Music by @user-467888932
Lyrics and vocals by @brianvaughn
Photo by Eduardo Garcia-Nieto (unsplash.com/@edugarcianieto)

"Back to the Beginning"

I'm sorry for the way I can't sit with how I feel.
I thought I could bury the parts that were bad.

Oh, the things that we try to believe...

I don't know what I believe.
I don't know what to think about me.

  These are predictable things.
  We act the same ways and nothing here changes.
  So I dissociate again.
  I don't know how to be a friend without falling apart.

We try again but we only get further down in the hole we're in.
We cut into each other's skin trying to hold onto this.
I don't blame you for the things that happened in the past,
But somehow we've got to move past it.

Sometimes it is what you think and all you can do is leave.
But where would that leave me?

  These are predictable things.
  We act the same ways and nothing here changes.
  So I dissociate again.
  I don't know how to be a friend without falling apart.

And then what would I do?
I'm afraid to lose the little things.

I guess that's life though.
You can't hold onto everyone.
It doesn't matter how hard you try.
Just give it a little time, it's almost always alright.
Don't just try to avoid any pain.
It's okay to feel something even when you feel afraid.
I wish I'd learned these things in an easier way, so they didn't hurt anyone.
I wish I knew what to say to fix this thing,
To take it back to the beginning.

Back to the Beginning (feat. TedStedt)

Music by @viperdrivemusic
Lyrics and vocals by @brianvaughn

"Indigo Dreams"

She's off in search of satisfaction
I know that she's never coming back
I set out in the opposite direction
Got lost as soon as she walked away

Are you happy like that?
Not knowing where you're going?
Don't be sad; at least you'll move faster on your own
Do you ever look back?
Half of the fight is knowing
All of these questions I'm asking myself but I'll never know

Looking back it was never that bad
We had the same problems everyone had
But I had my work and you had your TV
We never knew how to talk about our feelings
Eventually I guess they went away

I've been running for three years in the opposite direction
But it doesn't matter because California's got the papers
Are these mistakes that I have made or just normal scars?
Will I ever rid myself of the feeling?

I hate talking to you.
I hate having to.
I hate talking to you.

I'll take care of things like I always do.

Indigo Dreams (feat. Viperdrive)

Music by @acenthevibes
Lyrics and vocals by @brianvaughn
Photo by Javardh (unsplash.com/@_javardh_001)

"She Said"

How'd we get this way?
I'll never know
I've tried to reconstruct and think of things that I could have changed
But I think that there's no way to win that game

Given what we know about each other
What the hell was running through our heads?
I hope you're happier now
If no other good thing comes from this

You can't fix this thing by running away
The things inside always come along
There's just somethings you're always going to take
No matter where you go
You turn around, and there you are

So what were we thinking?
What was running through our heads?
I hope you're happier now
If no other good thing comes from this

Rock bottom dropped out
With no where left to turn
Throw out the thunder and the sun
And wrestle with the lessons that we've learned

The words you said bounce around in my mind
Even after all this time, I can't let them go
I hope you're happier now,
If no other good thing comes

She Said (feat. Cedric Dhaenens)

Music by @remarkableartist
Lyrics and vocals by @brianvaughn
Photo by Adrian N (unsplash.com/@anewevisual)

"You and I"

You want to know
You need to know this

Harder to look back
Damn this hindsight

Sometimes things can end before they've even started
You and I
There's no solution for a broken heart but time

I want to tell you something I know
I want to tell you
After I've thought about it, I realize I want to tell you

There's a guilt I've felt
I picked it up on my way out
I know it doesn't help you
But even so, I can't shake it

I watched you fall in and I didn't stop it

Sometimes things can end before they've even started
You and I
There's no solution for a broken heart but time

You and I (feat. Mark Miller)

Music by Igor Rabovsky
Lyrics and vocals by Brian Vaughn
Photo by Jane Duursma (unsplash.com/@madebyjane)

"It Doesn't Matter"

Our bodies rise and fall with the ocean tide
The sun shines down its light on the shore line

It doesn't matter like before
You're already free

I wish you knew
I wish you thought about-

Go on and fight your war
It doesn't matter like it did before
Wrapped up in a blanket on the living room floor

It doesn't matter like before
You're already free
It doesn't matter like before
What do you need?
I'm letting you down
This is not some kind of dream
Don't you cry

I wish you knew
I wish you thought about-

It Doesn't Matter (feat. Igor Rabovsky)

Music by @gh0stmartini
Lyrics and vocals by @brianvaughn
Photo by Kevin Escate (unsplash.com/photos/CTUbHburM14)

I don't love the way I'd like to,
but it's not because I didn't try.
I just changed my mind.

