna point the fingers to these hoes and niggas when I'm the one who's trippin. 
I've got the world at my finger tips,
But I'd rather push it aside, get high, and veg out for the night.
'Cause I'll apply tomorrow.
And I'll quit earl tomorrow.

Always talking 'bout tomorrow,
Never doing.
Always talking. Never doing.
All this talk, but never moving. 
I'm just stuck.

I'm stuck
Let's face it. I need a replacement to this life that I'm living, 
'cause I'm way too complacent living in my momma's basement.
I'm a fucking disgrace, man

I don't know what else to say, man.
I need to move away, man
To a far away land
Without all these fake friends
I'm faded like the filters of the pictures that you used to send me,
Heavy, 'cause you made me face two blunts and a sixer of Yeti
Ready to drop everything the second this kid breaks your heart
just like I did when the last two clowns tore your fucking world apart.
I've cut so many good people out of my life, so why can't I seem to forget you?

Fusion (Prod. KayLib)

Beat: "Perfect" (Prod. Canis) 
https://youtu.be/PLQSlC2iQX8

I'm feeling hella stressed.
Yeah, my mind's a fucking mess.
I'm just tryna make some sense of all that shit you said when you left,
'Cause you never were one to say much,
But you had that soft touch that I loved so much. 
But you passed on me like a dutch. 
You threw me out like I was yesterday's lunch. 
Now I'm stuck in a rut. You got me feelin in a funk.
I can't shake it. Just rolled a blunt, I'm bout to try baking if you know what I'm sayin.
But no Goku. 
Netflix and chill with me; girl I got that Roku. 
And I got enough earl that the whole crew could toke too, But fuck'em.
I'm tryna get that one-on-one lovin from my muffin.
Pay attention, cause i'm always up to something. 
But you never gotta pay for drinks, yeah you know I'm always down to front'em; I ain't frontin'.

Sometimes things are okay.
--That's what I like to tell myself.

I'm just sitting here, smoking, vibing
Thinking boutchu all the time, and 
I wonder if you ever think about me.
"It's kinds funny how"'s are never really funny,
And it kinda sucked when I realized they were laughing at me.
But fuck'em all these cats be talking out they asses.
I'll fuck'em up with the same dudes that i sesh with blunt passes.
I'm way too passive, but I got that vision that's so massive, and the dick to match it. 
Im 'bout to close the casket on all the bad shit that's been haunting me these past three years.
It's time to fucking face my fears. 
It's time to fucking chase these tears away with smile and laughter, 
'Cause it's the good life that I'm after.

I wish you'd just call me. You know that I would pick it up. 
You ever need a ride? Girl you know I would pick you up.
My mind's a twisted fuck, I'm just sitting here, sick as fuck
Sipping on some poison while I'm dabbing all that honey nut.
Eating a bowl of Cheerios, listening to the stereo,
Thinking about you, tryna not to get all teary, tho
I thought I was okay to drive, but I'm about to let go, so I need someone to grab the steering wheel

Sometimes, things are okay
Sometimes, that's what I need to tell myself 


You left me here, by my own.
I wonder if you ever look me up in your phone; 
You probably dont...

"A Few Weeks Later (Prod Canis)"

Pretty Little Liar

Beat produced by TazTaylorBeats
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=a_0iTHcr-GY

This is my present to you.
Yeah this is my present to you.
This is my present to you.
Yeah this is my present to
Merry Christmas to you.
Hope you have a good New year, too,
'Cause this is my present to you.
To you, to you, to you..

Had no time to gift wrap it,
So I picked a beat I could throw in the back, 
Figured I would just rap it.
Your attention is tacit.
My mind's racing like rapids, so I cut Coke with Captain, 
'Cause I'm so far from placid. 
Let me just get this dab in. 

