Scene:

Vaughn: Man-

Jawan: Yo, you good?

Vaughn: NO I DONT KNOW IF IM FUCKING GOOD RIGHT NOW.

M: is he alright?

Jawan: Yo just chill, chill

Vaughn: I DONT KNOW IF I CAN DO THIS SHIT

M: what the fuck?

Jawan: Yo Where the FUCK DID YOU GET THAT, BRO

Vaughn: MAN GET THE FUCK OFF ME 

M: oh my god, oh my god!

Jawan: vaughn-

Vaughn: FUCK

Jawan: -stop, bro

M: JAWAN IS HE GONNA BE ALRIGHT?

Jawan: Yo, dont do this man, for real, Vaughn

Vaughn: NO MAN FUCK THIS SHI-

Jawan: What the fuck, man!?

M: OH MY GOD.

Jawan: VAUGHN!

M: WHAT ARE WE GONNA DO!?

Jawan: oh, fuck. Michelina what the fuck are we gonna do?

M: I don't know!

Jawan: He's just fucking laying there what the fuck are we gonna do?

Miche: I don't know!

Jawan: shit,

Jawan and M: what the fuck.

Mixed Memoirs 2

YO VAUGHN,

IS YOU GOOD? (feat. Isaac, Villy, Jawan, Trap Boi Brizzl, & Prvnci)

i've decided against writing this one out.

YOU GUYS WANNA COME PLAY FOOTBALL WITH ME AND MY DAD

Lyrics:
The rate I’m going now I might maybe make it at 26
walks to clear my head to get nauseated from not being fit 
have dreams of going off the radar I have dreams of getting big 
With thoughts that cloud and fog my head stemming from all the guilt within 

Don’t feel like a good person with all the flames set on every bridge 
An existential crisis thinking a bullet could end it quick 
The world is moving rapidly my stubborn brain won’t seem to click
I let everything slip away I’m struggling to get a grip

I don’t really feel like doing this anymore 
I don’t wanna be alive no more 

I don’t really see the point of trying hard 
The other side is what I yearn for 

It’s nice I can finally breathe 
I still feel lonely you see
Making plans that are falling through nobody contacting me 
Feels so nice I can breathe 
Chest heavy I’m questioning things 
People not following dreams 
Losing friends with no self esteem

And I get it 
The more I get older the more people get realistic 
Losing their childhood dreams but I’m scared I’ll regret it 
Feeling like a loser when I post I feel pathetic 

But this here is the life I chose 
My friends staying quiet like they FaceTime froze 
I’ve never felt more alone (2x)

Seems like they got problems with me
If I got problems with everyone then the problem is me
Taking some self inventory to make that confidence breed 
Which can detour towards overthinking the anxieties brink 

It’s been a while I guess

the rate im going

A song about Daniel's overwhelming love for Grace from his perspective.

Lyrics:
Grace I cannot go on without you
Why switch up I need you to stay tuned 
I stocked up paper with the dead face 
My cash app is at @daniel&grace 

I’m about done with my caretaker 
She’s been in the ER but it’s not in the papers 
I would make a song but record labels fuck 
me up
So if you cash app me 10 dollars you could maybe win 5 bucks 

It’s been too long without you
I hate that I’m struggling without you
I’ll be patiently here waiting for you 
My sweet vanderwaal oh how I adore you

@Danielandgrace

Breeze

Lyrics:

I’m tryna go at your pace but it’s hard when I wanna tell you
That I’m in too deep and I get afraid that I might ever have to go through 
Another rough patch but with you I can never shake off a good mood 
Haven’t said it before so heres my official “I love you”

I’ll send it once you’ve said it a bit more vocally 
An attempt to put my words together as a compliment to your poetry
All the beauty you contain it’s hard to react appropriately 
Feel like your number one fan cause my heart drops whenever you notice me

It’s hard to express over the phone when I’m overwhelmed emotionally 
I’m so fucking in love and Imma make u shine like how it’s supposed to be 

I know you may feel that your baggage can weigh a ton
There’s been a few in my life who’s damage made me wanna run

I can reassure you that the comfort from being in your arms is enough to make the blood rush
To my cheeks and you can probably tell anytime you hear my heart thump

Can list a million reasons of how I trip and fall into your love
And if you took those all away I’d still say that your being is enough

Love & Suicide

For Hayden

Lyrics:

Happy thoughts I cannot find you
Loneliness I pay much mind to
What do I... do?

