songs from (most) bugmush members on soundcloud

the buglist

song with @sebseb122 and produced by @lilac !!!
don't care! by vai5000 ft. SEBii
© ANGEL RADIO 2023
prod. by lilac


Spotify! : https://open.spotify.com/track/6Hb1K44CCGvTboZvYgHhw9

SPOTIFY

don't care! ft. SEBii「lilac」

dropping this one early on soundcloud for my birthday! (31/12) hope y'all enjoy and please presave on the link below to know when it officially drops on 10/1 <3

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emotional distance

STREAM

written and produced by me and @starsbeforesunrise
mastered by cherry

cherry:
empty
like the pit of my stomach
it left me
feeling cold and unwanted 
like the rainfall
i fall down down down
like a trust fall
will i hit the ground

dani:
if i wasnt dead you could have my heart
all i ever do is play a part
i dont wanna feel anymore
its tearing me apart, its tearing me apart
im gonna break before i bend
the best i can do is play pretend
im all alone once again
im back to the start, im back to the start

playpretend w/ starsbeforesunrise

made for all nighter v8 ! 

featuring https://www.soundcloud.com/doteclipsis

stuckinside! - flexii. [with eclipsis]

gasping for air | Track 1/6
produced by @irselr w additional prod by me
written, performed, mixed & mastered by Micah Callari

[Verse 1]
Hush, I don’t care anymore
You wrung me out like a towel and I don’t care for it
No more of all your lies to keep me trapped
In your fucking spider web until all the strings have snapped

[Chorus]
Sick of your complacency and 7 dollar beverages
7 times you said it wouldn’t matter if I said it twice
You’d still never fucking listen no matter how strong my leverage
You’d never cherish what we have until it bites the dust

[Verse 2]
You would rather forget it ever happened
But I’ll never abandon all the thoughts I had (in the moment)
My first impressions changed, now we don’t see eye to eye
Now we’re just seeing ghosts (and you’re just ghosting me)

[Bridge]
Leave me for dead, I wouldn’t mind to
Never see you again, I’m fine to simply
Die alone in my bed, and let the scavengers
Avenge me post my death

[Chorus]
Sick of your complacency and 7 dollar beverages
7 times you said it wouldn’t matter if I said it twice
You’d still never fucking listen no matter how strong my leverage
You’d never cherish what we have until it bites the dust
Sick of your complacency and 7 dollar beverages
7 times you said it wouldn’t matter if I said it twice
You’d still never fucking listen no matter how strong my leverage
You’d never cherish what we have until it bites the dust
Sick of your complacency and 7 dollar beverages
7 times you said it wouldn’t matter if I said it twice
You’d still never fucking listen no matter how strong my leverage
You’d never cherish what we have until it bites the dust

[Outro]
7 dollar beverages
7 times you said it wouldn’t matter if I said it twice
You’d still never fucking listen no matter how strong my leverage
You’d never cherish what we have until it bites the dust

7 dollar beverages {prod. irselr}

remastered, originally made for sleepy tapes vol. 5a @sleepyzone
https://soundcloud.com/sleepyzone/fae-jr-garden-of-disdain

written, produced, and performed by me with help from @777nathan
mixing and mastering by me with help from @ryptage
cover art by @lanable

lyrics:
she's a catalyst 
never wanted me to succeed
can you really believe
all the shit i receive
how could i be so naive

"can you say we're fine
or i'll leave"
stuck in places
of finding no peace
you're always
tearing me apart
with your web of lies

im done with always
being here to catch you
i'll break these chains
and find my own way
no more living in your shadow
cuz now i'll never

i'll never let
you see me fall
no matter how much
you fuck with me
you sit around in your
garden of disdain
hope i never get
to see you again

i dont think that
i deserve this treatment
i think i need
someone new to guide me (that's why i)

im done with always
being here to catch you
i'll break these chains
and find my own way
no more living in your shadow
cuz now i'll never

i'll never let
you see me fall
no matter how much
you fuck with me
you sit around in your
garden of disdain
hope i never get
to see you again

garden of disdain

we ball anyways ft. micah callari

(why does love keep letting me down?)

performed, written and produced by me
mixing and mastering by me with help from @ryptage
additional vocals from @blissom and @starsbeforesunrise
screams from @blimeyarts
violin from @taivasa
cover art by @clawsomebeats on twitter

lyrics
there's a feeling in my chest and it won't go away
i see skies and they're all shades of gray
more than anything i want, i just want this to last
i know you don't feel that way
and i'm sorry that i'm not what you want
but i gave it my all and i was never enough
and i miss you to death but that don't mean anything
"if you wanna go then i'll be okay"
but now its all gonna break.

