Just  an emotional track to express what I was trying to express by words

Lyrics:
I happened to pass by my shadow on the streets
It rained and I looked up as the sun dismissed 
Wet cheeks, blurry sight
I’m not even sure if it’s tears pouring from my eyes

And I know that she knows that I know that she knows
That everything I do was to go with the flow
I’ve been doing stuffs that I’ve never been told
Just to retain my grip and my hold

Listen, I want you to listen
Pay attention to all the things that I wanna tell you
Baby, listen, please listen
So that I can tell you all the lies that I wouldn’t have told you

I want you to see to, I want you to see through
The field that has been blocked from your view
The roses that bloomed, they gave me the chills
Cos they are too pretty to be considered real

I know, that I knew, that I would be crying over someone like you
Thunder and lightning trying to brighten up my day but the pain never went away
My hands are shaking and my heart has gone cold
It’s still summer but it feels like a winter without snow

I’m shivering while I’m still breathing
I’m running out of breath, it’s the end of the show
Can I take a bow and step off the stage?
Cos I’ve already lost my battle with age

Flip to another page, that’s another chapter
A world where there’s no sadness, only laughter
But the page I was looking for got tore off by my hands
Cos there’s no such thing as ‘everything is fine when it ends’

Give me a paper and a pen
And I will write down my pain on a scale from one to ten
It’s eleven, because there’s never an end
Numbers they never made sense, they’re just there to make up ‘the end’

Flash-forward to a few years that are in sight
I see nothing I guess I need some insight
I need medication to supress this unnerving sensation
I need to go to sleep to escape from this dimension  

Free me from this universe, save me from this bind
Cos I don’t ever want to be left behind
Every time I fell I take it as a sign 
A hint that I should stop chasing after you cos you’re not on my mind

You’re never here, I’m never there but we’re both so near
We both never spoke, but still I hold on to my tears
Sitting across the table but there’s so much distance
It’s distant, it’s killing me slowly, and I need assistance 

I cut my wrist but all I did was flinched
Blood ran down like tears but I didn’t move even an inch
The physical pain feels more or less like a pinch
Cos the scars on my heart made me a mask full of tint 

Slow down, I wanted to say I’m sorry
Apologizing for all the memories
I feel like I’m looking at the world upside down
Cos I was never meant to be happy inside out

Look into my eyes and tell me I’m not fine
Tell me that I always have something to hide
Secrets to bury, I wanna run but I can’t fly
Grounded by emotions, restricting all my motions 

I didn’t want to let you know, I didn’t want to let you go
Blow out the candles on my cake and turn off the lights as you leave
I made a wish and I know it’ll never happen
Cos I won’t be there to see it being granted

I’m a ghost; I’m the host for this confusing circus
Too much on my mind, I can’t stop this turbulence
This fusion of delusion is causing an illusion
Of me being stuck in a mirror while you melt away as I froze in time

Pinch me, I want to wake up from this dream
I want to be free from all the imaginings 
I want to run away from the painful imagery
Cos I can’t stand no more to all this savagery

Stab me through my heart, cos I know it won’t hurt
Tell me that I should be sorry for causing so much hurt
If today I die, I choose to die by my words
I’ll go with no regrets, only tears and blood

I’ll go with tears and blood
I’ll promised to not return
I’ll still love even if it hurts…

I'll still love...

P/S: Sorry for the bad audio because of lack of equipments

'Emotional'

Wrote every single word by myself to a beat I found on YouTube. Never rapped before and English isn't my mother tongue so I apologize for my pronunciation. Beat credits to Dizzla Beats, you guys can check it out on YouTube it has a lot of amazing tracks on its channel.

Lyrics:
 Let’s start everything with a heartbeat
This is how my heart beats, it’s beating fast even though you can’t see
Even though it doesn’t seemed to be how I described it
But I know you can definitely feel it

Feel the heat, it’s blazing
I’m on my feet, I’m racing 
Towards my destination I’m pacing
It don’t matter what it is that I’m facing

Mentioning about how great this girl of mine in every conversation
I’m sorry cos I think I forgot about information conservation
We’re wide open; I’m telling the world that we’re both golden
Cos you’re amazing and I wanna hold tight this hand that I’m holding

Keeping my words and taste in check
Cos I wanna provide you with only the best
Honestly, I don’t mind giving up on the rest
Cos I want you to know that I’m always up for the test

If you ever wonder what’s constantly on my mind
I can only say I’m thinking about this darling of mine
If this is a minefield, I’ll daringly cross the line
Just to reach you, just to get to the other side

If this is a death match, I’ll volunteer to be the player
I don’t need hopes and wishes, just a slight prayer
I admit that I’m not tough, but I’ll be your gladiator
Cos there’s no one else I’d sacrifice myself for, you’re the only one that matters

L.O.V.E
Loyalty, Obsession, Visionary and Ecstasy
I might be making words up left and right
But I promise that my love for you will always be right

L.O.V.E
It may be blind but fate let us see
It may be predestined but here we are breathing
Here we are smiling at each other as we accept this blessing

I’m blessed and grateful that I’ve finally met you
I finally saw the face of the person that I wanted to be with
I felt true emotions obstructing my breathing
I can’t believe it, cos I’ve fought so many wars that almost got me beaten

Can I repeat this? Is there an encore for our love speeches?
Can I rewind back to the time where we’re still breathing?
Wishing that someday the right person will drop by,
Make us happy and brighten up our lives

I’ve been asked many questions which I gave the same explanations
Does it really work when we don’t see each other often?
I told them all yes it doesn’t matter as long as we love and trust each other
Cos you know, we were destined to be together

Mentioning about how great you are in every sentence
Telling the world how lucky I am to have you in my possession 
I’m sorry if I’m being too happy about this relationship
But I want you to know, if this is a sea then we’ll be the caption of the ship

L.O.V.E
Loyalty, Obsession, Visionary and Ecstasy
I might be making words up left and right
But I promise that my love for you will always be right

L.O.V.E
It may be blind but fate let us see
It may be predestined but here we are breathing
Here we are smiling at each other as we accept this blessing

L.O.V.E
It’s so magical, it’s like a seed
Planted within our souls waiting to sprout and grow leaves
Waiting to enchant our lives with our previous imaginings

L.O.V.E
It’s a work of the cupid, who tied us while he’s in hiding 
Let’s make a promise that we’ll stay together forever
Cos I’ve made up my mind to succumb to this love endeavour

L.O.V.E
Loyalty, Obsession, Visionary and Ecstasy
I might be making words up left and right
But I promise that my love for you will always be right

L.O.V.E
It may be blind but fate let us see
It may be predestined but here we are breathing
Here we are smiling at each other as we accept this blessing

L.O.V.E x4

L.O.V.E
It may be blind but fate let us see
I see our future igniting the scenery
With fireworks from our love lighting up the world with clarity




L.O.V.E Recording

Circles

been a rough month. just wrote to this beat in less than 30 minutes.

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