silly goofy intrusivity

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Track 16 - Explicit
56 sec

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Lyrics:
(My anxiety's driving me off a—)

Now it's time for the second stage of my lie, sky-high
Out of sight, out of mind, out of control
Fuck's what I know

(Hello, little one)
(You don't have to do anything ever)
(All your problems will deliquesce themselves)
(For you're an undiagnosed lazy fucking failure who couldn't solve half of your problems regardless!)

Now I'm 'sittin on my throne, taking a fat L
My shit's set in stone, find my way out of this hell

So procrastinate, reallocate my time to all of the times you said you'll be fine
Then negotiate or manipulate until I bide my time
I adulterate, 'til I can break free from the fate and not go out without a rhyme

(Meow)

released December 5, 2023
released by Into The Abliss in collaboration with DistroKid, LLC.

Ornate New Soul is Na​ï​ve

silly goofy intrusivity

late stage loser

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Track 14
2 min 1 sec 

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Lyrics:
Infinite-inflated self-worth, catch 'ya breath
White boy unelated, entitled, 'ya know the rest
So, let's join the dots and circle the mess
Oh, I'm forever sorry for all that I possess
For this manic state of mind
Megalomania says 'welcome to someplace', this time
Out of the abliss of ignorance, thin space, the arrogance, the fears, and a lack of clarity
Into the abyss of self-doubt and righteous calamity
The dire assessment of here and now bringing a lack of grace
The ego-centric failure to renown all of my mistakes
To the masses brings my massive heartache
So, I'm forever sorry for all that I will take
When I say that he's mine, and there's nothing I can do to take away the pain
Least I'll settle my dues

For them to finally be free and find their own peace
Lest he sit and watch it burn!
His heart eating away at his chest
Let the flames run wild!
Sorrow to his temple's crest, and his eyes to the sky, while his love begins to cry with nothing left to believe!

released December 5, 2023
released by Into The Abliss in collaboration with DistroKid, LLC.

late stage loser

late night mornings

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Track 15
1 min 30 sec

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Lyrics:
Amidst fleeting time, memories remind
Drawing me down to the depths, where I once trekked steady steps
Now drowning in a familiar unknown; a new-old era
Uncertainty is calling me up from cherished echoes
I don't want to let go

This hatred's the only spate fate reciprocated between my thoughts and my lifeline
Passing me by with an irate, riling eclectic race out of timeless fate's-in-a-bag
My face's caught in a sight-gag
My woven disillusionment; a woken past impeding on the present
Feeding reckless tenants of my tremulous dependence

Fixating myself on the retro-rehashed nostalgic obsession I have—that is, the sole resilience I've left—an echoed hallucinogen

A millennia passes with a clear trace
A lasting craved face of kindnesses stowed away in my brain

And yet I'll drown myself to prove I'm not arraigned in thinking it was anything but it was

Everything tells me run and yet it feels like my escape!

released December 5, 2023
released by Into The Abliss in collaboration with DistroKid, LLC.

late night mornings

im going to start screaming

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Track 21
1 min 2 sec

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Lyrics:
How long has everything been so loud?
Who even cares at all?

This epiphora has a strangle-hold, cuts a sliver
The silent reprehending, please forgive me, sir

Didn't realize my mind could be so violent, so
Cut it off, lock them out, forget I did exist 

It's all over now
I can't hear you now

released December 5, 2023
released by Into The Abliss in collaboration with DistroKid, LLC.

brayjamin

im going to start screaming

fishy fish fish in a fishy fiscal world

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Track 11
3 min 40 sec 

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Lyrics:
Swimming in a realm of duality
As I feast on broken cheers
Nibbling's an opportunity, it's clear,
Onions brings tears
One mistake akin to grieving my obsession with dreams, surreal
Reality bites
It's yearning that I feel beneath this edible illusion lies my captivated thoughts
Divine

A marinated fusion, my mind's sauce and the bitter taste of all that's been lost
Layers interwoven
Oh, I'm choking, and all I can do is cope
But this mental meal imparts a heavy lesson
Sometimes crying as we feast is nothing but a blessing

In the end we're all just seeking satiation
Some solace from consuming our creations
A harmonious blend for our soul's jubilation

This burger, my mind, dissected and confined
But still I dine while trying to cope with time
The onion's layers peel, can't digest it all
So, I grieve in sunken dreams
A false reality it seems
My failures laid upon the table
Set with plates of shattered gleams
And as I sink beneath the waves of endless deep lament
I strive to be a fish again, where tranquility's content

Submerged in emotions, I find what keeps me alive
Oh, the tide brings resolution as i struggle to survive
Oh, and as the waves collide
The water's fine, but still I feel confined by my mind's design
A tangled net of memories left behind
Sinking faster like a stone
But no longer I'll be alone

Creatures strange and sights unseen
A world beneath where I can dream
A dance with coral, beneath my mind
Vibrant hues, waterlogged thought
Adrift and tossed this rendezvous
Reveal my own abyss, rabid fraught rings true

A whirlpool of desire, a vortex of despair
I navigate these currents with the utmost care
Sailing through euphoria, melancholia drains motivation
The turbulence that lies beneath the brain, unsanctioned

Leviathans of doubt, tugged by the tide, in drought
You see I long for air, but reprieve it not be
For once you've delved into the depths of devotion
There is no return from this vast notion of truth of love and pain and suicide
Sometimes we die, sometimes we thrive
The cycle starts anew, like rain

The waves crashing down
Return to my watery domain
A Charybdis of emotion
Hesitantly, I contain silent symphony
Shores to the ocean roars as I engulf myself in a different world
Tendrils twisted and tirled
Amidst the treasures of the deep
Secrets whispers i shan't keep

And these pearls remain unfurled
Gently, a siren's call on the wind's embrace
My heart a sunken ship displaced
Longing for reprievel, lighthouse beam to dispel my hell upheaval
But alas, the undertow of memories past
Suffocation with every gasp
An anchor heavy as thoughts embrace
Forged from melancholy's alloyed trace
Yet still I swim in this sea of sorrow
Buoyed by ignorant hallucinations of tomorrow

released December 5, 2023
released by Into The Abliss in collaboration with DistroKid, LLC.

fishy fish fish in a fishy fiscal world

athirst for who ?

