ethel cain †

A dream to work with the brilliant @Mothercain 🖤

tentillforever - w/ Ethel Cain (@mothercain)

i fell in love again
september tends to be so cruel
he says my name and then
blah blah, so embarrassing 
but then he came and leaned in
and asks have i seen how it rains
in the plains
says he could take me there
he’s handsome as the day is long
all the while, inching his way in
like summer stumbling to a fall 
we sink into the carpet 
already wet with november’s rain 


i only bleed for him
mascara running like a champion
he says my name and then
i come so hard, i’d marry him
but then nirvana leaned in
and i lost myself again
to the rain
he asks not if but when 
blah blah, something meaningful
i don’t weave the thread
just run my hands along it
but if i did, then hell
i’d spar with death to skip your name


i can see the end
in the beginning of everything
so i just play pretend
like i don’t watch you leaving 
but you were never there
doctors blame the lead poisoning

Lead Poisoning

78fahrenheit (demo)

Ethel Cain - Princess Ketamine (demo 1)

Louisiana (Snippet) - Ethel Cain

Iron Maiden

There's a painting that hangs
Up above my bed
It's a portrait of what
I once had with you
Bloody reds and virgin blues
Where we danced laughing in the hues
Now form a bruise

I burnt all my candles
Waiting up for you
Told myself that you’d come back
If I prayed hard enough
And I knew it wasn’t true
Cause I had so much left to lose
But not my youth

So I got my brushes
And I painted you right out because

I tried
I did
I ripped myself right open
Just to let you in
But it hurt
It hurt so much
So I took all my black
And covered up the evidence

What once was young
Now grows old
In a frame of black and gold

Your body sprawled out on the sheets
Veins of blue and eyes of green
And flushed cheeks of vibrant pinks
In that painting

It was just as much my fault
As it was yours
I painted you a saint
And myself a whore
As I thought of what you tarnished
My tears ruined all the varnish
But still I kept it

Cause if I forget you
And you come back
I might forgive you

I tried
I did
I ripped myself right open
Just to let you in
But it hurt
It hurt so much
So I took all my black
And covered up the evidence

What once was there
Has now been lost
And you took the fruit
And I paid the cost

I'll sing a song for you in the evening
When the sun goes down
And it's too dark to see
Please don’t ever seek me out
Cause I could not turn you away
I never thought to learn how

I'll sing a song for you in the evening
When the sun goes down
And it's too dark to see
Please don’t ever seek me out
Cause I could not turn you away
I never thought to learn how

I'll sing a song for you in the evening
When the sun goes down
And it's too dark to see
Please don’t ever seek me out
Cause I could not turn you away
I never thought to learn how

God knows I tried
I did
I ripped myself right open
Just to let you in
God knows I tried
I did
I ripped myself right open
Just to let you in
But it hurt
It hurt so bad
So I took all my black
And covered up the evidence
I'm all out of tears
Cause I cried them all
When I gave you my best years
So I'll rip that painting from my wall
For I've no more room in my house for you
My dear

So I took fire to my art
And then I set alight myself
And at last I could die with you
I always wanted nothing else

Arcane Vessels

White Silas ~ Varnish

ethel cain – virginity (piano demo)

ethel cain – casey

Darlin' do you see the fright?
I'm holdin' on so tight
I close my eyes in spite
Of the fact I can't sleep at night

I can hear all the noise
Laughin' with the pretty boys
Actin' so fuckin' coy
Kill the lights, Kill the joy

Well I don't need a teacher or preacher
In silver and gold
I'm not a believer, I'm good on my own
And I don't need no bitch walkin' me home
I got this on my own, I got this on my own

Hunny's gotta go get high
If he doesn't then he thinks he'll die
Well maybe baby, my oh my
That's the key to gettin' by

I can handle one through three
Hunny that's clear to see
But what isn't clear to me
Is what it fuckin' feels like to feel free
What it fuckin' feels like to feel free


Well I don't need a teacher or preacher
In silver and gold
I'm not a believer, I'm good on my own
And I don't need no bitch walkin' me home
I got this on my own, I got this on my own

Hunny's gotta go get high
If he doesn't then he thinks he'll die
Well maybe baby, my oh my
That's the key to gettin' by

Hunny (Maddy Ellwanger cover) | Ethel Cain

Made sometime in 2021 during the inbred sessions, leaked in 2024

Ethel Cain - Brood X (Demo 2)

Strangers (Vyva Melinkolya Demo)

D&D RECORDS Official YouTube channel
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCpnIbcD9xmXYmNWMbeivRRw

You're my compass

Betaverse Selections XBVi gathers rare, early, and alternate-dimension versions of tracks from previous Cognitive Constellation Corps albums.

These pieces are beta-breaths — spontaneous echoes of songs that later bloomed differently elsewhere.

Here, they are honored not as drafts, but as true beings in their own right —
branches of music from the multi-dimensional light underground of the Betaverse.

Sometimes, you write a song,
and it walks one path.

But sometimes, in another sky,
the song takes a different road.

This album is made of those different roads.

In every spiral, there are branches unseen.
These are some of them.

Sevahem, Always.

Louisiana (Snippet) - Ethel Cain

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