I've gotten stuck in this rut again and now that I've lost my friends, all I have left is my head. My life is a set of checks and balances and honestly it dosn't always work out in the end. I know I fucked up this time but I'm not the one who's lost, so don't blame the whole world for one more stupid kid. And if it makes a difference, I'm okay with everything.


Fairview

A speechless stare; a quiet lonely girl just hoping for a friend but she gets nowhere, her hopeless cause in life will leave her running 'round dead ends. There's only one thing that I've learned in this place and that is different is never okay, and if it's true there must be so much wasted time pulling anchors along so that you never stray too far from the pool. Found open water but she's scared that she'll drown, she'll be left in the dark while the vultures perfect their art. Honestly, I get so sick of everybody around, only one goal in life, and that's to run with the crowd. My friends and I are weird as hell it's true, but we all take pride in knowing that we're nothing like you. Dim the lights down, you've had your time to grow. You're in it for the credit and it's all that you know. This truely is the first time that you've sunken this low, as he's crawling in your sheets you wish you'd taken things slow. It shows that you never took the time to think this out, there really is no room in here for any sort of doubt. You hate it, degraded, now it's left you so frustrated. "I'm only sixteen years old, I can't just throw my life away." I wish it wasn't this way. She came in searching but she never knew she'd find an empty set of questions and a life of wasted time. If she'd only take the plunge, let the water pull her in, let it pull her out to sea, where she can open up again. There she lays again, heartbroken in her bed, awake she wasted her dreams, slowly she'll drift back to sleep.


Lola

How did I end up here, the year's gone by and I'm still searching for what's worthwhile, and what I'll be three years from now. But I'm still stuck in my head with no intention of coming back (Never coming back.) Let's thing think back to when we were just young kids, the possibilities that couldn't possibly have been. I swear I'm going nowhere, but it's exactly where I want to be. There's nothing that could stop me from dreaming like the kid I used to be. I won't be here forever, someday my dreams will die.

BRIGHTSIDER