ever sit back and listen to the rain 
thinking this worlds so full of pain 
lost ones fighting to abstain 
darkness puts on such a strain 
Over and over, you try to obtain 
Release from chaos that drives you insane 
Thinking there’s no other way
you can make it through today

but it’s not impossible
please don’t give up
It’s so much to handle
I know you feel stuck
Saying nothing’s gonna change
That it’ll just stay the same
But that won’t release this pain
So just sit back and let it rain

*Bonus unused lyrics*

Ever just stand and tone it out 
Wondering what life is about 
your inner soul begins to shout 
mind overflown with constant doubt 
Feel so down you start to pout 
And tears pour just like a spout 
Thinking there’s no other way
you can make it through today
 
but it’s not impossible
please don’t give up
It’s so much to handle
I know you feel stuck
Saying nothing’s gonna change
That it’ll just stay the same
But that won’t release this pain
So just sit back and let it rain

Let It Rain

This is an acoustic version of a collab I did with Miami Jeff. We wrote the lyrics together. I sent him a demo of a song similar to this with just some guitar and the lyrics. He restructured the lyrics to flow better and added some of his own to it. He constructed a masterpiece with a full instrumental and vocal guide for me to follow. I was stuck on my own as well, Miami Jeff was cool with doing both, with this coming out as a reprise or alternative version. I hope you enjoy this one, and if you haven't heard the version on Miami Jeff's page, I highly recommend it. It has a very cool video, along with some awesome track art.


1)  THE BURNING LEAVES UPON THE GROUND,

     THE GRASS, THE TREES, OBSCURE THE SOUND,

     THIS FEELING OF IMPENDING DOOM,  

     SMOKE FROM THE ASHES HIDE THE MOON,

     REMEMBER WHEN OUR LOVE WAS NEW?

     NOW WHAT’S A THING LIKE ME TO DO?



          I’LL KEEP FLOATING THROUGH LIKE ROBOTS DO,

          EXPRESS NO LOVE, NO EMOTIONS TOO

          CLANKING AWAY WITH RUSTY PARTS, 

          LIKE THE TINMAN WITHOUT A HEART,        

          BUT DEEP DOWN INSIDE I CAN STILL RECALL,

          A SENSE OF WARMTH BEHIND THIS WALL,

          YOUR LOVELY FACE, YOUR EYES OF BLUE,

          FUNNY THE THINGS  ROBOTS DO?



2)  HIGHWAY HYPNOSIS HALF ASLEEP,

     THE TRUCKS, THE CARS, THE LINES THAT CREEP,

     I’M FEELING DROWSY, PASSING OUT,

     HORNS HONKING WILDLY AWAKE THE DOUBT,

     WHAT HAPPENED TO THE LOVE WE KNEW?

     NOW WHAT’S A THING LIKE ME TO DO?

          

          I’LL KEEP FLOATING THROUGH LIKE ROBOTS DO,

          EXPRESS NO LOVE, NO EMOTION TOO

          CLANKING AWAY WITH RUSTY PARTS, 

          LIKE THE TINMAN WITHOUT A HEART,        

          BUT DEEP INSIDE I CAN STILL RECALL,

          A SENSE OF WARMTH BEHIND THIS WALL,

          YOUR LOVELY FACE, YOUR EYES OF BLUE,

          FUNNY THE THINGS ROBOTS DO,

         

                          BY BUBBA MADDUX & JIM VALDES

                                © 2023

Like Robots Do (Reprise)

This is a song I created with a good friend of mine at work. We work the opposite shift, but we always run into each other. We had an immediate connection and the lyrics I wrote matched up almost perfectly with what he wanted to do with the song. We hope to do more and start recording stuff together but it's been really tough with life. Life gets so busy sometimes, and you just gotta keep rolling with the punches. 
Lyrics:
The Change is gonna come, Gods will be done

Wish I could control these emotions but my mind is over flowin, I keep grasping at these feelings, but life just keeps on stealing, them away, wish they would stay, but now the mood has altered, and I might have faltered, but we all know that like the setting sun, that one day the change is gonna come.

Feelings fleeting fast, tried to make it last in a second ripped outta my grasp, now I’m mad Thinkin bout what I had and It’s so sad, my bad, go ahead and laugh, trying everything just to get back on track

Got myself in a pickle, but no it don’t tickle, it’s making me brittle watching these tears trickle man I’m being so fickle, sick of feelin so little, life is such a riddle, maybe I’m the one who’s artificial. 

endlessly flippin Once again I’m trippin, and once it’s goin it goes On and on like dominos, Each thought in a different direction Each session a different expression Each moment another infection 

Settin in, getting septic now It’s so toxic how, I can’t block it out Can’t stop it wow It’s clearly me, eerily, I’m comfortably sailing these seas More easily than thee. And what you can’t see

is that maybe It comes so naturally because you casually be interrupting me, disrespecting me and I just take it see. Sadly, I can’t seem to find the seam to patch up These feelings takin me places I don’t wanna be. 

