the transition from trying to this is so fuckin good because this song is detuned 50 cents so it creates such a cool effect

mental anguish

things with wings

lifeline

hypochondriac

stung

self prod 
mastered by @anem0s
instrument mixing help from @gasmaskatl
@a1isynn pulled me out the vocal mixing gutter

track 2/2
april 5 https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/oldcollin/hr-3 

say something else why dontcha
said what's your problem?
cause if you got one, please dont try to say it to me
i can't say it doesnt bother me
but in all honesty i'm handing out apologies, i'm not even sorry
you say it's all my fault and that you wont back down
say something else why dontcha
but look who's talking like they know so much
as if it doesn't make a difference at all
but if we stayed in touch
we'd have run into a wall
so is that enough for you

to reconsider at all 
if it's just to tell you that I'm sorry I'm not
cause if I hadn't have lost then I
wouldn't find out how much I'm really worth
but I can't say I'm not tired of always feeling hurt
you could say a million words
but it still won't get to me
lacking the empathy you need to feel a little more important dontcha
but there's no need for me to panic cause
I feel it more clearly than you

(4cf)
so why I gotta find a way to get over just saying you're right
got you for closure growing older and freeing my mind
there's something heavy on your chest wanna put me in line
just cause i knew you watch your best i might give it the time
aw but it's alright baby you needed t hat
last shot when you was hurt you know it's a part of the fact
if i had just a little more time I might have something to speak for myself
and no I cant be no one else


https://twitter.com/oldcollin/status/1771246823102972362

reconsider (ft. 4cf)

love u all

okay, darling
if i never see ur face again will u still call me
and it seems like everything's slowing down
but ur still falling
and u say ur just another mess for me to get involved in

mobbin with no belt
legs round my waist say u know me so well
and u dont tell
u dont wanna face anything in ur way 
so u might as well
today & tomorrow
is this forever

okay, darling
if i never see ur face again will u still call me
and it seems like everything's slowing down
but ur still falling
and u say ur just another mess for me to get involved in

slow down cowgirl
dont go too fast we could talk about it
speed down, skip town
i found i can't really live without it
guess i thought this time i'd survive
u think ur loves worth more than mine

say u gotta run soon
trust me, i know how it goes
n ur gone by the morning, where u wind up
baby i don't know
and u said
down the line maybe we could reconnect
but my guess is u got tied up with things
i heard ur killing out west

okay, darling
if i never see ur face again will u still call me
and it seems like everything's slowing down
but ur still falling
and u say ur just another mess for me to get involved in

BUFFALO

BUFFALO (evan sasha)

i'm back

composition, instrumentation, production all by me and @brakence

[Verse 1]
brakence
It's oversaturated
Lock in adrenaline
I'm so detached and jaded
This shit'll spread me thin

Colliding With Mars
I'm unsteady
Bypassing a firewall
I think I'm running out of options
What I'd give to say I'm not involved
Whatever changes, I remain a target

brakence & Colliding With Mars
And they're telling me "boy, you just gotta let go"
But I just stick to the ceiling like mental velcro
Cause what I thought was an answer was just an echo
I did the deed but my spirit's still in the escrow

Colliding With Mars
El problema siempre es el dinero
Yo quiero sexo en exceso
I want to shed this
Constant, unvaried
Looping hell

[Chorus]
brakence & Colliding With Mars
Fucked up, no luck
I'm in a rut
Stuck, disgusted and I'm

[Verse 2]
Colliding With Mars
I never thought to try (go, go, go-go)
Something to kiss the sky (go, go, go-go)
I'm in a thought loop using dream logic
To solve a math equation in the dark
I'm in the dark
I can't find my way

brakence
You're not my enemy
And from my head to my heart
I just can't hold it back
In the cathedral, torn and imbibed
I'm begging for stretching hands
I had the faith you'll swim through the depths
And pull me from mud to land

Colliding With Mars
Requiem æternam dona ei
Domine, amén

[Chorus]
brakence & Colliding With Mars
Fucked up, no luck
I'm in a rut
Stuck, disgusted and I'm

Brightness of Vega (feat. brakence)

I Know(Rough)

