so glad i finally got to listen to more of your music, thank you <3

this is simultaneously the most comforting and saddest piece of music of all time.

Magical. Thank you so much for this beautiful piece of art 

no words describe the amount of love I have for this masterpiece, beautiful collaboration.

Ryan O'Shaughnessy - Fingertips
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Written by Ryan
Project/Remix by Andy
Added Music:  Vocals, Strings, Piano, Synths, Drums & Arrangement by Andy
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Cat and the Moon Productions
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Ryan O'Shaughnessy - Fingertips * aSpace's Overload Remix *

Stems are available @ https://evangeline.info

this song is about wanting normal things like normal people

Performed by
Evangeline, mt saint michael

Written by
E. Butcher

Produced by
Evangeline, mt saint michael, Callum Sheehan

https://evange-line.bandcamp.com/track/tailspin-ft-callum-sheehan-mt-saint-michael

[ SOC ]

--

I got the best seat in the house
and you've been dying to try it on
So when weeks turn into months and the blood dries up
I'm watching TV and you're up and gone

I want a house with a picket fence
so I can yell at the neighbor's kids
So when months turn into years and the scars disappear
I'll box all my thoughts up and shut the lid

And I hope your car tailspins on its way home
I'm chasing the high of skipping your funeral
So when old cuts open up and the tears start to fall
I'll put a band-aid on it but still fall comatose

Tailspin (ft. mt saint michael & Callum Sheehan)

>>>\\\LYRICS BELOW

goodbye, Trophy! (45-53)

the final trophy song

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made in 24 hours for @artbyform 's All Nighter Vol. 7

In this song, clearlew's vocal performance embodies my two-year debate of being transgender. It's Canal Pride in Amsterdam as we're making this, and I'm sitting home writing a song with my best friend about being beautiful in my own way. However, given as to how clearlew sings my story and he doesn't represent the lyrics personally, we decided to write a song that can also be interpreted as a love song, about a girl named >>>"lola" - the name I would have given myself, if I would have decided to become a woman.

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https://soundcloud.com/clearlew
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https://www.instagram.com/clearlew_/
https://twitter.com/clearlew_?lang=en

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Lyrics

I've gotta think twice
Because lola she's so beautiful
And I
I know it's gotta come from inside (yeah)
Girl this is ineffable
Girl I'm so irrational

I've gotta think twice,
Because lola she's so beautiful
And I
I know it's gotta come from inside (yeah)
Girl this is ineffable
Girl I'm so irrational

White heels, white skirt
I know I've never met her
But I can tell you that I know her more than anyone (oh yeah)
I'm such a perfectionist
But I dont know what perfection is
I'll tell you who I am
But girl I don't know who I am

Do you know how to do it like her?
Materialism, I think I'm falling for it all over again

I can't open my eyes
to see your face because I 
Just can't take another lie
(Give it time)

You always hide behind your actions like you know what's right
I'll keep hiding behind my eyes, 'till the time is right
You always hide behind your actions like you know what's right
I'll keep hiding behind my eyes, 'till the time is right

White heels, white skirt
I know I've never met her
but I can tell you that I know her more than anyone (oh yeah)
I'm such a perfectionist
But I dont know what perfection is
I'll tell you who I am
But girl I don't know who I am

Do you know how to do it like her?
Materialism, I think I'm falling for it all over again

I can't open my eyes
To see your face because I
Just can't take another lie
(Give it time)

You always hide behind your actions like you know what's right
I'll keep hiding behind my eyes 'till the time is right

I've gotta think twice
I've gotta think twice
(Yeah!)

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goodbye, Trophy! (45-53)

clearlew + TROPHYTROPHY - lola (51)

source

this song is not finished

observer is comprised of taur and Little Faith and dylazy and Oncill and hidden contact and clovehitch and charlie zacks and aso and mossgarden and evangeline and fyoum and jacob travels and an_isopod and close-knit and friends


produced by evangeline, clovehitch, close-knit, charlie zacks, jacob travels, hidden contact, taur
mixed by close-knit, dylazy, and clovehitch

TRAVELS:
I don't mind your way
 
DYLAZY:
Feel the rush as I fall and I decay
Ego death I'll go and learn to stay
 
FYOUM:
Yeah, what you up to dude
I could have swear I saw you
But you don't want to talk
Nevertheless I'm cool with you
Not hanging around now that you are so far away
Nobody else nowhere to go and I'm way too close
And I don't know why all these people change and these people fake
And these people claim what was

Once mine and I'm not even joking
My free time ain't for free when you smoking
Goodbye don't forget that I don't care
About you cause your smile makes me broken
 
