I don't gots time to add a description ill do it later lol

hesitant [prod. jinsang]

beat made by Pancake: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Tdyh2HO6soM

idk why but, 
whenever im experiencing a hardship, i tend to listen to the ending theme from super mario world. there's something oddly melancholic about it. 

anyway, something happened with my peeps that mentally hit me hard enough to come back to this mf soundcloud diary and put up another journal entry. 
the situation is sort of a straw that broke the camel's back type thing. something like this happened in the past, but i was too mentally weak to think that their relationship could continue; i was already thinking that it was over and reflecting about good times in the past, but my other siblings stepped up and kept them together and showed me that i can't give in just quite yet. so now that it's happening again, im not faltering. im gonna keep pushing on regardless. 

the distance is wide refers to multiple things, the physical distance between  my parents and, the physical distance of my parents living apart from each other, the distance my dad'll have to trek to to find his own healing from his past traumas and struggles, the distance that he further created between him and my mom by doing the actions he just recently did, and the distance of life in general. 

kinda sucks that this all just happened to occur on birthday but, it eeez what it eeeez

lyrics:

the pressure is high
my hands are getting old
my family ties
just get increasingly dulled
the distance is wide
the night is so cold
but ill keep on pushing it on

enjoyed the moments
reminicsed the old days
as time progresses
it seems i've lost all my ways
just stuck in the past
but life is a flash
so ill just keep pushing it on

i dont dont want to hear what you say
aint no excuse to leave an have an affair
your life been dedicated to love 
but then i guess those 40 years wasnt fair?   

well




the times are different
your boy is all grown
i will not take this
so hop off your throne

the healing is real
you just gotta feel

it aint

the way

to stay

in place


patience is high
i never will fold
we will get past this
situation you hold
the distance is wide
the night is so cold

but still i don't think you can run
accountability will come 

break down ya doors 
i know you're human too
we'll shoulder your sins
and plenty more will accrue

but we'll never run
your fam will always come through

ya might
incite
a fight
alright

pour it all out
make sure nothing remains
i wanna hear everything
locked up in your brain
the distance is wide
the night is so cold
 
but i'll keep on fighting
for this family no denying im

blessed with so much
could never replace
the love that yall shower me
with everyday
so i will push on
no matter how wrong

the situation seems
we'll come together then you'll see
that we're ya family
so fuck all of the vanity

drop all your pride
let emotion go flow
we just get one life
so play it out wit control 
the distance is wide
the night is so cold

but ill keep pushing
onnnn



fun fact:
when i was feeling down and was listening to the ending theme of super mario world, i wondered if there was any lofi remixes of it and when I found this instrumental on youtube, the captions opened up with: "You still there? I hope you know you're doing a good job. No matter how bad things are right now, things will get better. You've kept pushing forward. I'm proud of you. Truly. Well I hope you enjoy the rest of this song. Enjoy. I love you."

it felt like god himself was speaking to me. was a crazy feeling. i didnt know how badly i needed to hear that.

the distance is wide [prod. Pancake]

"No Words Can Suffice"


________________________________________________________

Here's some quick Trivia: How old do you have to be to purchase an assault rifle in the U.S.?

18 years old. 

 It is 21 years old for handguns.

That sure makes sense, yeah.

__________________________________________________________


CREDITS:

Instrumental: idealism - ukiyo 
https://idealismus.bandcamp.com/track/ukiyo
I did not create, nor do I own the instrumental. This video is purely for entertainment purposes. If the original artist wants me to take the video down, please message me via email--Gohariotesta@gmail.com
Support the original:
https://soundcloud.com/idealismus/tracks


Quote at the end from LeeandLie's English Cover of Euterpe.
 

Image created by me.


______________________________________________________________


Lyrics:
Fuck
Another school shooter
Another tragic incident leaving kids with no future 
Another case of trauma forever scarring the parents
Another opportunity for banning guns to advance
But, yo,
Is that really our solution
should we start a revolution
removing the guns polluting
the institutions we've loosened
provided that we've been proving
some things in the constitution
just maybe need a reviewing 

For Real

And how Many deaths will it take 
for this fucking nation to rise up and make a change
Will I ever live to see it?
Or will these deaths just be in vain?
Repeat the cycle on and on-- don't learn from our mistakes
And there's so many lives at stake
and this government's run by snakes
and I pray for us while we wait
for the slightest bit of a break 
from the innocent tears in wake
of a nation that won't displace
one of the causes of all the aches 
and these murders can't be erased

I swear the amount of deaths been growing in the media
Desensitizing me and you and everyone preceding ya
Kids accustomed to play with guns and no one takes it serious
Until that gun is used on some and everyone is furious
I guess Im just delirious
trapped in a precarious 
world full of mysterious
materialistic 
idiots
Dont give a shit about my bids
Humanity is Hideous

Why Is This Happening Again [prod. idealism]

Dedicated to a friend that moved away to another state. I guess I can't really say I fell for her, cuz she kinda entered my life out of nowhere and then left just as fast. 
I was still recovering from the previous girl who I liked moving away, so this new girl really cheered me up when she transferred to my school and sat right across from me. It was a slow start-- she was really shy at first-- but She eventually brought the best out of me and returned me to my senses.


