Lyrics:

the moon is gray
the faint light of my life has melted away
I'm haunted by the weight
-.-
the cold night wind brings petrichor to my nose
dissolving the scent of rose
-.-
[prechores]
the sky is blur
now I'm feeling so obscure
the water's impured
now I know the rain's for sure
-.-
[chorus]
a roar of thunder could be heard from far
cover the crying voice from little boy
sky water dripped from saturated clouds
he's screaming so loud
he's crying alone
but he's not walking home
-.-
the root of tree
I hold it, hoping that it will bolster me
but the rain keeps falling
-.-
the canopy of this tree couldn't shelter me
protect me from flooding
-.-
[prechores]
the sky is dark
now I'm sitting at the park
the water's flushed
now i know my mouth is rusted
-.-
a roar of thunder could be heard from far
cover the crying voice from little boy
sky water dripped from saturated clouds
he's screaming so loud
he's crying alone
but he's not walking home
-.-
[bridge]
under blackest sky, I stare intently to the distance, I'm walking
let me walk home now heading to my warmest bed
without any regret stucking in my head
I walk home...
-.-
[chorus]
a roar of thunder could be heard from far
cover the crying voice from little boy
sky water dripped from saturated clouds
I'm walking alone
I relief my soul
and now I'm walking home
-----

13 January 2021 7:43 PM

long road~

walking home~

and I love you, for the first time I saw your eyes
and I've never seen an angel in this broken earth'
those are what you've said, when we matched our eyes
and the walls always heard
I wasn't ever care, wasn't care about goodbyes
I was in game, when I was boy
-----
[chorus]
that is when I was stupid to trust you, but now
this is me, now I ain't fool, and I take back all my trust from you
don't ever care about me
'cause let the sucker take her self
'cause the person who cares like me
too rare in this hell
so go now from here
go to the heaven
meet the angel of death
and let me see ya
get back your lies
-----
but now I know, the reality's fake, and the world's collapsed
and I thought it was bad as the person in blank prison
no one could tell something honestly, why does it seem so hard?
don't you even know, I was in crumbled heartbrake
and you seem innocence so far
-----
[repeat chorus]
-----
no one ever wanna tell, that i'm stupid boy
i was stupid boy but now I'm awake
'cause I knew you were trouble, trouble, trouble
-----
[repeat chorus]
-----
if you ever really did love me why did you...
... make a thousand cut in this heart, I couldn't get
love is not that simple, love is not that simple, love is not that simple

13rd August 2015

Excursion in Frustration~

Angel of Death~

this love is sick , may I mention my skeptic?
I pull it back, bring my state of love that's wracked
no call in phone, I checked it but I get worse
yes we are wrappen in emotion
-----
[prechorus]
were we too stupid or was it just me who was too stand on my pride?
did you just too surrender, the second question is right
-----
[chorus]
I would say my regret for just following my big head
why won't you open your eyes and your heart?
I always said that I loved
the void of thought wouldn't solve
mark in your mind something that you've said
somehow could be true and lead you to death
congratulations! now you have to be alone
and it's all your fault
and you'll be having penitence in blood, it's cold
-----
came to try to fix the nearly broken thread
but you hugged me, left us silent in the threat
you shook your head and said your apology
the thread had been cut, so did I
-----
[prechorus 2]
were we just too bad or was it just me who was leading us to fight?
were you just too mean, again, the second question is right
-----
[chorus]
I would say my regret for following my big head
why won't you open your eyes and your heart?
I always said that I loved
the void of thought wouldn't solve
mark in your mind something that you've said
somehow could be true and lead you to death
congratulations! now you have to be alone
and it's all your fault
and you'll be having penitence in blood
-----
[bridge]
hug you for the last time
together we are crying
it's so hard to write if you are wrong
-,-
hug you for the good bye
together we are crying
at the next step of life
hope you could be happy
in the different story
-----
[chorus]
I would say my regret for following my big head
why won't you open your eyes and your heart?
I always said that I loved
the void of thought wouldn't solve
mark in your mind something that you've said
somehow could be true and lead you to death
congratulations! now you have to be alone
and it's all your fault
and you'll be having penitence in blood

14 Sep 2020

Penitence In Blood~

hi, it's my second demo song from this album, MATR~, it's called an empty place. I wish you would listen it in the silent place, feel it, and fix your heart~

it's eleven p.m. now
the power almost get down
waiting for the fireworks
as I'm waiting your shadow to come
-----
the night's like no star to shine
like it used to be my friend
the night's like a freezer
freezing my cold blood
-----
[chorus]
baby in the dark of the night I scream
for you to be back to me one more time
the night is nothing without your face
like a scream inside an empty place, cold, and strange for me
-----
can you hear my voice?
beg for something that had gone
but something I feel just so sure
we will be forever nothing can break
-----
cause you said, 'I will always be with you'
so I believe in you, just for you
but what are you doing?
you're gone from me
it's like thunder after rainbow
-----
[repeat chorus]
-----
I'm like a prisoner of love, so lonely in my feeling of you
oh God please give him back for me to stand by me, and help me to face it all
-----
[repeat chorus]
baby in the dark of the night I pray
for you to be back for me, one more time and by my side
the night will be alright with you
though I should realize that you had gone, and gone, and gone, and gone~

