self conscious piece of shit
"i feel like shit" out now on all platforms <3
Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/album/7G7YgROqCQugqjyECcgfPP?si=ka4L06SZRAm08CoXMVpaVQ
Apple: https://music.apple.com/ca/album/i-feel-like-shit-single/1556116819
Prod. saint mike
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCtVW96i3Bus5Nz-4IIUWqsw
Mix & Master. Zonex
www.youtube.com/channel/UCVJdNVkPZmHUEQSoJ6zcIUg

i feel like shit [prod. saint mike]

out on all platforms <3
spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/4wtCSvHe3Fsgi8oiX0VaJm?si=5bd08154e5954c0e
apple: https://music.apple.com/ca/album/life-after-highschool/1572304491?i=1572304492
prod. saint mike www.youtube.com/channel/UCtVW96i3Bus5Nz-4IIUWqsw
mix n master. Zonex www.youtube.com/channel/UCVJdNVkPZmHUEQSoJ6zcIUg

life after highschool [prod. saint mike]

luv yall <3 hope yall enjoy the album
out on all platforms

prod. @prodryankelly
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UChtd0ihipYS2VFUfCb7lk4A

+whole album is mixed n mastered by zonex
https://www.youtube.com/c/ZonexBeats

brand new chapter [prod. ryan kelly]

shoutout @t1gerstar for carrying me lol

on all platforms.
spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/27HpdD2ydYv0gyL93ziQre?si=e09eb012a7b44177

steady on the downfall w/ tigerstar [prod. Coka$ian]

petty needs [prod. saint mike]

epic gamer moment
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Bravo Six [prod. zonex]

Resemblance [prod. past encounters]

thx @777evil & @nokerbforever <3

Life is alway changing, youll find a new perspective
Im sorry that i did this, but that shits not respected
fucked up once we let it go, you fuck up twice and then it shows
That you never changed, and you never will
in me builds the rage, to the point where i could kill
put a bullet in your chest, watch the blood pour out and spill
I trusted you, you gave me nothing, i shouldve known, you were up to something
A second chance, we deserve it all, but people like you, put us all at fault
And theres nothing i could say, you didnt learn your lesson
Forgave you the first time, but i cant do a second

Choices fall, into a sick shape
Reminisce the times we fixate
On our broken souls
Swear i let it go
Every fucking second
But your failure it shows

evilmiku:
i can’t keep up with every single change
you try to make everything bad a game
all of these thoughts you planted in my brain
but i won’t go down from anything you say

NOKERB:
you would always pressure me to get shit done
lately i been wondering if this is all worth it
wasted my time on you, thought it was perfect
it was not, you was treating me so worthless
i wonder how long it all will last.. 
the choices fell!
you was treating me like trash
im on the edge of falling down
baby im about to jump

choices fall ft. evilmiku & NOKERB [prod. saint mike]

there might be a music vid for this soon....
prod. saint mike

LYRICZ+++++
I dont need you, but you cancelled anyways
I guess that means we’ll never actually date
I was starting to get to know you, but i guess its fine
Another one who didnt want me thats just life
Thats okay i keep on moving, moving slowly
Just kidding i lied im blasting through on full speed
Its a bad habit i know, i need to calm down and start going slow

I dont why i always seem to rush right in
Im sorry that i fell for you so quick
Im falling im speeding, im crashing, i see you
Im calling, im pleading, im dashing, i need you

Early i said that i dont need you, but i guess i do
Your words are stuck in my brain, i swear they glue
I dont understand, why i put my trust in you
I regret my actions, cause id never lie to you
Youd rip my heart out, even if you followed through
But here we fall out, and we just end up hollow
Why’d you cancel when you were excited?
I was looking for love, but babe your not even in the slightest

fell for you [prod. saint mike]

main component [prod. past encounters]

shoutout @memoryfactory on the feature
AMV by biteki: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sPqBtBqltMI
LYRIC!!!
On a quiet sunday evening, you stand on broken ground
I know you may be grieving, but there's nothing to be found
I dont know, why you come here
Waste my time, its  unclear
Things dont always make much sense
I cut our ties our dividends 