Livin life on the edge livin dangerously Truthfully that’s the thing that twists these thoughts together, the toxic traits that took to and tethered. So interconnected. It’s Like I’m plugged into your hard drive and to feel alive 

I kept it encrypted inside, so you can’t disconnect it. Maybe I’m the virus, but in spite of this, I find bliss in your lips. A simple kiss to save all of this. But watch out for the twist

moods start flippin, I start slippin, give in to sippin, bottles I’m rippin, constantly sinnin, if only I’d listen, that ain’t really livin, gotta ask to be forgiven. Cuz it’s not all about the liquor or the women.

How you be feelin, life keeps on dealin, demons be appealing, you’re hooked and they’re reeling, so good at concealing, always double dealing, but watch out it’s your soul they be stealin.

Wish I could control these emotions but my mind is over flowin, I keep grasping at these feelings, but life just keeps on stealing, them away, wish they would stay, but now the mood has altered, and I might have faltered, but we all know that like the setting sun, that one day change is gonna come.

Change gon come gods will be done Hey all Change gon come gods will be done, saying change gon come gods will be done, gods will, gods will be done

The Change Is Gonna Come (Music by Michael Murray)

There's something very special about the making of a song. Sometimes its lyrics given music, or music given a voice of it's own. This time it was probably even more special. I wanted to show my daughter how to write and record a song. So I wrote some lyrics practiced some and recorded it while explaining everything I was doing. I told her that words are magic, and you can use them to shape the world around you. You can use them to hurt people, make them sad, make them laugh... but ultimately I hoped that she would use her words wisely to uplift people's spirits. In turn it would shape her world for the better. That if she used her words to harm others, those words would harm her in return. If she used her words for good, it would shape her into the beautiful woman she is meant to be some day. I hope you all find this song as beautiful as I do.

Lyrics:

Beyond the wall
There lies a story
A love so deep
It was buried
Beneath 
The old oak tree
And in the trunk
Their names were carved
Beneath the old 
Oak tree
Their names
Forgotten memories

And you say, 
Nothing last forever
And I say
You’re wrong
Because just because
We’re gone
Doesn’t mean our love
Won’t carry on

Beyond the wall
The cries of warring
The blood would seep
his to carry
Burden
Heavy as an oak tree
Where in the trunk
Their vows were carved
Beneath the old 
Oak tree
Their vows
Begotten Children sing

And you say, 
Nothing last forever
And I say
You’re wrong
Because just because
We’re gone
Doesn’t mean our love
Won’t carry on

The Old Oak Tree

I like to just let my mind do what it wants when I create. This topic is probably heavy on everyone's minds since elections are coming up. Please be kind to people, we are not the enemy, they are. Just look closer before you put your own personal value behind any of these people. They're not worthy, they're not going to save us. Only we can do that as a community. So, give back to your community if you can, and help each other through these difficult times. Maybe you can save someone from the brink of destruction, or maybe you need saving. It's up to the people here to love their communities. Money and power are not important, people are.

Lyrics:
Stuck watching these videos on repeat
Don’t even gotta think about what to eat
Everyone making the same video blogs
They’ve programmed us all into Pavlov’s dogs
It gets even weirder the closer you look
They know that you won’t even pick up a book
They’re watching us all with these little devices
They’ve got you hooked on all of your vices
You wanna deny it, that’s just human nature
Try to talk to others, people never been faker
Cognitive dissonance is now just normal behavior
I’m just hoping maybe I can be somebody’s savior

You probably skipped this song 
Or maybe you’re singing along
Somehow cracked the algorithm 
To be bumping in your system
I hope you escape these invisible chains
Until then I’ll be infiltrating your brains

So, your still listening, well congratulations
Now part of a fraction of this entire nation
Most keep on tumbling like little sheep
That’s okay, I love them too, they’re my peeps
You see, we’re all involved, impossible to dissolve
Codes they’ve cracked backed by these ridiculous laws
Putting these outrageous men in positions of power
We’re fighting over which one is less of a coward
Which of these men will leave us less devoured
They’re using income tax, and building their towers
Using influence to garner their riches and wealth
Just like drugs, these fools are all bad for our health

You probably skipped this song 
Or maybe you’re singing along
Somehow cracked the algorithm 
To be bumping in your system
I hope you escape these invisible chains
Until then I’ll be infiltrating your brains

Invisible Chains

I can’t remember when it all began
This crippling feeling, I can’t even stand
I can’t remember how to be a man
This crushing weight of all life’s demand
While sick and tired I do what I can
Could only guess that you’re not a fan
Don’t cheer me on, you just sit there and scan
With displeased eyes, was that part of your plan

Am I not enough
I gave you everything
When you ask for more
with nothing left to give
I lay broken on the floor
And I don’t even wanna live

Cuz without you, I only dream of you
But I can’t stand what you put me through
My minds in pieces, what am I to do
Wish I could say I didn’t care about you

I’ll just keep building myself back up
At least until you have had enough
Then you’ll break me down to fill your cup
Were you always my opponent, so tough
I can vaguely remember feeling loved
Was it all just an illusion, some bluff
Just so you could take all of my stuff
My heart, my soul, my children, my blood

