I wanted to include a little talk at the beginning, I know many people probably don't read all the descriptions. Myself included. I've been thinking of a way to reach people more and I figured it's worth a shot to start talking about the song I'm performing. This is a live take with no editing what so ever. Just cranked up a little reverb and then recorded. I did the song a few times before it sounded how I wanted it to. Personally, I got a lot of pleasure out of making this song. I hope the meaning and feelings reach those who need it most. Love and appreciation to all of you who take time out of your day to listen to me. I truly means the world. To those who don't like to leave comments I would like to just say hello to you. Maybe one day when you're brave enough, we can talk about our passions, and encourage each other to keep going in whatever adventure you're in.

Lyrics:
This is just a glimpse, what I’m going through
Paper thin recognition, won’t get me through
Love so deep ignoring consequence
Alone using the same sequences
should just cut it off it seems so useless
Can’t get a bite mentally toothless
Giving and giving want so badly to take
Like a withered old battered down rake
Unable to gather what’s left for my sake
Stuck in a pattern and I’m ready to BREAK

I Need an infusion
Be my surgeon
Use the extraction
Ignore my reaction
Implant it quickly
Forced serenity

Cuz I can’t stop the bleeding
Need someone to retrieve me
Hold me down and snap me
From these delusions to reality
Should I scream for you to understand
Or should I just endure, be a man

Can’t seem to decide for myself
Just pull me off the highest shelf
Don’t let me fall, that would crush me
Gently hold my soul, emotions are erupting

Forced Serenity

I work as a nurse in the state of Florida and I love being there for people in need. My other true passion is making music. I'm kind of an amateur but I look forward to getting better and making the best music I can.

Most the songs I do in about a day and then move on. I don't have the skill to make them radio quality yet, but I hope with collaborating with others and making my own music I will learn some skills along the way. I don't focus on perfection, I focus on emotion and try to put feeling into my music.

Also, I love to get lost in other peoples work, I will often play video games while listening to a bunch of someone else's works and commenting on the ones I like the most, not all though, don't wanna seem like a stalker, unless you like that of course.

Been feeling a little burnt out lately, so if I'm not responsive please don't take it personal. Having to work OT to keep the family afloat, so I haven't had time for music and when I do have any time I'm just too exhausted. I definitely want to make more it brings me a lot of joy to make music. At the same time it is very taxing, reaching into the depths can sometimes cause unwanted feelings to linger longer than they should. Anyway, I love all the support you have all sent my way. See ya around!

Update: Soundcloud has become too expensive and the free version is terrible. They removed a lot of my songs etc... I will be moving on to a different distributer and working on more social media outlets so I won't be on here as much. Many of my songs will be on Spotify, apple etc, I'm in the process of transitioning them. I will leave what I can with the allotted two hours. I appreciate all of you. James Geer, Miami Jeff, Steve V... If you guys are reading this I want you to know how much I appreciate you guys. You are all wonderful musicians and you shared your knowledge and music with me and I'm a better artist because of it, so, thanks!!! See yall around!!!

Forced Serenity

Bubba Maddux