If you believe it– what can I say?
If you believe it, why should I even try?
There's no one there.
You're gone already.

I don't say the things you want me to.
Your insecurities–
The ways you pick at me-
Make me want to hide from you.

Wake to the damage.
Glance at your messages,
So I'll remember just how far apart we've grown.
You won't let it go. You won't let it go.
And I won't say "goodbye".
We push and pull at each other.

You say I'm distant and you say I'm selfish,
But if I abuse myself, what good am I to anyone else?
You and I are caught in the undertow.
It's the same old fucking story.

If you believe it– what can I say?
I don't want to shout over you,
and you don't leave any room for me.

Caught in the undertow...

Just when you thought that this was over–
Swept out our feet and now you're back again.

If you believe it

Music by Jordan Morris (reddit.com/u/Zealousideal-Pin445)
Lyrics and vocals by Brian Vaughn
Image by Caleb White (unsplash.com/@caleb_white)

The sun don't shine when you're around.
And it's been two years now.
We assumed it was my fault,
Like maybe I'm broken, or something else.
When my relationships have so much instability,
and I'm the only common link.

We're going around in another circle.
Spiral around in another circle.

Tell me what you thought you said,
and I'll tell you what it meant to me.
You don't know everything.
I put you on a pedastool
That you just couldn't live up to
And I expected the impossible from you.

You did the same to me.

I stayed up late to be around,
And now I'm sleep walking.
I wanted to fix this,
But maybe I'm looking for something else?
That is such a bitter pill to swallow.
Sunk costs fallacy.

There are so many poems in two years.
So many songs.

We're going around in another circle.
Spiral around in another circle.

Circles

Music by Dave Marnocha (@segfaultofficial)
Lyrics and Vocals by Brian Vaughn
Image by Caleb White (unsplash.com/@caleb_white)

You told me what it meant to you.
And we talked about it.
Now we're not talking,
but I'm not mad at all.

Hello to the city,
To the lights and the sirens.
I haven't been the man I thought I would be.
If you look, you won't find me where I thought I would be.

You told me what it meant to you,
and I didn't recognize it.
Our perspective changes things.

Hello to my city!
I haven't felt alive for a long time.
For always and always and always.

You're London in December.

In case you're wondering, I can tell you.
I'm not mad.
I'm just moving on.

In March we drew a line–
(walked away)
Put up a boundary-
And it was the right decision,
At least for me.

You're London in December.

Before you called it
Before you'd fallen–
I was there,
and you were there for me.

It's hard to think about,
Even after all this time.
I still cry when I hear "Holocene".

You're London in December.

I don't remember (why it all crashed down).
I don't remember.

London In December

Music by Rhys Jones
Lyrics and vocals by Brian Vaughn
Image by Caleb White (unsplash.com/@caleb_white)

You're all living in my head.
Until tomorrow, I'll carry you around.

Going to the beach today.
I'm a one armed airplane,
Hanging out the window of the car.
I still want a lot of things,
But at least for this moment we both found someone to love.

I think of you when I think of yesterday.

When I look back upon those years,
I think about you often,
And how you shaped the person I've become.
Life separates, but you don't feel so far away,
Because I know you'll always be there.
You'll always be a part of me.

We don't often talk about it.
We're scared of what we'll find if we look too close at just how far apart we are.
I'm not ready to grow up and let go of you.
I'm holding on.

I'm holding on to yesterday.

When I look back upon those years,
I think about you often,
And how you shaped the person I've become.
Life separates, but you don't feel so far away,
Because I know you'll always be there.
You'll always be a part of me.

Tomorrow won't be as good as yesterday.

I think of you.
You're tangled up in my thoughts of yesterday.

Yesterday

Music by Dave Marnocha (@segfaultofficial)
Lyrics and Vocals by Brian Vaughn
Image by Caleb White (unsplash.com/@caleb_white)

So it is.
This is the story.