Back in time you were my friend
Actually you were more than that
You were the one i loved, and i adored you back
We were once together long ago
But things dont work out in this show
if things dont work out the first time, i doubt they work twice

[memory factory]
no worry, you found me
just hope i'm on the way
don't worry, things won't work out
this broken glass might hurt now
but not for long
tell me to please don't act like it's just a scene

broken ground ft. memory factory [prod. coka$ian]

epic song ft. @lxstboymusic
prod. judah B

LYRICCCC!!
Slide on the city yeah you know its time
Yeah shes pretty, mighty fine
Got myself locked in her eyes, a carousel right through my spine
She got me spinning round, round circles in my brain
I wish i could go back, and make my past not so plain

Cant change the past, but the future's yours to mold
So take your hand, ace up your sleeve, dont you fold, youll see
Youll make your name, across these plains, across these empty streets
Follow me, but i aint got a fkn clue
We gon bluff, we gon make it through the rough, 
losing all my confidence but fuck it ima run it up, 
look into her eyes n don't pass that up

[lxst boy]
yeah
slide through the city we gon make it fly
got so lost in her deep brown eyes
never could dance but she took my hand
got me hyped for what she got next
and i don’t wanna tell her now
that she’s all in my head
i wish i could just let her go
but i’m still here instead

imma lost boy
never found
but i’m always
underground
i don’t really
fall in love
but this girl is
all i want

slide on the city ft. lxst boy [prod. Judah B]

prod @pastencounters

LYR!C
Ok im dreaming bout you, even tho you waste my time
I know what this will come to, but i'm hypnotized
Got me by the tongue, and im searching for an answer
Ur stuck inside my thoughts, your a devilish enchanter

Black eyeliner, ripped fishnets, thigh high socks and pink corset
Black nail polish, cigarettes, got my name across your chest
Black eyeliner, ripped fishnets, thigh high socks and pink corset
Black nail polish, cigarettes, got my name across your chest

Once i saw you, you had me crushing, girl i want you
She got that hello kitty backpack, and in fact, she asked my snapchat
Shawty i dont have that, heres my ig, lets not backtrack
Moving forward, making moves, i see your eyes, i see your mood.

devilish enchanter the way she looks into my eyes
She got my soul she's haunting, is this real life?
Im under full control, she got me by that spell
Im simping full time for you, baby cant you tell

Black eyeliner, ripped fishnets, thigh high socks and pink corset
Black nail polish, cigarettes, got my name across ur chest
Black eyeliner, ripped fishnets, thigh high socks and pink corset
Black nail polish, cigarettes, got my name across ur chest

i know, nothings ever perfect.
You got me by ur spell, and ill tell you that its working
I wanna see you, wanna be by your side
But if i'm being honest, i dont know how u survived
All my stupid questions, all my stupid answers
I'm self conscious, i'm a loser, and your a devilish enchanter

Black eyeliner, ripped fishnets, thigh high socks and pink corset
Black nail polish,cigarettes, she got my name across her chest
Black eyeliner, ripped fishnets, thigh high socks and pink corset
Black nail polish, cigarettes, she got my name across her chest

devilish enchanter [prod. past encounters]

yeyeheadass

LYRICs!#$$#%$#%

I aint give a fuck ive been running up n grinding
Ive been in my bag, my plays still declining
You can watch, just see where i go
And If thats somewheres, its somewheres coming slow
journeys far, roads not painted gold
And when i'm finished ill be old

I aint finna quit
Slow me down no not a bit
Yeah no duh im fuckin loser
better hide yo bitch
Yeah im coolin, why u switch
Jk i aint even care, you can get ur knees n suck my mother fuckn dick

