Needles, California

Spite

~ about beginning ~

written by: Monto & Bryce Bishop
produced by: Bryce Bishop & Monto
mixed by: Bryce Bishop
mastered by: Ty Lorenzo
artwork by: @ve9etable0831 on twitter

DREAMS w/ Monto

about doubt

lyrics:
One, two, three
Am I

Too cold to care about
Do you hate to talk 'cause it brings you down is it
Too much to say aloud
Are you tired of this
Can we fuck it out am I

Too cold to care about
Do you hate to talk 'cause it brings you down is it
Too much to say aloud is it
Too much to say aloud

"Is it me?" (Ion know)
"Is it different?" (Yup)
"Are you tired?"
"Am I anxious?"
We both asked and tried to respond but
Sleep deprivation's never been honest

So we sat
In silence (Sh)
"Why can't you talk to me?"
We both asked and tried to respond, but
I'm just quiet
I'm just quiet

Fucked up tough love getting upset
Try to ignore all the shit you told
Your friends about my broken thoughts and
What I said or tried to

Tough luck got fucked by the solitude
Blank walls, cheap room, creeping want
Of sensory content
Alone and at fault
I'm in tears on the floor
I know it's "just another freak out"

Little bitch sit down
It ain't really that bad
Won't you shut your mouth
'Fore you take another lap of the house

Stop pacing you're acting insane
All this talking to yourself won't help

"I'm well! I've never felt better than this!"
"I'm great! I've never felt better than this!"
"I'm well! I've never felt better than this!"
"I'm great! I've never felt better than this!"

Do you wish you'd settled down
Thirty, forty minutes out the city
Somewhere quiet, but
Close enough so that you could still go see your friends

You'd be working as a teacher
He'd be doing something stable
Twenty-seven, everything
Would be going according to plan

Do you wish you'd settled down
Somewhere quiet out the city
Finished study finally starting up your life like you had said

You'd be working as a teacher
He'd be doing something stable
Twenty-seven, everything had gone according to plan

Am I

Too cold to care about
Do you hate to talk 'cause it brings you down is it
Too much to say aloud
Are you tired of this
Can we fuck it out am I

Too cold to care about
Do you hate to talk 'cause it brings you down is it
Too much to say aloud is it
Too much to say aloud

'communication is the basis of every strong relationship'

The Ultimate Christmas: A Disney Channel Original Movie (2001)

about change

lyrics:
you called me up again for god knows why
another wasted night with you 
telling me about how all your friends are not enough

and i am pretty tired
i know it’s early there 
but i’ve been up for thirty hours 
taking twenty minute showers

stuck in bed i can’t get up
and i can’t bear to talk about us more tonight 

i haven’t felt the same way 
about somebody since you left
please leave me be
so i might find some peace

i know i’m to involved at best
or just obsessed at worst 
with the memories i have of you
pull them out, my aching tooth 

let me go
cus i can’t trust myself to

one last call
you told me what you thought
what you thought

but i’ve tried to talk about this 
we’ve brought this up before
how could you call this a blind side
could you put me at fault

i was crying on the sidewalk
you said “if you’re so sad 
then why are you doing this?”

you said “if you’re so sad then why are we”

tryna talk about this 
we’ve brought this up before
how could you call this a blind side
could you put me at fault

i was crying on the sidewalk
you said “if you’re so sad 
then why are you doing this?”

you said “if you’re so sad then why are we”

were you that 
convinced then
we’re choked up on the phone about
how you said 
you’re broken
and i’m the one who pushed you off 

were you that 
convinced then
we’re choked up on the phone about
how you said 
I won’t open up
and i thought, not to you i won’t

and i thought not to you i won’t 
and i thought not to you i won’t
and i thought not to you i won’t

dumb fuck

all in good time

object impermanence

On discernment ..