Am I not enough
I gave you everything
When you ask for more
with nothing left to give
I lay broken on the floor
I Don’t even wanna live

Cuz without you, I only dream of you
But I can’t stand what you put me through
My minds in pieces, what am I to do
Wish I could say I didn’t care about you

BROKEN!
ON THE FLOOR!
NOTHING LEFT
Here anymore
JUST BROKEN!
BROKEN ON THE FLOOR!
There’s nothing left here anymore

Broken On The Floor

This is just Acoustic guitar, some basic drums and vocal. Might add more to it later, clean it up some. I really liked writing and recording this one, it has a lot of potential I think and is very catchy. I find it getting stuck in my head more so than a lot of my previous songs. Hopefully you will all dig it as well.

Lyrics:

I didn’t ask you to show
Up late at night, at my door
Wearing that dress, I like so much
I could tell you felt, out of touch
Your makeup smeared, on your face
Why are you over, at my place

Maybe now you know
How much I love you
Taking advantage of the fact

Now I’m standing here
mind isn’t so clear
I shouldn’t even take you back

Cuz, I know I’m just a rebound
But I can’t turn you down
So, I’m Tryin t show you now
Why you should just stick around
Stick Around

I didn’t want to know
All the things you did before
Wearing that dress, just for him
I could tell you felt, a love begin
Your makeup perfect, your eyes aglow
Then he dropped you and now your low

Stick Around

Working on a collab, I just did this off the top today. Wrote it today, recorded an acoustic loop for the lyrics I wrote and sang it raw no rehearsing. Came out nice I think. I may go back and make a full song out of it some day. But for now just my guitar and voice. Hope you enjoy

Lyrics:
The wolf spirit dances in the night 
Under the moon just after twilight 
The sun had it’s turn to play 
And she just couldn’t wait 

Cuz you, you were waiting too 
Feeling, just like a fool 
Cuz you’re, so In love 
But that’s just what you do 

Gotta get that feeling on
Gotta get that feeling on
Nothing ever feels like this
The moment before you kiss
Nothing like total bliss
Gotta get that feeling on

You gotta make her your best friend
Gotta be with her till the very end
Gotta make her yours and only yours
But how can you do it when you’re like this
Your heart so empty full of loneliness
Can you pull it off can you steal a kiss
No time is better than a time like this

Get That Feeling On

Lyrics:
The magnolias in bloom
Pull me from the grips of gloom
As the lilacs underneath
Make my heart slowly weep

The white picket fence contains
These memories that remain
A picturesque sky of bright blue
Envelops where I’d wait for you

I’d hoped you might forgive
All the things that I did
Desperately tried to undo
All my contempt for you 

Why did I let it get this far
Slowly building up these scars
Saved up hate in a mental jar
Can’t stand how we grew apart
Love that should have reached the stars
Instead, two lonely broken hearts

They say time heals everything
Self-inflicted wounds sure sting
Cuz, I knew I had a love that’s true
 But still, I spilled my hate on you

Magnolias In Bloom (Demo)

Lyrics:
Searching for a life, I’d relive twice
Tried to build, a lovely world
Through these eyes

It’s not as easy, as far as I see
Shifting tides, a crazy place
Through these times

If only I, could really fly
off the ground, a grand idea
Through the sky

Stayed living in, my simple mind
Walking down, an unlit path
Through the blinds

Unveil the universe
Conceal controversy
Reveal the true verse
Unreal testimony 

Cuz I, want the truth, no matter how it makes me feel
But my eyes are new, and I can’t see, what’s actually real
So, if I make mistakes, please show me how, to change my view
For its A great escape, programmed in me. To make it through

Unveil the universe
Conceal controversy
Reveal the true verse
Unreal testimony

Unveil The Universe (Demo)

I was with my parents, kids and wife. We were in the car all driving somewhere. A story came up randomly, because we were all arguing about driving with your emergency lights on during a storm. My mom said she was pulled over one time with her emergency lights on out in some rural roads. We asked if it was during a storm, she said no she was out following my dad in the dark so he could see. He was training to be a highway patrol officer at the time, and knowing my dad he worked his ass off to make that dream come true. This was before I was even born, but I had never heard that story. Just hearing it, made me realize how much my parents loved each other, the sacrifices they made for each other, it was just a beautiful moment. So, being me, I wrote a song about it of course. Hope you enjoy!