An Empty Place~

I have ever seen so many people but when I was in Senior High School, I'd had so many special people that I called as 'family'. And I thought that we are 'The Dawn Knight'~

lyrics:
dawn has come in Sunday
and now, trash all your fears
and face the ground like  Superman
show them we're fearless
-----
hey, I know we're never be the winner
but there will always
light inside the dark
and we can get the daylight
-----
[prechorus]
hey, it's time for us to be brave
and now, let 'em go home early
show them, I never wanna lose
and never wanna lose
but I will be the winner
and get the glorious
let the dawn shining through the darkness
let the dawn uncover cruel fogs
I never wanna lose
and never wanna lose
but I will be the winner
and get the glorious
-----
[chorus]
no reason to sad
it's time for us to show the world
that we can
let em know the dawn is coming
and nothing hides anymore

let us screaming loud
as loud as earthquake in the deepest sea
tsunami takes our enemy
and take us on the top of list
top of list
top of list
top of list~
-----
the evening star has been faded
changes to be the harmful wind in the dawn
and the cruel moon has been gone
-----
we just have to be the strongest team to make their gang tremble
and afraid then go home cryin on mama
-----
[prechorus]
-----
[repeat chorus 2x]

Back of My Mind~

The Dawn Knight~

when we were riding together through the darkest night, there was something that I still remember. It is about the warm situation when we laughed together to break the silence so we can get stronger in the past year~

lyrics:
it's happy, it's happy time
it's great to share love to the world
so for what we're stand still
-----
the wind of night bring all the smell
prepare yourself
so take your bike and we go
-----
[prechorus]
crazy, crazy, crazy, we're singing crazily and
louder, louder, louder, and please, singing loudly baby
singing loud baby, singing loudly, so singing loud babe
-----
[chorus]
let us fall at least we're together
so let us screaming loud, best friend is forever
so let us ride off together, by bicycle to spend the night, get lost
find new adventure and everything knows we are so young
let's share our craziness, my friend
-----
new adventure in front of us
are you ready? don't be afraid
just be brave and be alright
-----
I'll be with you
though I'm so scared I try to forget
face the night just like a man
-----
[prechorus]
baby, baby, baby,,,
-----
[repeat chorus]
-----
[bridge]
so let's crazy crazy crazy
crazy crazy crazy
so crazy crazy crazy
cause summertime is perfect time
so screaming louder louder louder
louder louder louder
so louder louder louder
without a friend we can't get lost
I'm just so blessed I had a friend to share with
and I'm so thankful I've been crazy for singing at night
when will we take our bike again?
take our bike again?
-----
[repeat chorus 2x]
-----

surabaya, 07 June 2016

Riding Bicycle~

This song is an amazing song for me. I would like to tell you all about my feeling when I was feeling like I'm the lost boy. I'd given up into my friend. This song is about letting your destiny flows into your life. Because basically, you live inside it, you live in the line of God. Don't even care about how hard you try to choose the better way, your God will always know the best of you.

Falling Down~

This song is made by myself on 10th April 2016. It was so long for me to realize that I need to upload this on so that you could listen to it
Hope you like it since this one is one of my best and most personal song to me. Thank you

Lyrics:
I'm waiting for you like 'just' waiting for the death
I don't know whether this is right or wrong for me, friend
I wanna die but I wanna miss your little smile
I wanna be alive but the storm is too strong for me to stand by
-----
I'm waiting for you just like waiting for tomorrow
I don't know whether this will come or hide away from me and go
I wanna be alive at least for tomorrow
I have a plan to live with you, but it just a doubt
-----
[prechorus]
nobody will understand
-----
[chorus]
babe, I wanna love you but something pushes my lungs so I can't be fine
it's hard to take my breathe when you still force me to breathe in this dirty air again
my friend don't you know I'm tortured
in this curse I still love you for nothing
ooh, still love you for nothing
-----
I'm waiting for you just "like" waiting for the dawn
I wanna see the sun shines through this empty heart, friend
I wanna see the sky without any gain
I wanna see the stars inside of the darkness night at the same time
-----
I'm waiting for you just like waiting for the rain
I don't know whether this is rain or storm but I just prayed to the Lord
I wanna touch the rain waterdrop again
I wanna heal my lungs for sure to love you sincerely
-----
[prechorus]
nobody will get it right
-----
[repeat chorus]
-----
[bridge]
for nothing, I will love you for everything in you
I'm sure though nobody, and everyone will hesitate
-----
[repeat chorus and bridge]

