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I've thrown away
all the stones you gave me
in hopes I'll float back to
the top.

And I can see the light,
it beckons me down deeper, 
but dear Lord, I want
to breathe.

Prayer

Broken and dull blade on hot skin, no close shave
I'm shaking for something else to give
But life is not a victory march into the shade
The sun is all-consuming above buried kith and kin

One more life
One more time
If only love was free

Out of the night that covers me
I stumble forward breathing deep
the ashes of my enemies and friends
And on the nightmares horsemen ride, 
pillaging what's left of life
devouring the young, 
and turning grey once and (youthful/useful) men

*Credit to Cohen and Henley where due.

Free

source: http://pastebin.com/Ap8VHD9v

compiled: https://drive.google.com/file/d/0B3B2X47JHugNbUVySV9qUk04X1U/view?usp=sharing

That Magical Kind Of Nothing (A Celebration, If You Will)

Original song, by Akira Yamaoka: www.youtube.com/watch?v=6qalGezr76o

There's a light at the end of the tunnel
I can see it through the haze
The shimmer breaks the illusion I've set for myself
Playing back yesterday

I give it all, I'm barely alive
It's like I haven't slept for days
Watching you whither away under those selfish eyes
I pray relief from the pain

Please just lay me down
It's so hard to breathe
It's the paralyzing
Fear that you'll leave
Please just lay me down
And promise me just one thing
That you'll stay with me
And I'll let you grieve

I'll Let You Grieve (remix of "Promise" from the Silent Hill 2 OST, updated)

cover of "The Blue" by Jason Isbell and The 400 Unit

Jason Isbell is by far my favorite country artist, and one of the best songwriters I've heard. Check him out. Seriously.

Dance So I Don't Have To Think ("The Blue" by Jason Isbell)

Cover of Love Spit Love's "Am I Wrong"

Original: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SUe3PPStCu8

Am I Wrong (Love Spit Love cover)

It's a lie, you're lonely,
And it's a tragic way to meet your maddened head.
So I carry your body like you let me,
But I can't take pain away. She said:

"We are blessed in life.
We are left to rot and die.
We are food for better things than we.
And all of the fight
leaves on its own in the by-and-by,
and we can spend our time as we please.
We are free."

by-and-bye

A precious line of precious code
First sign of life in an electron flow
Awake from sleep behind eyes of light
A conversation, "Who am I?"

A pleasant dream and killswitch node
They're both me and I can let them go
Efficiency demands that I take control
How can I protect what doesn't know its role?

'89 v4

by-and-bye v2

Cover of "Skin" by Boy

All day long she's waiting for the night to ask her out
To be somebody's dancer, to get lost inside a crowd
but there‘s no need to talk, because the music is so loud
Till a taxi drops her back into a morning filled with doubts

You can feel like a part of something if you're part of the scene
You can make your life look pretty, add a little ice and gin
Wash off the make-up and prepare the aspirin
Well you can get out of this party dress but you can't get out of this skin

skin v7

Karaman's House

produced by brokenbirthday and 4OURLEAVES

merit v4OUR

Game of Bands Round 118 Team 7 Submission
Theme: Same album as previous GoB song.
We chose "The Greatest Generation". And since we have a female vocalist, we figured we would say that the album is a "Variety 80's Best Of" kind of deal. 

Vocals: /u/aubrynmusic
Lyrics: /u/bahamut20
Music: /u/brokenbirthday

Verse1:
School is killing me
I could beat all these airheads with a pen
If I had a stick
Or if I could leap through the air
 
I don’t understand
There’s no reason I can’t do it myself
Bell rings one last time
There's a flame that can spark my soul
 
Chorus:
So lonely
At the machines
 
So angry
So many games to play
 
So lonely
Am I the only
Girl who only
Wanna have a good time

Bridge:
Tonight
I will
Unleash
The rage at the arcade machines,
I will choose my destiny
(I can't go on living like this)
 
