songs that help me cry to sleep :'D

Kelissa

deezing

bored in class </3

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All production, mixing, and mastering done by me.
cover art designed from a recent hike I went on :)

lyrics:

Not making sense to you
Baby that’s how you’ll learn the truth
Coulda switched up but I won’t be rude
Lookin for something new
I coulda done better
Swear its a straight shot but it never works
Caught in a big knot with the least concern 
Sorry you’re the one that hurts

And ill be there in the morning
Swear to god I won’t be late
And ill be there without warning
A throwback to yesterday
Ill be there not ignoring all the times you called my name 
Let’s go right back where we started I’d rather rewind the tapes

I won’t lie 
I been wanting to see you one more time
So pretty please look through my eyes
feels like im paralyzed 

Don’t even like you
Why do I sit beside you?
Can’t get you out my head
But im doing all of that

And this time
I won’t follow, you
Not anyone 
Has a heart that will last through it all

chorus

something new

Mxntalfxck (Feat. Snowinterlude)

Sewer//slvt

Sewerslvt - Pretty Cvnt (s l o w e d + r e v e r b + m u f f l e d)

when im eighteen w/quannnic

prod. riachuelo +  billsburyjoeboi
@chiefjuno

so far gone w/ juno

~like a birth certificate hand written on a canvas "

star seed <new beginning 

lyrics

hold up, back up, ok
do she love me, no way
brain get fucky, ok
they don't want me, ok

i had enough
oh i'm fucking up
ion love to lust
bitch i love to love


baby i'm psyco
killing fuckers wit my eyes closed
living a everyday cycle
i might go insane lil hoe
(i forgot??)

strapped yeah, they ain't coming for us
my glock horny, i think it's finna bust
sawed off ima shoot at his gut
sawed off ima blow out his guts

cop killer no i don't give a fuck
ima shoot at 12 for they shoot at us
bodies on the ground, make a mf bust
ima kill these pigs, that's a mf must

killer killer i'm misaki asano
drop a bag like i just hit the lotto 
body bag, need a bag 'em like pronto
killer killer like i'm tony soprano

killer killer

spotify

killer killer (kacie free)

rxtarr - itsucksbeingalone [prod. rollie]

XiiiDolor - Fake Friends // Distant Strangers

VAMPCUPID 💕💕💕💕💕💕
MIXXXED BY SEVENTHDECAY 

( LYRICS )

Pop out with that mac in my hand at night
Shorty gotta match wit me pink hair i
Let her carry sticks in her purse wit a knife
See me doing good that’s that shit that make you tight
I just left the gym i could body you on sight
Say he want that beef but he wont put up a fight
Gang with me feel like robin with dark knight
Switchin lanes wit Lincoln futura alright

CJ got a bag for me it just changed my life 
i can’t go out bad always walking with my knife 
sun too fucking bright only coming out at night 
yea i know some rats and i know some fucking mice 
dirty niggas dirty dirty niggas itching lice 
i’m swerving niggas yea i’m swerving nigga purple sprite 
phony niggas claiming that they gonna take my life 
lane switch dodge 12 and we ran some lights 

do the dash my whip a jet 
diamonds dancing on my neck 
that bitch plastic no respect 
all that ass put you in debt 
carry nines and toting tecs 
no more opps i heard they dead 
no more oops i heard they dead (x2)

x Ayce Comet - TOUR! (prod.maymadethisfire)

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//いいんだよ//

sample is be kind by alex g

no amount of words could ever express my love for you guys. thank you so fucking much for every single comment, like, conversation, etc. i live for this music & to know i've got that much support behind me is insane. you blow my mind. i love you guys.

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https://genius.com/guardin-take-away-the-pain-lyrics

lyrics

take away the pain

prod. by @guardinmusic

lyrics
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i see them looking at me
from right outside of my window
i see the monsters that creep
they lurk when i'm sparking my indo
holding the smoke till i choke i won't breathe till they exit my airways
coping by hoping tomorrow is better i dwell in the stairway 

fuck it i just wanna drive
i love the feeling of feeling alive
do you ever contemplate suicide?
falling asleep on his shoulder while i
cry in my pillow alone in my bed
smother the sounds of the voice in my head
losing my voice so i speak with a pen
writing agendas so i can pay rent

this is my life
this is not shit you could cut with a knife
no tension here but the stress is as thick as the buds
i've been breaking & smoking all night
why do i write all about me?
why can't you see all the things that i see?
am i alive? is my brain just pullin' tricks on me?
get out alive or just live in a dream

sorry i suck
i'm full of shit i do not give a fuck
i've got disorders in folders inside of me tucked
undiagnosed but i know i am fucked
up in my head
writing about it again & again
it's getting hard to write songs about flowers 
when showers are cold & my phone's always dead

i think that i'm fine
when i'm alone in my
bed with my bong packed tight
my throat's been sore all night
sip that water quick
before you might get sick
tacks and thorns will prick
my words will never stick

shadow

prod. by @4evrgone

lyrics
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lower than low you fucking piece of shit
you're nothing more than a kid
just something i wanna rid 
& i confess that i care too much
about everyone 
you're the weight that's pulling on my lungs  

suffer alone until you get a grip 
until the acid drips 
from your eyes to your lips 
find your way out of all the shit you cause 
you can not hit pause
this is your monologue 
and i don't really feel like
you get me so let me just fucking live life
my patience is wasted because i'm too nice
fake friends take advantage i know it's happened twice 
like
they don't really care 
i'm fully aware 
baby don't you dare 
i've been looking at the way you look at him you stare
i'm not throwing up i'm just in need of fucking air 

lower than low you fucking piece of shit
you're nothing more than a kid
just something i wanna rid 
& i confess that i care too much
about everyone 
you're the weight that's pulling on my lungs  

i've been patient starting fires 
burning higher than before 
i've been patient growing tired 
of the lump that's in my throat

follow 4evr

useless (prod. by 4evr)

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//もういちど私を愛して//

this hasn't gotten any easier for either of us. if you're reading this, just know i will always love you. you'll forever hold my heart & i'm sorry it still beats for you.

lyrics
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so baby tell me that you love me
tell me anything instead of nothing
i just wanna hear you speak again
even if its just the air you're breathing in

i know that you wont ever want me
but a boy can hope i cope by smoking palm leaves
the ghost of what we had is floating in the smoke
i cry every night about you i'm a fucking joke

i'm a fucking joke
texting you at 2 wish you'd reply but you don't
what the fuck is going on i really do not know
said you loved me yesterday in a few days you'll say you don't

rxtarr - itsucksbeingalone [prod. rollie]

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