CREDITS:

Instrumental:
Marlon Knight- A New Romance
Support the Original:
https://twitter.com/marlonkmusic

Image created by Me.


LYRICS:

Missin' me
Missin' you
Missin' me
Missin' you
Share a piece
of my blues
Some for me,
some for you
I was lost;
you came through
My heart was tossed;
you construed my life-- 
no cost
Yeah its true
I never thought
that with you that I would cross 
all the boundaries that I knew:
You broke through

yah

yah

See, you're my reason for existence
Please forgive all my persistence
I admit it, you're committed:
y'always go the extra distance
You're terrific 
Ya get to business quick
'miss all of ya little fits
'miss all of ya tendencies to miss out on the greatest bits 
of the day
You never play: 
you just work
'till it hurts
Had me thinking, "I'm falling for a girl who don't know how to flirt"

(Lets go back)

Well I was wrong and impatient
You was shy, yo location
right next to my seat
Sensations were raising
The heat was chasin ya face and
I seen ya hands had been shakin
You looked me dead in my eyes
and this what you said, no mistakin:

"Sorry, I'm not used to all this treatment
I'm not used to having friends cuz I been moving states so frequent" 
"You're my first real friend in this whole school-- that really makes me happy"
"and you're funny and you're cool, my personality is wacky."

This the moment when you finally opened up
I was stuck--outta luck
But you came and reconstructed
my situation's above it now
Thank you i'll never let ya down
You're in a different state again
but, 
I'll always be around

Oh Hey, I Didn't See You There [prod. Marlon Knight]

We've all had bad experiences with something, but it's important to not let what happened in the past drag us down, and keep moving forward. That's how we progress as humans.
Make today even greater than yesterday~


This song is definitely my fastest creation at a stunning 40 mins. This time includes finding an instrumental, thinking of lyrics, and recording it. 
Normally I record the whole song all in one sitting and then go back later to refine every single part, but I didn't do that with this song. I just kinda rapped it all, and kept it.

Enjoy


CREDITS:

Instrumental: elijah who- when you're near me:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CuyxU8zwwXc
Support the original: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCrHvAyazlFil0m8L8X7PSgg

Image created by Me


LYRICS:

Ok it's Sunshine, Fun Times, Happiness and Snacks
Soda-lime, Summer-time; Ain't No Looking Back

Yeah, you've seen all the tragedies, you've seen all the doubts--
Brush it off, turn it over; you're a soldier
Go get loud
with your friends in your vicinity 
'Cuz they got the remedy
for every time you loose yourself 
they boost your own identity
The bonds you make will never break if you keep your integrity
When you feeling the intensity
hold on to this melody:

You better than fear
You never adhere
to swaying your mind to jealousy
You settle with cheers
They tremble in fear
They vision is blind
You oversee
The fate of your future is clear to see--
Got struggles to climb, it's near believe
You never will pick up the pace if you don't shake off the weights of the past that you've already seen 
The past is the past, don't pass on the last chance that you might ever see
The now is what counts, no doubt you can pounce on the bitches that amount to the wanna-be's
Honestly,
potential flowing flawlessly 
No time to look back so just keep looking foward
The moral of the story:
You are a beast!~

Ain't No Looking Back [prod. elijah who]

----------Hey I think I'm getting the hang of using Mixcraft now!---------------

Some things may weigh heavy on your mind; especially regretful things like all of the times you think, "I could've done ___ better," or "I wish I could go back in time and change ____."
It's important to not let these thoughts loom over you for too long-- They'll only hold you back.