is it too late to say that i'm not okay?
cause i've run out of words and my hands wont stop shaking
with my heart in my throat all that i wanna know
is what i do to push everyone away.

let me waste away
i can't even stand to look you in the face.
left in the dust underground
and i don't know how i'm gonna get out

shouldn't get too attached, but i can't help it
i see stars and it hurts to admit
that just like every single one, you're a part of the past
i know you don't feel it
i'll be waiting for someone to hold
like a blanket keeping me from cold
i've been spilling my guts on the pavement
and all that i'm left to do is crawl into my shell
and now it's all gonna break

is it too late to say that i'm not okay?
cause i've run out of words and my hands wont stop shaking
with my heart in my throat all that i wanna know
is what i do to push everyone away

is it too late to ask for a reason why?
cause i'm just sick and tired of saying my goodbyes
and when i fall down i just get kicked to the curb
don't understand why i ever even tried.

let me waste away
don't remember the last time that i've seen your face.
left in the dust underground
and i don't care if i ever get out

i've been lost in the dark
you're all i have
you're all i've got
and there's no way
nothing i can do to get you to stay by my side
why do i always waste my time waiting for another mistake?
if i just caught in the waves?

is it too late to say that i'm not okay
cause i've run out of words and my hands wont stop shaking
with my heart in my throat all that i wanna know
is what i do to push everyone away

is it too late to ask for a reason why?
cause i'm just sick and tired of saying my goodbyes
and when i fall down oh i'll just lay in the dirt
don't understand.

i won't waste away
i'll just yell at the clouds until i'm blue in the face
left in the dust but i'm breathing
it's the least i can do just to deal with you leaving.
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if you're reading this, this song isn't about you. you know who you are.

dust.

wonderful! ft. vai5000

Displaced EP

Stream

i only lived for the stars

Single 2 of 4
featuring vocals & writing by @mintymints7
written, produced, performed & mixed by Micah Callari
mastered by @ryptage
cover art by clawsomebeats

LYRICS:
(There’s a feeling in my gut)

Big whoop, you’re a terrible person
Tell me a secret that I already knew
And I’ll act all surprised
As if I never had guessed something was terribly wrong with you
I think I feel energies, I still can’t explain them
No one's ever listened to me, I don’t think I blame them
That’s just been my thing for as long as I remember
Cuz I know a pretender and will not entertain them

There’s a feeling in my gut that you give me
And it makes me feel sick
Both my heart and my brain know you’re shitty
It’s a curse and gift

Emperor with some brand new Zumiez
All my friends think you're hot shit
But you're just a trash fire on your way to conspire
A rotten plan cuz there's an ass you want to hit
I can't believe that I put up with you (Put up with you)
I don't want to take a puff, if that's alright with you (Alright with you)
Why did I never trust myself about you
Thanks for the memories, but we're through

There’s a feeling in my gut that you give me
And it makes me feel sick
Both my heart and my brain know you’re shitty
It’s a curse and gift

Nobody cares and I guess it’s okay
Nobody listens ‘til it’s too damn late
Nobody gets how the past has shaped me
Into the cautious pessimist I am today
Keep a secret for a friend’s sake
Hold it in too long, and I think I might go (Insane)
I need to warn my friends that my gut was right
And they might very well find the new kid’s a fucking fake

There’s a feeling in my gut that you give me
And it makes me feel sick (I feel sick)
Both my heart and my brain know you’re shitty
It’s a curse and gift (Piece of shit)

There’s a feeling in my gut that you give me
And it makes me feel sick
Both my heart and my brain know you’re shitty
It’s a curse and gift
There’s a feeling in my gut that you give me
And it makes me feel sick
Both my heart and my brain know you’re shitty
It’s a curse and gift