Yeah my ego getting tall, but anxiety gon call
When i make a wrong move and back down i fall
Im subject to it all, when you call me
When You call me back and say im faulty

got alotta issues, i just shove em to the sidelines
gotta deal with em, but right nows not the right time
When you call me, and say im faulty
I aint give a fuck, ive been running up
Girl you haunt me, when you want me
Ive been grinding on my music but its taunting
I aint getting lotta plays, but u know i stay away
Girl you want me, i aint want you
I wish that was the case, we all got thoughts too
i aint really know now, im filled with indecision
I aint got a choice, so surely no precision 
When you call me, say im faulty
Anxiety gon get a grip, i'm falling
I aint give a fuck, ive been running up
Girl you haunt me, when you want me
Ive been grinding on my music but its taunting

Guess i need you, i aint really want to
I was building up my ego, now thats lost too
Look into the future, i aint got a lot to say
despite all my grinding i go down in plays
that dont matter, im happy for the real ones
If youve been by my side, we finna feel up 
Just pretend that you got money, you got hoes n that your funny
You can play pretend all you want truth is that ur nothing
Try ur hardest i aint quit, my music sucks n sounds like shit
But i aint care yeah not a bit, ill probably never make a hit
so when i cry my tears i tell myself this

idgaf [prod. saint mike]

on all platforms <3

LYRIC/////
I did what i did, nothings gonna change that
Change who i am go way back
Ive been me, changing gradually
Through life were evolving we have to be

Time and place, everything gon change
Think you got the best of me but nothings in my way
except myself, except my mind, except my stupid ways to waste my time
We all change, life moves on, we recover from pain, and move beyond
We all fuck up, we all do wrong, the question is how u gonna stay strong

Its unlikely, i fucked up and you know that
Overthink myself sleep, time move forward cant go back
You try your best to make amends
But i cant fix what doesnt bend 
I used to think you were my friend
Now i see it was it all pretend
I fucked up once you left the end.

everything gon change [prod. mndls1600]

prod @whos-that-clown

LYRICC
Soon you'll want me, i'll crawl right back
Staying calm in the heat of attack
Say mean words, but u dont mean that
And if you ever reconsider you know where im at

fed up with the bullshit, fed up with the lies
Hit me with a full clip, right between the eyes
I know that you want me, but u never tried
Yet I ran right back, what a fool am i?

Did this to myself im so stupid
Fell for you so quick, arrow mustve been cupid
All my dreams are feeling so lucid, 
but they slowly turn to nightmares ur making me feel useless

A cannon loaded up with feelings, 
Shot into my ship, grapeshot and now im bleeding
Baby i swear that ur a demon,
 i see it in your eyes
i feel hypnotised
As im slipping away
To another kind of place
My heart is bleeding out
Your the cause and the cure no doubt

I knew this from the first go, yet i gave it a second try
I dont understand why i gave you, all my precious time

The clock is slowly ticking
Were running low on minutes
The second hand ticks faster
And my heart finally kicks in

fed up [prod. the sound clown]

ft the legendary @jrolli

LYRICS
I dont wanna do this no more
Caused this myself, im ready for internal war
What am i doing this for? Cause myself internal war

Am i right or wrong i cant decide
I dunno how i wanna my live my life
One moment im fine and confident as hell
The next moment im gone and my confidence fell
Did i make the right choice the wrong way
Did i make a wrong move and fuck up clear as day
Backtrack but my flaws don't stay away

JROLLi:
Im drowning in my cup when i got company
Dont really give no fucks i want that young money
They got me driving on highways im mindless
I pulled up to your drive way i might just.
So tell me am i wrong for feeling this way?
I gotta answer the phone before they get me
Am i right or wrong for missing your face?
Am i right or wrong am i right or wrong?

Right or Wrong ft. JROLLi [prod. mndls1600]

luv yall frfr
prod. @whos-that-clown

LYRICZ
Baby in a moment, id be there happily
Times will change, lets hope not too drastically

First when i met you, you ripped my fucking heart out
Met at the terminal it was dark out
Want me close but i keep you closer
Last thing i need is for you to run me over
Im falling, for you
Everything that you do
I dunno how to explain
you fill the thoughts run through my brain