Half the shit I come up with is bad
Scared I’m fucking up my body with the bodies I’ve had
Scared to get checked- got seven on me 
1 with rubber the other ones I let free

Scared to admit I’ve been abusing nicotine 
Convinced I can put it down but when I get checked I’ll see
Brushing off the things that should matter to me
No one else really like this in my family tree

I guess that I’m the one exception 
Still have yet to check to see if I have depression 
Belittle everything and take time to arrange a chord progression 
Wonder if I got anything if It would make me learn a lesson

Maybe I’m embarrassed to see a therapist 
Think as long as I keep going I can live some glamorous 
Type of life and never have to think twice About my actions 
something bad occurs justify the phrase life happens

Wonder if I was born with a cult mentality 
My circle got some real issues and live in my reality 
Meanwhile I’m running fucking fast to try and chase that salary
I shouldn’t be leading a group like a head of a faculty

Hopefully the toxic relationships run short 
I’ll probably lose my mind soon and end up in a psych ward 
Eat a bullet, jump a cliff- I guess that either works 
Hard to relate with other people who have trouble using words 

I’m afraid Imma die alone
I’m afraid that I might let go
I think that I wanna return home
Change the channel I fucking hate this show

Wonder if I brush off my suicidal thoughts 
Only time it’s worthy to bring up is when I write a new song
If I’m a leader figure then who’s gonna ask me what’s wrong 
Some self-sufficiency will hopefully put me on

Wonder what the fuck my fucking family thinks 
Try to separate them from hearing everything that I think
I guess whoever’s out there- you’re my receiving end of therapy 
Eating my deadly words like crunching on a cherry seed

Here’s some cyanide- have I brainwashed you yet 
I’m a fucking victim in my god given god
complex 
Soon to breach a hundred songs and I won’t stop yet
Until I get out every thought I feel the need to project 

Somehow unfulfilled and fucking scared that I’m a clown
Making music no one cares about like I’m not making a sound
I’m fucking money hungry Need to feel something this brings me alive 
another chord to cum and add the drums to get me high

HAPPY THOUGHTS

Lyrics:

 don’t think I can manage
I’ve been on a new distant planet
Been tryna find new ways of transit
They cannot handle me being candid

Captain of the plane that hadn’t landed
Flying through emotions- I been going off a tangent
getting dead high in the sky like a phantom
Captain holding myself captive asking for help call it suicidal ransom

 been sinking to the ground my man
Don’t tell no one that I got dark plans
The sad part is I don’t want your hand
I Still got thoughts of that last year’s plan

Ashamed to feel affected by something that shouldn’t matter
Fuck up a good friendship by feeling the need to have her
My friends all have my back and I’m scared that I do not have their’s
I’m vocal about being emotional but too emotional to last forever 

Been through all of these hardships
Bitch I’m living life by the largest
Man fuck all ya’ll who tryna start shit
Do not shoot my shots at weak targets

Don’t got time for a bitch who lurking
Don’t got time for a bitch who guarded
Don’t got time for a bitch who barring
don’t got time for a bitch who barking

Do not got time for all this fuck shit
rather have my phone dry like Funyuns 
My eyes water like there were onions
got my bitches hot out of the oven

Got my bitches straight out the coven
brush that spell off like it was nothing
Bitches love when I give them tips I kid,
 we just both love assumptions, ah shit

Have Her

Lyrics:

I want you more than anyone else and I feel so lonely 

Gotta Lotta love with a stone cold heart
To tell you how I’m feeling I don’t know where to start
Fingers must be slipping if I can’t catch your heart
I don’t seem to say much I should do my part

But I don’t- I still feel lost and confused 
I think I’d really rather be lost with you
I’m Having dreams vivid scenes and the vision comes through
Passing through time I gotta make you mine soon

I sit down and ponder for a bit 
Consistent regrets of my decision to call quits 
Drugs could really numb the fun times that are gone 
Running in circles chasing tail for so long 

Thinking we can settle down and I can make this shit right 
She said I couldn’t settle down but now I’ll sit tight 
Watching her walk around in my favorite slim tights 
I’m falling for you again and this time I’ll get right

WANT YOU

dont know (feat. Ktxas, Jawan, kisual, and Peteylove)

Lyrics:

I find myself not feeling a thing 

Oh no I just broke another heart again 
Sorry but I think we should try to start as friends 

Oh no- I just fucked up
Been a whole damn year of a bunch of fuck ups
Been more slumped than a loaded double cup
If love worked out for me than my music would suck

Bitch- have no fear
Washed up asshole with a keyboard is here
Here to tell you that he love you a lot 
Friends wanna tell me which ex is hot 