We don't have the power to go back in time, so don't let that cloud your future. 
It's time to move on~


CREDITS:
Instrumental: ʟᴏᴏᴋ ᴀʀᴏᴜɴᴅ - letskey: https://soundcloud.com/letskey/look-around
Support the original!: 
https://soundcloud.com/letskey
https://letskey.bandcamp.com/
https://www.facebook.com/prod.letskey/
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UClGQZfD7iNa1WCfugv0ducg

Image created by me



LYRICS:
[life moves pretty fast; if you don't stop to look around once in awhile, you could miss it]

Get over it
It's over with
Ya goal's a myth
Can't shoulder it
I know just what you wanna get 
BUT
The program's finished, 
your energy has diminished, 
you gotta go back; Replenish.
Procrastination's pretentious

Your time is precious so cherish the moments given,
Reflectin' up on ya sinnin',
and Sentimentally livin',
While unintentionally giving the benefit of the doubt
to the niggas thinking you winning but really you just burnt out
like a candle left in the wind

When ya motivation is thin;
When you hesitate to fit in;
When you resonate with revenge;
Can't aspire to reach the end
cuz you never will make amends with yourself,
if you forget that you never have to depend on the others to make you better
--That doesn't guarantee pleasure
Attempting to be the best means you gotta give it the effort
And independence is fresher
Relief is lessening pressure
So don't be under the weather 
and promise to just stay clever

[get over it... you've got a problem that you won't admit
I won't forgive... you if you never get ya woes to quit]

Get over it
It's over with
Ya goal's a myth
Can't shoulder it
I know just what you wanna get 
BUT
The program's finished, 
ya energy has diminished, 
ya gotta go back; Replenish.
Procrastination's pretentious

[get over it]

[WAH!]
[It's about time you got up]

GET OVER IT [prod. letskey]

I like lyrical rap more than mumble rap, if you couldn't tell.
But honestly, I don't give a fuck... As long as you're making music with meaning, it don't matter to me.

But seriously tho, if the only thing you listen to mumble rap, I'd advise you to at least try and open up to other genres.
The same could be said for people who only listen to lyrical music.


CREDITS:
Original Instrumental: Didi Crazy - Surely Smooth:
https://soundcloud.com/eddyfradet/surely-smooth
Support the original!: https://soundcloud.com/eddyfradet/tracks

Image made by me


LYRICS:
Intelligent rap:
It ain't a fallacy
But apparently incoherent with this capacity
of people sharing they mumble lyrics no personality 
and they appear to be lifting people, in actuality,
the words they spittin be lacking rhythm and rationality
Adverse effects be hitting the masses; its a catastrophe
Actually its tragedy--
Rapidly rappin scrappily
Passively feeling stagnancy
Practically half-assedly
attempting to connect with the fans 
and they just casually will take it like supply and demand
When In reality, you rappers' have mentalities lacking originality
Concerned about the money-- the music's a triviality
It's hard to understand how the masses can listen carefully 
to lyrics that they'll never relate to unless they personally
livin the life of money, bitches, flexing, drugs, cars, riches, sippin lean, all these things are what you need? Whatcha mean?

How about we change it up for minute?
Find some rappers that ain't talking bout the hoes that they been in
Find some songs that can relate you, a message persisting
and maybe then, you feel better bout ya musical distance

And then you'll notice that there's actually a meaning 
to what they're saying, they conveying feelings, actions, and pains 
It's not a game when they spittin, boi they lyrically tame 
Trynna reclaim, their positions at the top of the fame

Intelligent rap; cuz we deserve to be
inadvertently gaining knowledge for our reserves to keep
Personally I adore discrete
purpose opposed to forcibly
showing your own conformities
luring the ill-informed to reap
the benefits consistently 
Dependent on publicity
Suspended by simplicity
Pretending to be interesting
Listen, we intellectual rappers can't stand diminishing lyrics
It's actually sickening, y'all glimmering with ignorance
We writing our soliloquies, you write without humility  
'Can't understand this infamy
Do you lack the ability?
See intellectual rappers retain they versatility,
And they bars be slappin, bitch we have all the utilities

[by the way, I really don't care.
just do whatever you wanna do]

Ｗｅ Ｉｎｔｅｌｌｅｃｔｕａｌ Ｒａｐｐｅｒｓ [prod. Didi Crazy]

Im literally uploading this 5 mins before 2019.
Gg me
I was pressed for time making this so don't @ me



CREDITS:

Original Instrumental: Lonely by MAJORA✰: https://soundcloud.com/uwumajora
Support the original!:https://www.instagram.com/heckohvro/
https://twitter.com/heckohbro
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCYwJFOa9K3ClonzQF02cU2g

LYRICS:
It seems like, 
by and by,
I just been wasting time
My state of mind has played the crime of chasing lies
I found some patience, but it declined
My expectations always late and left behind

I've been embracing the happy of days vacation
away from all these evasive relations with school frustrations