Back with hindsight,
I should know that we made the right decision.
All of our friends told us the truth.
I was so out of pocket with you.
One at a time, our excuses fell down,
and we were left with the ruins of each other.
I tried to support you but I got hurt
And so I let go.

This is the story.
This is the story of how we fell apart.

I think I'm finally close to feeling whole.
I think I've processed the anger.
And I hope you were able to let it go.
I've learned a lot about myself.
I wouldn't go back to how things were before,
but I wish I hadn't wasted so much time.

Maybe I'm not special, but I'd like to be.

I think that it's important that I do this for me.

This is the story.
I know we can't shy away from it,
Although it can hurt to remember.
This is the story of how we fell apart.

The Story

Music by Jordan Morris
Lyrics and vocals by Brian Vaughn
Image by Caleb White (unsplash.com/@caleb_white)

It doesn't matter who's right
Probably half the time, it's you, and the other half doesn't matter.
One thing I've learned with time is to pick your fights–
and always take a breath before shouting out whatever's on your mind.
The other night, I wanted to stay and work it out with you

They say the best time to talk about these things is when you're feeling them,
So that you don't go to bed when you're upset.
Because hurt will grow,
And before you know you're looking back and wondering,
How'd we get so far apart?

Why didn't I notice that you were drifting away from me?
I got too focused on my work, and I left you a distant second place,
Too far away from me.
Too far away.

The best time to talk about these things is when you're feeling them,
So that you don't go to bed when you're upset.
Because hurt will grow,
And before you know you're looking back and wondering,
How'd we get so far apart?

Looking Back

Lyrics and music by Brian Vaughn
Image by Caleb White (unsplash.com/@caleb_white)

If you're going out again, take me with you.
I'm a mess when I'm left here.
It's not your fault that I'm so broken.
I'm the product of a series of mistakes I made before you met me.

I believe that "choice" is just a joke,
And we all do our best with what we have.
That counts double after our mistakes,
Because we could only do exactly what we did.

So go easy on your yourself.
Go easy on your yourself.

Go Easy (unplugged)

Lyrics and vocals by Brian Vaughn
Music by Igor Rabovsky

---

"One Name"

Watch me dig a hole and bury myself
I see fewer problems underground
Sometimes I don't know what's happening
Jackpot
It's paying off to keep my head down
Keep my head down

I ache
Skin and teeth all turn to gray
Bones under water hold the canvas in place
Don't go looking if you cannot bear the weight

There's still one name
Wash me
I'm unclean again
I can't turn it off now
I'm unclean again

My face
If you don't like it, you can leave
It's worse inside
Don't rush to judge me

Waking up from Revelation has me second guessing everything
Always feeling paranoid is the biggest gift that you gave me
Or was it guilt
Sometimes it's hard to think
Sometimes it's hard

There's still one name
Wash me
I'm unclean again

Washed away
Out of mind

Do you believe
And what are the consequences
Do you believe
Can you say it
Can you say the name

Will you deny me

One Name(feat. Lecture on Nothing)

Music, lyrics, and performance by Brian Vaughn

Stay out all night until you don't mean anything.
This is the way I feel.
Can't talk, I might show my hand. Put it in. Say it anyway.
Deal with the place I'm in.

Take down this wall that you raise between you and everything.
It's been too long since you let me in.

Are you the same?
Or am I going down now, stretching myself out.
Our time away..
Tomorrow's coming so fast.
It'll burn you away.

Try it on. Take it off.
You can be anything you want to be.
What we are and what we're not I don't even know.
Take it in. Take a breath.
Anything that's left is up for grabs now.
It's coming so fast.
A quiet step away is what you want from me,
And I'd give you anything but this.

Burn You Away

Music, lyrics, and vocals by Brian Vaughn
Photo by Lerone Pieters (unsplash.com/@leronep)

There you are again
Break the boundary I left
Make my phone ring when I just want to be alone
Do you love or do you hate me?
The question breaks me
I don't think I'll ever know
I don't think you'll know,
For all your books and all your searching
Like I was a poem
Like I was just lines on a paper
Strung out on a crowded train
Simple words,
So you say I'll always be beneath you
It's ironic, how you thought you knew everyone around you
You were so sure
You tried to read me but didn't understand
Like I was a poem on the subway
Every card in the deck
Forgive me, I regret
You're coming out of nowhere
Making me uneasy
The world is surely full of paper
So I'll write this down
Wed the words to sound,
And then I'll try to forget about
You read me like you're bored already
Like I'm just lines on a paper
Strung out on a crowded train
Simple words,
So you say I'll always be beneath you
It's ironic, how you thought you knew everyone around you
You were so sure that you could read me
But you don't understand
Like I was a poem on the subway

A Poem on the Subway

Music and lyrics by Brian Vaughn
Photo by Cedric Letsch (unsplash.com/@cedricletsch)

About the time I'm getting home from work in California,
You're laying down my nephew in a bed back in Virginia.
Distance is a funny thing.
I feel the miles a little more today.