I think I have trouble with trust 
Your friends are right- I’m a terrible crush
Don’t worry I wear my heart on a sleeve too 
You sound lovely and I hope I never meet you

Still gonna ride me like a pedal bike
Nah still gonna ride me like a fucking elliptical 
Still gonna drive me through the fucking roof
Nah still gonna drag me through the fucking ozone

Feeling a thing

Lyrics:

There’s only one way out that’s guaranteed 
don’t wanna admit I’m close to death it’s embarrassing 
All the notes that I made just in case I pass 
To leave my friends and family all alone is harder to grasp

I don’t belong here it’s hard to come to terms
I don’t belong here if it’s quick it won’t hurt 
I don’t belong here I want my fucking head to burst 
I don’t belong here, I don’t belong here 

Please get out the fucking way
I wanna reach heavens gate 
I don’t wanna stay 
I got my fucking mind made up now it’s too late 

Get out the fucking way
I wanna reach heavens gate 
I don’t wanna stay 
I got my fucking mind made up now it’s too late 

I’m standing on stilts 
Thoughts are making it harder to try to hide all the guilt
Only thing strong about me is my suicidal will
I try to prevail, inevitably fails

But- fuck- still, my clock will run out
Cause it still feels like there’s nothing left for me to cling on to now
I don’t want help- I’m too consumed with my doubts 
Fuck therapy I’m directing efforts to take my own route 

Don’t watch me. I’m scared of what you might think.
It’s so much harder to stay afloat when its easy to sink 
I’m getting nothing done. Fucking chasing pipe dreams. 
Can’t cling to no one. Robbed myself esteem. 

Please get out the fucking way
I wanna reach heavens gate 
I don’t wanna stay 
I got my fucking mind made up now it’s too late 

Get out the fucking way
I wanna reach heavens gate 
I don’t wanna stay 
I got my fucking mind made up now it’s too late 

Get out the fucking way
I wanna reach heavens gate 
I don’t wanna stay 
I got my fucking mind made up now it’s too late 

I’m too filled up with shame 
Convinced that being dead will be the only way I feel sane 
Too Tortured with regrets I can’t carry the weight 
scared to meet new people- all I do is ponder mistakes 

I’ve yet to seek professional help 
Everyday is a nightmare as long as my mind’s a cell
Convinced I’m undeserving of anything nice
Not a pity party I really might go and end my own life 

You don’t know me- cause I don’t know me myself 
I try to go back to recall if I’m remembering well
I suffer flashbacks until it’s all blurred out

dont belong here

Lyrics:
This bitch turned violent 
Her phone on silent 
She take my wallet 
She take my commas 

Robbing my commas but then wanna ask me to fuck without condoms 
She tryna get with me for money but bitch don’t know that Im not common

But I got shooters (4x)

She know that I do this but wanna still fuck me around 
take your wife to a 5 star watch how I be taking this bitch to town
She fuck with a rockstar when I slide in she melt to the ground 
I fuck with a pornstar she open wide then I cum in her mouth 

My squad gonna always prevail 
For the squad I go in out of jail 
My story got more than a tale 
No frontin no buggin Be doing this shit for real 

Never be chasing a tail
Tell my lil homie don’t worry got money for bail
Watching my heart go stale
She leaving her man for a winner in this life at least one gotta fail

At least one gotta fail
They sign the agreement I’m leaving no trail
Brag to her friends bout the boats that I sail
She leaving love letters got 5 in the mail

Read body language i’m reading in brail 
She getting me hotter than pits that in hell
Im keeping her busy aint answer her cell
a spot for the homies we all doin well

This bitch turned violent 
Her phone on silent  (4x)

She gonna walk out the door as soon as I tell her the truth
How I get through to myself if I never get through to you
Spending each hour and second alone with my thoughts in the booth
Smoking on loud pack (pack) packing to Malibu 

Cause back back then it was just me and you
You was fuckin around with homies from my crew 
one conversation you told me we was through 
How I get through to myself if I never get through to you

This bitch turned violent 
Her phone on silent  (the rest of the song)

bitch turned violent

Lyrics:
She got me all confused then
Confused within myself with what the truth is 
I ain’t never ever felt this confusion 
Confused within myself with what the truth is
  
Needa have em hold me back Imma lose it 
Confused within myself with what the truth is 
Do you think I’m ready to face the music 
Confused within myself with what the truth is 