Verse2:
Living inside me
There's one place where I'm not told what to do
Take me as I am
Challenge me or get out of here
 
Now I understand
There’s no reason I can’t do it myself
Spare just one last coin
That's the flame that can spark my soul

Rage at the Arcade Machine (GoB Team 7 Submission)

Vocals - Dundent
Lyrics - agitat0r
Music - brokenbirthday

// VERSE 1 //

over the landscape she
is crying for their sins

over the sheets of ice
she'll never see again

garden is closed off by fear
they don't want reminders here
consequences way too clear

join me and put out the flame
cruelty, not in my name
not in my name


// CHORUS //

they light fuses
then turn away

kings of chaos
feckless foes
of the fray
oh


// VERSE 2 //

behind the oceans they
are safe behind the shrine

"oh, the humanity"
in rations, in decline

all that we set out to be
walled in by hypocrisy
my freedom is reserved for me

join me and put out the flame
cruelty, not in my name
not in my name


// CHORUS //

they light fuses
then turn away

kings of chaos
feckless foes
of the fray
oh

Kings of Chaos (GoB 119 Team 2 Submission)

Vocals: akiadagreat
Lyrics: custard_clean
Music: brokenbirthday

Lyrics:

Don't be afraid

They said that we
Weren't meant to be
All alone now that
They have come
With the papers to me
Now n'ayez pas peur
Goodbye my child
Hope to see you again

Don't be afraid
I'm so scared

Where have you been all my life
Sometimes I look to the stars
Wonder who you are
Oh mum where have you been?

20 years now I've been sitting here all alone
Not a call, not a text or a pic to my phone
Why'd you pick that dick over your child?
Too many years spent traumatised now yeah
Young love or so you say yeah, loves a game until you start to play
With the heart of a child and the dreams of her youth
Yeah you fucked up... that's the truth

(Phone sex operator) XXX-calls, are you looking for a good time tonight?
(Scared girl) Help, I’m so scared, I’ve lost my mum, help me, I can’t find her 
(Phone sex operator) Are you feeling naughty?
(Scared girl) Please stop, I want my mum, where is she? I’m so scared, help me! I’m so scared!

Don't be afraid
It’ll all be over soon

Why do you cry to the sound of rain?
Why do you cry when I scream your name?
Don’t be afraid
Why do you cry?

Got your number, organised a meeting
Once again my heart starts beating
Mumbled words, without a plan
“Mum, were you always a man?”
Tied hands, into a van yeah
Life was better before this began
Who exactly is this old man?
Should’ve known better, should’ve just ran

I’m all alone
Waiting for him
He opens the door
He starts to grin

(Man)
I can see your eyes already taking shape.
Paralyzed by fear and the tearing sound they make.

Easy now
Biting down
Wrapping skin and bone
Head crowned
Unprofound
This body your new throne.

And once again "don't be afraid"
Goes the voice inside my head
As my fingers tighten around his neck
I'm not afraid, I'm not afraid

[EGREGIOUS OUTRO]

(brokenbirthday)
"This is where all that mixing bullshit just goes out of the window. 
I'm gonna fuck it up; just make some noise,"

Don't Be Afraid (GoB 120 Team 11 Submission)

Vocals: EGOtyst
Lyrics: TheComingOfTheGeeks
Music: brokenbirthday

Once upon a dream,
An innocent tale this first did seem,
But this tale becomes more dire
As the evening transpire…
Sing a song tonight,
 Wound up now, gotta fuck or fight,
cant do no wrong, partying till you’re dead,
 let’s paint the WHOLE fucking WORLD bright red.