My education revolves around applications to college 
This senior year, I've gained knowledge, my grades are constantly solid
But honestly I've been polishing up on other skills
My father wants me to promise computer science will be my career,
 In reality, it pays bills but
 I've actually been instilled with some naturally learned abilities:

I've made some animations, Shout out to Monty, nobody ready for all his greatness
And I can edit quite well if you let me
--Might sell if I get the opportunity 
Been using MMD for all my projects
And you soon will see--I'll leave my legacy through all my songs and
then I will soon fulfill my destiny
'Haven't heard from the best of me
Cookin-- I got the recipe, Lookin to my leave legacy Somewhere 
With all these skills I've acquired,
it's time to move my feet

yeah yeah

But now the year is over
its time for new beginnings
I've made alot change but now it's time to earn some winnings

The Year is Over [ prod. MAJORA✰]

I was in my feelings one day thinking about relationships that were, and relationships that could've been.

I dunno.



CREDITS:

Original Instrumental: a l e x - Missing My Ntpp:
https://open.spotify.com/album/1qxLJGTmKJZVXzqKwLdzxD
Support the original!: https://open.spotify.com/artist/3nCJkmgdZQ6l8o828Y3vNQ


Lyrics:
One day, I'll find her
The one who gives me hope and lights my fire
One day, I'll find her
The one who I can love without retire 
One day, I'll find her
The one who lifts me up and makes me lighter
One day, I'll find her
The one I won't be afraid to call, "my girl"
One day, I'll find her
We'll walk this world together facing our fears
One day, I'll find her
The one who views this world the same as my terms

One day, She'll find me
She'll be like, "Where the fuck have you been hiding?"
bitch

one day, I'll find her [prod. a l e x]

just a vibe.

i tried singing and it didnt work so i just said it instead


CREDITS:

Original Instrumental:  97SPECIAL x shogondo - ocean melody:
https://soundcloud.com/97special/ocean-melody-shogonodo-x-97special
Support the Originals!: 
https://soundcloud.com/97special
https://open.spotify.com/artist/2KycIrONv7O3m2HCMDGFM8
https://97special.bandcamp.com/
https://soundcloud.com/shogonodo
https://open.spotify.com/artist/0AvxQyO8YtsZQn0OYqbNxx
https://shogonodo.bandcamp.com

LYRICS:
I dont mind
what you're doing
Take yo time
cuz we'll get through this

In due time,
the clouds will move and
the sun will shine
and mend your bruises

Let's unwind
a path worth choosing
And we'll find
our strength is booming

Sometimes life
can be abusive
You'll be fine,
so feel the music

I don't mind [prod. 97SPECIAL & shogonodo]

this was a song that i've wanted to make ever since my freshman year. this was my weak-ass, beta fucking mindset i had during that time. i was too afraid to share my feelings with the girl that i liked. by the time i grew the balls to finally do it, it was too late. she had to move away. 

years later i told her i felt back then, and it turned out the feelings were mutual.
im a fuckin idiot basically.


CREDITS:

Original Instrumental:  eery - her:
https://soundcloud.com/eery/her
Support the Original!:
https://soundcloud.com/eery
https://open.spotify.com/artist/2nu6ZVLgiNcRcWgDKUjplH
https://www.facebook.com/eeryglow

LYRICS:
(oh hey, were'd you come from?)

I think I like her but I'm
I think I like her but I'm
I think I like her but I'm too afraid to tell her so uh
Maybe I like her but I'm
I'm sure I like her but I'm
I know I like but I'm too afraid to tell her so uh

I'll keep my thoughts locked up inside this vault
Keep droppin' all my shots
Does she love me does she not?

Don't wanna shatter our relations 
I would rather stay embracin' my patience,
yeah I can wait this out
One day I'll tell her how
I feel

And that day will be immaculate
I'll put my fears aside and 
I'll be passionate
I'll tell her how she's worth it, always pulling on my heart strings
The butterflies consume me whenever I hear that phone ring
I'm lonely without you so I don't think about you trynna leave me 
if i discuss my feelings...