Back n forth, tryna find my way now
Trapped by your love, i dunno if theres a way out
i dont mind, for you ill make an exception
defibrillated my heart gave me a resurrection 

need that, smoke a g fat, put an ounce in my face ima breathe back
Ima smoke up, ima light down, ima show up, when the leaves turn brown
Summer autumn winter spring, full year round what your love brings
I hope my gut dont hear me sing, ill take that chance with you i think

first when i met you [prod. the sound clown x yunnygoldz]

ft. my epic gf @earth2athena

LYRIC<3
Hold up wait a minute
Lemme hear you talk
I aint know whats right
But i know my wrongs
Sing this song til the end of time
Burned to ashes left behind
Were all broken records, found lying astray
So grab ahold some duct tape and lets start fixing right away

Gotta start from somewhere
And That somewheres aint here
you can kick you can bite, you can blast your gun
Ready on the trigger but you wont shoot none
Look at me then look at yourself were just like a mirror
Were both the same, similarities couldn't be clearer

It’s like a reflection
From a different direction I
Point a finger at you cause I don’t know what else to do
Easier to blame 
Than to accept we are the same
Can’t tell you anything

similarities ft. earth2athena [prod. saint mike]

thank god i passed all my courses.

LYRICZ
Here i am at 4 am
I just finished my essay
What did i write? Amen

I dont, pray to god, but boy i need that luck
One night after work, 2000 words, still not enough
Up all night, til the break of dawn, early morning rising
I fucked up, n poorly planned, too late, hand in, no revising

Made mistakes that i cant take back
Grade got an F, and boy i hate that
Rate me zero, well bitch im sure i aint that
But if you say 10, ima ask you where your brains at

Annotated bibliography
Write it last minute what the fucks wrong with me
back n forth on school, work and love
Cant stay on topic like my essays, another gutter draft is done
Thats no fun, i must admit
I overthink til i feel like shit

2000 words [prod. mndls1600]

<3 ft. @stevenawelch

LYRICS:
Afterburn at night
Fireflies take flight
Lighting up the sky
In the shape of a heart for you and I

Slowburn, lowflame
Ignite, butane
Run back, constraint
Feel the heat come take a taste
Fireflies light up the sky
In a heart formation
I cant believe whats in my eyes
I need no hesitation
No debate into my conscious
Think too much i might get nauseous
Wash away, all my sins, and what i did wrong
I love you here i love you now, so lets not prolong
My feelings are here to last in my fragile heart

Walk too far when in my shell
Anxious stutter cant you tell
Free myself when i ring that bell
Til then ill reside in my own hell 

V3nn:
Reside in my own hell, sometimes I can’t tell if I am well 
Baby please give me some time to excel 
I just really want your love why can’t you just tell 
I just wanna get away from here, 
blow pack everyday, while the haters stare 
And I can never do this shit on my own 
That’s why I need you I can’t be all alone 
I remember all the long nights crying on the phone 
When laughed in my face, am I a fucking joke ? 
Smoke so much weed my lungs hurt, I might choke 
And I got a Dutch so you know that bitch slow burn

Fireflies ft. v3nn [prod. yunny goldz]

out on all platforms.
luv yall <3

LYRIC/////
Flip another coin into the whiskey jar
Filled up half the tank, didnt get that far
Rip my ‘02 neon yeah i miss that car
And you say ur always missing yeah i bet you are

Hear me clearly, hear me soft
Your my love, your in my arms
I need you close, you need me closer
Almost there im on my way over

You could put the distance between you and I
And id travel those miles, id travel the sky
Your worth every penny, every single dollar
if i couldnt reach you, know that i would call ya

Back when i was lonely, back before you would know me
Id dream of life like this, fall in love at our first kiss
Back when i was lonely, back before you would know me
Id dream of life like this, fall in love at our first kiss

Leave me broken leave me hopeless
Hope your joking, and you notice
That your loves a part of me,
That i would hate to see, leave
So baby stay with me, 
We can watch the moon, we can watch the stars
Make a wish on you, that youll never go far
Away from me, left to the shadows the stormy seas
Its you and me, on the open sea, lets go back home
We can live on the coastline, or the middle of nowhere
Waves on the shore, or a field with cold air
Nova scotia to saskatchewan

whiskey jar [prod. saint mike]

fkn nuts. prod @yunnygoldz

LYRIC']']'[l;pp,

Wrap myself when i end up in a casket
Rest my soul, to the sand pray to ashes
Burn me away took a toll, and im passing
Pass me away consequence to my action