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Track 20
1 min 27 sec

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Lyrics:
I can't stomach the love you have for this broken shadow

Why do you think I pretend I can swim okay again?

Trailing my thoughts, don't mind where they headed
Need not fought, those who I left dead, and
Starve my brain and keep me unaware of what I do to me without you right here

released December 5, 2023
released by Into The Abliss in collaboration with DistroKid, LLC.

athirst for who ?

altered state of mind

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Track 19
3 min

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Lyrics:
Mindless wakeups in the middle of the night
I can't make up the timeless fantasy you take up
Sometimes I find myself unwinding slowly

Yo, for the constant battle
The time at which you prattle, conflicted by endless tattle
Like cattle we're directed by our stratal

I can't back down 'till I break down, so hand me a decree
I can't fade out, I'm greased, breaded, and fed to the independency police
I've transcended—from the calipers of comprehended to high-caliber… You're contended!

Oh, oh no

Why can't I see what I want to be
Why is that what is killing me
I'll try, but I'll have to lie, what is that
Oh, I'm trying not to fly so low

And where
Where was I?

Where am, where am I
An altered state of mind
I can't seem to find a part of me resting slowly

Can I just breathe beside you?
Besides, you're where I find peace of mind, my dearly beloved
And I cannot ask myself where am I to decide who I find symphony
Mutual symphony!

I don't think this through but I love you

released December 5, 2023
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altered state of mind

Thou Art Thine Brocken Spectre (Or, Reminders To Fix My Bike)

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Track 18
59 sec

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Lyrics:
Oh but truthfully, when you called me, what drove me was reluctancy
I cower in face of change, you see, it's all horrifyingly banal

I'm getting a little close to the edge
Would you mind if I peruse your arms in my head?
Would it make it a little easier if I just come out and say it?

I'm afraid you'd find me better in delusion
If it's okay with you I'd rather find me in reclusion
I don't know where ill be in six months
But I hope I won't live to regret my inabilities

To be a loving soul takes nothing short of a shoving toll
Makes something more of a gushing hole
To those who just wanted something else

My serene pacifier—
Do I come off as abhorrent, or do I think too much?
How've we treaded so far in crutch?

Six colors paint the sky a new hue
In remnants, it wasn't meant to bespoke your mind

Was it meant to revoke a notion of devotion, beholden obliged
In time we'll realize
It's nearly time to go

released December 5, 2023
released by Into The Abliss in collaboration with DistroKid, LLC.

Thou Art Thine Brocken Spectre (Or, Reminders To Fix My Bike)

Attachment-Definite/Insensitivity Disorder

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Track 17
2 min 28 sec

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Lyrics:
A confidant once asked me
And by once, I mean two mere days prior today
And by confidant, I mean my beloved
But for the likes of this catbrier I'm tempted to lance my hand with, I'll take a stab at appearing poised
I mean, I posit I'll fumble there, too, in the midst of the void

Oh, mea culpa!
It seems the mirage claims reign
Well—though it's apathy I simulate—anyway
They questioned my reluctance to share what I create
And deep down it pricked a nerve in my veins!

Now I find myself ablaze, but intro, current state: let me tell you about my cat
Exiled to the outdoors for a hellish basement floor
His Air Tag collar, rendezvous divulging, finds my neighbors indulging in their stealing
If they're fine with piss stains, let them have their way
But my cat, I miss him every day

Toxoplasma/Ativan, what's worth it to keep him cooped up in rebuff?
Five months it took for you to perceive that somehow
It's soon enough to believe it's true enough, but wait!

Let me rephrase; I fear insecurity has settled into my brain
Now the next five, I'm scared if I should have not relied
Well, I could barely feel the tide
And all I could ever see was foretold liberticide

Oh, how veracious can it be, we're likewise (comparably) dying inside?

Station-to-station, stoic-cauterization
Notwithstanding restraint, swift glances of disdain
Granted, their raw fervor was hard to ignore
Otherwise, was I plain insecure?

Thy penultimate chelidon's adscript to her confidant
Ill-tumultuous stipends, whereby a price tag's plight, and… He left her lying.
In essence, it's obvious they care for another

Nonetheless, it's the starriest wherefore he deliquesces attest, prestressed at best
Transgression, stainless steel impression
'Waitin for you to cogitate with intention

released December 5, 2023
released by Into The Abliss in collaboration with DistroKid, LLC.

Attachment-Definite/Insensitivity Disorder

memory loss - 2023 Remaster

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Single
2 min 30 sec 

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Lyrics:
These days pass me by
Withdrawn in a different time
They say to enjoy these golden years

Will I ever relearn?
Or will I forever sulk in my melancholic memory loss?

Sometimes I just want to watch the world burn
Have I just lost touch?
My mindset moved, now it rests in place—stubbornly solidified

Like roots grown accrete, paved over in concrete

And now they're dead while my doubts thrive like moss in this down and down called Memory Loss!

released December 29, 2023
released by Into The Abliss in collaboration with DistroKid, LLC.

memory loss - 2023 Remaster

and perhaps what is this ?

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