still

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yeah no one to hold me down
i need amenity my friends they all enemies now
i was never good enough to make anyone stick around 
but i think im better now they hate to see what comes around
( i love you )

i dont know what to feel anymore 
stuck in anonymity don't know who i am no more
only took a couple months you walked right out that fucking door
yeah, like what the fuck was it all even for?
if this is how to live then i don't want to live at all
i just wind up all my feelings then i let em go
and it was never for the worst but that's just how it goes 
fuck around to fuck around probably just to feel something more
( i love you )

yeah no one to hold me down
i need amenity my friends they all enemies now
i was never good enough to make anyone stick around 
but i think im better now they hate to see what comes around

and i dont know if i miss you or i miss the thought of love 
im trapped in my consciousness need drugs to get out of touch 
you all diplomatic, im just a manic 
so whose advice do i take if i don't have an answer 
i just spend up all my time in my own mind 
the only friend i got is what i smoke to feel right 
i set the bar high 
a waste of my time 
caught on the deadline, in which im taught to be sure
i struggle finding what's sure 
don't need a hand and not yours 
take revelations it's straining to rip out the sword
i wasn't distant before 
but now i'm distant and more 
my personality inside of me 
it makes me contort 
( i love you ) 

yeah no one to hold me down
i need amenity my friends they all enemies now
i was never good enough to make anyone stick around 
but i think im better now they hate to see what comes around
yeah no one to hold me down
i need amenity my friends they all enemies now
i was never good enough to make anyone stick around 
but i think im better now they hate to see what comes around

fuck!
but i ain't going out sad
do it by myself 
i dont need nobody bad
i remember i was down 
ain't nobody had my back so
now when i go up
ill be up until my body bag yeah.

amenity

Jamen Johns' first alternative emo rap EP "When I'm Down."

Engineered by @Stemodity

In My Grave

re:birth (ft. brakence)

pains (ft. brakence)

@brakence @50landing
_

i dont wanna be well known
just wanna be known well
id rather be lonely
than be by myself
dont wanna go home
or put my pride on the shelf
cause i dont need help
from anyone else

and ive been feeling so low
help me back into character, i was
"reckless kid born and raise in america"
now im a lost cause and truth be told
i lie too much, my bad
trust me im working on it

i thought i'd die young
likes didnt do shit
i know well being well known's useless
ill go to hell too eager to care
im on a screen island where no one stares

i wanna find whats inside me
feel every fiber
done sucking up cause
im no longer a liar
dont know how to be myself sometimes
but whenever i need your help
i always tell you now

i know now
it was all costumes, funny dances
to play my mind
now i need to believe it
and i wont hold onto something familiar
we were kept back from the people we really were
its a start
i just hope i agknowledge the gifts from the past
when we run out of time

i just wanna be known well
not well known
id rather be lonely than be alone
id rather sleep in a hotel
than sleep in my home
but ive been pulling my weight in my thoughts
no matter where i go

ive been feeling so low
help me back into character, i was
"reckless kid born and raise in america"
now im a lost cause and truth be told
i lie too much, my bad

i got a star studded cast of friends
that never answer the phone
no matter when i call
gotta stop trying so hard to try so hard
otherwise ill have nobody at all

im still learning to be direct
cause for years ive been a mess
in '18 i changed address
not the right one but the best
cause my parents are my success
i still need to earn their respect

im just tryna figure it out

theres probably a lot
that i should've done differently
and i, oh i went to hear it out
but i was never listening
i knew that it's not alright
just trying to find the light
summon another spark
or maybe its gone and died
i try to stay out of sight
i gotta leave by the night
i cant seem to clear my mind

but i know now, that it was all
a bad dream, crash scene playing in my mind
and i shouldn't believe it, so i
cant hold onto something familiar
when ive lost sight of the people we really were at the start
and ive started to see it. cause

i dont wanna be well known
i dont wanna be well known

i dont wanna be well known
just wanna be known well
id rather be lonely than be by myself
dont wanna go home or
put my pride on the shelf
cause i dont need help from anyone else
_

thank you to will and graham for the bgv in the second chorus
thank you to the boys, and bekah, and my parents for knowing me well

well known (w brakence & 50landing)

coproduced by @50Landing and @bwre

now there’s too many people that I have done wrong
and that i owe my thanks to for sticking along with me

think I’m dreaming
this isn’t real
cos you leave in a month
and i’m fiending for something to feel

when you hold me
know you know me down to my core
this is the calm before the storm
you diverted attention/the tension away when i mentioned that someone else gon need you more

now there’s too many people that I have done wrong
and that i owe my thanks to for sticking along with me

and i fell apart in that bed
what we built isn’t me
won’t put it back together again
i can’t take back what i said
i just opened those messages i left on read

cos i took you rosier
i thought we could cope
we got out on the ocean i fell out my boat
and you calmed me back down and you
gave me some hope
but i tossed it away for a seratone

now there’s too many people that I have done wrong
and that i owe my thanks to for sticking along with me

no commitments

i’m going to hell you’re going to heaven
it doesn’t negate our holy connection
and next time i fly too close to the sun I’m not gonna run this shit was for fun