Gotta learn from the past, one wrong move, 
team rocket ima blast
Gotta learn from the past, yet not overthink mistakes

But i tend to overthink, and my mind wont take a break
Til my confidence it breaks,and my hands they start to shake
Circle round my brain cause pain it aches 
But if u ask how im doing ill say great
Great how im feeling, just great how im dealing
great at overthinking and not great at the healing
Hard to move past when you disappoint yourself
Great at overthinking ima lose myself

R.I.P. from the heart to the soul
Broke to pieces aint coming back whole
I been cracking longtime, self inflicted
consequence is mine, atleast i predicted
Through my overthinking, confidence is sinking

But i tend to overthink, and my mind wont take a break
Til my confidence it breaks, and my hands they start to shake
Circle round my brain cause pain it aches 
But if u ask how im doing ill say great
Great how im feeling, just great how im dealing
Im great at overthinking and not great at the healing
Hard to move past when you disappoint yourself
Great at overthinking ima lose myself

great [prod. yunny goldz]

out on all plats <3
w/ @stevenawelch
prod. @camertin

LYRICS
Hop up on my saddle, putting pressure on this wasteland
Trekking through the desert, boy ur time is wasting
Keep my mind, just by myself, really i just dont
Go outside, and vibe that much, i get by i just float
I aint do alot, sit inside, and vibe through 
Me myself and i, a couple friends sometimes too
really im in self confinement
Swear im trying
I debate myself, my mind is lying
I overthink, i think to much, grip the wheel i hit the clutch
Im switching gears, im switching modes, watch me close as i explode

Hit the gas, im outta park
I turn the key ignition spark
Im on the road, i take that journey
Hop along, and deem me worthy
I dont know myself, but maybe you can make that choice now
really swear im trying, even tho i never voice how
Empty road, with a journey ahead
Keep myself close, cause i know i'm seeking for dread
v3nn:
i hate it when I feel like I got no one 
I’m running outta options my father won’t help his own son 
I been here way too many times 
I feel like I’m just wasting rhymes 
I’m wasting my life with all the drugs that I been doing 
She ask me what I’m doing I said shawty yea I’m coolin 
But I ain’t really feeling myself I need some space cuz
[back 2 chorus]
v3nn:
I just got blood on my new jeans 
Blood on my new jeans
I hate how people act so fucking phony 
You say that you’re my homie but you act like you don’t know me 
So sick of life man I think I might just give up 
I been doing bad it’s hard to keep my head up 
Wasting my time writing down all of these verses 
I feel so fucking worthless man I probably just cursed this 
My friends are bouta lose me like I’m Noctis 
I just needa get that crown and yea I got this 
I promise I’ll sit on the thrown lil bitch you cannot stop it 
I just need a bag now and let’s be honest 
I ain’t coming back when I’m up that’s how I’m feelin
My friends are bouta lose me like I’m Noctis

journey for the cursed crown w/ v3nn [prod. camertin]

lyricz
Glass half full, ive been waiting on the plus side
We aint even half way but damn its been rough ride
With you til the end until you break our trust tie
I gotta make the first move? Must I?

Confidence aint the highest
But boy im feeling the flyest
Best fit here, these motherfuckers aint trying
Designer mixed with the thrift find, double downed to the riptide,
Boy you falling on slipslide, rearrange ur thoughts see the flipside
With a womens 19th century watch see my wrist shrine
You might think u fly, but u aint coming close this time

Running through a field, saddle me up a horse
I be at max caliber srt4 of course
Or a dodge neon, i dont want a porsche
My drip cause a flood, yeah u might an oar

Glass half full, ive been waiting on the plus side
We aint even half way but damn its been rough ride
With you til the end until you break our trust tie
I gotta make the first move? Must I?

