i made this a long time ago while i was crushing on someone (and hard)! the feeling comes and goes i guess, it's like going through the motions of romance of stuff.

baby i'm addicted to you
can't shake the feeling
i love the rush
it's kinda healing
we've got this cadence
my heart skips a beat
it's starts failing
can you feel the heat

i love the high (just can't face it, in love again)
i love the high (just can't take it, another hit)
i love the high (just can't face it, in love again)
i love the high (just can't take it, another hit)
i love the high (take me to rehab, i'm down again)
i love the high (addicted, i just can't seem to quit)
i love the high (take me to rehab, i'm down again)
i love the high (addicted, i just can't seem to quit)

the high

this is a big fuck you to the people that play too much. kinda just spitballed off of whatever was in my journal at the time. this ain't my beat - this is penny by against all logic. i was obsessed w this song when i was writing this.

it's like i find myself in these situations where i pour a lot of myself into someone and then realise that maybe the energy that i gave them wasn't what i gave to myself. i realised, i need to learn to love me first.

i feel so complacent
i'm all alone
i'm waiting at home
please pick up the phone
i wanna hate it
i wanna love you
i can't replace it
but i guess it's still fuck you
don't wanna go home
don't wanna sleep 
cause i'll be up in the morning
we start over again
don't wanna go home
don't wanna sleep 
cause i'll be up in the morning
we start over again

pretty days, it rains 
windows hold my pain
wondering what is sane
clutching on tight to my brain

i could never grow
if you won’t let me go
i could never see
if you won’t let me be
i could never fly
trying to get by
the world that i could know 
please just let me go

please don’t leave us in no cycle
please don’t be fucking round, beat it like you’re michael
revenge tee, i’ll shoot it up, i’m picking up a rifle 
go cry about your moms, i’m gon’ be dancing on the eiffel

been thinking bout life
been thinking bout me
i’m sinking in a pool
yeah i’m drowning the sea
their only mother
their only father 
their only daughter 
we’re so disappointed 
i can’t explain it
i can’t complain
cause i’m not the one who’s gonna
fill your pain

i could never grow, if you won't let me...

reflections pt. 1

just a crazy old lil' beat i made one random night

cypher

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@lucas3000xo got the music, i'm just here s'living, xoxo

botho.wav