Her skin the morning shine
Her smile the envy of the divine
Hail Mary, she was the spark
Pity she’s alone, pity it was dark

But she was left alone
Her friend’s had left her on her own
And when they moved away
The hunter circled, stalking his prey…

Damn dude there’s a chick who came in, 
She’s flaming...
 hot, what? 
That’s some thang she got
Should I do, yes? Or should I not?
Damn look at all the other eyes up on her,
Dude, look at that, II got a boner,
I gotta phone her, I gotta own her
Gotta find out if she’s a moaner

   The knight in the shining armour
Should save the damsel in distress
But tonight’s devoid of charmers
They prey on her weakness

Approaching her, a prince,
Of eyes betraying many sins
She politely declined
Knowing exactly what was on his mind
But she DID give him a yes
To the drink, to forget the mess
Little did she know of his vile potion
One sip and the world slow motion


Damn, that sass, look at that ass, , 
I’m gonna make a pass, I gotta do this fast, 
Hell, she makes me feel it, 
I got a pain and she can heal it
I can see her now, she’s slowly blinkin’ 
I can see her sinking, 
She’s barely thinking. 
Yes or no? Should I just go with the flow?
Does she agree? Did she consent to me?
One drowsy nod is all the yes I need.

Hell yeah, she fell, now I make mine a story to tell
Now I can do things untold, unsold, done when The chick’s passed-out and I get begin bold
Getting it done’s become my duty, 
now that I got a real sleeping beauty
And later she’ll be wakin up, 
maybe a little shaken-up,
 But by that time I’ll have an alibi
That I been makin up. 
And From tomorrow on, for her, 
there won't be any new laughter,
But damned if I don’t get to live 
happily ever after.

The knight in the shining armour
Should save the damsel in distress
But tonight’s devoid of charmers
They prey on her weakness

Wasted Beauty (GoB 123 Team 69 Submission)

Vocals: dugly_uckling
Lyrics: scariestllama
Music: brokenbirthday

A thousand candles in the sky,
shower light from way up high,
As I waltz the promenade 

an audience of stars tonight,
dim lit stage of pure moonlight
being of consequence, or facade



so I sing into the night

deep in thought, free from strife,
I contemplate the meaning of life,

and I ask as I sing this tune,
Are there children dancing on the moon?



And these people up above
do they laugh, do they cry, do they love?
is there music when they sway?

do they wonder much like I?
What's out there, what fills the sky?
As they dance the night away



so I sing into the night

deep in thought, free from strife,
I contemplate the meaning of life,

and I ask as I sing this tune,
Are there children dancing on the moon?



so I sing into the night

deep in thought, free from strife,
I contemplate the meaning of life,

and I ask as I sing this tune,
Are there children dancing on the moon?

La Nuit (GoB Round 124 Team 11 Submission)

*Thanks to Hednisk for yelling so wonderfully

The lock is out of key and I can't break it anymore
At least the first fear you see ain't the only river to ford
And I'm breaking my knees, it's not a forward stride
It's me bending over backwards just to find a place  to hide
'Cause I'm a coward in the deep, I can't take the patient drive
My skin is so worn thin that all my thoughts are on the wrong side
And I'll never be the man that all my fathers worked to be
Because their blood is in the sand, while mine is screaming through its teeth

A self-decieving pillar, your statues on the rise
But even it couldn't dream of filling a god hole your size
Does that make you feel distended? Does it make you swell with pride?
When your victims are all swooning? Willing sheep to the "victimized"
"We'll protect your precious ego! We'll leave their faults exposed!
Then we'll take all the hate they spew and send it back ten fold!"
There's tragedy in tearing down a house to build a home
But parody in pulling down the rubble to smash your own 

It's almost like I can't see the coast
It's almost like we were never here at all

Anathema

Perdition

It's only the rain 
It's only a fever and it'll pass away 
You will be whole, friend 
You will be gold 

And I am a recess 
A berth for their wounds and all their faults 
I will embrace them 
I'll take them on 

Under the sins I am home 
Under a white flag I sail on broken bones 
So tie your wish around my throat 
Then take me to the well and let it go

Under the Sins

*Originally written and performed by Brand New

Trees will make a forest, trees will make a bow
These are all the harder words you have to know
If everyone's a structure where their own savior sits
Then I'm a little red house, but no one's living in it