And I don't wanna hear a no

I'm too afraid to let her go

I like her, she might like me

And there's a chance that we could be but

I think I like her so uh
I think I like her so uh
Then just tell her then ju-    
Then just tell her, nigga       

I think I like but I'm 
I think I like her but I'm
Then just then ju-ju
Then just tell her

 You think you like her?
Yeah I do!
 You think she likes you?
Yeah I do!
 Then just tell her then ju-
 Then just then ju-

 Will you protect her?  
Course I will!
 Is this self-pleasure? 
No its not!
 Then just then ju-ju-
 Then just then ju-ju-

I think I'll tell her and uh
I think I'll tell her and uh
I gotta tell her and
I think I-
I think I-

I know my limits 
but I got Strength and Rhythm 
so I'm constantly Driven
Sow now, I'm gonna do it
And I'm 
I'm gonna do it
And I'm
I'm gonna do it
And I'm 
I'm gonna do it and I'm
I'm gonna, I'm gonna
I'm gonna do  it and I'm
I'm bout to do it right now
I'm bout to do it right now
I'm bout to--

(wait... where'd ya go?)

just tell her [prod. eery]

new mic who dis

I treat my whole soundcloud page like a diary. It's like a musical journal of my life. 
I think imma make a Soundcloud diary song every half a year. 



CREDITS:
Original Instrumental: divine - BLVK.: https://soundcloud.com/yungmai/divine-ty-for-1-million-plays
Support the original!:
https://soundcloud.com/yungmai
https://www.instagram.com/blvknight/
https://blvk.bandcamp.com/


LYRICS:
One to the two to the three to the four
Just counting up my wins before I leave to get more
I'm one to believe to achieve is to soar
Like you flying in the wind; there's no need for a floor

One to the two to the three to the four
Just counting up my wins before I leave to get more
I'm one to believe to achieve is to soar
Like you flying in the wind; there's no need for a floor

nigga

This is my Soundcloud diary
I publicize it with no privacy 
I guess my progress is inspiring 
Got 10k plays, but I don't care and that's the irony

They say my flows are quite admiring
These other niggas-- they be pirating
Ain't got no time to cop yo fire;
See, this music that I is quite personal
So fuck the liars 🅱

Don't fuck with me or come in my jungle 'cuz I'm the Lion King
The water's getting high, but no worries; I'm like Rich Brian See?:
just sailing through my issues, this journey has been enlightening
The effort that I put in these lyrics reflects the tiring struggles from my reality, 
provin' my own mortality
Idolizing conviction and boostin' my rationality
My music gives you wisdom and truth,
I don't need eyes to see the visions I've inspired in you.

It's so divine the way I cultivate catastrophe 
'Keep my music online so I can motivate the masses
Leave all my problems behind in place of halting my tenacity
Put my focus on rhymes, develop new ways to express myself and show you what's on my mind:

It seems like--

times are changing. Unconcerned; I sleep.
I got a girl: she means the world to me
Summer's ending, college lookin' bleak
Will I take off with my company??

That 9-5 just ain't the way for me
Can't catch me flippin' burgers and working for someone else to please they own desires;
Selfish and greedy, just taking everything
But life requires money, so maybe I'll just have to sink my teeth into something greater
Don't blink--I'll pass all you haters
I think like an innovator
I'll beat the manipulators
If life was a movie then I'm just rappin'. No commentators.
I'm writing this music to paint a picture, like Illustrator.

I'll admit the journey has been fun
Yeah
And I'm sure there's more to come.

soundcloud diary pt2 [prod. BLVK.]

ye

CREDITS:

Original Instrumetal: Your Sweet Way by Zeeky Beats:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ox2L8o1WCRg
Support the original!: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCMg4idhC3WZyIMv5m7GzURg

LYRICS:

I think
Im goin numb
I been drownin out my sleep so much don't know what I've become

I think
That my feelings on the run
I'm distracted can't reflect the fact that death can't overcome
I think

I think, I'm goin crazy
Got this pressure from society expecting me to take it 
I think

I think I'm gettin pretty lazy
All these goals I set seem far away; my dreams be gettin hazy 
I think

that it was over when it came through 
shouldered all the burdens now its closer to a flame blew out
all my spirits on the couch I would lay throughout this depression can't amount to what they do

It takes strength to move on with haste despite all the lengths that you took to replace
this fleeting feeling laced with remorse and distaste can't open the gates to embrace cuz your ranks have dropped

I think
Im goin numb
I been drownin out my sleep so much don't know what I've become

I think
That my feelings on the run
I'm distracted can't reflect the fact that death can't overcome
I think

I think, I'm goin crazy
Got this pressure from society expecting me to take it 
I think

I think I'm gettin pretty lazy
All these goals I set seem far away; my dreams be gettin hazy 
I think

Life's so bleak within it's essence
we were born with such vitality but fades in adolescence 
I think 

That there's a message somewhere hidden 
but I'll never get the chance to find it; optimism's is ridden
I think

I think [prod. Zeeky]