~ lyrics ~
You left a mark
That I can't seem to get out
Rather not talk about this yet

You left a mark
And It's fucking up the fabric
Can't relate I'm too attached
To all the memories, the past
And what it could have been

You said you've always enjoyed
How they never put those streetlights in
The darkness has a way of easing up
All the tension in your neck
And safely bringing up the things
That you'll wish you said

Oh how the roots
Push up the asphalt around
Your old driveway I will never
Forget the way they rattled
The nerves out
Wild how difficult it was
And how a clunky conversation
Might be my favourite hour this year

But leave me out
I get I've been a weight
On your shoulders now
So leave me out
While I fix everything
That you bring up

You left a mark
It's visible up close
But in a real specific light
Could be mistaken as a wrinkle in the cloth

You left a mark
Or at least that's what I'll say
While I refuse to get this dry-cleaned

God how nicely
Our well constructed lies seemed
But taken out of context
I see right through the walls while we would
Hold hands driving
And turning on your high beams
You'd let it swerve a little
Before loosening your grip

But leave me out
I get I've been a weight
On your shoulders now
So leave me out
While I fix everything
That you bring up

You left a mark
You left a mark
You left a mark
You left a mark

Shocker

On commitment.

~ lyrics ~
When acknowledgement of need
And crying on my chest ain't enough
When talking to your mother and telling her
She needs someone like me ain't enough

Then please won't you kindly
Remove me from your plans
I won't be needing all your time no more

'Cause if you left it up to me
I'd crack to any of your needs
A dog that's sitting pretty at your door

So if it's not too much to ask
Take me for a walk

Ah you'd take me to the beach
And we would sprint across the sand
You'd throw a stick I'd run to get it
And promptly bring it back

And this would be
The best thirty minutes to an hour
I've had in god it's been a while
I'd kill a kid to see you smile

And you'd go out you'd leave me in your house
And I'd try my best not to eat your couch
But I can't promise much about the shoes
Until you take me for a walk

I'll be you're mental health companionship
I'll try on all your traumatic experiences
'Cause don't they look so good on me ah

Put me in that little hat
You've always liked how stupid that
Would look on me
Or make me look

And I would wear it I don't care
You wanna show me off then
Put that collar on
And take me
For a walk

Fetch

On home .. 

~ lyrics ~
Home for the week
A semi-embarrassed
Check up on your friends
That you kinda forgot about

Struggle to speak
Conversation clunkier
Than what you remember
But you don't remember

When we would
Sit in your car for an hour
The parking lot lights start
Exposing your cowardice

Circling feelings you can't
Shake the shame from
The more that you hurt
The better you

The better you get
Ahh
The better you

The better you get
Ahh
The better you

Take me and leave
Drive me down the coast
The smell alone will cut the panic out
Topics I forgot about

Lacing our speech
Padding out the time while I'm
Trying to apologise
But can't get it out

ok

Who are you to remember
Your own imperfect reflections
On all your calculated missteps
The more that you hurt
The better you

The better you get
Ahh
The better you

The better you get
Ahh

The better you get
I've been walking back
Every way that I could've said it

And oh
Oh I get that you're trying
And It's progress
But this time I won't wait up

This time I won't wait up
This time I won't wait up

Better

Econo Lodge

On forgiveness ..

~ lyrics ~
I woke up to you taking a picture of yourself
In my arms
And when I asked you said you sent it to your best friends
Back home

And you seemed surprised at my surprise
Was that a weird thing to do
I said no I liked it thought it seemed like
It wasn't something you'd do

Ah the things you said to me
Oh the things you said to me
Oh the things you said to me
Oh the things you said to

Should I just buy myself a second toothbrush
To leave at your house
You asked me on a Wednesday night
As you got undressed
And it took me out

And you seemed surprised at my surprise
Like is that a weird thing to do
I said no I liked it though I can't lie
I can't believe you'd want that too

Ah the things you said to me

Ah the things you said to me
Ah the things you said to me
Ah the things you said to me
All the things you said to

The lighting in the department store reflects
My faults in the backs of your eyes
We outlined all of the ways we wished we matched
Good talk, hold hands

Ah the things you said to me

Oh the things you said to me
Oh the things you said to me
Oh the things you said
Oh the things you said
Ah the things you said to me

Slate

I love this song so I made a lil acoustic version thing I hope u like it <3

Originally by @juliawolfnyc

Lyrics:
I want your things in my room, I miss you all of the time
I stalk myself on the internet just to see what you'll find
I want your things in my room, I miss you all of the time
You make it look so easy, leaving everything behind

I like when it's dark out, October will cure me
I'm walking these woods, am I 30 or 13?
Not asking for much, man, thought maybe you'd call me
I slit my own throat just to see if you'd mourn me, yeah

I want your things in my roooooom
I want your things in my roooooôom

I want your things in my room, I miss you all of the time
I stalk myself on the internet just to see what you'll find
I want your things in my room, I miss you all of the time
You make it look sooo
I want your things in my room

in my room - julia wolf (bryce's cover)

On conviction .. 