I left home now i’m fucked up
realized how much i loved you
whole goddamn life been a suckup
now I’m just tryna get my luck up
all the pain went when you kissed me
we were ten toes up now i’m six feet down
moved on you don’t need me now
now i gotta figure me out
i gotta figure me out

bitch i’m up next
fuckboy ain’t a threat
put a price on my head
won’t sell my soul for a check
that’s on god that’s on sound
you won’t ever see me round
i’ll be cooking up some shit that’s gonna get me out this town

rosier

photo by 50Landing

turn the lights on
i can stay a while bet you wanna get me off
think i don’t say enough
i won’t be running back long as i’m faded and
fucked up cos you’re gone and the clique gone too
i turned to someone i could hold onto
i didn’t understand how it would have backfired
wonder who i am
man
who the fuck am i
i can’t take a lie back now it’s stuck outside me
i can’t take this shit lightly
if you want an ear you know where to find me
high on ig flirting with a couple homies
i said i’m too eager couldn’t keep you
and she told me keep it low key, only rule is staying open
i’m like where my line go you just stole it

try and catch me tying up loose ends
i’m past that now i wanna fuck all my friends
no patience sick of being stuck in the end
im past you didn’t wanna fuck you again
yeah i just wanna fuck all my friends
no patience sick of being stuck in the end
i swear im never gonna fuck you again
i’m past that i just wanna fuck all my friends

and i no longer plan to hide in the snow and wait till you hold my hand
now there’s a four in five chance that she’ll bring her fine friend and i’ll be a nine ten to em
fucked up cos you’re gone and the clique gone too
turned into someone people come onto
i didn’t understand how i could’ve macked yall gon wonder who i am

try and catch me tying up loose ends
i’m past that now i wanna fuck all my friends
no patience sick of being stuck in the end
im past you didn’t wanna fuck you again
yeah 
i just wanna fuck all my friends
no patience sick of being stuck in the end
i swear im never gonna love you again
i’m past that I just wanna fuck all my friends

@50Landing

i’m never gon let u down again
i’ll fuck you good as i imagine
said nothing changed but i doubt it
wouldn’t leave you in the past tense
i’m never gon let u down

ghost for a whole week
thought i really want your love but you don’t know me
text you all damn night hour unholy
i couldn’t get a second of sleep when i found out you were just my type 
it was dead wrong but it felt so right when you
caught my gaze with those dark green eyes
and i’m never gon change thinking bout that twice
it’s all chords changes and vocal lines
i’m a mess and it looks like you got your shit together
but despite all of the firsts impressions
i can imagine what’s gonna happen when you get your ass back here

i’m never gon let u down again
i’ll fuck you good as i imagine
said nothing changed but i doubt it
wouldn’t leave you in the past tense
i’m never gon let u down again
can’t get you out of my head
said nothing changed but i doubt it
i wouldn’t leave you in the past tense

if all is lost i got the peace in my mind we’ll probably be fine
i was scared of what you’d say but since i made some more mistakes

nosering (ft. 50Landing)

slow down
breathe
what’s in the ground beneath your feet?
get out that screen and let it go
a blue check screams
i always whispered what you want
and it was right here all along

cos i found something with a taste you can’t describe
you take it in and all your roots get intertwined
and every time i call you back you’ll know you’re fine
i know you’re fine

there’s no cancer in the water
it’s not an answer or a dream
your mother and your father would rather blow it all on ginger tea
more than offer than a feed

you’re ready for it
think it’s for the best you leave this town
you’re ready for this now

breathe
slow down
breathe

terrified when i’m bout to be brave
since danny hit me i been killing the game
power to you if you’re riding the wave
could give a fuck about the money or fame
take you and your girl right back to my place
cos man or woman i’ma fuck you the same
picking me up when she’s back in my state
a quick flight to nyc for some cake
touch down 50 came in the clutch
my boys bound for something bigger than us
cuts deep like a knife it’s some shit you can feel
my momma love me and her willpower steel
ex’s heart bouda beat out my chest
i’m sorry bout me and i wish you the best
i just wanna fuck
the marajuana got me scared of trauma but i’m gon be okay
good sex every day
green checks life ain’t grey
this is fate
fill my plate with acid salad and breaks
i get drunk and she gets stupid high
i just chilled cos I don’t wanna try
when i don’t know what the fuck to say
i don’t know what the fuck to say
i don’t know what the fuck to say

rosier

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