They think I’m playing but I think im gonna do it 
I ain’t never ever felt this confusion 
How the fuck can you jump to conclusions 
How the fuck can you jump to conclusions 

Needa have em hold me back or imma lose it 
Do you think I’m ready to face the music 
I ain’t never ever felt this confusion 
Confused within myself with what the truth is

Shattered clocks she like to pick up glass 
I regret the times I had confided my past 
I lost faith in the idea of a second half 
I lost pace cant keep up can barely gasp 

I threw a whole year away tryna make this last 
I’ll spend another year trying to get my confidence back 
It seems one out of eighty times we’d smile and laugh
I fucking hate that I love you but I know this 
bad 

And everyone in the room can see how toxic we are 
We’d find a loophole- an excuse- to lock ourselves behind bars 
My whole life I wanted to be a star 
But I’d put time aside for you and I to spar

Matter fact- a life with you would never get me far
A life with you made excuse a solution of ours 
It only took three months for us to lose the spark 
How we’d yell and cry and then you’re in my arms 

And then you’re here visiting and I’m all up on you 
feeding into mixed messages you’d send through 
And at this point you’re telling me you’re confused 
And I’m thinking fuck you look what you put me through 

At my most suicidal I can’t talk to you 
You’re supposed to be my best friend but that’s far from true 
Life comes full circle but I vow to you 
This the last time I’ll ever talk to someone like you 

I’ll move on again 
I’ll find bond again 
When I get the chance 
I’ll gain confidence 

I’ll make art again
I’m a piece of shit 
This the exact same way 
That It’s always went 

I might self reflect 
Am I a narcissist 
I get so confused 
With my thoughts and shit 

All this cloudiness 
I don’t feel the same 
I feel so beat down 
It almost numbs the pain

Shattered

Her Perspective

Love is a Lie

Jenna

Anniversary

Help

fuck the internet

Please Help me

sorry for this awkward 1 ladies haha

Lyrics:
 I guess I’ve done what I’ve already wanted to do, so now my life's set
I'm just surprised that a personality so dry can get so many girls wet
Having being inside a few people was a very anticlimactic experience 
At the end, when she’d climaxed, I whip out my dick and just jerk it

Merged with, firm tits at the end of my finale
Then the end comes and I cum, slowly, sadly   

And to any person who’s next to have me
I’m sorry, in advanced, that it had to end so badly

I mean, I guess I’m good at the dominating bit
I’ll pull your hair while you’re bent over and the back is where I’ll hit
But behind all that shit, when I let the flow die with my hips
Would you be fine listening to music high when we sign off with the sex

Could I get deep with my emotions as I was inside you moments ago?
Would it be wrong for me to get sappy when it appeared I had a giant ego? 

Man… I don’t know. 
I wanna turn lustfulness into compassion the moment we take off our clothes so

If I were to hoe around, I mean, I’d at least want some fun
Not a stress relief, not a dress routine, but something special I share with someone

I don’t mean to get sentimental 
Even if I can’t find the one, I’ll still be willing to give out free samples

I'm gonna be honest, sometimes I can't though
I shoot so much out at times I run out of ammo

I guess I just really want a best friend.
One who can make me laugh as well as consider my emotions.

Because like, I’m a fragile human, 
with art by my side, life is something that I'm alright with doing.

Trying to look for other remedies instead of growing a dependency 
 I helplessly, heavily, endlessly, recklessly, relentlessly have tendencies to seek chemistry 

And when others mention me
I automatically seek opportunity to see if there's any room for intimacy 

When the room is being taken up by the elephant 
So I act as if I don't give a fuck, and I'm back in my element 

But that's irrelevant, 
i think that's all I wanted to say unless there's something else I'm not mentionin

So I'll just try to drift my mind away from this topic
Hi, I'm Vaughn, I hook up with people, get into something until one of us fucking drops it
Man- Fuck it I'm gonna stop this

lofi

Sad Sexy Time

A song I wrote a while back when I was all angsty and shit that I finally got around to recording.