Lyrics:
He spent his nights
Out on some rural country roads
The only lights
From an old blue beat up ford
As he ran, she drove
Following through the dark
As he ran, her love
Pushed him onward with a spark

And to myself, I thought If I had that kind of drive
To live a life well fought to the age of eighty-five
And if I had that kind of love to keep me going
I could face the world without even knowing
Where I’d end up, where I’d go, at least
I could make it through these rural country roads

And in this life
I have seen so many tragedies
The only time
I didn’t have any enemies
When I ran, she drove
Following through the dark
When I ran, her love
Pushed me onward with a spark

And to myself, I thought If I had that kind of drive
To live a life well fought to the age of eighty-five
And If I had that kind of love to keep me going
I could face the world without even knowing
Where I’d end up, where I’d go, at least
I could make it through these rural country roads

Rural Country Roads

Had a long 4 day stretch at the hospital this week, and I had a patient who I really enjoyed talking to. He talked about how he loved to grow his own watermelon, and that nothing made him happier than an ice cold piece of watermelon and an ice cold beer. He told me he could tell I was just like him, a big momma's boy with the heart of a teddy bear. We talked about a lot and it was a very memorable patient, I won't ever forget. He told me "You can just tell when someone is a true country boy." Hope you enjoy the song. I hope one day I'll see him again and get to show him the song he inspired.

Lyrics:
We sure do love our home cooked meals
Surrounded by family ain’t no better feels
Sweet watermelon and a can of beer
That’s just how we do it out here

We like to fish early in the morning
Out on a boat, no it sure ain’t boring
Ziploc sandwiches and ice-cold beer
That’s just how we do it out here

Cuz I’m a country boy, A big warm hearted, momma Lovin country boy
Don’t mess with what I love, soft as a teddy bear, but also tough
If you mess with them, you’re messing with me, living country
Come out here and you’ll see, you may just like, living country

The best times ain’t behind a screen
Live slow and enjoy the beautiful scene
Two fishing polls, and a bucket full of bait
When you’re out here no such thing as late

Mind your manners we’re sure to get along
Stay out here with us and it won’t be long
Nothing like some good ol’ southern hospitality
Soon enough, just like me, you’ll be livin’ country

Cuz I’m a country boy, A big warm hearted, momma Lovin country boy
Don’t mess with what I love, soft as a teddy bear, but also tough
If you mess with them, you’re messing with me, living country
Come out here and you’ll see, you may just like, living country

Livin Country

Wanted to do something country, tried to sing it in a country style, just didn't work well, sang it like this and liked it, this is like the 3rd recording and it came out the best, just kind of got lost in the moment. A couple screw ups, did you notice? haha. Anyway, hope you enjoy! 

Lyrics:
Did you notice the flowers
They withered away
Did you notice the hours
I put in today

I bet you’re not happy
Can tell by the way
That look on your face
Puts more on my plate

I’m Drowning in the moment no amount of air
Can breathe life into this troubled man’s affairs

I’m not going anywhere
It’s better if I stay
I’m not going anywhere
Just chipping away

Did you notice these sad eyes
Take a look inside
To break the disguise
You know what you’ll find

I bet you’re not sorry
Can tell by the way
That grin on your face
You know what I’ll say

Did You Notice

Been enjoying going out in nature with the family lately, we go to the beach, find shark teeth and shells, watch sunsets, and check out the stars. Each time I go, I think about the next time I can go, it really helps to unplug sometimes. 

Lyrics:
I miss the days
We used to ride our bikes out in the streets until night
The good old days
When we knew to head on home from the street lights
Those days are gone
Now everyone is tied up on all their little devices
So, what went wrong
We forgot human connection and got buried in our vices

So come on out, here with me, and forget those stupid things
Leave your phone on the charger, and let’s enjoy some nature
Just get lost outside for a while, I’m sure it’ll make you smile
Forget about showing them what we were up to
Let’s just keep this little moment between me and you

Just between, me and you
No one needs to know
What we were up to
A little private show
Just for me and you

Just Between Me And You

Wanted to write a song about what it's like being a nurse in the hospital. When I was very young, I knew I wanted to be a nurse. My mother was a nurse, and I loved how much she cared for her patients. She worked in the ER mostly, and I thought I would love the ER.
I soon found out, it's not as glorious as I had imagined. It was difficult, seeing people die, or severely hurt or sick. I went over to psych nursing very early on, it was just more my style, and not as much death. 
Recently I moved, and had to switch from psych to a psych/med surg floor. I met a lot of great people throughout my career, but I can't help but feel this is where I've grown the most, and I've met the most amazing people. I know it won't last, unfortunately there is high turn around in the medical field, and people come and go constantly. I won't ever forget all the great people I've met along the way, especially the ones on 3 central. I hope you enjoy the song!

Lyrics:
I used to only care about myself
Didn’t think about no one else
Until I realized we’re all the same
We’re all just humans given a name

I always thought I would be something
Until rock bottom when I felt nothing
But something changed within me
It was the nights I spent on 3c 

When I helped, someone else
Just that look in their eyes
Being there for someone’s health
These feelings that used to hide

Taking hold Of my soul
Taking me On a journey
Everything’s A mystery
Spending my nights On 3c

I used to cry on those nights
Someone would lose their life
Everything just seemed to freeze
All the families begging please

Why’d I think there was glory
Within every nurse’s story
But the truth I soon realized
Suffering before my very eyes

When I helped, someone else
Just that look in their eyes
Being there for someone’s health
These feelings that used to hide

Taking hold Of my soul
Taking me On a journey
Everything’s A mystery
Spending my nights On 3c

Nights On 3 Central

Just did this more for fun than anything. Came up with the guitar part first on this one, and then just wrote some lyrics to go with it. Recorded the guitar, then vocals, then added a little bit of drum. It's nothing serious, just for fun, as usual.

