Despair part 1

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I No Longer Fear the Razor Guarding My Heel

I NO LONGER FEAR THE RAZOR GUARDING MY HEEL

https://velvetqueen.bandcamp.com/track/none
prod. https://soundcloud.com/ginsengxx

[lyrics]
i be chillin on the west side / i aint ever goin outside / feels like my arms are tied / whoever u pray to is a lie / i been lettin my fam down / tryna get a grip i cant now / my plug wanna see me in the ground / nobody make a fuckin sound

I don't trust none of u
I don't even trust myself
I don't feel none of u
I don't even feel myself

i don ever fly first class / u could find me poppin somethin in the back / i be on a flight like everyday / nothins ever made me wanna stay / and i cant understand this / my thoughts r fuckin outlandish / yall too worried bout the lavish / feel like a long time i been crashin 

I don't trust none of u
I don't even trust myself
I don't feel none of u
I don't even feel myself

None (prod. gin$eng)

https://velvetqueen.bandcamp.com/track/share-the-throne

prod. https://soundcloud.com/third-mind
mix/mastered. https://soundcloud.com/innerheem

[lyrics]
this shit is all i fuckin got
I’m spillin out emotions i can’t keep em locked
i dont need u but u gun need me
i could make u who u wanna be 
we could trap out in the back its fine
u aint gotta worry i do this shit too its fine
i might jus fly u out
i might jus fuck around and show u wut my lifes about
i might jus share the throne
i might jus show u how this shit can go

Share The Throne (prod. Alex Trevelyan)

https://velvetqueen.bandcamp.com/track/insomnia-ft-omenxiii
ft. https://soundcloud.com/omenxiii
prod. https://soundcloud.com/oilcolor
prod. https://soundcloud.com/000garrett
fan art by https://www.instagram.com/hungry__boyz/

[lyrics]
♥velvet♥
I don’t wanna sleep cuz thats wen I can’t breathe
I aint givin up I’m on the brink of somethin
I could feel it in my skin this is who I’m supposed to be
This is all that I can be

I dont wanna sleep cuz thats wen I can’t breathe
Thats wen all these demons start comin after me
I’m trapped in a nightmare and I can’t get out
Someone wake me up so I could figure this out 

I dont wanna dream cuz they always get broke
I flex on the streets but I’m rly fuckin broke
I dont care about money I dont care about these hoes
Got a lot of frauds stay hittin up my phone
Stop hittin up my phone...

Stop clawin at my bones
See me doin good ya now they wanna call 
See me doin good they hopin that i fall

♥omen♥
Yeah I know how that goes,
They just hopin that I fall,
But I'm floatin like a ghost,
Sippin Rossi on the rocks

Drinkin water when I gotta, Otherwise I'm sippin wine,
I don't care about your friends because they ain't no friends of mine.

Remember that time when nobody fucked with me,
now everybody really tryna fuck with me,
Tryna get in the game when I got the key,
Still locked inside with my misery,

Company for the lonely,
Comin up with my own team,
I hate the world but I love you,
I hate myself but I need you.

I know I know how you feel when you can't see me.
I feel the same,

I feel the same.

Insomnia ft. OmenXIII (prod. Garrett & Oilcolor)

♥ https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3S_9GxjF0cM ♥

https://velvetqueen.bandcamp.com/track/let-me-die 

prod. https://soundcloud.com/nbnt
prod. https://soundcloud.com/harvest

[lyrics]
if everything's goin right
then why does it feel so wrong
i think i'm scared of the light
i think i'm scared to go on

i need some opiates now
i need some sadness to drown me
i'm not good at bein happy
i'm only good at bein lonely

these feelings, they don't feel like me
i'm distant from who i used to be
i'm glad that i changed, i am
but i dont think i'll stay as i am

i don't want love i want drugs
i don't want love i want drugs

stop fuckin bein so nice
i don't deserve this 
please let me just die

i don't want love i want drugs
i don't want love i want drugs...

Let Me Die (prod. nobloodnotears & harvest)[video link in description]

prod. https://soundcloud.com/deadtreesnolongerbreathe

[lyrics] 

I think that I been gettin fucked up for too long
Fucked up for too long…

I wanna say sorry to my family
To the people who always helped me
Even though I was living so selfishly 
I just wish they could see the things that I have seen
I wanna learn how to not harm me
Cause late at night my thoughts are fuckin haunting
I got this pain so deep inside
It drives me insane but it keeps me alive

I don’t see a reason, never had a reason
To keep on breathing, with nothing to believe in
I don’t see a reason, I never had a reason
To keep on breathing, with nothing to believe in

I was just a tweaked out kid
Didn’t know I’d end up like this
Thought that sadness was just a phase
Now I’m paying to phase out everyday
I aint never had no direction
Used to look in glass pipes for reflections
Never meant to put yall thru this
I just can’t grasp why I fucking exist