Lyrics:
I don’t wanna go through this
I think I’m just gonna kick back and let my mind drift
I don’t really have any time for this shit
I wanna isolate myself, I feel real irrelevant 

Why do I wanna please anyone I need to just have fun but I don’t wanna feel lonesome

Currently pondering, wandering, wondering, why I jack off to the point where there’s no cum

I hate existing, crying for help since the beginning, yet I’m still persisting, making snaps when no ones even listening 

Fuck it, 
(chorus) x2     

I was damaged
But I’ll manage
I’ll micromanage my life 

Grant it, something goes wrong
I’ll leave the planet, vanished- so long, bye-bye

Fuck it man, you’re out of your mind if you really think I value my life
Mind is dreaming through the whole day, nightmares keep me up at night

I am more than gone, just have a look at one of my songs
Fuck the web, fuck my friends, fuck you for sticking around this long

I’m feeling nauseous     
My mind’s in this constant process
Conscious of worrying people and doing nothing to stop this

Fuck it

(Chorus) x3

Hey vaughn, what’s up you preachy hypocrite
Brushing people off but then advising them like you know shit

You don’t know anything, it’s been a whole year and you still bring her up
On top of that, you’re breaking hearts but play victim, you’re fucked up

Tell your friends you wanna die
and then schedule your suicide
But on Instagram you lie
And say you made it up the whole time

When you made your friends cry
And you say you do this cause you’re bored
Well guess what my guy
You don’t deserve friends anymore

You don’t deserve a fucking audience applauding shit you narcissist 
You need some help, but you’re too stubborn to take a step back and face all of this 

Maybe just jump off a bridge, you’re not an artist but a coward bitch, I’d love to see you powerless, it’s your fault for starting this

You don’t get into fights with people you just take it out on yourself
maybe you should take a break and call someone or maybe get some help
Instead of making people your whole world and leaving them in hell
Man fuck you, you pull shit over people just so they can’t tell

if you’re joking or serious 
Driving everyone delirious 
Stop being such a fucking dick
Hey vaughn are you hearing this

of course you’re not
Cause one incident caused a chain reaction
You’ve grown anxious
And forget how you used to get people laughing

But you remember how you used to scream loud
Talk shit about people to the same people you’ve talked shit about
I propose a solution that I think is best
stop fucking over other people just because you can’t get over your ex- man!

I deserve to go through this
This time next year I’ll make sure I don’t exist 
I don’t really have any time for this shit
Maybe I should just go ahead and end it-

I don't wanna go through this

another old sad reflection.

Lyrics: 
Man, fuck tryna to socialize, I wanna be  mesmerized by nature while I’m outside, people make me wanna die

And if that hurts I’m sorry, but I’ve obviously lost my shit when I cover up suicide with a Christmas party

And my jokes just involve me juggling my fate
I’d rather talk to you than make songs but I can’t be real with a fake
Man, at this point, everything I make
Can be a joke or a cry for help, so fucking give or take

I’ve been questioning everything
I try calling other people but they let their phone ring
So I leave them alone, can’t be annoying
I show the bigger picture, but they never see the whole thing

I let my feelings out even though I can’t sing
I’d let them out to you but I’m afraid I might cling
I can’t handle this tonight, I can’t handle this tonight
Don’t know if anything I’m doing is ever completely right

And I’m all alone
But I don’t do anything about it
And that’s the saddest thing about it

Called your phone
Now I’m feeling obsessive
I can’t wait till I look back and regret this

I need someone near
I need someone close
I need someone here
I need someone who knows

I need someone near
I need someone here

I need someone near
I need someone close
I need someone here
I need someone who knows

I need someone here
I need someone near
Chorus (2x)

unfished projects

Isolate Yourself With Me

Another semi-angsty piece but a lil different from the other ones I'm p sure.

Lyrics:
I’ve just been smoking and poking around
Thinking about how all these highs are just bringing me down
Questioning my failing friendships and looking back in the past
I wish I could get over things, a year goes by so fast

And I almost feel like I don’t belong, As of late, I’ve grown to hate every single one of my songs
I feel like no matter what I have- it’ll just leave and begone
I’ve grown out of blendtastic, but I still don’t really know Vaughn

I feel like all this nonsense is finally making me nauseous 
I don’t know what to do- I’ve finally ran out of all of my outlets
So Vro, send some guidance my way
Cause I’m Still contemplating if I’m here to stay
Cause I’m Still contemplating what’s right to say
Cause I’m Still contemplating if I wanna stray
(But fuck it)
I’ve been in search for a certain combination but I’ve feel like I’ve pulled the plug on all my luck
Find a girl to give my love but she just wanna fuck and the girl I wanna fuck just wants my love
Trouble relating, tried meditating, tried to go dating, now I’m debating
Whether or not to go all out or just pull it all back
Always unsure on how to feel- always a little out of wack 

And I’m struggling to find out who I am man
This girl ain’t interested and the next one’s obsessed but- why do I even give a damn
Vro, send some guidance my way
Cause I’m still contemplating if I’m here to stay
Cause I’m still contemplating what’s right to say
Cause I’m still contemplating if I wanna stray