Lyrics:

Can you feel it
Tell me can you feel it
lets repeat it
Tell me did you see it
Hold that feeling
Hope it’s never ending

Just hold on, don’t let go
These are the feelings that we know
Just beyond, the mountain top
The burning sun begins to drop
And I don’t want to go home
Cuz I don’t want to be alone
And I don’t want to go home
Cuz I don’t want to be alone

Can you feel it
Tell me can you feel it
lets repeat it
Tell me did you see it
Hold that feeling
Hope it’s never ending

Can feel you, where I go
Why’d you have to make it snow
Just below, the thunderous clouds
Like my tears rain’s flowing out
And I don’t want to go home
Cuz I don’t want to be alone
And I don’t want to go home
Cuz I don’t want to be alone

Can you feel it
Tell me can you feel it
lets repeat it
Tell me did you see it
Hold that feeling
Hope it’s never ending

I Don't Wanna Be Alone

I will be uploading a Country Version of this song soon. Going to do a comparison and a possible vote, when the Country version is out. Hope you enjoy!

Lyrics:
Desert heat fans the flames within
Tried my best, can’t remember when
Born in a cabin, surrounded by pine
Tire swing hanging off an old rope line

My good ol’ daddy protected our lives
Highway patrol guarding white stripped lines
I remember the days when I felt the sun
Out in the desert learned to shoot my gun

So, get out, under the sun, let your mind feel free and your feet just run
Learn how to ride a horse, out in the wind no track no course
It ain’t bad, to remember the times mother nature cleaned your mind
Out in the desert, or a forest somewhere using a rock as your resting chair 

Little did I know strange times would come
So naïve, living care free and young
Out in the desert just a dad and son
Over the hills came the rising sun

I would love to go back but know I can’t
Got kids of my own have to show em that
You can live each day chasing your dreams
But nothing feels better than those golden beams

So, get out, under the sun, let your mind feel free and your feet just run
Learn how to ride a horse, out in the wind no track no course
It ain’t bad, to remember the times mother nature cleaned your mind
Out in the desert, or a forest somewhere using a rock as your resting chair

Resting Chair

Someone I recently met, but would consider a friend at this point, helped me with this song. I was in a really bad funk and having trouble making new songs. I asked for some help, and he showed up and was super supportive. I consider this a get back on track tune and it's very special to me. I hope you enjoy it! 

Lyrics:
Everybody has their dreams
Not thinking of all the others
Everybody has something
To accomplish for their mothers
Take a seat and think about it
Is your life not important
That you’d just fade away
Into the great unknown 

I often think of dying
And what it may bring
Life is so precious
But too often wasted
The moments tend to fade
Like boxes being stored away

Is it really worth dying for 
I try to remember, think of the good times
So easy to kill their dreams
Fragile memories, think of the children
Your time may have come and passed
But you can make moments last
Is it really worth going out that way

Remember the Good Times

Not much to say, just creating what I feel in the moment. Have some kind of cold, and the weather has been super wet, from the hurricane. So I just went with the vibe I was feeling. Hope you enjoy.

Lyrics:
I feel lonely sometimes
Even though from the outside looking in
I have everything a man could want
I have a wife and kids who love me so
Friends who always have my back
Can’t help but think it’s something that I lack
Steadily trying to get back on track
But as I sit here I wonder what that means

Cuz, I wish I could just be positive
But sometimes I don’t know how to live
I wish I could tell you it’ll be okay
But I have nothing left to say
So I guess right here is where I’ll lay
And hope for once something comes easy

But nothings easy
How nice would that be
If it just came easy
But nothings easy
Yeah nothings easy
no

Nothings Easy

Another band I truly love, Death Cab for Cutie, I plan to do a few of their songs, but this one has always been my favorite of theirs. I've listened to this song 100s of times over the years, and to me it never gets old. Hope you enjoy the cover!

If you're interested in the guitar I used for this it's the Takamine EF341SC Pro Series. Such an amazing guitar, I did a bunch of research on the type of sound I wanted, and I chose this. I tried out some Taylors and other various guitars, but they weren't giving me the sound I wanted. They didn't have any of this guitar in stock and had to order it, I did it through Guitar Center cuz some guy there was like I'll give you 10% off which is like 200$ cheaper than anywhere else I looked, so I just went with it. It got delayed in shipping a couple of times and it took awhile to get, but I've had it almost a year now, and it has really grown on me.

Lack Of Color (Cover)

I call these two chord wonders! Write some simple lyrics, take two chords, and sing your heart out! A and D chords, no capo, standard tuning. Doesn't get any simpler! Enjoy!

Lyrics:

Been working overtime
Not getting paid
Because it’s all 
Inside my brain

Been staying up late
Not getting sleep
Because it’s all
So damn steep

Like a cliff I’m hanging on the edge
Like a drift I’m headed up ahead
One wrong move I might end up dead
Still haunted by the things you said
I’m sure you didn’t mean
But it ran me out of steam
Tried to take it back that’s the thing
Once its out it’s out eating me
It’s Just destroying me.