(<3)
https://brakence.bandcamp.com/track/kindtothefloor

kind to the floor when i walk
i'm just taking all my time
i'm so original
i just don't wanna fuck up
it's not intended to get her attention in my head
the last time that i ever looked up was the time i told her she was beautiful
i'm fucked up, buzzing, 
and i might as well buy myself an ego check from the neurotic fever i just failed to let go
i don't care so much about my social responsib-
cos when i feel this good the future doesn't fucking matter
and i'm laying, rest when i stay up myself till one then i fade
i give myself a headache, i'm gonna show up late
i'm trying to give it time but i'm falling for the preface
it's not blank
i'm trying to tell her what i think

i need faith in what pride i have
to exchange my witnesses, cos i don't know them now
but i will after i fall apart
and i can't see it cos i'm not equipped

kindtothefloor

you know i think about it way too much 
i just wanna feel my fate like i don't know how to touch you safely 

so what if you're not confident 
you feel that way to me so don’t look for more offerings to bother you with how you’re following a fucking part of you, if opposite at least you got a starting point but it’s hard to do 
this is far from taking mainstage 
i’ll park the car away from over where the cane sprays 
i need an argument for my obnoxious ways i shake state to override my comfort zone, depart it and i’m on pace 
but i don’t need to race 
always say if you need some space, be more safe if you open gates i’ll be waiting to do you favors i swear this in my nature my patience is open acres and i care if you’re faking playfulness 
and my lies all slowly faded, so i cried and then i faced it, i don’t even know my patience, 
i’m not clean 
but i am not waste, i took his ego to the movies that’s a docked case 

you know i think about it way too much 
i just wanna feel my fate like i don't know how to touch you safely 
this isn't pastime 
i got more on my mind, they think i'm crazy 
and i say oh my god i am 
while i take you out of this place i hope i'm not phased 
cos what you want makes me happy

secondport

looking for a stipend my drive is loaded
i think i can find it the more you know me
i just copped the right to extort my purpose
in an one track climate with no disturbance
all the same witcha you believe you source shit
can’t get your main witcha she don’t need your bullshit
98% of all my flows are stolen
cos the greatest artists are the ones that notice

i get it going no i’m never turning it down
i’m finding my liking i strike indeterminates out and
if i’m all blood i’ll be flooding the tourniquet route
i’m breaking the boundaries i’m faking this tournament out
like why lil techie got a trendy flow
because he reckons that it’d grant your trust
and he’ll be there in a second
a deceiver needs his love

i think i should probably get my will off the carpet
college next year man the clock is alarming
ain’t no excuses no i do not give no pardons
and i’ma shoot a lot so i will hit my target
brakence gonna move straight like a rook, vehement
lead his favor wanna seize the paper like it’s old news: “dead president”
sincere no fake layer even though he out his element
he gotta lotta fear but won’t stop there, only care a little if he relevant 

looking for a stipend my drive is loaded
i think i can find it the more you know me
i just copped the right to extort my purpose
in an one track climate with no disturbance
all the same witcha you believe you source shit
can’t get your main witcha she don’t need your bullshit
98% of all my flows are stolen
cos the greatest artists are the ones that notice

i caught you dreaming
you’re soon to adopt how you find your meaning
i break my ceiling
i’m a lot, head’s hot but the baby freezing
that’s on my hearing
still why would they love me i’m way past my season
for the time being
i will not give a fuck i don’t need no reasons
they said make the best of your carbon print
get your work up do ya want all this baby
you can’t just ponder bliss
your vices control you the common shit baby
gated path look like a hyphen
brakence got talent but he ain’t no item
lazy ass nerd bouta get to his writing
don’t scrape that slack cos he just got a license

what are you tense for
what’s the reason you got manners
what do you stand for
look at me i need an answer
know you a man for them,
give your baby a little gander
why the fuck can’t you advance demands with all these people tryna manage you

this ain’t no message it’s assault in on your senses
find out who you are, and if i ever catch you lacking i’m gonna tell myself i failed

this is nothing
you haven’t seen nothing yet

looking for a stipend my drive is loaded
i think i can find it the more you know me
i just copped the right to extort my purpose
in an one track climate with no disturbance
all the same witcha you believe you source shit
can’t get your main witcha she don’t need your bullshit
98% of all my flows are stolen
cos the greatest artists are the ones that notice

effort

they can keep the key
what might have been lost doesn’t bother me
the wolves or sheep
with this blood on my hands
i’m making amends
i’ll move slowly
and i’ve worried that you’re worried
cos i wanted
to be like my momma
and get stronger
but you can never put a label on me
we don’t got no id
and if everyone had their reply
i’m on read
i gotchu
i gotchu
i gotchu
i gotchu