Gut Feeling [ft. mintymints]

lucysong

art by @vai5000

i want to know everything about you
i hope you know how much you mean to me too
i wish i could hold you
but you'll never know
from this far away I'm blinded by your light
we could sit around for hours and talk through the night
if only i could love you
but you'll never feel the same

so i must accept
that your hands will never be mine to hold
so i hope i find someone just like you

i can feel my heart beating like I've never known
wish i could tear it out so i can be happy alone
but it's not that easy
it's never that easy
i love every second i spend with you
but it's not worth it to think about what could have been
it only makes things worse
and it already hurts

so i must accept
that your hands will never be mine to hold
and i know damn well
I'll never have you as my own
but you, oh you, are happy just where you are
so i hope i find someone just like you

oooooooooooohhhh

but one day, I'll move on
and maybe this will all feel silly
it's not like i ever lost you
and one day, I'll be fine
and the heartache won't just kill me
to be your friend is all i could ever ask for

just like you

choke me with a neck tie
cant breath this feeling got me high

dont know why i like it
now i got a punishment for biting
call me a bad little doggy and put me in the pound
just take my puppy head and shove it on the ground

not a kitty im a dog girl
can you make me bark girl
fetching you a ball girl
do you want it all girl

catch me smoking loud now
quirked up squirrel got me going bow-wow
catch me going fast now
on my knees and no its not a bow down

tell me how you like it
do you like to bite it
like bladee u play nicest
see a weed i light it

when i get pat on the head

grab on my neck and start squeezing it hard
not like my gock that shit barely gets hard
10 months on e i got a rack that stacks up
put me on a leash like im a bitch that fags fuck


yuh, and please jus collar me
when u start kissing me 
my body fills with ecstacy
ur lipsticks rubbing off on me
jus wanna feel u holding me
my head is yours jus keep petting me
ive been good can i have a treat

when i get pat on the head

auto-erotic asphyxiation

prod by yandere + shrinemaiden

blood on my hands
I got ghosts on my heels
I got names I can't speak
I got scars I can't heal
cause you know what I am
and you know I don't feel
I got blood on my hands
but I don't think I'll miss you

I can't lie - so stupid
all that you want - you're gonna lose it
these bloodstains - you're useless
I'll cut you off - I'll leave you bleeding

cut my body say it hurts me
I'm not worth it 
what you've done to me
feel my heartbeat beating softly
I won't - I won't
let it get to me
I can't trust it say you want me
you want me - cut my body
I don't want to say it's nothing
it's nothing - just don't talk-

echo- go go
go go go
echo
go go go
echo- go go
go go go
echo
go go go
to me-

won't stop if you say that it's nothing
won't stop 'till my body hurts
won't stop 'till you say that you want me
won't stop 'till you- you- you- you-

blood on my hands
I got ghosts on my heels
I got names I can't speak
I got scars I can't heal
cause you know what I am
and you know I don't feel
I got blood on my hands
but I don't think I'll miss you
think I'll miss you
don't think I'll miss you
think I'll miss you
don't think I'll miss- miss

I can't lie - so stupid
all that you want - you're gonna lose it
these bloodstains - you're useless
I'll cut you off - I'll leave you bleeding
I can't I- I- I can't lie
I- I- lose it
you're- you're stupid
I can't I- I- I can't lie
I- I- lose it
you're- you're stupid 

cut it all up
talking tough talk enough
cause you're all that I want
and I will get hold of you
sins stalking me
I got ghosts on my feed
all the things that you've seen
say you won't come back to it

cut my body say it hurts me
I'm not worth it 
what you've done to me
feel my heartbeat beating softly
I won't - I won't
let it get to me
I can't trust it say you want me
you want me - cut my body
I don't want to say it's nothing
it's nothing - just don't talk-

won't stop if you say that it's nothing
won't stop 'till my body hurts
won't stop 'till you say that you want me
won't stop 'till you- you- you- you-

echo- go go
go go go
echo
go go go
e-

bloodstains「yandere + shrinemaiden」

remix of replicant, by @i-am-aika !!!
featuring @i9bonsai, with the original songs production by lilac <3
artwork by me :)
celebrating replicants 2nd anniversary + my 20th birthday!

vinyl

replicant ft. i9bonsai「AIKA remix」

self prod
vocals by me, @blissom, @d4niboi, @mintymints7, @jessicamaywhat, @quququinny, & @micahcallari

this shit took 2.5 years to finish LMAO

lyrics:

blissom:
[?]
boys can get lost, cause you know it's a girls night!

gupsemicolon:
y'all thought you had us till we pulled up with some nerf guns
you nothing but distraction while i go to make a drinks run
back the hell up, this lego uzi weigh a ton
i'm just toying with you bro, but you ain't no fun!