~ Lyrics ~
Close your eyes for a moment
Picture all of the lives you've had
What the fuck were you thinking
Too involved to discuss this yet

If I could have it for a moment
I could only guess at all the
Things I'd take for granted
In the fifty seconds

I would have everything that
I had wanted until then
Oh if I had only seen
Every man I could've been
Would I?

Claw your way into heaven
Oh how beautiful your wings
Oh how difficult the climb
Don't you notice how he bleeds

Yes and you can be like him
Separated from his friends
Scars are covering his hands
Can't even read his fingerprints

Oh thank God
That he risked all he was given
Playing lotteries with tickets
Bought with time and stress and sickness

Oh thank God
That he sacrificed connection
And stability. Reflection
Wouldn't you to be in Heaven?
Wouldn't you?

Too involved to discuss this yet

What the fuck were you thinking
Too involved to discuss this yet

What the fuck were you thinking
Too involved to discuss this yet

Lament

On fragility ..

~ Lyrics ~
Do you hate me
Do you like that
Is my god complex intriguing
Enough to be ignored

Do you hate me
Do you like that
Am I wasting your time
Have you wasted your time
Have you figured yourself out
Yet

I noticed you pulled back
When I went to kiss you
I realized I'm a lot
I could be better at giving space

Trust me. I understand
How a touch once enjoyed
Now brings shakes to your hands

A warmth in your belly
To shivers and goosebumps
And not in a fun way

You haven't looked at me once
Am I talking too much
Are you tired of me yet

A little attention slut
Am I touching too much
Are you tired of me yet

Do you hate me
Do you like that
Is my god complex intriguing
Enough to be ignored

Do you hate me
Do you like that
Am I wasting your time
Have you wasted your time
Have you figured yourself out
Yet

Heed

On regard ..

~ Lyrics ~
I miss the way the carpet feels
Under my feet

I notice the dust
On this hardwood too much
To feel clean

And I know it's easier to sweep
But vacuuming is more for me
I like the sound it makes when it
Runs over chunks

And sure a lot of hair collects
But something nasty in me likes
Pulling the strands from the threads

Ooh
Pulling the strands from the threads
Ooh
Pulling the strands from the

Open the door
It's been raining a bucket out here

Tape my teeth together
And pour anecdotes in my ears

On our couch
On our porch
Drinking tea in the winter
The cushions were old
So we'd sink to our necks

You'd tear up the fabric
I'd made from excuses
You're pulling the strands from the threads

Ooh
Pulling the strands from the threads
Ooh
Pulling the strands from the

I will latch myself to every wall
In this home that you have made
Another one way conversation
An aloof attempt at gratitude

Let me sap all your resources
Let me take all that you've earned
It was only for a moment
It was only for a moment

I'll dump all my thoughts and my worries on you
Take a second to check in
Don't want you to think that I'd

Talk for an hour and not wanna hear about
Your life
But you're right

Ooh
Pulling the strands from the threads
Ooh
Pulling the strands from the.

Threads

On affinity ..

~ Lyrics ~
~ Lyrics ~
I was wondering
When I would run out of things to say
I simply couldn't stop talking
I started to panic

And I was wondering
If you'd notice my intent
To listen intently
Through my jumbled words

In the first house your parents bought
It's gorgeous and the stars are out
And I can't light the fire for the life of me

A floated proposition
You and I relieve ourselves
Of sinking fears
That one of us won't like the other

I don't know you that well
I don't know you that

I know you know me enough
Do you wanna be best friends or what
Yeah

I know you know me enough
Do you wanna be best friends or what
I know you know me enough
Do you wanna be best friends or what

I'm a wreck
I wish you wouldn't look at me like that
I'll remember
Everything you said

Come visit me in a room three by three
I'll get much too involved
In the things we don't need

And I'll stress myself out
Ask for help
Won't know how

So I'll crush all your boundaries
I'll look back astounded
Is that really me?
Was that really me?