The cold sets in back home around this time of year.
Bath tubs offer comfort for our bones.
And winter decorations, from the boxes to the table,
Tell a story of the years that come and go.

Oh...
Home in California, here I go.

Cool without being cold.
A room that never really feels like home.
I guess it's only obvious and hindsight shows it best,
The price you pay for striking out alone.

Oh...
off to California.

Sing it out. Sing it loud.
These thin walls and that empty couch- things that I'm finding out.
Sing it out. Feel the sound.
The rooftops of apartments downtown are all too close together but so far away.

Seaside and the 101,
Redwoods and the California sun-
Beautiful reminders to let it go,
To stop and smile once and a while.
All in all there's nothing wrong.
I just have a tendency to over analyze.
It's natural to question and to second guess,
And it's hard not to romanticize, here in California.

Sing it out. Sing it loud.
No matter where you go you leave parts of yourself is something that I'm finding out.
Sing it out. Feel the sound.
The thin walls in apartments downtown don't bring anyone together.

Oh, I'll tell.
Out here in the El Dorado state
There's a tremor I just felt
From within myself,
An echo from far away.

Home in California (revisited)

My cover of Seven Mary Three's "Water's Edge"

Water's Edge (Seven Mary Three cover)

Working on some new originals but thought I'd post a cover from a while back in the meanwhile.. :)

Video available @ https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-qGmqOKYv7Y

Extraterrestrial (Katy Perry cover)

Lyrics and music by Brian Vaughn
Photo by Debby Hudson (unsplash.com/@hudsoncrafted)

I think I see the real you
I know when we're together, I can always be myself
It sounds kind of gay when you say it that way,
but I can almost hear you laughing because you thought the same thing

You get the love.

I don't know what you were looking for when you came across me
Probably not what you found,
But these things have a way of working out
And we found each other

You get the love

If you need me, you just have to say it
If you need me I'll be on the way
(and if I need you, I know)

I'm already on my way

You Get the Love

My cover of "Let Go" by Frou Frou.

All music performed and mixed by me.

Let Go (Frou Frou cover)

"Covered and Marked" was co-written with my friend Gor Narang.

Brian Vaughn: Guitar, Vocals, Bass, Strings
Gor Narang: Drums, Guitar, Backup Vocals

Lyrics for those who like them:

Cold hands.
I held them in.
I gave you my warmth like a child gives his laugh.
Free fall through the night air.
Near the train tracks there's a field,
And I'll meet you there.

Straight road into the night.
You'll call in time before I drift away.
Sun peeks down on my face.
Another night without sleep.

If you were to wake alone,
Would you note the place where I lay?

Back in this hole, I hide away.
Memories for each mistake that I've made.
Song in the air, floating your way,
Covered and marked with your name.

If I were to call you, would you come for me?
I am going under with the thoughts of you and me.

Covered and Marked (feat. Gor Narang)

Music by Ben Sharp (aka Cloudkicker - http://cloudkicker.bandcamp.com)
Vocals and lyrics by Brian Vaughn

I've enjoyed Cloudkicker for some time now. With the release of "Let Yourself Be Huge" I emailed Ben and asked him if I could add vocals to one of his songs. (Nothing official, more of a tribute.) He was kind enough to say "go for it", and this is the result.

---
Peeking through your fingers, have a look around.
You were born to search and find what can be found.
Here, in this place.
Nervous child reaction.
Barely in control.
Such a young mistake that you'd assume a chastened pose.

Explore these grounds.
Be curious, not ashamed.
Don't be afraid to know the place you stand.
Explore yourself.
Be curious.
No one here knows everything.
Your body's just another ground.