if you talk shit you get socked like its icarly
if this 808 breaks your speakers, i am not sorry
if i want it, imma have it my way like its burger king
walk into the function, make they jaws drop, #justgirlythings

of course it's cap rap, i don't leave my house
unless I'm breaking into yours (and i'm quiet as a mouse!)
hit a lick on your savings to do some robux buying
to any federal agents listening, i am literally lying

shoutout maia, went and took 2 jets, fuck the no-fly
went across the country got back and had some five guys
looking like some catboys, so i beat they ass nine times
get your ass on, your time is up, its me and my friends in the spotlight

daniboi:
hop in the back of my cart going fast
gonna ride around the block like we'll never run out of gas
these people piss me off, put a hole in one, take out the trash
pull up to your landlord's house and drive it right through the glass
pull up to the target/cvs like "where's the addy?"
just got my adhd diagnosis, i need the addy
kidnapping your isp and then i'm making them my caddy
told me not to scare the hoes, so i put on geogaddi

mentholgrrl:
i pull up to mcdonald's, order twenty apple pies
i pulled up to the place, i killed all the guys
i play minecraft, but you know i never die
i play yahtzee, you know i roll the die
i just got my boating license, you know i dockwise
i don't fuck with pepsi bro, give me that peptise
catch you drunk driving, you know i breathalize 
only monarchs I ever cared about, are butterflies

when the queen died, she was queen-size
when i spin, it's counter-clockwise
real eyes realize real lies
named myself after a rock, i crystalize

glasses with a wacky nose, i got that disguise
laughing at the crypto bros, why you etherize 
i'm a hero, you're a zero, you cannot divide
fuck you, i'm not rhyming the last line

jessica may:
i'm gonna blow you up like a damn balloon
i don't wanna see you soon, you're such a fucking fool
float the fuck away, you can't fucking stay
you're only drinks girly on a motherfucking sunday
you a bitch, yeah a little one, just a bit,
hit the pack, smoke some geen
got messed up, who would've foreseen
it's only sunday but it's coming up on girls night
anyone got a bud light?
i wanna drinks with the girlies
getting drunk with the girlies
getting silly with the girlies
(go fuck yourself, gupsemicolon!)

quququinny:
big '25, hopping on like it's '23
got doggirls from every breed, they all tryna message me
so i take them to my penthouse where i freak it
(where i freak it, what?)
throwing them a bone, and i put em all on leashes (huh?)
always saying real eyes realize real lies
quinny eats a burger, and no its not from five guys
yuh, its epic
draining harder than septic (ew)
draining harder than bladee
i'm making out with ladies *whistle adlib*

Micah Callari:
sticks and stones may break my bones
but words will never hurt me
'less it's from my bestie, texting from their phone that
"this just isn't working"
all i got are sticks and rocks, no bliss to tame me
girls just wanna have fun on the daily
boys just wanna have [SEX!] and hate me
spill my tea from the cup you gave me

GIRLS NIGHT!

watch the music video https://youtu.be/IAgYWTc8PYQ?si=_MyjqZdDaK3MrYja
featuring additional writing & vocals by @quququinny
written, produced, performed, mixed & mastered by Micah Callari

Bitch, I am a demigod
Nobody has done it quite like me, I am the building block
Seen it, done it, world’s most wanted, God’s most loved demigod
You could never get me off, only I can turn me on
Bow in my presence, I’m to be worshiped, I’m a demigod

I fell from high up above you
My life upended because you
Saw something in me no one wants to
So why do I love you

Raised in the heavens
I’ve come down, I’m descending
Got no need for descendants
I’m immortal and unending
I don’t need you (At all)
Couldn’t be you (When you fall)
I can see you (As you stall)
Trying to take what I don’t give you

I’m just like the second coming of Jesus the Christ, uh
Beg for forgiveness, you won’t get it, I don’t play nice, huh
Show me what you’re made of, I can show you what they made me for
Don’t take me for granted, what

Bitch, I am a demigod
Nobody has done it quite like me, I am the building block
Seen it, done it, world’s most wanted, God’s most loved demigod
You could never get me off, only I can turn me on
Bow in my presence, I’m to be worshiped, I’m a demigod

Bending you, breaking you
Seeing what it takes to make you crack
A double dose of progesterone
Got me asking girls if they like me back
I already know you like me back
Drop hints so fast, I can’t keep track
I think you know I like you back
Why am I scared to tell you that
 
Trapped in my mind, I can’t stop overthinking
Not making a move, I don’t know why I’m waiting
Can only avoid these talks for so long
I just don’t know if I’m reading this all fucking wrong
I try, but I can’t find a way to articulate
Why this is so fucking hard to communicate
I sit by myself while I attempt to ruminate
On why is is so fucking hard to evaluate

(I’m just like the second coming of Jesus the Christ, uh)
(Beg for forgiveness, you won’t get it, I don’t play nice, huh)
One, two (Show me what you’re made of, I can show you what they made me for)
One, two, one two three four (Don’t take me for granted, what)

