city lights (original)

i'm sorry that we went down without a fight

daylight goodbyes

produced by blue jey
art by colby jeannine fortin


Lyrics:
Chorus:
And I don’t wanna be here anymore
Hasn’t been the same since you closed that door
You turned around and you walked away 
Now that you’re gone there’s nothing left to say

And I don’t wanna be here anymore
There’s something  in your eyes that I can’t ignore
I never thought it would end this way 
Now that you’re gone there’s nothing left to say, nothing left to say

Verse 1:
And we were fighting like every night
Feeling like I’m losing my mind
Now every time you show up on my timeline
Just reminds me what I left behind

Was feeling like there’s something wrong with me
Every time I saw you It’s like I couldn’t breathe
I was blind but I’m starting to see
(Yeah I was blind but I’m starting to see)

You always knew I’d fall for that, I’d go for that
Like every time I saw you, you’d convince me you were coming back
I just wanna feel, but I can’t anymore
Even though you’re gone, you’re the one that I adore

You’re like
“Just another kiss baby, I been feeling so bad”
But you pushed me to the outside, don’t expect a text back
Don’t tell me that you love me, baby you already said that
I don’t need anybody, no it’s just another set back

Chorus

Verse 2:
But I wont fall for you again
finally got over who I used to depend on
Hoped this wouldn’t be note it’d end on
Guess I should’ve listened to my friends, huh?

And when we started this you said you
Would never hurt me guess that wasn’t true
And after everything you put me through
Trying not to give a fuck about you

And I won’t fall for your tricks
There are things you left me with I’m still trying to fix
Still can’t believe I ever took your shit
I was so in love, but now I’m so done with it

And I caught you red handed
I don’t care at all baby this is where we landed
But this is so much harder than expected
Guess I should move on and accept it

Chorus

nothing left - single

nothing left

produced by blue jey
art by colby jeannine fortin

lyrics:
playing with my heart like you broke that
and you know once it's done you can't take it back
tell me that you miss me then you turn around
baby i'm so lost, and i just wanna be found

playing with my heart racing through my chest
you know that i did my best
now i wear a bullet proof vest
to protect myself from you
and all the lies that you spew
all the things that you knew
and you didn't say
you're the one who walked away
tell me does this end today
cause theres a pain in my head that I can't shake
(i can't shake)
but i still look for solace in the same place

tell me all the things you don't wanna hear
tell me will you hold me near
tell me bout the fear 
in the back of your head
are we better off dead?
waiting holding my breath
to see when the time is right
even though i've asked a million times
i know you're the right
you know that you're the one that I like
but we're still bleeding our under city lights
and i don't wanna die tonight 

playing with my heart like you broke that
and you know once it's done you can't take it back
tell me that you miss me then you turn around
baby i'm so lost, and i just wanna be found

playing with my heart like you broke that
and you know once it's done you can't take it back
tell me that you miss me then you turn around
baby i'm so lost, and i just wanna be found

you're running through my bad dreams
i don't wanna be seen
as the mess you made me
i'm ripping at the seams
just turn around and face me
i don't know why you played me
your face still plagues me
i'm losing self esteem
and i could feel it in my blood
coursing through my vains
does this look the same to you?
if i make it through the night imma make it through
just tell me when you're gone while i break in two

you said that you would shield me
(now look how well you did)
baby can you heal me?
(come back to me again)
you told me that you missed me
(hasn't been the same since)
you turned around and left me
you know i felt that pain in my heart again
and i'm asking you if we could start again
but i'm breaking down thinking bout how this ends
and i'm breaking down thinking bout how this ends

playing with my heart like you broke that
and you know once it's done you can't take it back
tell me that you miss me then you turn around
baby i'm so lost, and i just wanna be found

playing with my heart like you broke that
and you know once it's done you can't take it back
tell me that you miss me then you turn around
baby i'm so lost, and i just wanna be found

city lights

produced by blue jey
art by colby jeannine fortin

lyrics:
just another night that i wake up alone
in a love i can’t call home
tell me it’ll work when it won’t
baby i know that it won’t
tell me when you know

just another night that i wake up alone
in a life I can’t call home
tell me if you leave or you don’t
baby tell me that you won’t
tell me if you go

lately i’ve been working through things
all the pain the truth brings
not knowing what you think
are you really leaving?
will you throw it all away?
don’t know what to say
This shit is hard to face

acting like i’m gone, 
i don’t need this fuck that
then i’d contradict
myself in the same breath
hard to come to terms with the fact i was wrong
must’ve been a part of me that knew it all along

heavy weight on my chest 
hiding in a safe place
just to save face
wishing you the best
while we both say goodbye
for the last time
or just for tonight 

hold tight or cut ties?
cut the tension
cut the search for redemption 
never meant for this to happen
but in the end
my memory is bullshit 

hold tight or cut ties? 
only got one life
and no time 
only got one joint
and no high 
is there no point?
when i try

just another night that i wake up alone
in a love i can’t call home
tell me it’ll work when it won’t
baby i know that it won’t
tell me when you know 

just another night that i wake up alone
in a life i can’t call home
tell me if you leave or you don’t
baby tell me that you won’t
tell me if you go

waking up [sober]

produced by blue jey
art by colby jeannine fortin

lyrics:
and as i fall down again
we’ll go on and play pretend
that i’m happy
and i’m fine

as i fall from the heights
we’ll just say that i’m alright
i’m fine
it’s alright

made the worst of a best case situation 
guess i did it all just for nothing 
makes me wonder why i try
when i always end up dry

call it pointless call in crazy
mom says i’m just lazy 
and it’s all in my head
guess i’ll stay home in bed, again

and as i fall down again
we’ll go on and play pretend
that i’m happy
and i’m fine

as i fall from the heights
we’ll just say that i’m alright
i’m fine
it’s alright

i’ll make a hell out of heaven          
felt this way since damn near eleven
though it’s up and down, i just run around
when i start to grow i re-salt the ground

sometimes i feel like i’m stuck with me
feeding off negative energy
my lungs feel tight when i try to breathe
tell me how to feel maybe i’ll be free

and as i fall down again
we’ll go on and play pretend
that i’m happy
and i’m fine

as i fall from the heights
we’ll just say that i’m alright
i’m fine
it’s alright

i'm happy, i'm fine.

produced by blue jey
art by colby jeannine fortin

lyrics:
how come you’re always sad when you call me?
i don’t wanna talk just tell me what you want from me

how come you’re always sad when you call me?
i don’t wanna talk just take what you want from me

i’m wasted, I’m gone
just take me back from the future
you’re still in my rearview 
i’m stuck, with the things I wont ask
the dreams made of glass
they shatter so fast

hit the fucking breaks or we’ll crash 
i’m too scared to wonder
where this whole disaster
will end,
gonna burn us up in this car wreck 
still kissin on my neck
and rippin on my chest

flashbacks from the last time
that you told me
you prob’ly wouldn’t even be alive
in the morning
like a deer in the headlights
i’m caught up in you tonight

flashbacks from the last time
that you told me
you prob’ly wouldn’t even be alive
in the morning
like a deer in (the) headlights
face burned into my eyes

how come you’re always sad when you call me?
i don’t wanna talk just tell me what you want from me

how come you’re always sad when you call me?
i don’t wanna talk just take what you want from me
take what you want from me
baby we are not the same thing

call me

a collection of emotions suspended in moments of time

album art by colby jeannine fortin