My life is seemingly falling apart at the seems
My whole reality is a nightmare or might just be a woke dream
Tryna keep my hopes up whilst having a low self-esteem
Everyday tends to be average if not stressful by any means

No- I need to be alone- I cannot answer the phone
Girl- you ain’t been here from the get go- don’t expect my hand to hold
Fuck it- keep these hand warmers in case you get too cold
I aint mad at yah- I’m just frustrated that I never feel at home

Bitch- I haven’t been content- shit just don’t make fucking sense
Too much shit don’t fucking make sense- fuck it- you really want my two cents?
I don’t give a fuck about you just because I feel loneliness 
Get the fuck up out my face before a beat fucks you up like I wish I did

Single

Confusion

A thing that I like that people will probably listen to and don't know how to feel about it.

All I really wanna do is die in peace but,
no one in the universe will let me be.

R.I.P.

a song about misogyny

here are the intellectual lyrics:

You fuckin 
Dumb little bitch
Little stupid little bitch 
Mrs The world owes me something cause I’m pretty stupid bitch
Fucking shitty stupid bitch 
Fucking miss me stupid bitch 
Do not ever call or text me with your bullshit stupid bitch 

Fucking low life livin bitch
Fucking get right stupid bitch
Stop seeking validation with your fucking body little bitch
Be someone you stupid bitch
Get shit done stupid bitch
Instead of blowing money and doing nothing you stupid bitch

Get a job stupid bitch 
On the clock stupid bitch 
Your man ain’t gon pay for you unless you suck his cock stupid bitch
Be independent for once 
And Stop thinking your cunt 
Is gonna open doors- get your head right and close them legs lil slut

Fucking sleazy little slut
Fucking sneaky little slut
Fucking “no I didn’t cheat on you, he’s just a friend” silly slut
Really silly slut?
You think I believe you silly slut?
I took a uv light to the bed, what are these silly slut?

Who’s that man lil slut 
Oh that’s your friend lil slut
The one who came over on my bed to fuck you and left a nut?
Oh my bad silly slut?
You think that he’s good enough?
Well let’s hope he’ll let you stay at his cause I’m done silly slut.

You fucking dumb little bitch
Swallow cum type of bitch 
Only grindin by hoeing and sleeping around type of bitch 
I drop this mic little bitch 
You stuck in fright little bitch
If I ever text “I love you” I follow it with “SIKE” lil bitch

Mrs. Mad & angry 
But deep down she angsty 
Mrs. The only discipline I get is when a guy spanks me  
Mrs. Smokes weed and vomits 
Takes an hour in her closet 
Mrs. tryna get my life together but then repeats the process 

Mrs. Doesn’t deserve the term Mrs at all
The top A-list classless bitch I ever saw
Think someone gonna hand you life as if it were magic- Hey 
Privileged spoiled soiled unloyal tragic Ratchet basket case  

Bitch

Lil Bitch

Lyrics:
I guess I’ve done what I’ve already wanted to do, so now my life's set
I'm just surprised that a personality so dry can get so many girls wet
Having being inside a few people was a very anticlimactic experience 
At the end, when she’d climaxed, I whip out my dick and just jerk it

Merged with, firm tits at the end of my finale
Then the end comes and I cum, slowly, sadly   

And to any person who’s next to have me
I’m sorry, in advanced, that it had to end so badly

I mean, I guess I’m good at the dominating bit
I’ll pull your hair while you’re bent over and the back is where I’ll hit
But behind all that shit, when I let the flow die with my hips
Would you be fine listening to music high when we sign off with the sex

Could I get deep with my emotions as I was inside you moments ago?
Would it be wrong for me to get sappy when it appeared I had a giant ego? 

Man… I don’t know. 
I wanna turn lustfulness into compassion the moment we take off our clothes so

If I were to hoe around, I mean, I’d at least want some fun
Not a stress relief, not a dress routine, but something special I share with someone

I don’t mean to get sentimental 
Even if I can’t find the one, I’ll still be willing to give out free samples

I'm gonna be honest, sometimes I can't though
I shoot so much out at times I run out of ammo

I guess I just really want a best friend.
One who can make me laugh as well as consider my emotions.

Because like, I’m a fragile human, 
with art by my side, life is something that I'm alright with doing.

