don't know what to say... I'm not well, and these songs are helping me comprehend deeply, emotionally, that I'm not the only one feeling all these kinds of things.

"regression" hits the mark in describing the degree to which i feel i've deteriorated. i'm seriously one of maslows monkeys with the terrycloth rn... it's fucked... and I sometimes worry i can't get better to live a life i once knew and could imagine myself enjoying. 

but...

"regression" does one of those sneaky shoulder taps when it's on the other side of you, cuz like when I and many of the musicians featured in here feel like this, we long to go back, even though "going backwards" (both kogarashi and tame impala via dorian electra) is meant and easily understood as a negative thing to happen. 

And then without thinking about it we might say shit like "put me back in my mother" (push push) and "i can't remember the last time we even climbed a tree... please tell me when when we'll frolic in the meadows again, or play'n on the forest, i dreamt that any day now we'll be free" (angel emoji in their song 'collina-mals,' as in 'calling all animals,' in order to call out our animal joys and sense of play and freedom). 

My animal is out rn tho, and it's shit.  just a fuck'n terrified monkey(but that song's still a banger).
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... my therapist told me today that i should be playful and creative for my imagination of my future, and it's fucking hard when ur only used to making escape plans and are too anxious to even imagine getting any autonomy back. but it's better for the world, i guess, than if i have to become a non-autonomous agent in order to experience the freedoms of (some people's) childhood(s) "again."

Regression

2025: Of Dreaming Too Intensely

CD + Digital

☆7571 - Obstacle Under The Sun (O1 75' Rework)

♬♩♫♪ Kogarashi ♬♩♫♪:
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Kogarashi - Heartclef

i covered 'feels like we only go backwards' by tame impala. 
produced by count baldor. 
watch the video here: https://youtu.be/3G_rxMlAzeE

feels like we only go backwards - tame impala (dorian electra cover)

Tongues North Star Remixes

Earth Monster (Dave Parley Remix)

Diva

Diva (Ninajirachi Remix)

DJBBOY X MLBUCH - HIGH SPEED [OUTRO BLEND].mp3

POBBLES - The Gift (adorabletrash96 remix)

pre-post-workout-supplementary-material i kept it short i know ya'll can't sit still for long god bless it.

Ethel Cain Can Go To New Jersey For Fun

Transportive pop edits, trancebient and powerful melodrama from the enigmatic NYC-based production duo ESP.

 
Find the full tracklist and related episodes on NTS: https://www.nts.live/shows/guests/episodes/esp-16th-october-2024

ESP Presents: Wasted Pain 161024

put ur body on my jeans
"scro" on all streaming

free download

jeans 2hollis (scro guitar remix)

graphics: bridget docherty
mixing: reid babbington
mastering: joseph buchan

Raindrops In My Eyes

Vcha - Girls of the Year (Broken Spear exit system remix)

patience arrives softly… patience speaks in silence… patience: out 10/17 

https://www.instagram.com/countrygirl.online



country girl — “patience” meditation exercise #72c @ The Lot Radio 10-04-2025

lol jk!!

REAL ART

Track 04

Mixed by Sahil Ansari and Broken Spear
Artwork by Galen Tipton and Seb Choe

Lyrics
http://bit.ly/serious-lyrics

Serious Funhouse Reality

Mistique (Album / 2025)
Released on @ninaprotocol

Ambient at Heart / Turnaround (Single / 2024)
Released on @ninaprotocol

Pantomime (EP / 2022)
Released by @noumenalloom

Dragonflies (Single + Remixes / 2021)
Released by @noumenalloom

Vera Mist - Spark (EP / 2020)
Released by @pedicure-records

1004 (Single / 2019)
Released by Coeval Magazine

TRUTH PIECES (Album / 2019)
Released by @business-casual

TRUE (Album / 2016)
Released by @pedicure-records

PRESS
http://bit.ly/3aIwHhq
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http://bit.ly/2VmLjYR
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SHOWS
9/27/25 Club Rat at MyBar Kona with Hybrid Vigor, Crybaby
8/20/25 Mistique Album Release with Father Koi and Glass Eater at The Living Gallery (NYC)
7/7/25 E-Dance at Around the Kava Bowl
5/9/25 Sugar Rush at MyBar Kona with janeyyybeats
12/1/24 High Water Mark with Emoji Heap, Surgery Season, Akemie
12/13/24 Bloomscroll at MyBar with DJ Sienne, Ghalibug 
9/8/24 Rash with Moong!rl, DJ Hot Pot, Karin Nowhere, Xin Xin
7/20/24 Bloomscroll at MyBar Kona with DJ Sienne, Ghalibug
6/3/23 The Deep End with Glass Eater, Second Seasons, Princess Crown
5/14/23 Noumenal Loom 10 Year Showcase at Public Records with Holly Waxwing, Carmen Jaci, Digifae, Motion Graphics, Orangetone, Shiner, Caloric
11/4/22 Mind Maze 5 at Wonderville with Lain-D, Speed Limit Headlong Snipers, DJ Darkbass
12/16/21 Rash with 800tSilo, Country Girl, Uessbee
11/9/21 Rash with 800tSilo
10/23/21 Asian Night at Heaven or Las Vegas with nguyendowsXP, Raver Jinn, Chung
10/3/20 Rave Salon at Bianca Backyard with Dijon, Audrey, Floret, Sola
4/30/20 Club Cringe with Dorian Electra, Air Max 97, DJ Fingerblast, Chaika (Pussy Riot,) Michele Yue
2/15/20 Love Shack at Tumble Town with DJ Floret, Audrey (CHS)
12/15/19 Tua Lingua with Newgrounds Death Rugby (CHS)
12/13/19 Venus Art Show at Skinny Dip with Niecy Blues, Rave Salon (CHS)
11/16/19 Redux Contemporary Art Center with Rave Salon (CHS)
10/21/19 Clickbait at H0L0 with Umru, DJ Fuck, Abby, Girldrop, Night Doll (BK)
9/9/19 Pride Pump-Up at Tin Roof with Adrianade, Street Queenz (CHS)
7/26/19 Queer Salon at Cutty's with Quisol, Auntie Ayi, Street Queenz (CHS)
9/1/18 Pop 50 at Soft Surplus with Body Party, Sunspeaker, Girldrop, Sluurpee (NYC)
2/14/18 Queer Valentine's Day at Trans-Pecos with Via Intercom, Pussyvision (NYC)
10/1/17 Pop 40 at Scorpio Vegas with Jump Shot Wet, Abel, David Lunch, Sluurpee (NYC)
5/9/17 Snock 2 Starbucks at HFSU with Purr, Senior Snock (NYC)
2/17/17 Ice Robot at ADP (NYC)
12/3/16 TV Orphanage at Potluck with Dog Shadow, White Nothing (NYC)

Serious Funhouse Reality

Broken Spear

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