I don’t see a reason, never had a reason
To keep on breathing, with nothing to believe in
I don’t see a reason, I never had a reason
To keep on breathing, with nothing to believe in

No Reason (prod. DeadForest)

Yunggoth - Idk How To Kill Myself (prod. Gucci Witch)

<3 prod. https://soundcloud.com/vector_kid
fan art by https://twitter.com/kleocchi

[lyrics]
Yeah I’m feeling good but what does that even mean
I’m still scared I know that death is waiting for me
I don’t feel prepared, I got family praying for me
Cause it’s been too long that I’ve been on the brink of insanity
I cannot see
The person in the mirror has never been me

But my blood turns the dust into roses
My blood turns the dust into roses

I’m chasing all these dreams they run from me
& I can’t keep up but I’m fucking trying
I feel like all I’ve ever had is me
& I feel like I still don’t fuckin know me

Dust to Roses (prod. vector_kid)

Stream on Spotify

i hate you, but i love you

prod. https://soundcloud.com/tau1999

[lyrics] 
Maybe I’m goin lil crazy
Poppin lil too much lately
Laid up here with my baby
Everybody else so shady
But they do not phase me

I know that I got what I need
But still feel like I’m missin something
That really must fuckin mean something

I don’t know man
I just feel like I wasn’t meant to be put on this planet
But I didn’t plan it
So Imma make what I can with it
I didn’t plan it, didn’t plan to be on this planet
But Imma make the best fuckin thing that I can with it
Wit my man with it

And I’m driftin in and out of finding some peace
I toss and I turn every night in my sleep
Been chainsmokin everyday since I was 12
If there is a heaven then this must be hell

This must be hell
This must be hell
I’m driftin in and out
Just tryna figure this all out

This must be hell
I’m driftin in and out
Just tryna figure this all out

This Must Be Hell (prod. Tau)

prod. https://soundcloud.com/oilcolor

[lyrics]

I wanna go back
Back to the old me
But she doesn't exist 
She already told me

I wanna go back
To when I was just a kid
On city buses in the back
With every reason to live

I wanna go back
Back to when I cared
Back to when I could stare in the mirror
Without crying

I just wanna go back
Back to when little things meant so much more
Back when my daddy would run through the door
Back to when I didn't hate so much that I can't sleep anymore

I wanna go back
Chasing ice cream trucks with my sister
Aint been in touch since I fucked up, damn I miss her

I wanna go back

I Wanna Go Back (prod. oilcolor)

Ridin' round with the blunt lit, no clip,
Just the butterfly blade on my, hip
City lights flash as I take a hit,
Now they on my dick like, ohhh

but they said I wouldn't make it, nooo
Now every day I'm faded, ohhhh
I don't wanna be famous, nooooo
I just wanna stay jaded, ohhhh

Now everybody hate me, ohhhh.

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Obsidian (Prod. notmorgn & OmenXIII)

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dear death, i miss you (Prod. lil heartbreak)

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Art by Beka Nicole

Lyrics

Everyday I wake up same old shit
Same life same thoughts same all black fit
Mom disappointed with the same damn kid
Still broke still sad still real feelings hid

I aint got a job Ima be a fucking bum
Still broke still sad still living with my mom
In the same damn house in the same damn room
With the same damn mind and the same damn veiw

Hate it that I have created this world that I'm in
And I cannot erase it 
Yeah I make music but that's fucking basic
I just wish that I could make myself face it

I'm in despair hmu when I'm not
There aint no pill to fix what I have got
But that smoke chill me out when I am feelin' hot
So I dont give a fuck if my brain gonna rot

Broke is expensive and I cant afford
unknxwn. aint the person that you should adore
Everynight when I write I just fall to the floor
Then the carpet just soaks up my tears even more

I'm a sad piece of shit
I aint gone never gone get me a bitch
I aint gone never gone feel any bliss
If I took my life I dont think I'd be missed

We all been raised to think money is real
To the point where people would even kill
Aint gonna lie to be honest I will
Hate seein' mail and all of it is bills

I'm in despair hmu when I'm not
There aint no pill to fix what I have got
But that smoke chill me out when I am feelin' hot
So I dont give a fuck if my brain gonna rot

unknxwn. - Despair

I'm too busy in despair.

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i'm too busy in despair: part 1 | Produced by reaper

prod. https://soundcloud.com/kryptik_official
mix/master https://soundcloud.com/twdutchman

[lyrics]
It's like clockwork how my heart breaks 
Everytime it's winter
Warming up with all my mistakes 
This is just December

My fingertips are blocks of ice 
And no one's here to hold them
Snowflakes aren't as pretty
When you're the only one watching

Guess I'll cry in the snow
And make angels all alone
Guess I'll try to move on
Let my demons freeze in the cold

Guess I'll cry in the snow
And make angels all alone
Guess I'll try to move on
Let my demons freeze in the cold

I've never felt so much pain in my life
The grip that is held on my chest is so tight
Why does love try to kill me everytime
Or is it just my own heartbreak suicide