Like a train, I’m out of steam
Like a car, with no gasoline
Like a plane, I’m going down
Like a casket, headed for the ground

Been flying on high
Just getting by
Because it’s all
Catching my eye

Been rolling through
Just thinking of you
Because it’s all
I know how to do

Like a cliff I’m hanging on the edge
Like a drift I’m headed up ahead
One wrong move I might end up dead
Still haunted by the things you said
I’m sure you didn’t mean
But it ran me out of steam
Tried to take it back that’s the thing
Once its out it’s out eating me
It’s Just destroying me.

Like a train, I’m out of steam
Like a car, with no gasoline
Like a plane, I’m going down
Like a casket, headed for the ground

Steam

Okay, so I know this is a long one... but hear me out. This is mine and my wife's story in a song, heavily inspired at least. When we were very young, when I first saw her I had this strange feeling, like she was the one. Stupid hormones right? You'd really think so, but it was different. I crushed on plenty of girls. Anyway, I pursued her like any normal horny teenager would, and she basically pretended I didn't even exist at first. Typical right? Anyway, that didn't stop me, nope I was stubborn as a mule, still am. So I kept on. Eventually she noticed me, I have no idea how I accomplished it, I was basically an idiot with girls. It's probably why I feel consistency is key, although now days you'd probably end up in jail for harassment... I wasn't disgusting if that's what you're thinking, just a little overly persistent... yeah that's what we'll go with.

Anyway, we go out, and we were young, but the chemistry was definitely there... but her mom, oh my god her mom. I just couldn't do it. She literally watched me like a hawk, and I definitely had some oppositional defiant shit going on as a teenager. So, I told her I needed a break for a bit. We would still meet up from time to time and always end up making out etc... and I was good with just not having a girlfriend and just living life, and occasionally meeting up... but I guess she wasn't. I took too long and she ended up with a boyfriend. I was furious, man jealousy sure is a mother fucker.

So, I did some things I'm not proud of. She was of course, in my strange mind, meant to be with me. Eventually I let it go, but as how all young love stories go, we would see each other in the halls, and I ended up being a teacher's aid in one of her classes. So, I started straight up telling her my inner thoughts. Like that I missed her, and she was beautiful. She would always say the classic line "I have a boyfriend" but I'd say "then why is your face so red." Overtime we started talking again. She still had her boyfriend, and I respected her boundaries that she put up, mostly. I'd push it from time to time, and she'd get mad and storm off.

One day though was really different than all the others. She seemed so sad, and I could tell. So, I was there for her. We hung out, and she came over to my house after school... don't get ahead of yourself now we didn't do anything, she still had a boyfriend. We just watched a couple funny movies, laughed and talked. She said she felt better, and thanked me for cheering her up. Then she told me she was moving to California, we lived in Arizona at the time. I was fucking devastated. I was waiting for her, for months. I didn't want anyone else. No one else gave me the same feelings... not even close. Long story short she left for California, and that was that. I would call many times from my cell phone and she'd never pick up. So I just moved on some I guess, at least for a few months.

One day, I got the brilliant Idea to call from a blocked number. Low and behold she picks up. I say hello, she says hey. I ask "why have you been ignoring my calls?" I don't remember exactly what she said but it had something to do with she felt bad for having feelings for me when she was with her boyfriend still. Silence... then she said "but that doesn't matter anymore, he cheated on me, we're done." I could tell she was super upset about it, so I hid my true feelings. I was overjoyed, those words were like butter and jam on my dry toast. I just said "I'm here for you, whatever you need." And we talked, and talked and talked, so long we just talked everyday. We talked about everything, we fell asleep on the phone together. I sang her songs, told her jokes. We fell in love all over again, 10 fold... and eventually, we were back together... and haven't been apart since. Sure it was like 2 years of long distance, and moving her back down to Arizona when she graduated high school. It's a true love story...YW

At Least I'd Know

Lyrics:
His name was Frank
Easily amused  
He was Frank
pleasantly confused
Drank a 5th a day
And fried his brain

Wet brain, encephalopathy
Tried to quit almost everyday
But the shakes, the shakes they were so bad
So, he always reached for another glass

One day, he was walking by
With a paper bag and a bottle inside
He said to me man, I love my booze
But because of that I lost my shoes

Then he walked away barefoot at least
Feet blackened and dirty from the street
But he was drunk he was happy
And he was singing and laughing 

I got me a bottle
Of my fave
It may make me waddle
But that’s okay
I got booze on my lips
stained fingertips
for some reason
I can’t get a grip
So I keep drinking
Just another sip
I’ve been trying
To get on top of it
But who cares 
no one cares

So, he walked on down
To the liquor store
To no ones surprise
He bought some more

Liver damage, jaundiced skin
He even tried showering
But the yellow stains went no where
So, he drank away his despair

One day, he walked with quite a waddle
No paper bag Just a big bottle
Saying nothing to me just enjoying his booze
Down the middle of the road wearing no shoes

