Ooh

They keep telling me that I'll do it just fine, but I
Find myself losing my already lost mind
They keep telling me how to live life
But every time that I try
They kiss my efforts goodbye
They try and shove a square peg inside of a circle hole
And what they don't know is how that wears and tears at my soul
And they push and they shove
Over and over again
To the point in my head I'm…

Pushed so far over the edge
I fell right out of the sky
I saw the ground as my death
They never taught me how to fly

As I fall down and see the ground, I fade…
That's when I see all the dead bodies decay
No, no, no, no
This can't be the end
This can't be the end
No, no, no
Don't wanna be part of the living dead

Pushed so far over the edge
We fell right out of the sky
We saw the ground as our death
Cause no one taught us how to fly
Pushed so far over the edge
We fell right out of the sky
We saw the ground as our death
Cause no one taught us how to fly

And what they don't know is when they are gone
We're the ones left to lead the young ones on
We become the blind leading the blind astray
This vicious cycle, it never seems to end
Cause where they end
Is where I began

Pushed so far over the edge
They fell right out of the sky
They found the ground as their death
Cause no one taught them how to fly
Pushed so far over the edge
They fell right out of the sky
They found the ground as their death
Cause no one taught them how to fly
Pushed so far over the edge
We fell right out of the sky
We saw the ground as our death
Cause no one taught us how to fly

Dead Before The Fall (2017 Demo)

I thought what I did
Would make me alright
I thought that maybe these
Thoughts would soon die
But somehow I'm left here
Hurt more this time
What did I do wrong?
What did I not do right?

Cause now I
Watch myself change
Into a lie
I let the dark
Create a
Monster inside
These demons
I allowed in so
They could hide
Have convinced me to believe
That you lied
I am a nightmare inside
I am a nightmare inside

I confronted my anger
In hope of loving again
But after all is said and done
I found there to be no end
Now all I can wish for
Is a bandaid remedy
For my pain
Cause for once
I don't know
What's wrong with me

I watch myself change
Into a lie
I let the dark
Create a
Monster inside
These demons I allowed in so
They could  hide
Have convinced me to believe
That you lied
I am a nightmare inside
I am a nightmare inside
I am a nightmare inside
I am a nightmare inside
I am a nightmare inside

As much as I may now
Feel like a lie
As much as I may fall
Victim to the night
I'll do my best to fight off
The nightmare inside
Cause I've seen your dream
It gives me new life

I will not
Watch myself change
Into a lie
I will not
Let the dark create a
Monster inside
These demons
I allowed in so
They could hide
I will force out
For telling me lies
All this with a
Nightmare inside
I am a nightmare inside
I am a nightmare inside
I am a nightmare inside
I am a nightmare inside

Nightmare (2017 Demo)

Hold my breath and count to ten
I still haven't reached the surface yet
Sinking fast to the ocean floor
This taste of my sin is not one I adore
But I'm dying of thirst
This couldn't get much worse
This dehydration is killing me
And I can't
Take it anymore

Heaven's on the outside starring in
Watching me here
Heaven's on the outside reaching out
"Take my hand here"
I've been trying to find my way back home
I've been finding myself feeling all alone
With heaven on the outside, calling out
"Are you still there?"
"Are you still there?"

But as I drink
To stay alive
I'm killing myself faster every time
Delusions start
To form inside
Of how life should be
But it fails every time
There's nothing left for me to do
But to swim to the surface
And find another way out
Weighed down
How long till this pain makes me drown?

Heaven's on the outside starring in
Watching me here
Heaven's on the outside reaching out
"Take my hand here"
I've been trying to find my way back home
I've been finding myself feeling all alone
With heaven on the outside, calling out
"Are you still there?"
"Are you still there?"
"Are you still there?"

As I hit the surface, I see a man in white telling me to come to him
Happy someone's here to save me, I try and fight the fear within
But the air is colder, the waves are bolder
Thunder striking down all over above the surface
The chaos up here is worse
Than the chaos down below
I want to let go
Of what I was before
But the moment my eyes left his
The water dragged me below
The water dragged me below
The water dragged me below

Help me, I'm drowning
Sin now has its
Grip on me
It's grip on me
Someone, something
I can't swim
Drowning again
In my own sin
I've felt it's pull, now
There is chaos within
I'm drowning again
In my own sin
I've felt it's pull, now
There is chaos within
Send me a life raft
Driftwood
Anything to stay afloat
So I don't get dragged in by the undertow
Send me a life raft
Driftwood
Anything to stay afloat
So the riptide
Doesn't drag me down
I can't see the shore now
Does this mean I'm now
Hell bound?
Oh I
Can
Not
Breathe

I felt a hand
Grab a hold of my own
He was on the surface as he pulled me up
And held me tight
Throughout the stormy night

Heaven's on the outside starring in
Watching me here
Heaven's on the outside reaching out
"Take my hand here"
I've been trying to find my way back home
I've been finding myself feeling all alone
With heaven on the outside, I called out
"I am still here"
"I am still here"
"We are still here"

Heaven’s Outside (2017 Demo)

I see you with the bottle
The glass shimmers
Off the floor
I ask you please to stop
But you just laugh it off

When I reach for you
You vanish and disappear
When you start to come to
You drift away in fear
And start sinking
And hurting
And losing it inside your head
When I reach for you
You just slip away

And I see you walk through the door
Oh your eyes
Oh they glisten like a mirror
I ask you what you've done
Oh but you're unclear to answer
Whoah

When I reach for you
You vanish and disappear
When you start to come to
You drift away in fear
And start sinking
And hurting
And losing it inside your head
When I reach for you
You just slip away

Every day, every night, all in vein
I try to save you from the pain
Of killing yourself
One addiction at a time
Never wanted this for you
I just want you to stay alive
Stay alive
Stay alive
Stay alive

Ooo

When I reach for you
You vanish and disappear
When you start to come to
You drift away in fear
And start sinking
And hurting
And losing it inside your head
When I reach for you
You just slip away

Reaching (2017 Demo)

My life feels like nothing
Like the floor beneath me shattered
I'm scared that the glass
Will cut deep when I land
I think this
As I'm falling into emptiness
I must have had the best
As I keep finding the worst
As I live on

But broken bones they heal
I forget this sometimes
These broken bones will heal
I forget this sometimes

My life feels like
It hurts so much
I'm losing everything
I've ever had
It looks bad
There was a time when the sun shined bright
But now I'm constantly finding myself awake at night
And asleep at day
Darkness wraps around me
So tight my bones crush under pressure
Leaving me without might

But broken bones they heal
I forget this sometimes
These broken bones will heal
I forget this sometimes

Even if
My body breaks
I will always have faith
Cause the pain reminds me
To live another day
So healing can take place
So I can know the grace
Of being restored better
Than where I came from
Than where I came from

But broken bones they heal
I forget this sometimes
These broken bones will heal
I forget this sometimes
Your broken bones will heal
It may just take time
My broken bones will heal

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