I didn’t lose yet

Just So You Know

Fight your weaknesses with your strenghts.
Who do you think you are? 
Ikura jikan aru ka? 

You looked up to me yesterday 
Mohaya kako wo minaide 

Renounce the path 
We'll forge a new past 
Hash out the math 
And scatter our tracks 

Watashi wa maigo shite iru 
If it's in me to forgive you? 

Face the debate 
And hang your head proud 
Indulge your wrath 
Exact revenge now 

We’re all afraid to fall 
Kimi no osore 

Fugouri na kangae 
On your last day you’ll have to pay 

Blood on your mirror 
Blood on the blade 
Reflections are clear 
Assumptions are made 

Watashi wa maigo shite iru 
Is it in me to forgive you? 

Shatter your fear 
Strength pervade 
Wipe off the blade 
Make haste to your grave 

Stop right here 
I know somehow 
This is not you 
So it ends now 

Not on my watch 
Not under my nose 
The bridge lays down 
It's anything goes 

Pupils grow wide 
You glare my voice shakes 
The bridge meets bank 
The ground beneath breaks 

Recount the past here 
I know you're not proud 
Greed may be you 
But the sloth ends now 

I feel you in the air... You’re on my skin… 
Hitori ni shinaide kudasai
credits
released February 17, 2015 
Music & lyrics written & recorded by 
Bryan Bednarek and Louis Dellorto 
TheCharismaticYouth.bandcamp.com 
www.soundloud.com/thecharismaticyouth

Produced by Bryan Bednarek and Louis Dellorto 

Mixed & mastered by Bryan Bednarek

Did Good

Blurryface

The Judge

Beatz Era - https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC6PgUmtSAcFMgNY-DI0PgRQ

Tell Me Something New (Prod. By Beatz Era)

Didn’t lose yet

quick acoustic rendition of Rose Colored Boy by Paramore for #paraoke!

Rose Colored Boy (Paramore) - Acoustic

acoustic rendition of my tune Kickin' it Hard off of my E.P. "Detwasuru"! Turned out better than I expected on acoustic.

Kickin' It Hard - Acoustic

Sing it! - Acoustic

A piano cover of Bryan's song "Fruition"
Music & lyrics by Bryan Bednarek

"Fruition" by Bryan Bednarek (Piano Cover)

These are 4 mostly improvised A capella songs I recorded when I was about 15-16 years old. I called it the Mouth Album. I am not primarily a vocalist but I was just trying to be goofy and perhaps I achieved that here. There are no effects on my vocals.

Jiggly Like Jello

Recorded at the Arlington Heights Memorial Library in collaboration with Bryan Bednarek @bryanbednarek 

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I see Autumn
In yellow leaves
And I take them
They are letters from the trees
Veins seem like words
Written by somebody
But I can not read anything
The meaning is cloudy

I hear Autumn
It’s the quite grey rain
But it has own tune
That is hard to explain 
You’ll say you can't stand the rain
It is sad and boring
But you can not change anything
It will be raining again in the morning

I feel Autumn
It makes me dream
It brings memories
And in my eyes you see a gleam
Soon the cold winds
Will bring a winter storm
The snow will cover everything
And winter will play its own role

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Music & lyrics by Sasha
Piano & vocals by Sasha
Guitar by Bryan Bednarek

Cover Art by Sasha

Autumn

I Want A Hippopotamus For Christmas

Elliott Smith cover by Mikaela Davis. Happy late Birthday, Elliott.
Recorded live at Red Booth Studios by Brian Moore

Twilight - Elliott Smith

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IM NOT AFRAID ANYMORE. 

Funny how life is. We tire ourselves resisting what is natural, only to learn that things will unfold, exactly the way they are naturally going to unfold, weather we had resisted or not. 

My whole life was all bout keeping things in order, and I was willing to go to great lengths to attempt to accomplish this. Anything even remotely disorderly, was resisted. Resisting, striving, reaching, all my life. Just to learn that all of my efforts, failed, as a result of exhaustion. When my arms gave way and I could no longer resist, life imploded into a tornado of a mess that I could not contain or clean or repair. A string of broken hearts, and wounded souls, and there was absolutely nothing I could do to make it better. I had really blown it. And I knew it. I wanted to say I was so sorry. I wanted to comfort them. But could not do either. So I was left with the fall out from one fateful day, that made everything in my life explode like one huge bomb. I’m still here with the fall out. I’m here, in a completely different life, as a completely different woman. And it’s ok. 

We can only do what we can. I cannot change the past, weather or not it was me that shaped it. I have forgiven myself. The only choice I have is from this point forward. 
Forward, is the only direction I know how to go.  And that is beautiful. 

There was a time, once upon a time, when life’s experiences had caused pain to enter each time I visited my past, because I had lost everything that was there, at that time, my past. It wasn’t mine anymore. Like I hadn’t lived in that moment in time, doing good, or even bad. A major portion of my life, where I really tried to be a good human being, had become meaningless. It was like a portion of me had died, and been replaced by a person that wasn’t me at all. And there was nothing I could do about it.

So I would leave the moments of my past, and attempt to enter my future. But that too, was unbearable. It made me afraid to think about growing older. So many years given to hard work,  trying to keep things picture perfect, running around making everyone comfortable and happy, and rarely indulging in those things myself. All that giving, to be shut out from any of the good that came from it, at a time when I need to rest my body as it is tiring from it all. 

So the only place I could visit, the only moment in time, was the present moment, where my past or future were not invited. I am grateful to have learned to just be. I have no judgement.  Nothing is better or worse than the others. There is no good, no bad. No past, no future, just the present moment. 

It all comes down to the most trusted and true ally of all, this being, time. 
Time will always be there. 
It will never be lost, or taken from us. 
For even if we die, our redemption remains strong, and the truth continues to speak. 
It is unstoppable, undefeated, unwavering, and always.....joins the battle at just the right time. 

Resistance is futile because it cannot rest. It must continually exert itself, against a force that has been gaining momentum since the dawn of man. In time, resistance will tire, forcing it to let go, and allow what is natural to effortlessly take place. 

So the next time you enter a moment in time, leave all that resistance behind and take your seat as one of an observer, and allow, things~ to. just.....be.

Did Good

Bryan Bednarek

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