CREDITS:
Original Instrumental: S'mores by Dweeb:
dweebstuff.bandcamp.com/album/treats Track 19
Support the original!:
@beet_farmer
dweebstuff.bandcamp.com/

LYRICS:

Scrolling past the same ol' gifs and mellow shifts in overtone
Seems its not salubrious, cessation leaves me overthrown
Misinterpretations I'm concealing but my cover's blown
Left out in the open my assumption is i'm on my own

Society be telling me significance ain't right it seems
Denying all my plight won't get me anything but writhing in remission
I been to trynna test my limits but i got no supplement for asinine reduced attempts
It seems like--

Exuding all my efforts rather futile and so stressful
I had scrupulous endeavors now It's putrid and regretful
Rippin rhymes to calm my mental but I'm pensive; My potential
packed it's bags and left for central off the corner of resentful
avenue.
Life is hard ain't that the truth?
Might possess some aptitude but we concede to sadness too
Life's composed of many factors you can't quantify our soulfulness
In our universe our measly squabbles are ubiquitous
Life is never easy for no one; Should have expected this
And if you don't agree, then you're a bitch

mellow [prod. dweeb]

nigga cant sleep


CREDITS:
Original Instrumental: Lee - I Need a Girl:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xVf4Zk8CBj0
Support the original!: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCaH9AQy86DBIg-BpWzj-csQ

LYRICS:

Can't I release these things
that's on my chest I wanna rest
but it's intriguing; the dreadfulness
and all the stress rather misleading
My healthfulness has coalesced
into decreasing into the depths

Can't I release these things
that's on my chest I wanna rest
but it's intriguing; the dreadfulness
and all the stress rather misleading
My healthfulness has coalesced
into decreasing into the depths

Can't I release these things
that's on my chest I wanna rest
but it's intriguing; the dreadfulness
and all the stress rather misleading
My healthfulness has coalesced
into decreasing into the depths

Can't I release these things
that's on my chest I wanna rest
but it's intriguing; the dreadfulness
and all the stress rather misleading
My healthfulness has coalesced
into decreasing into the depths

Pray for some longevity?
Hesitant; no remedies
Lofi be my pedigree these melodies dispel the need to 
hash out anything that's attacking my independcy
No empathy for slackin' I'm cappin' the infidelity
Or maybe Im distracted cuz possibly the perplexity
is disinclined and heavy subtracting the progress that I've reached
My story-line ain't steady there's bumps and bruises all on my feet
I cant define the purpose it's lurking somewhere out of my reach

Can't I release these things
that's on my chest I wanna rest
but it's intriguing; the dreadfulness
and all the stress rather misleading
My healthfulness has coalesced
into decreasing into the depths

Can't I release these things
that's on my chest I wanna rest
but it's intriguing; the dreadfulness
and all the stress rather misleading
My healthfulness has coalesced
into decreasing into the depths

Can't I release these things
that's on my chest I wanna rest
but it's intriguing; the dreadfulness
and all the stress rather misleading
My healthfulness has coalesced
into decreasing into the depths

Can't I release these things
that's on my chest I wanna rest
but it's intriguing; the dreadfulness
and all the stress rather misleading
My healthfulness has coalesced
into decreasing into the depths

watching some jojo at 3 in the morning [prod. Lee]

this song is not for profit whatsoever, pls don't sue me bb
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shit happens, 

the aforementioned 'shit' in-itself is what makes up life

if you deny the aforementioned 'shit' then you deny life.

CREDITS:

Original Instrumental: Moon Lovers by 8ROKEBOY:
https://soundcloud.com/8rokeboy/cuco-mac-demarco-moon-lovers-ft-clairo-boy-pablotype-beat-new-2019-hq
Support the original!:
https://soundcloud.com/8rokeboy
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC04zau-oEQwOaG3y2xz9fQw
https://www.instagram.com/8rokeboy/



LYRICS:

I just had an epiphany
Life is interesting, clad in its mysteries
when i say the world is ending they not listening
Cuz they focused on themselves no point in signaling
for change
Earth is dwindling 
Insane strife is quickening
Deranged people preachin for the fame
and they distancing the truth from the youth
No one cares; we're uncouth
We're so plain and confused
We remain in our booth
We complain, don't improve 
Then surprised when we lose all our 
competence I'm promising the pain that ensues
aint innocuous so pocket this:
refrain from abusing accomplishments
acknowledgment sustains when we choose to

boost all tha optimistic feelings that be surfacin
 we snooze all that narcissistic demons that be lurkin in our shoes
  take some steps and further realize what we sharin never loses
to pessimism, bruises, don't affect the rhythm