Just a walking down the road
Till a truck came around
The corner too fast
And nailed him flat
And that was that
It was a nasty site
 now I ain’t right
And So I sing

I got me a bottle
Of my fave
It may make me waddle
But that’s okay
I got booze on my lips
stained fingertips
for some reason
I can’t get a grip
So, I keep drinking
Just another sip
I’ve been trying
To get on top of it
But no one cares 
Yeah no one cares

His name was Frank
Easily amused  
He was Frank
pleasantly confused

Oh Frank
Why did I become Frank
I’m Frank
Frank
Oh Frank
I’m Frank
I’m Frank

Frank

Messed around with an old track. Mostly just for practice. Still, I hope you enjoy. Check out the original, if you care too. It's very basic, just my guitar, voice and a cheap microphone. The Remix I added some drums and used my audio interface and a much better mic. Anyway, thank you all for stopping by! You keep me rocking!

Lyrics:
I pour my heart and soul
Into every ounce of you
Once again I lost control
What would you do
If you were me

I can’t give you everything
Cuz I don’t have anything
Gave it all for nothing
Come and save me please
You don’t hear my screams

I lock myself inside
Cuz I can’t face the truth
Once again I run and hide
You see right through
I’m out of time

I can’t give you everything
Because I don’t have anything
Gave it all for nothing
Come and save me please
You don’t hear my screams

Dancing in circles
As my heart bleeds
Chancing on miracles
Just hear my screams
You don’t hear my screams

I can’t give you everything
Cuz I don’t have anything
Gave it all for nothing
Come and save me please
You don’t hear my screams

Hear Me Scream (Remix)

Edit: Sounded bad when I listened on my phone, so I redid the vocals to mimic the adlibbed version. Still not 100% where I want it, but better.

Was messing around with the guitar some, came up with a few chords I really liked how they sounded together. Recorded the guitar and decided to try adlibbing some vocals. This was the result. Let me know what you think!

Sitting by the daisies
Picking the ones for you
Would you be my lady
If I gave these to you
My heart burns
My eyes bleed
Did I say that wrong
I don’t care
Daisies
Would you 
Be my lady
My heart burns
My eyes bleed
For you

My Eyes Bleed

I wanted to include a little talk at the beginning, I know many people probably don't read all the descriptions. Myself included. I've been thinking of a way to reach people more and I figured it's worth a shot to start talking about the song I'm performing. This is a live take with no editing what so ever. Just cranked up a little reverb and then recorded. I did the song a few times before it sounded how I wanted it to. Personally, I got a lot of pleasure out of making this song. I hope the meaning and feelings reach those who need it most. Love and appreciation to all of you who take time out of your day to listen to me. I truly means the world. To those who don't like to leave comments I would like to just say hello to you. Maybe one day when you're brave enough, we can talk about our passions, and encourage each other to keep going in whatever adventure you're in.

Lyrics:
This is just a glimpse, what I’m going through
Paper thin recognition, won’t get me through
Love so deep ignoring consequence
Alone using the same sequences
should just cut it off it seems so useless
Can’t get a bite mentally toothless
Giving and giving want so badly to take
Like a withered old battered down rake
Unable to gather what’s left for my sake
Stuck in a pattern and I’m ready to BREAK

I Need an infusion
Be my surgeon
Use the extraction
Ignore my reaction
Implant it quickly
Forced serenity

Cuz I can’t stop the bleeding
Need someone to retrieve me
Hold me down and snap me
From these delusions to reality
Should I scream for you to understand
Or should I just endure, be a man

Can’t seem to decide for myself
Just pull me off the highest shelf
Don’t let me fall, that would crush me
Gently hold my soul, emotions are erupting

Forced Serenity

This song is about my son. I think with this song, I plan to add a second part about my daughter as well, and then improve the song a little, but this will be the style mostly. I just wanted to write what I would say to any of my children. In fact I'd go as far to say I'd say this to any child. Just be you because the real you is incredible. If you are yourself, you will end up with people who love you. You don't need everyone to love you, just a few will do. Anyway, I hope you're all out there being your most incredible selves! Love to you all!

Lyrics:
You wear those eyes just like your mother
A simple look and your spell I’m under
People quote being wrapped around a finger
Yours so tiny, yet in my mind they linger
The thought of the world changing you so fast
Has me shaken so bad I can’t stay on task

Cuz my baby boy, is no longer a baby
Soon he’ll be out chasing the ladies
Can’t help but hope they don’t destroy him
Because I know the fragile sides of him
Like the time he cried over spilled chocolate milk
How his hair feels soft like a sheet of silk

But I have to let him grow
But at least I’ll let him know
Be you and only you
So, you end up
Where you’re supposed to
Be you and only you
Because you’re more than good enough 
Because you’re just so incredibly you

Incredibly You

Tiz but a demo. Currently, the ideas are flowing so I'm just getting the base ideas out there. It's still a complete song in a sense, but as with everything in life there is always room for improvement. As with most of my songs, it's just vocal and guitar with some added effects. I feel like I often get lost in the online world, and I forget to focus on the importance of real life. I'm pretty sure many people have this same exact issue. So I wanted to make a cool song about it. Strangely enough, it was mostly inspired by some AI songs I have heard, and just the simple lack of emotion, and how terrible it sounded to me. The thought, of a slow change where people no longer can tell the difference anymore and we're all just robots, essentially, just crossed my mind. Anyway, cool idea, pretty cool song, can improve, but I'll work on that... someday, haha. Later everyone!