Growing up in silence,
Wandering through the aisles
Sitting in the corners trying not to shine.
You hide your light.
Searching through the waters of your teenage mind.
Rifling through their answers you may find them all to be inferior.

Explore these grounds.
Be curious.
Explore yourself.

You're more than just a candle that generates a light.
You are something beautiful.
Do not fear your mind.
These thoughts are only natural.

"Explore, Be Curious" - Cloudkicker feat. Brian Vaughn on vocals

This is a cover of a wonderful song by Yoko Kanno, Steve Conte, & Shanti Snyder.

Music by Brian Vaughn
Vocals by Brian Vaughn and Stephanie Hossfeld-Downey

Living Within the Shell

Sometimes I wonder where I'd be without her,
And I just can't picture anything.
I haven't slept that well for the past few weeks now,
Because I can hear her crying when she doesn't know I'm listening.

What does it mean?
Does it mark the end for the two of us?
Because I've tried to ask her once or twice and she doesn't seem to hear.

I was sitting on the rooftop earlier today,
When I first noticed how all the colors had started to fade.
And though it was right there- I didn't draw a parallel between you and I.
Instead I closed my eyes and wished quietly to be swept away.

The moments in between the thoughts we choose to think,
Are usually closer to the truth.
At some point I can't place, you and I changed.
And I've spent all this time trying to recognize you.

What does it mean?
Could we maybe change back to who we used to be?
Because I've been asking myself for days and getting nowhere.

I was sitting on the rooftop earlier today,
When I first noticed how all the colors had started to fade.
And though it was right there- I didn't draw a parallel between you and I.
Instead I closed my eyes and wished quietly to be swept away.

All this time I've been assuming that you'd be there with me.
A change so fundamental is like forgetting how to breathe.
And though it was right there, I didn't let myself see,
A subtle shift in frame- these little words we say-
Start to change.

Swept Away

Words and music by me.

Lyrics:

Love is trying to find a way around,
Somebody else who's laying down,
Right in the way of where I want to go.

These words have many meanings.
I'm not just walking blindly any more.
And if you'd lend me your ear, I want to tell you something.

I love parts of you, but some of the rest I could do without.
Do you feel the same way about me?
You're so beautiful,
Except the lack of personality.
But I think I could overlook that.

Thinking of the future shows you're living in the past.
Sometimes it's best to just let it go if you love someone.
Isn't that what it's all about?
Isn't that what this song's about?

I saw the first star tonight,
And I made a wish upon it,
While I was driving around.
Trying to make up my mind.
What I'm going to say to you.
When did I get so timid?
Why can't I make a move?
I've been living under your shadow for such a long time.

Sit back and tell me you want me half as much as you did a year ago.
I won't think this is just me til you convince me so.
I've got nothing to stay for any more.

This place holds nothing, but we don't want to talk abou it.
I'd leave with nothing but the shirt on my back.

Parts of You

Featuring my brother Brad, who helped co-write lyrics, on screaming vocals.
Also featuring my new Diezel VH4.

---

There is a chemical present in the air.
I see it wavering in the space between our frozen faces.
How can I hold this in?
I'm an animal.
I am nothing like a man.
Incoherent.

That is not the way you would see things.

This is an impulse. It is just the natural progression.
Just two creature hiding from the cold.
Oh but then feelings come and it's time to go..

The animal inside of me can smell the fear you think you're hiding
It's in our nature. There's no such thing as privacy.
The state brought on by piss and your adrenaline gives you up.
It puts me in the mood to kill again.

But what's this other thing that reaches out?
When I am at my breaking point, it's only starting to awaken.
If we're just animals, then what are all these dreams? 
What are all these things that keep me pressing on?
And in the place I'm at, nothing's certain.
If you wander when I'm coming back, I have no answers for you.
I am still discovering what kind of animal will paint the sky or learn to sing.
This is the key to things, I'm sure.

So I sit here with these questions.
All their answers, my obsessions.

That would say it all, wouldn't it?
I always want the answers I can't get.
I'll be straight with you my friend,
Though I'm looking again, I see no light.
So what is right?
I can't feel it inside.

My mind wanders where my legs take me.
Your assumptions.
I feel numbness.
Write me off.
I'll bear witness.
I'm done trying.
God forgive me.