i get burning eyes
whenever i take my own advice
it is really mine
i want help don’t need luck
and i don’t give a fuck if you want me to
i’ve learned it’s gotta come from inside me
i don’t need to rhyme
and i don’t need no ivy/IV
i’ve been here all night
i can’t think to forget for you baby i’ll
carry all of you on me
ooo we’ll be fine 
now i gotchu
i gotchu
i gotchu
i gotchu

when you hold my hand
i think “we should make more plans
but you going out in san
what’s the point being friends”
but i’ll never leave your IG hole
and if i fall out in that cold
i trust that you’ll get over that
you wanted me to reaccept my end

i gotchu

gotchu

you wanna be that way
well dive in
dive in my holy ghost

i was never worried bout the six feet
i just wonder why it wouldn’t kill me
i ain’t get above in the fifties
and i know this isn’t making up for lost time
no difference made but now i know mine
making the same mistake for my whole life
now i’m gotta keep it all tongue tied
forty five minutes till you’re really getting tired and you’ll keep your distance
oh my god
i don’t need time i just want your love
and no thought and prayers and heartfelt lies gon play i
guess i don’t know the faith i got
wasn’t myself, it wasn’t my boss
and now all this searching brought me back to say that

i don’t care
bout a stare
or judgment
i don’t care
i don’t care
i don’t care
what your friends want from me
play it fair
i don’t care
i don’t care
bout the gram
to prove nothing
breath on air
i don’t care

locked out heaven like i can’t upset
i don’t need the time to decide i like it the best 
i just came for it
now i got a commission
i ain’t even 18 and i found me a mission
fuckboy treating art like a test
it’s why he always got a issue never given respect
so i just stick to plans cos this shit fun now i got a mentor
toxic engagement is not what i’m motherfucking meant for
i’ll kill your reason with an MC sony camcord

i don’t wanna play the game no more
i don’t wanna play the game no mooooore
i don’t wanna waste my funds
doing something i don’t love
give a little bitty fuck
i don’t
i don’t know where the passion in my subs
so i’ll get it on my own
what’s inside of me is enough like
i don’t want no points
sin or holy
i don’t call shots
and i ain’t no kobe
i tried to wear a collar
tried to be a goalie
i’m done with all then roles you can sell me off as a phony

i don’t care
bout a stare
or judgment
i don’t care
i don’t care
i don’t care
what your friends want from me
play it fair
i don’t care
i don’t care
bout the gram
to prove nothing
breath on air
i don’t care
i don’t care
what you expect from me
i don’t care
i don’t care

you wanna be that way
well dive in
dive in my holy ghost

idontcare

photo by 50Landing

fuckboy tryna play my homie
but 2020 i’ma take time on me
out the window where my mainline goes
this is sacrilegious how i’m gon fade off IG

heartache comes in many forms
one day opens any door but
i’ve never seen this distant
what success? my eyes are on a screen
if you’re hurting call my line and if you’re doing good, it’s not like i don’t care
i wanna see the world
this shit ain’t the same if i can’t breath your air

fuckboy tryna play my homie
but 2020 i’ma take time on me
out the window where my mainline goes
this is sacrilegious how i’m gon fade off IG
hope you find someone who can be invested
i’m not over you that’s not my objective
so obsessed with my mistakes i gotta accept them
so i’m not gonna listen to him

he always wants a little more
lost in his fake love and subliminals
won’t stay true if it’s difficult 
a lie’s a lie won’t hide the real to waste your time
that’s just being honest
shouldn’t fall in love and i shouldn’t go to college
gotta fight off all the pain he made in august

i’m not who you think i am

fuckboy tryna play my homie
but 2020 i’ma take time on me
out the window where my mainline goes
this is sacrilegious how i’m gon fade off IG
i won’t put no filler or no dud in my setlist
you should up your standards for what i can be impressed with
out your metric
i’m alive and i need help
hit concrete bottom you could say i learned my lesson

fuckboy tryna play my homie
but 2020 i’ma take time on me
out the window where my mainline goes
this is sacrilegious how i’m gon fade off IG

fuckboy

tonight's no good

https://open.spotify.com/track/6CBDWs1KhhEezJ8zPcSx7b?si=e920872c33884bf1
https://soundcloud.com/brakence

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