Trying to look for other remedies instead of growing a dependency 
 I helplessly, heavily, endlessly, recklessly, relentlessly have tendencies to seek chemistry 

And when others mention me
I automatically seek opportunity to see if there's any room for intimacy 

When the room is being taken up by the elephant 
So I act as if I don't give a fuck, and I'm back in my element 

But that's irrelevant, 
i think that's all I wanted to say unless there's something else I'm not mentionin

So I'll just try to drift my mind away from this topic
Hi, I'm Vaughn, I hook up with people, get into something until one of us fucking drops it
Man- Fuck it I'm gonna stop this

Lyrics:
I don’t really like sunsets anymore 
I don’t really like sunsets anymore 
I don’t really like sunsets anymore 
Used to chase the sun but it ain’t fun I just tend to get bored.

Cause I used to always watch them with you
Didn’t know how easy it’d be for you to move
On with someone else, the days keep running
Can’t keep the pace when I’m caught up in memories remembering how stunning

You were

I don’t really like to star gaze anymore 
I don’t really like to star gaze anymore 
I don’t really like to star gaze anymore 
The sparkling lights are not as bright as they once were to me before

The emptiness in the sky reflects the emptiness I now feel
It used to mean opportunity for our future that I thought was once sealed
I could see the whole universe when I looked into your eyes- now I look at the sky and the clouds cry just like you did when I lied

I can’t even go to the beach thinking of the way you waved goodbye
I can’t even hike a mountain remembering all the times that we got high
I can’t look at the clouds without thinking of your pillow on my bed side
All the natural beauty in the world embodies your presence and theres no where I can ever hide

I can’t even watch the birds fly without feeling soar
I can’t even feel the rain without my eyes starting to pour
I can’t even step on the sand without me thinking of when I asked you “are you shore”
Fuck it- I don’t step outside anymore because you left out the same door


I don’t really like existing anymore
I don’t really like existing anymore
I don’t really like existing anymore
Fuck trying to sound deep- I can’t take this anymore 


You were mine!
You were mine!
You were mine!
You were mine!
You were mine!
You were mine!
You were mine!
You were mine!
Too many places with too many memories- I wonder if you ever wonder if I’m ever doing fine

SunSets

Lyrics:
I promise you forever 
Things are never gonna change 
There’s no need to worry
Things will always be this way

If you’re ever in doubt 
Just look upon my face 
Or just listen closely
Anytime that I say

You my motivation 
You fuel my creations
I don’t ever see myself going off to get spacious

So don’t overthink babe
I know how much you care
I know we both get scared
I’m not going anywhere 

So come on down back to earth
And trust me
I swear You’re so
Lovely

Don’t stress 
about anything
You mean 10 times these lyrics 
Or anytime that I sing

I promise you forever 
Things are never gonna change 
There’s no need to worry
Things will always be this way

I promise you forever 
Things are never gonna change 
There’s no need to worry
Things will always be this way

Man, fuck tryna socialize
I wanna be mesmerized
by nature while I'm outside
people make me wanna die 

and if that hurts, I'm sorry,
but I've obviously lost my shit
when i cover up suicide 
with a Christmas party.

Lyrics:
Man, fuck tryna to socialize, I wanna be  mesmerized by nature while I’m outside, people make me wanna die

And if that hurts I’m sorry, but I’ve obviously lost my shit when I cover up suicide with a Christmas party

And my jokes just involve me juggling my fate
I’d rather talk to you than make songs but I can’t be real with a fake
Man, at this point, everything I make
Can be a joke or a cry for help, so fucking give or take

I’ve been questioning everything
I try calling other people but they let their phone ring
So I leave them alone, can’t be annoying
I show the bigger picture, but they never see the whole thing

I let my feelings out even though I can’t sing
I’d let them out to you but I’m afraid I might cling
I can’t handle this tonight, I can’t handle this tonight
Don’t know if anything I’m doing is ever completely right

And I’m all alone
But I don’t do anything about it
And that’s the saddest thing about it

Called your phone
Now I’m feeling obsessive
I can’t wait till I look back and regret this

I need someone near
I need someone close
I need someone here
I need someone who knows

I need someone near
I need someone here
(2x)

Chorus (2x)

Lyrics:
 in my head, I can’t escape
My audience will fade away
Im not in a good state
Self esteem is on a break

I can’t do this anymore
I fell off and its hit my core

I can’t do this, please come save me
Can’t call no one else my baby 

You’re better off without me
Yeah, You’re better off without me
(2x)

Can’t show my family my songs
Soon they’ll know that something’s been wrong all along

