do not stand at my grave and weep, i am not there, i do not sleep

(p. elujjin)
lyrics, mix and master by me

your so selfish and you know it
everything that you do is just for your self
no wonder why
no one wants to be around you 
why do you decide to push everyone away 
why do you decide to give up on the things you love
isolated you can't leave your room
smoked a bit too much
now your feeling blue
tryna chase that high that you felt years ago
but it cant be the same cus your smoking alone
all your friends moved on with their lives 
but your tryna find out how to survive
in this cruel cruel world 
you don't wanna have to be here

im talking about my self in third person because its quarky

(the things which used to distress you will become inconsequential)

[lyrics]
do i have a meaning like you say?
or do you give me false hope ever day?
just give it to me straight 
i wanna bloom someday
and be beautiful like everyone else
but its too late im gushing blood out of my stomach
i took the cowards way out
no one will ever forgive me :(
for doing this to my self
mom walks through the door sees my body on the ground 
oh what did you do to your self?
didn't care how it would effect everybody else
i made a selfish decision 
the first one in a while
keeping all my secrets hidden cus
if anybody knew who i used to be
they would look at me with disgust 
leave me behind leave me in the dust 
without a care, without, without, without a care

(be careful how you use the skill of a expert)

blood gushing out of my tummy

(p. W.FALLS)

[i killed the plants by giving it too much water 
i'm worried that love is violence]

[lyrics]
i found comfort in the absolute silence
that i brung upon my self
disregard my health

ill put razors in my food
ill put thumb tacks in my boots
you don't know what i would go through
just to feel something that's new
maybe a new drug
maybe some more booze

find me on the street
five o'clock in the morning
there's throw up all over me
laying on the concrete
i'm barely alive
but some how breathing
i don't get it my self
watch me malfunction
watch my soul dissipate
watch me pass away
so impatiently
so damn slowly
so slow
slowly

[trapped, as the world comes to its inevitable end
you have no choice but to accept your death 
screaming but no one hears you]

absolute silence

prod. wissery 
lyrics, mix and mastered by me

ill shave my head to start a new path
cus im so damn stuck in the past
used to sit right here 
tryna find a way to get out my shell
ill suffer inside the missery
just to let it out 

wanna go back to 2013
where there's not a single problem 
not a fear in my mind 
i was doing just fine 
why did time have to move so fast
everything got bad so fast
i always wondered
where did the time go
cause in the moment it felt slow
and now its gone 
and now its gone

i wish i savord every momment
that i loved back then
but im 18 now and i
gotta move on
i gotta move on 
gotta move on
gotta move on
i gotta move on

im 18 now but i miss playing skate 3 in 2013 with no problems

prod. by neltq*
lyrics, mix and master by me

leave my body leave my mind 
existential crisis gotta have it till I die 
blood wound in the eye I wont treat it 
nothing feels the same like it used to
why am I alone a bottle of patron sitting next to me though
I think that I'll do just fine 

but who am I, my personality gon split half way through the night
don't let the bed bugs bite 
that shit don't feel too right
I need some melatonin just for me to sleep
give me the whole bottle keep me out for a week
you said eye for an eye
well then just take it 
its not like you gon need it
20-20 vision I can see it
crumble up the thoughts 
that are a nuisance to you
if you keep them in your head 
you'd prolly blow a fucking fuse
you'll stomp down on my ego cus you hate the way I act
please don't step on a crack trying to break my back

computers shouldn't bleed

prod miercoles
lyrics, mix and master by me

ill close the curtains for you
ill make sure you're comfortable 
when your laying in bed
as long as you do the same for me
look out for me
look out for me 
oh please love me like no other
no other
I wanna be your #1
I wanna feel like no other
treat me like I'm so very special to you
look out for me
look out for me ill look out for you
look out for me ill look out for you

look out for me (oh please)

prod. everestdidthis
lyrics, mix and master by me

don't wait for me at the pearly gates
cus I wont be showing up
I tried to get a invitation
but they ripped it up
they know I'm not a good fit
they know all the things i did
this is my long term consequence
I'm gonna stay in hell
cus I can not redeem my self
I wronged so many people
it makes sense why
no one has empathy for me
c'mon give me a break I'm human
haven't you made mistakes before
or am I really
or am I really
or am I really

that fucking imperfect
I'm doing my best and you don't care
so just lay me to rest
don't believe in god
but I do when I pray for him to take my life
don't give me a second chance
I don't want it
if I was so great then I would've never
done all the things I did before
oh how unfortunate it is
for me to be born into this rancid body
I got my hands real dirty and I can not clean them up
oh what a shame I am to my family tree
oh what a shame I am to everyone that ever knew who i was

don't wait for me at the pearly gates

prod neverforever
lyrics, mix and master by me

fear of what I've become 
a monster behind my skin
one you couldn't get rid of by carving
its getting bad again
I feel abnormal 
I don't feel whole anymore
how can somebody live this way
so paranormal
how can somebody live this way
I'm so insufferable
unpleasant to be around
the cuts I gave my self are in my brain
I'm the only one to blame

paranormal skin

I am not sure who prod this if you know dm me or comment I gotchu, I apologize for no credit as of now
lyrics, mix and master by me