I am my own one 

And nobody can tell me, otherwise

Even If the world ends now
I'll never allow 

Myself to build regret for anything I've done

I'm

just now waking up

yeh

just now building trust

everything happens for a reason

faith is what the dreamers should believe in.

break it down, build it up

let it drown, go rebound, then discuss

common style, this is life, it's a must

Never down until you out, readjust


i just had an epiphany
life is interesting, clad in its mysteries
and everybody wanna say that they are innocent 
it's ironic, all our rhythms be so dissonant
Pointing all our fingers at each other is so sickening
Never take responsibility, we always witnesses
Livin with a sheep mentality, we all so disciplined
to underestimate ourselves our new reliance has repelled
our chances to relieve our selfish tendencies supplying our amenities
Maybe if we focused on our passions we could mend the seams that split from the dependency 
on wit that we observe on the daily
from famous figures; we failing to see the actual message--
our real for existing could be craftily tethered to god, nature, and our mission
is deciphering what life can bring.
no faltering emission; we got lots to see. our lives can be whatever we permit them

epiphany [prod. 8ROKEBOY]

I been sitting on this song for the longest lmao.
I needed to liven things up a bit on here anyways, so this works out.
This kinda a different beat for me, but a nigga had to let loose somehow
aa

CREDITS:
Support the original!:
https://soundcloud.com/biskwiq
https://open.spotify.com/artist/7J4Pg0NGyrWoMrROYhnlP6


LYRICS:
This that breaking bad blue shit--Wild cat crew.
Drip like water from monsoons
Bitch, I gotta make this music
Trap is old news, I don't care about ya shoes
Or ya riches, bitches, shit is fictitious-- so whats the difference?
Lemme drop you just a lick of advice:
If you rely on 808s to sacrifice your lyricism, then that shit just aint right.
I'm droppin' rhythms dividing you fools in schisms
Provided you actually listen-- bitch I'll fill ya appetite 
And it's easy tho. I got no cheesy flow
I rap on lo-fi tracks completely so I conjure meaningful subject matter 
that is deeply filled with content, the range wide is like a continent
You'll need an apparatus to see it, so grab an atlas.

This is.
Hey.

This is atlas in the making
Don't fuck with all that mumble shit
so this is what I'm taking
No faking, these lyrics are my painstaking feel-

I can't tell if I'm dreamin'
If this is life, then what's the meaning?
There's lots of things that need redeeming
But even then that's just a feeling

I always bragged
talkin' how I beat my demons
But they always dragged
on my feet when I be reachin'
for the ceilin' of my potential
I be preachin' all this great shit but then my mental starts to

Wake up, go get ya pay-stubs
You gotta pick the fucking pace up
Don't wanna stay stuck, wasting time you can't relate bruh
You aim for great stuff,
That's why you always on yo game bruh
Congratulations

My flows melodic
I've grown rather bold; exotic
My goal is profit
I'm scrollin' these hoes I'm modest
Impose ma logic
You say you got that dough? sardonic
I know Im on it
I rollin' past these holes like sonic

LOFI OR DIE [prod. biskwiq]

what kind of legal system allows their enforcers to be persistently immune to the laws that they're enforcing in the first place?
it's fucked up.
rioting and looting is stupid asf and it ain't gonna make anything better, but it only arises due to this injustice frequently occuring in the first place.

It's 2020 now, but this the same story you've heard for countless of years on end
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CREDITS:
Original Instrumental: nk music - Diamond In The Rough:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=J2wfnBgZdcY
Support the original!: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCWcA0vULcNnoeDYHBjwtfQg

Image from Lebron James' Instagram post:
https://www.instagram.com/p/CAq3fpCgyve/


LYRICS:

I cant breathe officer,
take yo knee up off my neck
I can see that my melanin apparently affects 
your ability settle things. 
Civilities, respect is a broken apparition that transitions into death
'Should be serve and protect
Nothing more, nothing less
But all it takes a different pigment of our skin to be pressed
on the sidewalk, wrestled to the ground like we're a threat
Staring at us like were animals, of course this would upset
any human being-- anyone with feelings and regrets
All these years of persecution, course nobody could forget
that we got targets on our back, and please don't say this a mindset 
Because the proof is rather evident: we're brutalized and left 
This is scary got me worried if one my family could be next
And yes I wanna make a difference but I feel so powerless
And so there's riots in the streets because hatred will beget hatred, leaving me displeased
Ain't no justice, just contempt

ain't no justice, just contempt [prod. nk music]

aint nobody got time for yo hate lmao

'wasn't finna affect me anyways ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

CREDITS:

