out everywhere.

-lyrics-

it's all i know

it took some time to realize it's my fault
it took some time to realize what you were saying
it took some time to figure out what i want
but now i'm gone from you

yoo-oo-ooh, you took so much from me
oo-oo-ooh, i'm too insecure
yoo-oo-ooh, you're not the one for me
oo-oo-ooh, i can't be yours

nobody want to be different
but everyone want to complain
and nobody willing to change
so everyone staying the same
now every day is the same
damn
days in repeat
barely different in the words that you speak
times have change, but that don't mean anything
been the same since forever
be the same forever

but forever can't exist
so i tell you that i'm temporary
and barely come around
like the 29th of february
and everytime i do
steady quiet, like a mute
words in my mouth
i'm forgetting that i use
my imaginary vox
feel like i been stuck up in a box
break myself
then i break the lock
now i'm feeling like a fox
took a tumble down a hill of rocks
pick myself up and dust off 
just another failure

ain't succeeded since i graduated
only birthdays, i'm congratulated
felt defeated, i could never fake it
another L, but i just gotta face it
thoughts in my head, don't know how to phrase it
words in my mouth, don't know how to say it
live through music, then i start to make it
never post it, scared that people hate it

realizing i'll prolly never drop
living in a cycle, gotta put it to a stop
lemme switch things up
i dropped a couple songs on a ghost account
but what if they pop?
do i want that?
do i really want that?
hm, i think not
want to make music when i feel like it, and
i don't want to let it start to feel like it's a job

i said i was wasting my time, on people that don't know me
did i really ever let them get a chance
i said i was wasting my time, writing lyrics in my journal, 
just to throw em in the fire, watch it dance
i said that it wasn't my fault
when i'm the one that left
when i realized i didn't have the same plan
back then, wasn't more than a kid
now, i still ain't a man
still ain't a man

i said that i don't want to go
but everything you doing
leaves me feeling like i gotta get away
i been going with the flow
but why's it always feel like
we ain't ever really on the same page
i don't really know
if what i'm even saying is the truth
i didn't think of what to say
i got too many thoughts
i can never seem to find words right for me to explain

session 19.

burdenofeli.

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