Lyrics:
Do you not realize, 
you’re turning into a robot
Using all these technologies 
and AI things
Generated automated responses
Programing your brains
To do strange things
Human minds
Are not meant to do

Do you not realize, 
losing your sense of self
Becoming only a small piece 
Of this online world
Programming your mind
To never unwind
Only searching
For some kind of meaning

When there is meaning right in front of you
Hoping and begging for you to unglue
Your eyes and your ears 
Through all of these years
It’s been waiting
Just for you
To come and find a true sense
Of identity

Do you not realize, that boy staring at you 
With those eyes, so full of wonder
Generating feelings of love
All for nothing
Because your wrapped up 
In your phone
But you’re all alone

Do you not realize, you’re missing the best parts
Becoming only a small part
Of this never-ending world
Programming your mind
Never see the light
Only scrolling
For some kind of meaning

When there is meaning right in front of you
Hoping and begging for you to unglue
Your eyes and your ears 
Through all of these years
It’s been waiting
Just for you

Identity (Demo)

My friend Steve took a song I wrote and made it completely badass. To say I'm blown away is an understatement! He used words from my song Identity, and created this masterpiece. Listen with headphones and crank it up! You won't be disappointed! 

Also available for download. 

If you're not following my buddy Steve Vercelloni, you should be, he's really something special. Thank you Steve for this incredible piece. Track art to come later, I just wanted to get this out to the world.

Haymaker 2024 (Featuring Music By Steve Vercelloni)

Lyrics: 
never meant for you to always have your way
I just wanted us to somehow find our way
But in the journey, I slowly started to fade
The man you thought you wanted I became

and now, that I’ve awakened
There’s this heart-breaking 
Divide between our reality 
And what we feel inside 

IM NOT THE MAN OF YOUR DREAMS
YOU MAY NEVER REALLY LOVE ME 
ALWAYS WANTING PRINCE CHARMING
AND TO ME THAT’S SO ALARMING
BECAUSE HE DOES NOT EXIST
HE DOES NOT EXIST

I never meant for us to crumble away
I just wanted us to live for today
But in the journey, we started to fade
Loving arms turned into hateful blades

and now, that I’ve awakened
There’s this heart-breaking 
Divide between our reality 
And what we feel inside 

IM NOT THE MAN OF YOUR DREAMS
YOU MAY NEVER REALLY LOVE ME 
ALWAYS WANTING PRINCE CHARMING
AND TO ME THAT’S SO ALARMING
BECAUSE HE DOES NOT EXIST
HE DOES NOT EXIST

Prince Charming Does Not Exist

Really wanted to have a strong emotional guitar, so I a found a couple chords I liked and did some finger picking trying to emphasize the base note. I listened over and over once I had got the sound out of the guitar I wanted and tried to fit lyrics in that would give it a unique and relaxing sound. Hope you enjoy!

Lyrics:

Open your eyes
See the darker sides
Of me

Don’t be afraid
I won’t bite
Today

But if you need
Something from me
I would give it to you

Because
You’re just
So Beautiful

My brain Can’t
Comprehend this
I don’t know if
I can’t stand this

Pain
So much pain


Pain
So much pain
I can’t refrain
Close your eyes
See the brighter sides
Of us

I know I can
Cause fear
But please 
I need you near

But if you need
To run from me
I would understand

Because 
You’re Just
So Fragile

My Mind Can’t
Contain this
I just know that 
We should end this

Pain
So much pain
Pain
So much pain
I can’t refrain

So Much Pain

Haven't been making music lately needed something light to get me back into the swing of things. Hope you all are doing alright, been rough around her lately.

Goner

I work as a nurse in the state of Florida and I love being there for people in need. My other true passion is making music. I'm kind of an amateur but I look forward to getting better and making the best music I can.

Most the songs I do in about a day and then move on. I don't have the skill to make them radio quality yet, but I hope with collaborating with others and making my own music I will learn some skills along the way. I don't focus on perfection, I focus on emotion and try to put feeling into my music.

Also, I love to get lost in other peoples work, I will often play video games while listening to a bunch of someone else's works and commenting on the ones I like the most, not all though, don't wanna seem like a stalker, unless you like that of course.

Been feeling a little burnt out lately, so if I'm not responsive please don't take it personal. Having to work OT to keep the family afloat, so I haven't had time for music and when I do have any time I'm just too exhausted. I definitely want to make more it brings me a lot of joy to make music. At the same time it is very taxing, reaching into the depths can sometimes cause unwanted feelings to linger longer than they should. Anyway, I love all the support you have all sent my way. See ya around!

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