Animal

This weekend I was thinking about artists that I used to enjoy listening to in highschool. Toad the Wet Sprocket came to mind, and I thought it would be fun to cover one of their songs. I've always liked "Pray Your Gods" - even though the chorus is a bit too happy sounding for me - because of the haunting ending. (As an aside, I learned that the phrase being repeated, "dona nobis pacem", means "grant us peace".)

Anyway... my goal wasn't to reproduce the song, but to remake it into something darker and moodier. I'm really happy with what I've gotten so far but I still need to work on the ending. I'm looking for some kids to sing the latin bit, either along with (or instead of me). I'd also like to build up the strings a bit more than they currently do.

Music/vocals by Brian Vaughn.
Special thanks to Jessica Landry, Jaymie Inouye, Julia Inouye, Stanley Inouye, and Trevor Inouye for choral vocals at the song's closing.

Lyrics:
I will give the secrets you request,
And you will be the one to sacrifice.
So lay your olive arms across my breast,
And sing the poems, free the butterflies.

Pray your gods who ask you for your blood,
For they are strong and angry jealous ones,
Or lay upon my altar now your love.
I fear my time is short.
There are armies moving close.
Be quick, my love..

I feel my body weakened by the years,
As people turn to gods of cruel design.
Is it that they fear the pain of death?
Or could it be they fear the joy of life?

Pray your gods who rule you by your fear,
For they are quick and ruthless punishers.
Or lay upon my altar now your love.
I fear my time is short.
There are armies moving on.
Be quick, my love.

Dona nobis pacem. (Grant us peace.)

Pray Your Gods

Words and music by Brian Vaughn.

I wrote and recorded this song last week. Needed a break after a week in the studio working on Pilotless Drone's new album. This is a lot more light-hearted and laid back than my stuff usually is but it was a nice change from a week of metal. :)

Lyrics ---

None of us knows where we'll be tomorrow,
Let alone 2 weeks from this date.
Will I still be in this place?
"It's okay", she says, "I'll definitely call you later."
If I don't go and forget to,
And if I'm still living here.

Can we say we see a pattern,
When the same thing goes and happens for the 10th time in a year?
After all it's just an anecdote in the bigger picture.

You continue taking things for granted,
And you don't know that you're doing it until I point it out.
And none of us knows where this road is headed,
But I'll take it straight. (Never said I'd go slow.)
Face to the wind so I'll be the first to notice.

You've got a taste for running around.
I've got a history of falling down,
And I know there are miles of road between today and tomorrow.
So if you came here to put me down,
You might as well leave.
I won't grow up now.
It's too late to change.
You can't teach a young man how to behave.

The time it takes me to write,
To share these words with you,
Describing this reality and how you make me feel.
I never know if I'm wasting effort.
Maybe I am?
Never know if I don't sing like the wind,
So you'll be the first to notice.

You've got a taste for running around.
I've got a history of falling down,
And I know there's a long damn between today and tomorrow.
So if you came here to call me out, you might well leave.
I won't turn back now.
I can't save face, not after today.

None of Us Knows

Lyrics and music by Brian Vaughn [briandavidvaughn.com]
Artwork by Neoyume [neoyume.deviantart.com]

Theres something I would share with you, if you ever asked me to.
Perhaps it is a secret, perhaps you already know.
Im not the boy you look for now, but I could change.
Im not in love with myself, but I think I am with you.

Lets find a road weve not been on and drive until were far away.
We could almost have a fresh start, and make some better memories.
Lean the car seats back. Pretend to listen to the radio.
But I couldnt even name the song.
Im listening to you.

I know we cant hide from the past,
But maybe for a little while you could hold my hand?
And if you really care,
Help me find myself tonight.

I see myself for what I am,
But sometimes in my dreams I still forget.
And the air has never tasted sweeter than with you by my side.
Your kindness draws me into you, but its my hopes that keep me tied-
Tied to a heart I hope will always beat for me.
Tied to your smile.

And in a short while, you may see that Im not who you think I am.
But I promise I will always try.
I promise I will always sing for you, my love.

Tied To Your Smile

Original music by Tears for Fears

Photo by Cristian Newman (https://unsplash.com/photos/wGKCaRbElmk)

Shout (Tears for Fears)

Original music and lyrics by Vienna Teng.