CHARLIE ZACKS:
I looked into your eyes
And I knew that you would wreck my night, wreck my night
I saw ten thousands reasons
To trust my gut to trust my fight or flight, fight or flight

But you told me that you liked my smile
So I fell in love with your last name
Every look you gave me
It meant so much more to me than you think
 
TRAVELS:
When I'm alone the self is a mirror
Water crystal but I need it clearer

When I get home we can figure it out
When I get home we can figure it out
When I get home we can figure it out
When I get home we can figure it out
 
GALA:
I don't mind your way now
You wouldn't fall and stay down
Felt the rush decay out
Spilled my guts and I left them out 
To clear your doubts and I'm shouting
 
GANG VOCALS:
I DON'T MIND YOUR WAY
I DON'T MIND YOUR WAY
I DON'T MIND YOUR WAY
I DON'T MIND YOUR WAY
I DON'T MIND YOUR WAY
I DON'T MIND YOUR WAY
I DON'T MIND YOUR WAY
I DON'T MIND YOUR WAY

TAUR: 
I don't mind your way now, 
trust me now, 
through the rise and fall you are yours not the all I've escapen all control

observer - IDMYW

Objects in mirror are closer than they appear

Godrays 11-03-23

its not hard to be alone
i watch your spine slope
jumping out the window
take care
you know i wont
morphine tastes like sunscreen
i got a mouthful
termites follow ballpoint pens 
hand the plate to the waiter and touch his hand
what doesn’t kill me makes me small
ive been so quiet since i turned 18

carpal tunnel

this song means a lot to me thank you for listening
ill get better at music i promise
꧁ ꧂

i couldn't find myself
and life is around the corner
i could probably melt
and now that i am older

i see all my friends hated me
lived a lie just for my fantasy
oblivious in all these situations
but i think i can fix them
i think i can fix them

clovers on my face
im flying so i can't even feel them
you’re my everything
but flowers only bloom every season
i cant feel my breathin
feels like my life does have some meaning
my heart feels empty
but i cant fight with my reason
fight with my reason
(x2)

is it all my fault
i just cant evolve
all these cracks in my vault and
i dont understand at all how

im breaking so easily
my mind is confused
my soul has died lethally
but that isnt news
my temples abused
the angels are teasing me
and they all accuse
that what im saying isnt true

clovers
clovers
its not over til i say its over
gotta pressure on
cant give it the shoulder
clovers
clovers
i gotta overcome this boulder
im not getting in the eye of the holder
this worlds getting colder
but im still wrapped in my clovers
wrapped in my clovers

i thought they were my friends
but they told me to my own face that they werent
i thought that I could trust her
but she threw it all away in the dirt
feeling all these emotions
the anguish
the pain
the atonement
all of my fear
and my hatred
are bolded
my body its coded
but i cant let it control me

false promises were made about me
and my hands were scarred from the thorns
placed around me from all my fears
i can see through my eyes
but my eyelids still act as a blockade around my sea of tears
is this the first act or the finale
for my new life to have past all these years
as my old reality is crushed
i try to look to the future as my mind begins to clear

clovers

https://www.pcrf.net/

https://bdsmovement.net/

Stagnant on morbid curiosity

To crystallize the feeling

Aglow, we flash to grey

And watch the soul deviate
 
Lately you’ve been staring at the corpse

Like there’s nothing left to see

Transfixed by the writing on the wall

Apathy is the disease

If you leave it alone, then somebody gets hurt

If you topple a tree, well the crash will get heard

The system's kinetic, the signal dispersed

I tried to hold the whole weight of the world

anti apathy song

contains a sample of "angels" by otrapic
https://soundcloud.com/otrapic/angels

also contains a sample of "Polyrhythm" by perfume
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KbiSxunJatM

also contains a sample of "a photo of you and the sun" by flourysh
https://soundcloud.com/flourysh/a-photo-of-you-and-the-sun

also contains a sample of "The 1975" by the 1975
https://youtu.be/KGcV_y6oFgg?si=Z9StsEbRTU9S099N

also contains a sample of "calm down" by eden
https://youtu.be/YVnvA1svGGg?si=Tm4VAfrhePgbdg7H

also contains a sample of "test_2023-07-27_14-48-02_Master" by alexander panos
no link available

also contains a sample of "쇠사슬" by mid-air thief
https://youtu.be/ONYhPrOl5EU?si=wdzfoAZ32BwsgPsj