Bottles on bottles to bottle the thoughts 
Of regret and memories I never lost 
I'm letting everyone down, that's nothing new 
This winter will be so damn hard without you

Guess I'll cry in the snow
And make angels all alone
Guess I'll try to move on
Let my demons freeze in the cold

Guess I'll cry in the snow
And make angels all alone
Guess I'll try to move on
Let my demons freeze in the cold

Velvet Winter (prod. kryptik)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ynw3ixqOPz4&t=13s

prod. https://soundcloud.com/wtchcrft2

[lyrics]
I think I just flexed up off my sadness like I knew I would  
My hearts broke so all I care about is if my money’s good
Don’t got time for feelings cause I don’t be feeling ways I should
All year long it’s bank account full poppin champagne kinda mood

I got fuckin good friends standing by my side
We don’t fuck w pills no more just bump Gab3 in the ride
We makin money but everything we do legal now
I just called my mama up and told her this year she’ll be proud

I think I just flexed up off my sadness like I knew I would  
My hearts broke so all I care about is if my money’s good
Don’t got time for feelings cause I don’t be feeling ways I should
All year long it’s bank account full poppin champagne kinda mood

Flexed Up (prod. Wtchcrft)[video in bio]

prod. https://soundcloud.com/lederry
https://soundcloud.com/holt-stairs

[lyrics]
I’m with a few but I feel all alone
I wish I never had to look at my phone
I lost myself and now I feel like a clone
I just don’t wanna be stuck on my own

But baby I could make your dreams come true
And all your fucking nightmares too
Baby I could make your dreams come true 
And all your fucking nightmares too 

I can't stand up cause my legs start to shake
I swear my heart can't take
All my fucking mistakes
I replay the last day that I saw you 
And I wanna vomit

But I could make your dreams come true
And all your fucking nightmares too
I could make your dreams come true
And all your fucking nightmares too

Dreamy Nightmare (prod. Lederrick & Holt Stairs)

@prodreaper

Lyrics

Still in the same room stuck with the same shit
Heart still fucked up from the same bitch
Still making songs talking bout the same shit
Still got the same dream, still ain't made it

Come true, don't come through
I just wanna sleep all day in my room
Fuck the sun, I'm a bastard son
Pack, roll, light, hit, then I pass the blunt

The shit I used to do is only half as fun
I'm more detached than I was, I'm less than half of one
You got lost love, well I never had one
Bullshit non-stop so I had to run

So I'm sorry if I leave you behind
Don't even search cause I'm nothing to find
If you see the best in me, I guess you're blind
She had my heart but its too bad that hers wasn't mine

But I don't give a fuck tho
Fuck her, I'll up and leave out the front door
Fuck you, punk bitch you don't want smoke
I'm fuckin' done, I'll play the hook back once more

Everyday I wake up same old shit
Same life same thoughts same all black fit
Mom disappointed with the same damn kid
Still broke still sad still real feelings hid

Hate it that I have created this world that I'm in
And I cannot erase it 
Yeah I make music but that's fucking basic
I just wish that I could make myself face it

I'm in despair hmu when I'm not
There ain't no pill to fix what I have got
But that smoke chill me out when I am feelin' hot
So I don't give a fuck if my brain gonna rot

i'm too busy in despair: part 2 | Produced by reaper

mix/master by Ashton Traitor
https://soundcloud.com/ashtontraitor

Imma Lie (prod. Kellbender)

[Prod. Loopy]
https://soundcloud.com/prod_loopy

Lyrics:

It’s kinda funny how we fucked up, where’d the time go?
All our dreams, all our dreams, Out the window

It’s kinda funny how you do; I wasted so much time for you


Forever I would bleed for you!
Tell me everything I wanna hear, I know it’s not THE TRUTH!
Fuck am I supposed to do?!
When everything I ever loved has been slaughtered, FUCK it's TRUE!

Forever I will bleed for you!
Tell me everything I wanna hear, I know it’s not THE TRUTH!
Fuck am I supposed to do?!
When everything I ever loved has been slaughtered, FUCK it's TRUE!

Fuck you doing to me?! I can’t seem to let it go!
I fucking loved you but I guess that’s not enough for you!!
Break my bones again, and mend me till your heart's content!
Just slit my throat, the pain just never seems to fucking end!!

I swear I love you, but I gotta fucking let you go!
What you did to me was wrong, I hope goddamn know !!
You can’t repair the scars you made, the blood is on your blade!
Forever I would bleed for you; the hate is all I taste!!

Forever I would bleed for you!
Tell me everything I wanna hear, I know it’s not THE TRUTH!
Fuck am I supposed to do?!
When everything I ever loved has been slaughtered, FUCK it's TRUE!

Forever I will bleed for you!
Tell me everything I wanna hear, I know it’s not THE TRUTH!
Fuck am I supposed to do?!
When everything I ever loved has been slaughtered, FUCK it's TRUE!

Despair part 1

Thiccy~Sama