Photo by NASA (https://unsplash.com/photos/Q1p7bh3SHj8)

This recording by Brian Vaughn (piano, guitar, vocals, drums) and Yulan Lin (vocals)

Gravity (Vienna Teng)

Music by Viperdrive (@viperdrivemusic)
Lyrics and vocals by Brian Vaughn
Artwork by Sara Vieira

"Tonighgt"

Where should I go tonight?
Should I follow my heart?
I want to go to wherever you have been waiting.
If I run too fast at the first sign, maybe you'll break my heart.
It's just the way you are.
You fascinate me.

Here I am, returned again, after all this time has passed.
Here I am, still wondering– an image of you still stuck in my mind.
Every day, in your place, just a memory of where we've been.

Where should I go tonight?
Should I follow my heart?
I want to go to wherever you have been waiting.
If I run too fast at the first sign, maybe you'll break my heart.
It's just the way you are.
You fascinate me.

I see the stars, the midnight sky, and I know that's where you are.
You should be here with me.
Take this feeling back where it came.
I see the stars lifted high.
Let the sirens call.
I fall back to the space in my mind.

Where should I go tonight?
Should I follow my heart?
I want to go to wherever you have been waiting.
If I run too fast at the first sign, maybe you'll break my heart.
It's just the way you are.
You fascinate me.

Should I follow you?
Where should I go?
Should I follow you? (Should I follow?)
Midnight has been calling.
Lifted high.

Tonight (feat. Viperdrive)

Music by Ralf Balogh (@ralfbalogh)
Lyrics and vocals by Brian Vaughn
Photo by Osman Rana (https://unsplash.com/photos/h8ZvH1Nf7Bk)

"Uncertainty"

Read between the lines.

You tear me apart in your haste to find the perfect way to vocalize.
I think I'm nothing.
Just an obstacle along your path to self discovery.

I was okay before, until I met you here.
Everything got so tangled.
Now I'm just reacting to all the things that you say.
You overwhelm me.
I'm so unsure.
Too much uncertainty to read between the lines.
So take your time.

If you're unsure, you only have yourself to blame for how things are.
I don't need you holding me down.
I gave you what I had.
I couldn't do more than that.

So what do you say?
You overwhelm me.
I'm so unsure.
Too much uncertainty to read between the lines.
Just take your time.

Uncertainty (feat. Ralf Balogh)

Lyrics by Luna Ruan
Music and vocals by Brian Vaughn
Photo by Daniele Colucci

"Fire"

We walked down a one way street,
Kicking pebbles at our feet.
The city burned like the sun.
Smell of ashes in the air.
Boarded windows and empty stairs.
Dozed for a while and we're gone

In the hazy afterglow the distant car horns cry.

In my sleep we were ablaze.
Your hand burned my face as I tore us apart.
You screamed at me to confess.
Was it love or loneliness that made us reach for the stars?

You pretend nothing's wrong,
But we both know I'm to blame.
We are the ash and I was the flame.

We wake,
And can’t remember if it was June or December,
In a year with no end.
California laid to waste,
And between us only space of a life that we’d planned.

You pretend nothing's wrong,
But we both know I'm to blame.
We are the ash and I was the flame.

Fire

Music, lyrics, and vocals by Brian Vaughn
Drums by Alex Hinson
Photo by takahiro taguchi (unsplash.com/@tak_tag)

"If I Don't"

i was hid behind the curtain
and suddenly stepped out
you were the sun behind the clouds

maybe life is falling
like me for you? no
like on the ground
i puddle and i reflect you from below
  
sometimes it's easier to be impossible than just a bit too far away
i know it's a fragile thing
like you and me, and our insecurities
but if you let me
if you let me
i plan to stay

right now the easiest thing to do would be to run away
take the secrets i still have
so i don't give them to you

the safest place that i could be now is home inside my room
but i spent 2020 doing just that
the only part that i don't regret was in september
and then into the winter
as i opened up to you

If I Don't

Music by @scratchcard_glory, lyrics and vocals by Brian Vaughn

It's just a name, but one you're meant to have.
Don't turn away.
I feel it when you move.
I gravitate to you.

I'm falling down.
I'm falling down to you.

Lead the way with your body.
I'll follow.
Take me anywhere.
Just say the words and I'll be yours.

I'm falling down.
I'm falling down to you.

I see your eyes from across the room.
But next to you, I'm not so pretty.
What do you see?

I'm falling down.
I'm falling down to you.

Sakura (feat. Scratchcard Glory)

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