I'll spit on this beat 'cause you spit in my face.
We drinking Moscato I bought by the case.
I'm drowning my sorrow with blunts and Rose. 
The blunt and the bottle's my only embrace.
The blunt and the bottle's my only embrace.
Memories of you--they stay burned in my brain.
Everywhere I look, I see a trace of you.
My heart and two feet hurt so much from chasing you.
Pray every night the next morning I'll wake to you,
But every day, I still rise to the same.
The "shoulda, woulda, couldas" got me feeling like I should put a little more effort in.
Days are getting longer; nights are growing colder.
My neck is breaking from the weight on this boulder you placed on my shoulders,
And things don't ever get easier, man.
We're just getting older. 
Maybe I'm trippin.
You know I'll stay sippin, 
I'm lit, got a zip, gotta smoke out my sins.
Your beauty is only as deep as your skin.
I saw your black soul escape from deep within.
Popping all your Xannies and Vicodins, 
I should've known what I was getting into. 
Shouldn't have fallen; I didn't intend to.
Please burn the letter and flowers I sent you.
It feels like a year since we chilled last September.
I should've called earlier; you know I meant to.
Now my mistakes are all I can remember.
The words that you spoke were so far from the truth.
I wasted summer, fall, and winter on you.
Three months later, and I've still got no clue.
I know this is hella late, but this is my present to you. 

Christmas Present (Beat prod. TazTaylor Beats)

Beat produced by DJ Esco

Another night, another bottle.
Load me up another dab, 'cause this pot will only get me
Halfway to where i need to be.
I just sparked a blunt so I could see.
All these vivid dreams of what we used to be are fucking killing me.
Head shots, head shots -- Henny straight to the dome.
Chase it down with a fifth of Patron.
I'm pouring whatever I get my hands on.
All of this earl, I'm blowing bands on. 
You see this shit? What the fuck am I doing?
Yeah, what am I? What am I am? What am I doing?
I can't keep living like this.
I can't keep drinking like this. (I can't. I can't)
My friends I can count on, I can count on one hand.
I haven't been proud of shit I've been a part of since they broke up my band.
It feels like i'm sinking in quicksand.
Tripping hard, I'm fucking lit fam. 
Pouring that lean like a fiend in that double cup, 
Take a sip, Hope i don't slip, man.
Counting this loot like a rich man.
Drowning these blues like I'm crippin'.
Lately it seems like i'm standing on the edge, and you've got me tipping.

It feels like I'm slipping.. down.
You've got me sipping..  everything down.

Married to the Vices (Beat Prod. DJ Esco)

Beat produced by Richie Beatz
Link: https://youtu.be/MAzDibqH_9l

Pour me up another shot.
I've been dabbing hella lot.
My doctor probably thinks I'm crazy, 
But I don't visit him a lot.
I stay post up in my spot,
Rolling up blunts in this parking lot.
Sparking up blunts in this parking lot.
All of my homies deserted this parking lot.
Me being stuck here sure says a lot. 
I'm wasting my money on this clout.
Drowning my liver in stout
You flooded my mind with this doubt.
I don't even know what it's fucking about,
But what does it matter?
You've done did your damage, I've done hit my shatter.
Don't ask me for no fucking platter.

You got me fucked up like I'm crazy.
Ain't you supposed to be my baby?
Why you out here tryna play me?
Why you out here acting crazy?
Herb got me hella lazy.
This ain't how my Momma raised me.
This girl's hitting me with "maybe"s.
She must think that I'm crazy.

But for you, I'm crazy.
Maybe that makes me crazy.
You could say I'm a little crazy. [5x]
Say whatever you want.

Crazy (Prod. by Richie Beatz)

Black pen on white pad, but these words are all blue. 
I'd paint you a picture, but you didn't get the last one that I drew for you
If you only had a clue; if I had one, too.
If we could only just shut this whole world out for a few. 
You've got this bad habit that leaves me in the saddest mood,
I shouldn't feel this bad from you. I shouldn't have to beg for you. 
I shouldn't have to write, record, and subtweet this shit out to you.
I shouldn't have to feel like I'm this far away from you. 
And I'm tired of all this shit; I can tell you're tired, too.
I dont know how much longer until I fall asleep away one night from you.
I think I need a day or two
Just to get away with you,
But I've been asking for two weeks, two days. or just too long from you,
Do I expect too much when I just expect the same from you?
You've got this funny way about you that makes me think I do.
Girl, I just wanna lay with you. I hope you'd wanna, too. 
I think I need to take a few breaths before I say to you
That you're the only one, you're the only, you're the only one.
Realize you're the only, you're the only, you're the only one.
Girl, you're the only, you're the only, you're the only one. 
You're the only one.
I just wish you felt it, too.

Blaze the illest