Original Instrumental: lion - 8BROKEBOY:
https://soundcloud.com/8rokeboy/free-lil-waterbed-x-lil-fendy-x-lil-bootycall-type-beat-lion
Support the original!: https://soundcloud.com/8rokeboy

LYRICS:
My flow is impeccable
and some might deny it but bitch I be frying they insults just like it was vegetables
I roar like a lion. I must be sublime. These niggas can't match me I'm flexible
And may I remind ya, you will not find a nigga who matches these principles
--'Cept me Im original

They claim that im cynical
Cuz they just want niggas who acting traditional

'Insist im invisible
They try to ignore my potential--it's difficult

Im hitting my pinnacle?
They tell me I'm peaking-- it's actually pitiful

Their hate is predictable
My patience is potent; my power is pivotal


Yall niggas hear me?
I ain't repeatin-- yall should know,
yall can't defeat me, ya negativity is old
I got new features, The lion in me really bold
You're just a sheep and, your insult's weak so I just roar

Pick up the progress
Limit the losses
I'm livin flawless woah
Dont need
more of the nonsense
makin me nauseous
Ain't finna botch this
Show all these
niggas new concepts
Part of the process
Who would have thought my goals
Would be
Easily accomplished
I'm feeling dauntless
Nothing can pause my growth

It's the--

Same reason all my enemies bring jealousy
They flaunt their expectations then start chasing all my legacies
Their density is dull I don't mind it I think separately
Apparently it's cool to be orthodox and helplessly
dependent on some recognition-- kiss themselves just for existing
Lately they been so persistent, spotlight fixed on their position
Ye
My fire's burning they just trynna dim it
They can't figure out the reason why im winning
They can't see the vision, it's opaque
All these other niggas blinded by their greed-- I can't relate
Maybe if they tried stop the lies proceeding they'd be great 
I just focus on myself I can't be bothered with no hate, nigga

lions are not concerned with the opinions of sheep [prod. 8ROKEBOY]

Jus another musical journal entry of my life.

aint much else to say fr


CREDITS:
Original Instrumental: Henace - Hold Up: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FEF78HkrsVM
Support the Original!: https://soundcloud.com/henace

LYRICS:
it's my soundcloud diary
Wake me up, Can't compete with my desires
Things I've chased to stoke my fire
Seems so perfectly just out of reach

Met my limit and I'm in it to Acquire peace

Wake me up, stack my paper, get the dub
Then I flub, every sentence cuz I stammer and discuss
I gave up, all my royalties and loyalties my trust,
Break it up, then disperse it drive the hearses into dust

This apartment I be livin in be something nice
But Something turninng on the lights 
Might have to call the poltergeist 

There's no reason why im basking of this feeling 
Cried, DJ's near my ceiling Why? Near ceiling why?

I just count-- 4,5,6,7
All these months be passing by while DJ up in heaven
It's a blessin that I'm livin-- I'm pursuing my objectives
And my company be boomin, LLC in my possession

There's a 

There's a message to remember
We're weak and life is fleeting so rely on God forever
I be prayin for no hesitation.
Say never ever
The thing I'm accustomed to is focusing endeavors
And it's evident, facetious acts is how I cope. My flow,
isn't bound by no creative blocks I always got ammo
I been through some altercations, yeah my battle scars will show
That there's some appreciation to the craft, I wanna show 

That I can do it
Won't lose it

And niggas steady doubtin my improvement
It's useless
The truth is I'm breakin past the foolish excuses
My music is something so elusive, yet fluid

We're human 

and we been down on our luck
With all these covid changes no one don't give a fuck
Seen way too many strangers that neglectin they mask it's
Putting us in danger can't evade our collapse and

wow

This where society is at?
Black brothers gettin murdered and you protesting a mask?
I heard Breonna Taylors case was settled, it was trash
they put 1 nigga in jail, and the others got a slap
on the wrist 

Man I'm done with this shit
I'm over all the worrying 
I'm over all the fits

Its the 

Latter half of 2020
Can't measure all the stress accumulated 
Know its plenty

soundcloud diary pt 4 [prod. henace]

ｗｅｌｃｏｍｅ　ｔｏ　ｍｙ　ｓｏｕｎｄｃｌｏｕｄ　ｄｉａｒｙ
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'Just your ordinary Nigerian rappin about the realest of shits in Lexington Ky

I love Lo-fi hiphop. 
It really lets ya vibe, ya know?


Most of the beats I use aren't created by me. The artists who created the beats will always be credited. I am not earning any revenue from any songs; they are all purely for entertainment (and myself).
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