Bitch, I am a demigod
Nobody has done it quite like me, I am the building block
Seen it, done it, world’s most wanted, God’s most loved demigod
You could never get me off, only I can turn me on
Bow in my presence, I’m to be worshiped, I’m a demigod

demigod [ft. quququinny]

type shit

lyrics video: https://youtu.be/qh4Kez9XU1M

prod: @core_tenant (additional prod by @nylaisntreal)

vocals (in verse order): 
@sioda_ie
@nyancrimew
@jessicamaywhat
@nylaisntreal
@annieversary
@core_tenant

yall dont shop at migrolino like we do

first bugmush song yippee !!!!!!!!
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writing: @gupsemicolon, @micahcallari, @quququinny, @erismirror, @jessicamaywhat, @mentholgrrl, @fuckitimjem
production: @gupsemicolon, @micahcallari, @quququinny, @rhinozz
mastering: @micahcallari, @rhinozz
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[intro: gupsemicolon, Micah Callari]
bitch, i'm 'boutta crash out, i love to text and drive
this interstate too boring, need to watch some family guy
pedestrians are bonus points, i hit them with my car
flash your brights, i'll brake check you, i love insurance fraud (gup yourself, micah callari)

[chorus: gupsemicolon, Micah Callari]
bitch, i'm 'boutta crash out, i love to text and drive
this interstate too boring, need to watch some family guy
pedestrians are bonus points, i hit them with my car
flash your brights, i'll brake check you, i love insurance fraud

[verse 1: quququinny]
okay, garmin, crash out, i am drivin' fast now
90 on the freeway, road rage makes me lash out
run a red light and i'll brace for the impact
doggirl needs to t-bone, she's tryna have some car sex
i sext while i'm racin' down the highway
unless you drive fast, you best get outta my lane
drunk as fuck and speedin' down the backroads
swervin' left and right as i take my date back home

[verse 2: eris mirror]
it's a bugmush life, in the street it's on sight
i hate payin' taxes so i don't, yeah
i am not the biggest fan of the government
peter griffin on my phone, ah, to help me stomach it
you better come correct when you step into that hive
pull up with the hammers, no one's gettin' out alive
industry thinks that i'm a cash cow
but if you fool me twice, then i might just crash out
(twice, then i might just crash out) f-f-fool me twice, then i might just crash out
i can't sign to a label, my swag too different
my bag too heavy, they'd kill me! (f-f-fool me twice, then i might just crash out)

[verse 3: jessica may]
crash out, crash out, hit the wall, all smashed out
drivin' off all fast now, think i've blown my back out
back out, back out, goin' very fast now
beatin' like a heart but i'm not in my car now
stack out, stack out, insurance pourin' racks out
metaphor for tits but i ain't getting those out
pass out, pass out, everythin' is black now
drove so fast i passed out, think i had a crashout

[chorus: gupsemicolon, Micah Callari]
bitch, i'm 'boutta crash out, i love to text and drive
this interstate too boring, need to watch some family guy
pedestrians are bonus points, i hit them with my car
flash your brights, i'll brake check you, i love insurance fraud

[verse 4: mentholgrrl, Micah Callari]
family had a garmin when i was like five
got my learner's license but i don't know how to drive
plus that shit's long expired
let me be your designated driver
parking lot, parking lot, sledgehammer in the parking lot
i pull up on a cybertruck, i make that chassis crumple up
trunk cut a couple fingers off a lucky license holder
call me miss 808, 'cause yeah, i'm crashing out

[verse 5: Micah Callari]
out, out, out, out, out, get me out of this
house, house, house right now, i'm spiraling
down, down, down to the floor, goin' in, fallin' out like a wedding vow
i'm on the brink of somethin' that you've never seen before
a girl who saw her life get turned to shreds and then ignored
she sought for the pieces she saw others tear apart
"eureka!" she said, then they found her dead in her heart
(heart, heart, heart, heart, heart, heart, heart, heart)

[verse 6: Jem]
cra— cra— crash out, ass stains on the dashboard
if you know me well, you'll never be bored
crash now, brain matter on a silver ford
i don't think i am anymore
this road head had the price of life
i go 95 and i learn to fly
crash out, car wreck with no survivors
'cause that fucking doggirl didn't turn on her blinkers

[outro: jellyroots]
no, no, be the bigger person, be the bigger person
i'm not gonna do that
i'm gonna hit you with my car, beep-beep!