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Akai S1000, Ensoniq ESQ-M, Korg Volca FM, DSI MoPho, Modal Argon8

Spot

...And the heavens gave birth to my blue song

Fun Beach

DUMP ROOM

Teynruhn

DLE 3t

bulb

I sat inside, alone.
That’s all I had been for most of this time.
Just me, myself, and I,
In this tiny room, with nothing else but my laptop, drawing tablet and a pen
Seconds turned to minutes, and minutes turned to hours as I listened,
And envied the sound of excitement and happiness those younger than me were having.
No matter the reason for them meeting up,
I hated that they got to have fun while I waited.

Days closed in on the one I was meant to be with my own friends…
Each of them canceled, 1 by 1.
The loneliness only sinking in further and further,
As well as jealousy and envy for those who got what I didn’t.
Being an overthinker definitely doesn’t help in moments like this,
Makes me wonder so many questions that hurt to ponder.
Do they not want to see me? Was I annoying?
Had they finally had enough of me?

Were they tired of me?
Did I do something wrong?
Is my past repeating itself?
Is it happening again?! WHY?!
Please just tell me if you don't want to hang out.
I'll understand! I swear I will!
But please give me some clarity...
Oh, no reply? You're busy? Ok...
My phone is tossed across my bed.
My tears are allowed to pour and I comfort myself best I can.
That's how it's been for what feels like forever.
Doing everything with just me, myself, and I.



end it all?

Tracks in order here:

Listen to Contemplation, a playlist by The Beautiful Dark on #SoundCloud
https://on.soundcloud.com/aqD3ZVbtA7pXQ6LBKC
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Tempo 11 BPM
432 Hz

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Fuel my focus
Be my breath
Good gravity
Sink me to calm awareness

Fuel my focus
Calm my chest
As thoughts flow in
See them pass

I am breath
Respiratory pulse
Safe as a spirit
Mend mind convulse

Fuel my focus
A tender tame
Cue calm awareness
Fill my frame

Blissful body
Therapeutically tuned
Blissfully bound
Traquil marooned

I am breath
Balance breathe
I am breath
Serene agreed

Contemplative #4

yo waddup


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XOR EP:  
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|RUN/STOP|:
https://massagebraincult.bandcamp.com/album/mause-run-stop-ep-remixes
Xephem Records Compiler lvl2: https://xephem.bandcamp.com/album/compiler-level-2
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Fxbip x Mause - Colors collab : https://x4records.bandcamp.com/album/colors
Ubal EP! : http://analogicalforce.bandcamp.com/album/af023-ubal-ep
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