They’re better off without me
Yeah, They’re better off without (4x)
They’re-

Man, I’m gonna honest- I don’t know what the fuck- or where the fuck I’m going with this shit right now- I’m kind like in a aimless directionless direction and if I can be 100% honest… Um, shit

I’M STILL NOT ABLE TO FIND MYSELF
I STILL TAKE TOLLS ON MY MENTAL HEALTH
MY MUSIC SEEMS TO BE MY ONLY HELP
I’M SORRY IF I HURT YOU AND I HOPE THAT YOU’RE DOING WELL

I’M STILL TRYING TO MAKE IT SOMEWHERE
STILL STAYING MOTIVATED AND TRYING NOT TO CARE
IF I MADE IT, THEN WOULD IT BE FAIR
THE POTENTIAL OF MORE BURNED BRIDGES WITH PEOPLE REALLY HAS ME SCARED

insecure

Lyrics:
Run the track back real quick
Aint sendin shots like I pulled out the steel quick
Can’t tell if my friends for real the real clique 
My heart too broke for a real bitch to fix (2x)

i been in my own zone, lonesome
Made one song, short wave, yuh, ozone
Been making songs like I’m well-known, well no
My shit more dry than my cell phone, hell no
  
Run the track back real quick
I put 10 in the air for my impatience 
Put 5 in the air for the hits I miss
Put none in the air to slam my desk with my fist

I run around the track real quick
Too fast with the feels for comprehension 
Too fast with the songs for fame to get in
Too fast to cut ties for you to be to let in

Run around the track real quick
Run the track back real quick
I run around the track real quick
I run around the track real quick

Run the track back real quick
Aint sendin shots like I pulled out the steel quick
Can’t tell if my friends for real the real clique 
My heart too broke for a real bitch to fix

I run around the track real quick
Too fast with the feels for comprehension 
Too fast with the songs for fame to get in
Too fast to cut ties for you to be to let in

feelin myself too much to make amends
Give a fuck about you and all of your friends
Don’t need no pills when you create your own medicine 
Aint letting that pussy shit get in my way again

Fuck the fame, fuck the fortune 
I create and kill my own tracks, call that shit abortion
I aint going to school to be an educated subordinate 
Don’t tell me your life a mess when you take your problems and start hoarding them

Maybe my shit don’t slap and I’m just boring em
What’s the point of getting to my mic to make songs and start recording em
told my parents my ideas when they saw the content they stopped supporting em 
Fuck a Christmas party lived my life- game is over- I click abort mission

Run the track back real quick
Aint sendin shots like I pulled out the steel quick
Can’t tell if my friends for real the real clique 
My heart too broke for a real bitch to fix

Can’t tell if my friends for real the real clique
My shit gon flop- they gon drop real quick
Got a white ass family who made some white ass kids
I ain’t got no chips no wonder they dip

Parents went ahead and made a misfit
Misunderstanding of the passion I guess I won’t be shit
Family and authority seem to be my biggest critics
I wanna crowd of people but I’ll prolly have a crowd of crickets

I love my songs I feel they’re so seamless
But that’s my opinion cause the others don’t see this
She tryna sew me back together like she a seamstress
Tryna be there anytime she feel I might seem stressed

Maybe I’m too privileged to realized I been blessed
How she fall into a heart when I’m clearly sleeveless 
Cool on the surface but she ain’t see the sleaze yet
How much I gotta fuck up for her to leave yet 

Maybe I’ll bounce back real quick 
I stay hating all my impulse decisions 
Can’t tell if my friends for real the real clique 
My heart too broke for a real bitch to fix

real quick

Can't Help Falling in Love (Cover)

Lyrics:
I don’t think that I really belong here
Not too sure if I really belong here
I think that I should’ve just died last year 
never pussied out and just died last year 

It’s Christmas! Isn’t it?
A time of reminiscence of innocence
A time where life was so simple- 
Do you recall a warm memory of your innocence?

I really wish I was on Ridellan.
I think I may have trauma from an incident.
Everyday I question and question my decisions. 
Friends went to college to be businessmen.

and

I don’t think that I really belong here
Not too sure if I really belong here
I think that I should’ve just died last year 
Should’ve never pussied out and just died last year

Let me live my life I’ll go to heaven if I need to
Afterlife can seem real nice when everybody see through
I hate myself I won’t do well I’ll sacrifice if need be
Clipped magic wand could shoot a long magic bullet to free me

Let me live my life I’ll go to heaven if I need to
Afterlife can seem real nice when everybody see through
I hate myself I won’t do well I’ll sacrifice if need be
Clipped magic wand could shoot a long magic bullet to free me

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