Locked myself into the house and melted down the key
Turned it to a sugar spoon to doctor my coffee
Never felt more happy
More in control
I go bouncing off the wall and fall into a dark hole

And it’s warm in there, that’s how I like it
That sweet despair is what I know
I tear my hair out of the sockets
And pray to God for it to grow


I do much to not be the mule
Not be the burdened beast
But all the awful offloading
Gets the best of me
When I get too tired
Out of control
I climb into a bottle and go down the rabbit hole

Chorus--

Funny how the sugar seems to soothe me
Then the rush confuses the soul
When I lay myself out to the open sky
I’m hurt, but whole

So when I’m locked inside with a spoon for a key
And all the demon judges have trained their eyes on me
Help me to be quiet,
to hush, to recall
That Humility is Safety and that is all


When that’s how I like it
When that sweet despair is what I know
When I’m tearing my hair out from the sockets
And praying to God
For it to grow…
No!

Sugar Spoon!

When I sparkle you burst into flames
So I douse it all I become plain

To be small enough for you to love/ To be small enough for you to love
Darling, can't you feel it gives me pain

To only be as large as you ordain
To be small enough for you to love/ To be small enough for you to love


All is so dire on the high-wire 
when there's no love

And then so sweet, Air so concrete
When all is love


Mysteries abound more all the time
But never overwhelm when you are mine

Let me feel my shape and let it stay
Take it in yourself, don't look away

Winds are brewing down in the Southeast
And coming up the coast to catch my wings

And take me out across the open sea.
Don't you want to come along with me?

All is so dire on the high-wire
when there's no love

And then so sweet, Air so concrete
When all is love

You know you can if you will
Hear my heart slowly growing so weak and still

A way will open for me
I will go gratefully

Don't you want to come with me?


02 Sparkle

All the things I held you to
Weighed so much you couldn't move
I did not know what to do 
to make it better

So deep in the ground you laid
under debts not yours to pay
Up above, I knew no way to make it better

I, the invalid,
with one, good, solid fist 
to conduct my bitterness into another
You, with hell to pay
Can't look the other way 
while I destroy a lovely thing 
to make it better

Sweet from all the love we made
was the bed where no one laid
epithets just float and fade
by word then letter

We were not the faithful kind
we were the escapist types
Tying wings to little lies to make it better

I, the invalid,
with one, good, solid fist 
to conduct my bitterness into another
You, with hell to pay
Can't look the other way 
while I destroy a lovely thing 
to make it better

Take me on the moonlight tonight
...on the moonlight tonight
...on the moonlight tonight
 

04 Invalid

Those were your own words that sent you sailing down the road alone
How can you cry now
when the thing you wanted most
you own?
Well, I'd feel sorry for you were I not trying to get
the water out of my lungs
I may even be here to talk if you needed me
But, I'm so undone

It would be better
If you'd go
It would be better
If you'd go

What with the silence and all the memories that you left behind
and how you ruined me for any other man of any kind

Well, I'd feel sorry for you
Were I not trying to get some air back into my lungs
I may even be here to talk if you needed me
If not for what you've done

It would be better
If you'd go
It would be better
If you'd go

We need a jolt to end this show
We are like 33˚ to hard packed snow
We're like a whisper
from across the room
to wake a sleeper
Like a call for change
That drives one deeper

Please go
Please
It would be better...

Not to be cruel, dear.
But the years are passing by.
 

Brooke Campbell