I see my self getting bitter
I see the blood getting fucking thicker
take one hard look at me
tell me now do I really seem like I'm really worth saving
am I really worth saving at all
cus I don't hold any value at all
I don't remember the last time I was told I was worth anything at all
I don't remember the last time I was told I was worth loving at all
so why should I even have a care in the world
why should should I care about what's going on in the world
why should I care about what anybody has to say at all 
cus I don't remember the last time I was told that my mom was proud of me
I just wanna be congratulated for doing things I thought I never could be
is it really that hard?

growing to be simply bitter

(prod. idly blare)

wouldn't you like to know
where I expunged to
I went so so far
might as well might as well
find another planet to live on
for the rest of my life
the way everything is going
is really bittersweet
I got so many reasons why I wanna stay
but I got so many reasons why I've lost all my faith
(sick ass harmonizing)

wouldn't you like to know (expunged)

prod. holylitanies
mix and mastered by me

you remembered me 
because I was a loser in the ninth grade
oh look at you now
not even the person you were before
the old me couldn't help but be an eyesore
being around me must have been a bore
and I'm glad you never told me cus it would hurt to the core
really glad you never told me cus I wouldn't have taken it well
lookin at me funny cus you saw that I fuckin failed
(I fucking failed)

no responsibility's 
I cant help but feel at ease
I'm away from all the things 
that would suffocate me
(suffocating)
things that would try to break me
(I don't wanna break yet)
but I wont let that happen

(and you)
you remembered me 
because I was a loser in the ninth grade
oh look at you now
not even the person you were before
the old me couldn't help but be an eyesore
being around me must have been a bore
and I'm glad you never told me cus it would hurt to the core

more than I could bare anytime of year
I light up once again
I don't need no friends
its all a hassle anyway

I'll take, I'll take better care of my self 
(It's better this way)
(I'll take, I'll take, I'll take)
before, before I talk to anybody else
(It's better this way)
(to anybody else)

took all I had for granted
(I felt invincible)
lost it all in the blink of an eye
(I- l- I- lost all that I had)
(fuck)
there could be no better time than now to die

you remembered me 
because I was a loser in the ninth grade
oh look at you now
not even the person you were before
the old me couldn't help but be an eyesore
being around me must have been a bore
and I'm glad you never told me cus it would hurt to the core
really glad you never told me cus I wouldn't have taken it well
lookin at me funny cus you saw that I fuckin failed

you only remember me cus i was a loser in the 9th grade

prod hosty4444

you know i wont let you down//

you know i-
you know i-
you know i won’t let you down
you know i-
you know i-
you know i-
you know i-
you know i won’t let you down

put your trust in my heart 
and i’ll treat it so fragile
you know i will not let you down
there’s no amount of money
that could make me change my mind 
take my word and trust because you know

you know i won’t let you down
you know i won’t let you down
won’t let you do-
won’t let you down
you know i won’t let you down
won’t let you down 
won’t let you down

what makes you thi-
what makes you think 
i wanna switch up on you- on you-
i won’t let you down 
i won’t let you down
it doesn’t matter what somebody says
i won’t let you down 
couldn’t bare to see you frown
turn my whole world upside down 
and now we smoke till we’re on the ground
everybody wanna be us 
but we the coolest kids in town

put your trust in my heart
and i’ll treat it so special
no matter what
i won’t let you down, down

more cool glitch’s….

you know i wont ever let you down

eating the concrete with a fork

intertwined string made of glass and golden chalkboards

with my brother https://soundcloud.com/convofornoreson
i dont have prod name on the beat i apologize, 
if u made this lmk i do not own this beat my self

shit ass laptop is lagging while i make this song

yerrrpppp new song please dislike and send hate to the comments please!!!

i dont remember prod this was a old project i revisited, if this is your beat and want this song taken down please contact me via instagram or discord, bleedingcomputer. thank you!

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