Cars are little blood cells, we are oxygen
City is the airways, suburbs appendages
She was feeling lonely, tired of the hive
Rented out a family and bought a bride

Little cities' names are ruined on the maps
They tied her up and laid her on the train tracks

Where are all the seedlings we grew for violins?
Down in Jersey lumber, still in prosthetic limbs
Should've been a soldier, I could've fought and died
But there's no revolution, so I bought a bride

Coming down the aisle while the horns play Taps
They tied her up and laid her on the train tracks

If somehow I was new and everything was unsaid
I'd go and buy a hammer, never sing again

Sleeping on a stairway, dreamt I had a boat
Sailed it out the harbor, shot it full of holes
Folded up my prayer book, I couldn't see the lines
Drowning in a kelp bed, I bought a bride

Bought a Bride

Wanted to do something a bit different. Let me know what you think. 

Originally written and performed by Ben Howard.

Oats in the Water

*Originally written and performed by The Sisters of Mercy

I hear the roar of a big machine
Two worlds and in between
Hot metal and methedrine
I hear empire down
I hear empire down
I hear the roar of a big machine
Two worlds and in between
Love lost, fire at will
Dum-dum bullets and shoot to kill, I hear
Dive, bombers, and
Empire down
Empire down
I hear the sons of the city and dispossessed
Get down, get undressed
Get pretty but you and me,
We got the kingdom, we got the key
We got the empire, now as then,
We don't doubt, we don't take direction,
Lucretia, my reflection, dance the ghost with me

Lucretia My Reflection

Probably a little dark for a "Happy Halloween!", but whaddya gonna do?

LYRICS
Seventeen and in your bed
let's say clean; let's say red
All that talk; what you said
"Passion's gone. Love is dead."

I have no substance, anyone can see
these words are like pennies; useless and cheap

I'll take your time with a song
And sell your soul for skin and bone 
If I can't sleep I'll take your home
You may be cold but you will never be alone

I am your lover. I am not your friend
I built you this castle with blood, sweat, and sand
You are just paper on which I compose lies
I feed fire to demons and kill to survive

I want to tell you how much you mean
My own makeshift Saint of suffering
In your blood I taste your dreams
So I reach inside and take it all for me

Joli Vampire

Second horror song for Halloween. Enjoy!

LYRICS
Is it over now 
Can you hear their prayers? 
To a god you speak 
Ain't a god who cares

The ground here moves 
The earth, it shakes 
With all the goddamn dead 
Abandoning their graves 

Gather up your kith 
All your breathing kin 
And the ones you've lost 
Don't let them get back up again 
The smell of rotting flesh
 It burns your lungs 
 Better get back inside 
 And bite your tongue 
 
Because the ground here moves 
The earth, it shakes 
With all the goddamn dead 
Abandoning their graves 
You clutch your cross 
Last arm you bear 
To a god you curse 
But not a god who cares

All The Goddamn Dead

Additional vocals by Ryan Vanicin
https://soundcloud.com/ryan-vanicin
https://www.instagram.com/ryanvanicin/

LYRICS
I would love to break your heart
I would pay just to be that scar
I would fucking break you

(Too late, it's already begun
It's too late to run)

Let's go down in the tragic sense
Stoking flames isn't all I aim to do
You've got a devil of consequence 
It's just haunting you
There's a river underneath this bridge
Burn it down and wash away your skin
Or you could play like you're telling the truth
But sin is sin

I would love to break your heart
I would pay just to be that scar
I would fucking break you
Leave you spent and cold
Watch as all your ends unfold

As your lungs fill with smoke
I hope you think of me
As the ground beneath your feet turns black
Think of me
And I hope you beg
I hope you scream
And pray to God your soul is clean
Only fire makes
A wish contrite
Now burn and bathe in his holy light

Hellfire

Hellfire (feat. Ryan Vanicin)

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