also contains a sample of "thank you, goodnight" by canopie
link unavailable

also contains a sample of "no-layer_20230126" by alexander panos on e-veryday
https://soundcloud.com/e-veryday/no-layer_20230126?si=a3446365ee9c48f9995b025e23999a59&utm_source=clipboard&utm_medium=text&utm_campaign=social_sharing

also contains a sample of "the mother we share" by CHVRCHES
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_mTRvJ9fugM

also contains a sample of "moonbeam" by passion pit
https://youtu.be/tqwh-T5m6a0?si=bUHaWe21oWe1KfTg

also contains a sample of "sister" by the japanese house
https://youtu.be/Fghk49e0Yis?si=_jkCA14AdsYWp9EN

also contains a sample of an ambient song i cant identify, sorry

also contains a sample of "sad to breathe" by the japanese house
https://youtu.be/62tGl_Z3z2k?si=cjgBAa3VE6ZVD6q2

also contains a sample of the live version of "babies" by bon iver recorded at air studios
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZS31Y3x91Lw

also contains a sample of "gecko" by covey
https://youtu.be/Sf0Voz-hyAw?si=4BMoqWVlcU2j_rdI

also contains a sample of "shoot to kill, kill your darlings" by underscores
https://soundcloud.com/underscores/stk?si=f0cce73e4a4e426d94e52b37a6253d35&utm_source=clipboard&utm_medium=text&utm_campaign=social_sharing

also contains a sample of "tree strings" by jonny greenwood
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_z0Q1gUbiRo

also contains a sample of "just saying" by eden
https://youtu.be/uvziMIxJm2I?si=Ak--XFxVz6jSdnlQ

also contains a sample of "geez louise" by underscores and henhouse!
https://soundcloud.com/underscores/geez?si=468a2da2ea284b9f8543b0a5a44d08ab&utm_source=clipboard&utm_medium=text&utm_campaign=social_sharing

also contains a sample of "iMi" by bon iver
https://youtu.be/htyVjHr2_m8?si=O9iyXEzej4xYCE0F

also contains a sample of "biology" by kogane
https://soundcloud.com/kokogane/biology-1?si=b27786344c434d55b6b542dd312e62a3&utm_source=clipboard&utm_medium=text&utm_campaign=social_sharing

also contains a sample of "peace treaty" by dobi and oyeme
https://soundcloud.com/dobimusic/peacetreaty?si=5f98659ffa6b4c479b483de9ae9ce76f&utm_source=clipboard&utm_medium=text&utm_campaign=social_sharing

also contains a sample of "arisen my senses" by bjork
https://youtu.be/6VrqR_GfvzE?si=NVq9DbNwHmFoZCUW

contains a sample of "the sparkling glistening" posted by false noise on e-veryday
https://soundcloud.com/e-veryday/the-sparkling-glistening_20211206?ref=clipboard&p=a&c=0&si=db783440aa63460692bb75cdc87d63a8&utm_source=clipboard&utm_medium=text&utm_campaign=social_sharing

also contains a sample of "fumizono" by kogane (the original version)
https://soundcloud.com/kokogane/fumizono-1?si=246ec5a92a2542e59b923f35ada9205a&utm_source=clipboard&utm_medium=text&utm_campaign=social_sharing

also contains a sample of "emoji" by the pegboard nerds
https://youtu.be/J9TDJK-1L4E?si=e-LSy96SRQdziK0z

also contains a sample of "gone dream" by former hero
https://soundcloud.com/bitbird/former-hero-gone-dream?in=formerhero/sets/footpaths-2&si=01ba5a376a944fe49c5cb67ed0d17a67&utm_source=clipboard&utm_medium=text&utm_campaign=social_sharing

also contains a sample of "mirror" by porter robinson
https://youtu.be/PkiIPzG37vQ?si=Kwps0JkCUYybW9_o

also contains a sample of "wind tempos" by porter robinson
https://youtu.be/k45XcsIc0Ow?si=sbin0z0C-c-oqzHI

Internet Folklore

@underscores

part of @artbyform's "All Nighter, Volume One", with album proceeds funding the important work of https://www.mermaidsuk.org.uk/ to support trans youth and their families in the uk.



what do i wanna look like when i go outside?
when will i finally wanna go outside?
why does it feel so wrong when i’m outside?
then what do i gotta do to go outside?

must be these walls

save your words
till i figure this out
save your breath
i’m still so lost

must be these walls

who do i wanna be when i go outside?
who am i gonna be when i go outside?

and maybe someday you’ll feel like you can go outside c:
master by @jupelife

walls, with underscores

cammy melle

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