GLASSHALFFULL [prod.  ETERNETY x inuyasha]

epic song ft vails @alex-thomas-fox
prod by the legendary @whos-that-clown

LYRICS
Keep myself close i've been feening for some trouble
Built myself back up from the broken bricks and rubble
Call me back soon ive been seeing triple double
Ghostly thoughts r haunting me til i begin to struggle

Back to the top, but im not far from the bottom
Fall back ill stop, if shit dont drop, that opp dead i fought em
Spit that gunsling cap, cap gun shoot his skull til his brain go splat
One more fall and i aint come back, 
survived it once and i'm lucky for that
Built back up, but im starting to crack
 this whole frame damn is rotten
Ive fallen, and i need you here. Pitch black darkness consumes my thoughts and these demons feed on fear.

Vails:
I fall so easily, baby why dont you catch me now
Im under influence, take a pill for dominance
Now i just horrible, dont think im compatible
Hide my feeling in a bottle

Im on gas going full throttle
I see red, guess i'm dead
Seen my cards but fold instead
Undercover in my bed, think its time i lost my head now
Im a mess must confess all my demons now

back 2 the top ft. Vails [prod. the sound clown]

a song about rally racing i guess lol
prod by the one and only @yunnygoldz

lyricz!

Yeah, i just think i lost my mind
Nah, grip the wheel n dot my eyes
Yeah, ive got nothing left to hide
Nah, theres nothing deep to know inside
Im just pacing through this course offroad like a rally car
My mind is like an RS200, jump ahead too far
I need to make a new plan, off to group B
Well that was cancelled you see
Im just running through my life like its a rally race
Offroad, 90 long n then a right chicane 
Spotter looking out for me, but a spotter dont fix my brain
Broke my rear suspension, land that jump but i might feel the pain
Burning thru this rubber, even in the rain
hit that blind crest flying like a hurricane 

Downtime, im fixing up my shitbox that left in pieces
Snapped coils, bent frame, only myself that i have to blame
I went off course, with no remorse and id do all again
Im just pacing through this course offroad like a rally car
My mind is like an RS200, jump ahead too far

I need to make a new plan, off to group B
Well that was cancelled you see
Im just running through my life like its a rally race
Offroad, 90 long n then a right chicane 
Spotter looking out for me, but a spotter dont fix my brain
Broke my rear suspension, land that jump but i might feel the pain
Burning thru this rubber, even in the rain
hit that blind crest flying like a hurricane

Rallycar [prod. yunny goldz]

on all platforms <3

LYR1Cz

Ive been waiting for a long while now
But i still see sadness in faces when i walk around
Money dont always buy happiness, but it sure makes it easier
Yeah

Get up, start over
In need of luck
Grab a four leaf clover
That shit don't exist
Im mad til im throwing fists
And i'm outrageously pissed
Took a shot, and my shot missed
Get back up, dont give up
Keep on moving i know ur tough
Got a couple dollars, couple dollars enough

Keep that purple in my cup
Sippin lean it keeps me up
Smoke a lil bit got me wavy
Poutine on this track ima pour a lil gravy
What u really saying, i aint got a clue
Im just talking my shit really whatchu finna do
Oh nothing, ive been fine
Ima say what i say, my whole life

money = happiness? [prod. saint mike]

out on all plats <3

LyRiCz123123

Made mistakes, so have you
Turned my back, its nothing new
Keep my confidence at bay
Save my effort for another day

Look i know aint perfect
Thats just life were all still learning
Took some time, i think my confidence surfaced
Whats the purpose of life, if you never take those chances
I earned my sacrifice, but i'm still bleeding on my canvas
consequence of chances

Roll the dice, bury me in amber
Live my life took my chances like gambler
Bet too much couldve bought a jeep wrangler
Now im broke as fuck lookin like adam sandler
Baggy shorts n sweatshirt
Lowkey living life the best word
For how im feeling
Or how im rather not dealing with anything

Consequence of Chances [prod. mndls1600]

Track 3 of 4 on the Pixel Garden EP

produced by Soju
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCYC1De_M7Q7VMGUhtLUOakg
mix and mastered by Zonex
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCVJdNVkPZmHUEQSoJ6zcIUg

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