Nostalgia of Yesterday~

Dirty Air~

Lyrics:

stone will be collapsed by the rain, slowly but for sure
wood is brittled in cause of moss, and it disappeared
even plastic will be shattered as the time goes by
so does ferrum weakened by rust, if it's normal
-----
everything is gone, life will face vacuity death
will my feeling still survive from incredulity
if time will always be the king of everything
will this heart gonna be gone, I'm asking it to you?
-----
[chorus]
we sing together inside of this yellow tent
underneath a billion stars, they look into us
asking whether we are the lucky one or the stupid one
loving each other as time swallows all the memories
-----
our voices are loud, I'm sure when we talk about love
but it's too silent between of night and its loneliness
when we are smiling and laughing, nothing's gonna wean
just remember if we will be separated someday
-----
when it has come to us, have you ever think of it?
and are we ready for forgetting each other's face?
why did we meet if our way are different babe?
why did we share our song when we'll avoid each other?
-----
[repeat chorus]
-----
[bridge]
if everything is fake
will you stop loving me?
maybe everything is untrue
but this love inside of me is a godsend
it's permanent, it's not only for a while
it's forevermore
can't you trust me my love? je t'aime~
-----
[repeat chorus]
-----
[outro]
this is the end of this song baby
but our love is still inside of me
babe, can't you even remember
the time when we say hello
-.-
you saw me like I'm a stranger
but now we love each other
although we'll be gone some day
I still love you forevermore

8 July 2016

Yellow Tent~

Lyrics:

monday came, suddenly I heard a call
unexpectedly after months I could try to know the truth of this love
-----
my heart was pounding, felt like wanna fall
laughing bout something that had hurted me, realised that nothing had been solved
-----
[prechorus 1]
I sat alone in front of the surgery room
I felt worry
try to arrange all of the best speech to make you feel alright
-----
[chorus]
after the longest time I had harbored my longing
I could be fine even when I just saw your simple face
but the inner thing of you didn't stay the same
the tears fell in your cheek
there wasn't any word spoken but I understood what went on
-----
in the room I was being company
I saw you like it was a movie just like what I always wanted before
-----
you whispered in my ears, 'I'm sorry and thank you"
but I asked why, I was fine for watching you breathing in your sleep
-----
[prechorus 2]
you were awaken in the middle of the night
"please, hold my hand"
I tried to hold the present as the past
"I'll hold you tight"
-----
[chorus]
after the longest time I had harbored my longing
I could feel how happy to be sarawat and tine
though many things had beed changed but something still be the same
I looked your tender face
just like the previous days though nothing tied us anymore now
-----
[bridge]
everybody will face the end of its life
nothing will be changed
but ourselves have done it
---
when you closed your eyes, I looked at your face
I would like to be next to you
at least
---
to keep you alright and to support you
I was like a candle who light you up
many things had changed but here in my heart
hadn't been changed cause it had been sincere
-----
[prechorus 3]
you were awaken in the middle of the night
"please, stay with me"
I tried to hold the present as the past
"I'll be with you"
-----
[chorus]
after the longest time I had harbored my longing
I could feel how happy to be here in front of you
though I knew after he had healed you off, I would be hurted
I looked your tender face
the first of november will always understand the name of love~

i miss you, time could never heal every scar inside my heart

1 Agustus 2020

Hospital(ity)~

Lyrics:

I'm playing song for the... the beautiful day of mine
flower flower is playing their song in this summer
but for real I know that... spring is in my heart, it's fine
it's really sweet I guess it's because we are lover
-----
every (every) single day... this little self has its smile
in some time as long as we try to be together
let me take my time... to remember for a while
feeling in my heart was just like a burning fire
-----
[prechorus]
was that the thing I called as a falling in love
I guess I have understood how to fall in love
and I hope that you understand that I have tried
how to feel and to treat
-----
[chorus]
this song was made in the middle of the night after I had tried to say 'it's over'
but I wanna tell that I have ever felt the happiness I wasn't a spoofer
-----
I look for another... song to play when the time's hard
flower flower would play another song in the autumn
that giving me a sign... the winter would come in heart
it's not good but I guess 'thank God' has to be the anthem
-----
there were times when I... forgot how to be well
but I remember that time I still tried to believe
I had ever felt a... feeling but I didn't tell
I remember I tried to show you by doing it
-----
[prechoru]
was that the thing I called as a failure of love
I guess I've known how it feels to fail in this love
but I try to understand more and I am thankful
I had been delightful
-----
[chorus]
this song was made in the middle of the night after I had tried to say 'it's over'
but I wanna tell that I have ever felt the happiness I wasn't a spoofer
I'd like to say maybe I was so cruel to ask for us to not to walk together
but I wanna give us the best thing for us rather than I have to be a liar
-----
(thank you for) every smile you gave
(thank you for) every time you gave
(thank you for) every tears you gave
(thank you for) everything you gave me, sorry
-----
[bridge]
maybe destiny / is not in our side
but thank God will always be the red thread for us
just like a movie / with the wrong coda
the viewers will be dissapointed cause of it
so let... let let let us make a... a a a good coda.... in in in our story
so so... so we will learn...
and and... and be ready...
for for... for new story...
in in... in this movie...
-----
[chorus]
I'd like to say maybe I was so cruel to ask for us to not to walk together
but I wanna give us the best thing for us rather than I have to be a liar
-----
(thank you for) every smile you gave
(thank you for) every time you gave
(thank you for) every tears you gave
(thank you for) everything you gave me, sorry

25 Agustus 2020

Red Thread~

It's my official page for my demo songs. I hope you will enjoy them~
repostexchange.com/hi?r=BCKXI

Bracken13~

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