I know you know me enough
Do you wanna be best friends or what
I know you know me enough
Do you wanna be best friends or what

I know you know me enough
Do you wanna be best friends or what
I know you know me enough
Do you wanna be best friends or what

I know you know me enough
Do you wanna be best friends or what
I know you know me enough
Do you wanna be best friends or what

I know you know me enough
Do you wanna be best friends or what
I know you know me enough
Do you wanna be best friends or what

I know you know me enough
Do you wanna be best friends or what
I know you know me enough
Do you wanna be best friends or what

An Extended Correspondence

trying to be enough. 

~ lyrics ~
I know I’m a little fucked up 
For your liking
I’m not
Built for meeting your every need

Some more sleep or caffeine
Are you tired of me
I wish I was normal for you but

Long night and I can’t stand
You called me over again
You tried to kiss me 
I’ll admit I was surprised
It’d been a while and I’m

Missing my social cues
I’m tired of this but not of you
You’ll scoff it off and try to talk
But I’m in love with fucking up

Don’t talk to me again you know
I’m already a little broke
I’d rather leave and be alone
Again than

Putting effort in for once
A slight discomfort puts me off
He says he’s sorry and it’s super effective
It’s not an apology it’s avoidance

I know I’m a little fucked up 
For your liking
I’m not
Built for meeting your every need

Some more sleep or caffeine
Are you tired of me
I wish I was normal for you but I’m

Alone in my bedroom
Cus this is the dream I’ve been working for
Exhausted and anxious
To wired to sleep but too tired to work

Alone in my bedroom
Embarrassed to rest 
I can tell that you need

Someone that’s stable
But trust me that’s not me
I’d rather be

With you in your bedroom
Your mom’s old apartment
Where we’d lay in bed until
Ten in the morning

It’s freezing in August 
The windows would fog up
Undress, quiet sex
I’ll repress all the thoughts of 

With you in your bedroom
Your mom’s old apartment
Where we’d lay in bed until
Ten in the morning

I’m leaving in August
If I’m being honest
Not sure how I’ll forget about 
This

I know I’m a little fucked up 
For your liking
I’m not
Built for meeting your every need

Some more sleep or caffeine
Are you tired of me
I wish I was normal for you but I’m

With you in your bedroom
Your mom’s old apartment
Where we’d lay in bed until
Ten in the morning

It’s freezing in August 
If I’m being honest
Not sure how I’ll forget about 

You in your bedroom
Your mom’s old apartment
Where we’d lay in bed until
Ten in the morning

It’s freezing in August 
The windows would fog up
Undress, quiet sex
And forget you

goober

having a blast.

~ lyrics ~
well i kinda liked the way you looked at me
when you told me that i talked kinda funny
watchu mean

let’s hang out
i’ve got some ideas 

well we could kick over trash cans
make fun of romance and
i would feel awkward 
cus i kinda like it

i would think of the past 
how you’d make fun of my accent
and how i’d find it
hellishly attractive we could

“oh you were too problematic”
you’d explain to me
and i would be understanding
i was twenty three

easy does it
walls uncovered we could
talk about it
but where would be the 
fun in that 

well we could kick over trash cans
make fun of romance and
i would feel awkward 
cus i kinda like it

i would think of the past 
how you’d make fun of my accent
and how i’d find it
hellishly attractive we could

we could 
ah we could 
oh we could
oh we could

oh you were too problematic 
you’d explain to me
and i would be understanding
this was just last week

minecraft

Airports

you seemed distracted

am i unemotional

you've been getting better

PC: @parkermation
Edit by DorrianTM: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EUUAl6Ty0a4
I love Aries and I loved the way too deep snippet so I kinda built it out into a thing. Enjoy and check out Aries if you haven't already!

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